Increasing Pro-suicide sites on how to commit suicide
This is one of highest searched keywords in the recent times and instead of websites offering information and counselling for people on how to stop these practices there are websites which have dedicated information on how to suicide and in rarest cases recently some people have started to commit suicides having their online web camera on and showing this whole scene online.
These websites not only offer information but offer tips on how to commit suicide and there are hundreds of websites offering this information dedicately. In India around half a million people try to commit suicide and around a lakh are sucessful with the media instead of hiding this information is trying to teach people on how to find this information online.
If the above searches dont help them Dmoz the biggest web directory helps them out providing links for suicide methods and Wikipedia also leads in sharing different methods to die, no wonder how these two websites are useful to the society if they offer this kind of information.
There are many solutions for suicide attempts and you should consider reading some good books on how to overcome those temporary/short-term problems rather than thinking about killer ownself. You should also consider about your family/network who would get all the pain after your passing off, and if go through what they would have to feel, you will instantly change your plan of suicide. Here are some important phone numbers whom you can contact and get some great help to overcome your suicide ideas and problems in life.
United States: 1-800-273-TALK (National Suicide Prevention Hotline)
United States (Spanish): 1-888-628-9454
United Kingdom: 08457 90 90 90 (Samaritans)
Republic of Ireland: 1850 60 90 90 (Samaritans)
Note : We are totally against commiting suicide and if you any of these plans come up in your mind just call up the numbers listed above and get a solution for all your problems.
WTF eeeuuuu s**t… amit remove these images man…
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mike Reply:
May 8th, 2009 at 5:41 am
I’ve read several of these sites. they all talk like people kill themselves over a temp probalem. how long is temprary. 20 yrs? 25? 30? I know that people love. I suffer because i dont want them to hurt, but that part of my problem. i care about other people more than myself. But… if i cared about myself more than them, i wouldnt still be alive. Though, i am starting to think why do i have to suffer for them. I have tried to make things better, but th emore i try the worse it gets. the emptiness gets bigger, the emotional cuts get deeper. i have felt this for as long as i can remember. there have only been 2 period in my life where i was truely happy, but loosing that makes the me realize how big the emptiness is.
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... Reply:
May 16th, 2009 at 11:15 am
@mike, hey. arh this is fucked up bt every thing you said, well its like your in my head. if i didnt know any beta id say i wrote your comment. anyway year im not far off topping myslf but i duno. if ther was a way i could talk to you mayb sumthng myt change, mayb 4 both of us. i dunno i just know i gota talk to sum1
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Nookie Reply:
May 21st, 2009 at 12:44 am
@…, You should both talk to me! I also feel the same way. I think we have the same kind of problem. I have discovered the only two things that would fill my emptiness, but apparently I cannot have either of them, and there is nothing I can do about that. Such is life. Every day is a nightmare.
tim Reply:
June 4th, 2009 at 8:08 am
i almost killed my friend in a car accident tonight but i lucked out…. i totalled the car as well.. FML ya who gives a shit about ur lost love ima bout to hang myself cuz my nose has been bleedin for 4 hours and my arm is fractured with not health insurance! ya i win! hang’em high
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gray Reply:
June 13th, 2009 at 12:39 pm
@mike: I know exactly how you feel. This is not a temporary situation, but one I have endured for years and years, because of not wanting to hurt those I love. So I suffer instead a horrible existence, hoping something will happen to me. My biggest disappointment is to wake up each morning and see the light of day. My illness makes me feel as if all the joy has been sucked out of the world. If I were on death row, I’d look forward to it.
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Joe Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 3:34 am
gray, I couldn’t have said it any better. you described my pain exactly, but I’m not sure I’d call it my illness. I believe it’s my right and my choice, and nobody else’s business if it’s better for me.
Karen Reply:
October 20th, 2009 at 3:54 am
Amen. Wish I’d go to the doctor and be told that I have some incurable and terminal illness. THEN I’d be happy. My life has been utterly miserable for 30 years, and the future isn’t looking very bright, either. I am so damn sick of people telling me, “Oh, why are you depressed? Things will look better tomorrow!” Oh yeah? You wanna change places with me? Can you list a few things that are so fabulous in my life? No? I didn’t think so. I refuse to get on some “happy pills” so that those around me will feel better, while I’m doped up in the same situation I’ve always been in.
RJII Reply:
August 4th, 2009 at 2:14 pm
totally understand. I always said the heck with everyone else’s sorrow if I die. I can’t live in misery for others. If they really cared, they wouldn’t want me to either. However, I getting confused on this point lately.
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Tanya Reply:
August 14th, 2009 at 2:28 am
He Mike, are you there? I have a message for you.
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Tanya Reply:
August 19th, 2009 at 10:22 am
Hi all, I am pretty sure the comments from Mike are from my 16 years old son. He would have turn 17 coming Sunday. He would have, but 3 weeks ago he killed himself. Left us all here broken and devastated forever. His loving family, siblings, friends and girlfriend. So much rubish that you people put in here….Do you realize young people and kids are reading it? Do you feel better now that you know he is dead? You better get on with your lifes, get help and start to do some good things without forever analyzing your feelings and be so sorry for yourself…Don’t worry about yourself being happy, make other people happy and that will bring you what you are looking for, peace of mind and eventually happiness. Stop being just a bunch of selfish bastards and use meaningful the time you have.
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Keith Reply:
October 13th, 2009 at 5:49 am
Hi Girl keep up the good work and my sympathies to you as well.
Joe Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 3:38 am
Tanya, you are so typical! You are the one that is self-pitying because you want your son no matter what he knew was better for himself! Just shows how little you respected him and his choices. Keith, whose hand is up your butt getting you to puppet the selfish Tanya?!
Leanna Reply:
September 13th, 2009 at 11:34 pm
I would like to say that I agree with you and most of the time nothing even comes close to making that not so. I wish I could make the pain go away but I can’t and the longer I’m here and alive, I want to do it and feel better. I’m sick all the time and in pain most of the time as well. And when I try to explain the way I feel, people say I’m weak or just looking for attention. I know I would hurt some people that care for me but what about my pain and hurt. Shouldn’t I be able to decide if that pain is real enough for death. I love other people hard but can’t find enough love for myself. I just wish I could but I can’t. I’m in Psychology and Sociology classes for my degree, so I know that this is something that shouldn’t be handled lightly and I haven’t. I’ve thought about it for a long time, many years. Enough ramblings, just thought I would let it out for someone to hear. Thanks.
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Joe Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 4:16 am
Leanna, thanks for another educated and lucid explanation. Well said!
Keith Reply:
October 13th, 2009 at 5:43 am
Hi Mike hope you still come here, emptiness is caused by many things but the only solution that I know is deep in our life. But it is very simple if you really want an answer to it in your life ?? That is the question..?? For some reason we don’t want the answer often because it shows up wrong doing in our lives and we need to confess it before a loving God who cares for us enough to have his own Son Crusified to pay the debt that we owed. It really is a matter pf crying out to God for forgiveness and inviting Jesus to be your Saviour as I did many years ago now. God does hear your prayer of repentance and your asking for forgiveness. I remember when I asked Jesus into my life I was in the back seat of the auditorium and wanted so much to hide and I remember I just really agreed with the prayer that was prayed and in a week I stood in the middle of a crowd saying that I needed help. Wow as I look back on that occasion it is truly amazing to me that I got born again at all. But that is what God did in my heart then. So you to are also able to commit your life to God who will do a lovely work in your life. If you want Him to, He will not seem miles away as probably He does right now but will be closer that your best friend. if you want more contact message me Keith
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Joe Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 4:18 am
Keith, you’re an idiot who doesn’t understand anything at all about this topic. Go proselyte somewhere more appropriate!
Jeff Reply:
November 11th, 2009 at 12:22 am
Hi Keith – will you tell me how you got close to God and talked to Him? I so badly want to do the same. I pray at night but can’t really seem to make a close connection.
Joe Reply:
October 17th, 2009 at 3:17 pm
I agree 100% I’m 61 and I’ve been “keeping others happy” since I was a young teen, even though I’ve lived in misery all those years. People should have the right to peacefully and painlessly end their own life at any time and age. I might agree with a 7 day waiting period like buying a gun, in case a person changes his mind, but after that nobody has the right to tell me what to do with my life, especially government!
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Joe Reply:
October 17th, 2009 at 3:25 pm
The person I agree with is Mike, not Keith. Sorry I left that out.
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ME Reply:
November 10th, 2009 at 1:00 am
What would really be great are places where one could go to peacefully and quickly end one’s life without do-gooders and laws creating obstacles. If one wants to die at any age for any reason, then assist them. Real simple.
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Sophie Reply:
November 12th, 2009 at 5:09 pm
hey mike i understand u, i mean i’m only 15 n i’m feelin exactly the same. i know that my mom loves me, but all i think about is would they all be better off with out me.
maybe we could talk some time.
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Ana Reply:
May 22nd, 2009 at 6:13 pm
Ok.. I’ve been reading a lot of stuff on suicide lately… If someone comes to know what my life actually is, he/she would have committed suicide already. I have made suicide attempts a several times before too but they were very minor and not at all severe.. I’ve just considered sleeping pills and have gotten hospitalized sometimes. The thing is, I want to know ways to die easily..somewhat like taking pills.. I don’t know how I am living today.. Fear gets me weak otherwise I would have considered any suicidal attempt. I just need slow and easy death..
It is very important for me to end life now.. It’s not that I need to be wise or anything but nobody other than myself can understand the life I’m living, what has happened, and will happen. Therefore, it is mandatory for me to end my life now..
Please suggest an easy way for me..
Waiting.
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nb Reply:
June 15th, 2009 at 1:01 pm
@Ana,
I know exactly how you all feel. Wish i knew a way! Most drugs dont kill you, just leave you in a bad way. I wish as humans we could have the right to choose if we live or not!
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sareena Reply:
July 16th, 2009 at 12:22 pm
I understand ur pain Ana.. i also want to die a certain death.. not something that will leave my like a vegetable or will be hard or painful. I wish i knew the secrets of euthanasia.
umer Reply:
August 31st, 2009 at 6:34 am
hey ana
i think i can help u if u really wanna die
but i have some thing may be u changed ur mind
contect with me
theonlyonepomi@hotmail.com i can help any one contect me as soon as u can or may be i will die
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mirror Reply:
November 1st, 2009 at 11:00 pm
but none of you have to die there is so much hope! God loves you so incredibly much we can’t even comprehend it. He loves YOU so much that he sent his son to die for YOU! each and every one of you if you were the only preson on earth he still would’ve done it because he loves you. Someone died for you, why dont you give him a chance? “For God so loved the world he gave his only begotten son that whoever believes in him will not preish but have eternal life” John 3:16
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Craig Reply:
November 8th, 2009 at 7:19 pm
Here we go with the Jesus bit.
I prayed for help a long time and got no answer and no help.
My guess is your Jesus blesses those he loves while he
turns around and shits on others.
If I ever meet him face to face he’s gonna get
one major ass whopping from yours truly.
And I mean right thru the friggin wall!!
leah Reply:
August 22nd, 2009 at 11:20 am
For the people that are even contemplating commiting suicide than you can say that you have nothing to loose right. Do yourself a favor and the people that know you and love you a favour, pray to god tonight before you go to sleepp and ask him for the conversion of your soul, ask him to heal you tell him you want to open your heart to him, I can assure you the next morning you wont feel the same again, lifes jst a passing moment as it is, y waste it. God will help you he loves you and has a purpose for you, turst me im no bible basher, my friend hung himslf 3weeks ago 2days after i set mydlf up to hang myslf had prepared everything had the rope around my neck but no matter how hard i tried my body would not push of the seat below my feet, i saw my life end when i was standing there, the pain i felt was not worth passing onto the many people that would be lef tbehinf having to morn me. I couldnt do it i have a life to live a son that needs me. im only 19 and i have 60more years to live. God love me and ive had a conversion im never going back. My friends up there waiting for me and he can see things clearly if he knew what he knew now in heaven i know he wouldnt have done it held be back here with his son and his family tyrna get them to change their ways so they could be in heaven not rotting in hell.
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Joe Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 3:49 am
leah, you are so full of self-righteous, conservative religious, bull crap it’s incredible…truly incredible (unbelievable). I doubt if you ever even considered ending your life, you probably are only using this blog to preach your crap sermon! Your “vision” of going to heaven and meeting all your friends there when you die is the same old traditional set of lies that the religious world always pukes out to win converts. BTW, consider composing your own made-up version of the Bible to prove your point! It’s been done before by others. Or get a good translation and read it! It doesn’t say what you say!
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Hey, please remove these images. Really Horrible!!
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Joe Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 3:51 am
Which is why we should be able to end our own personal misery in a painless, peaceful way that is not messy!
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delaika Reply:
November 10th, 2009 at 4:24 pm
suicide is a self choice. people who dont agree should butt out. i hav diabetes which isnt that bad an illness compared 2 others n ive found insulin 2 b the best way 2 feel better. it just sucks wen u hav an ambulance called on ur ass… 3000units, in a coma for 4 days n fluid around the brain. broke my heart wen i was told if i had of been left 4 another hour, id b dead. i had 2 learn 2 read, write, walk n talk all over again. but nothing can compare 2 the pain i feel everyday n im sure the pain alot of others feel everyday. suicide is a choice n if thats wat is chosen, LIVE WITH IT PEOPLE!!!!
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Just made the images too small which can be ignored generally
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ehh… i cannot stand it until want to voice out.. amit the image…really, i can’t eat my spaghetti anymore..
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Joe Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 3:53 am
As I’ve already said, This is why we should be able to end our own personal misery in a painless, peaceful way that is not messy!
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thats very terrible to see amit.
how can those bloody people think this kind
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I look at it this way… If someone wants to kill themselves than they should have the rite. Fuck the law and thier “if u try to kill ur self we have to put u away.” thats bull shit! My only advice on suicde is to succed. But just remember that thier is atleast one person that loves u and will miss u. No one just wakes up one day if they are happy and says hummm i think ill commit suicde. If they do then they are morons. I know this because i have contemplated death for years. It is never easy to die. But it is always easy to blame others when u explain why u want to die. I blame noneother than myself for wishing my lifes flame to be extinguished.
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colby smith Reply:
May 11th, 2009 at 2:00 am
@Winter, you are fucked up person if u think its ok to for ppl to kill themselfs your the moron hhow do u nt kno that those ppl that wnt to kill themselfs arnt going through something or have mental issues im pretty sure if they did commit sucside then they would regret it. you need some help jesus can help u email me some time if u want to kno about “jesus”. campbellsoup1212@gmail.com thats my email (i can tell you are goin through something i can help
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jesuslovesacid Reply:
June 1st, 2009 at 12:47 am
there is no jesus
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Anonymous Reply:
June 11th, 2009 at 1:30 am
@jesuslovesacid, I almost hate to point this out, for fear of sounding stuck up, but no one denies that Jesus existed. There is historical proof he did.
slient scream Reply:
July 23rd, 2009 at 4:32 pm
the fact that you woke up is more then enough proof
mahendra Reply:
July 24th, 2009 at 10:08 am
don;t say their is no jesus he is but we are not looking at himok he is heis and he is the only saviour ok plz don;t say like that
leah Reply:
August 22nd, 2009 at 11:26 am
if there is no jesus then there is no god and if there is no god than there would be no you and if you were put on this earth by god just to kill yourslf then dont you think god would have saved himslf the effort and not botherd making you, he made you because theirs a reason for you if there wasnt you would have died by natural causes by now.
Roger Reply:
September 12th, 2009 at 8:47 am
for fuck sakes I can’t stand you fucks pushing religion on people there is a lot more proof of evolution than there is of some made up god so shut up leah if you want to believe in fairy tales than go ahead I’m against suicide but forcing religious beliefs isn’t the only way to save someone especially one in such vulnerable state, I hope no one commits suicide and if someone needs soeone to vent and talk to please reply to me I’ll be more than happy to help im not the only one there is many help phone numbers you can such as 1-800-273-TALK (8255) there is people who would love to talk to you and help even if you are convinced you are going to do it why not call that number for the hell of it you might be surprised how ou feel once you speak to someone who is there to help and better yet qualified
Joe Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 3:57 am
Roger, you’re full of the worst kind of crap…the mis-informed religious-pushing kind!
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delaika Reply:
November 10th, 2009 at 4:30 pm
people can kill themselves if they want, thats my belief n i will 4eva stick 2 it
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please tell the painless method to suicide
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andrew Reply:
May 10th, 2009 at 1:08 am
@ankit, the easiest way i am considering is taking 5 or so ambien pills then putting a bag over my head.
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Unknown Reply:
August 5th, 2009 at 6:46 am
i would suggest using prescription medicine. im thinking of doing that with my medication for bipolar and mixing in some of anti-depressants and anxiety pills as well. idk if this will kill me but im hoping it will.
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leah Reply:
August 22nd, 2009 at 11:28 am
if you really wanted to kill yourslef yould hang yourself because we all know that it works TRYING and HOPING that OD will work is jsut asking for help so y dotn you do yourslf a favour and skip the trying part and just get some help talkto the god
Carol Reply:
November 4th, 2009 at 4:25 pm
Think again. I took 60 ambien and drank 2 bottles of wine…..and I’m still here to tell you about it.
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Craig Reply:
November 8th, 2009 at 7:14 pm
How did you survive 60 ambien and the booze??
My guess is you ate a heavy meal beforehand.
Had you tried that on an empty stomach no way
you’d be here now.
Lydia Reply:
November 19th, 2009 at 3:12 am
I took 8 perscription pain pills and 10 muscle relaxers and 10 phenergan and tequila and I’m still here. I keep thinking God must have a reason for me to be here because I should have OD’d. I still want to die though. I am thinking about buying a gun but the violence and mess would be too hard for family to bear. Can’t there be a peaceful, respectful, dignified way?
Who are you to judge someone who wants to die? If they want to go away, better to show the best way.
I really hate shallow people…
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Joe Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 4:00 am
I agree with No name absolutely! Why do we have to do something messy and/or painful, when death-row offenders are allowed to die peacefully and painfully?! Boy is our society screwed up. That’s part of our problem.
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I’m sure there are reasons for wanting to die, but actually killing yourself is a different story. If you can’t think of a way to stop your heart beating you probably aren’t old enough to have life experiences that would make you kill yourself, and if you are young just wait, life gets a lot worse
my advice is do what makes you happy untill you die. in this day and age that means you need money, so stop thinking about quitting life and start thinking about what makes this live worth living.
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Anu Reply:
May 4th, 2009 at 1:12 pm
i always wanted to have a happy life but never had it. my husband hates me and bullies me every day. he calls me that i am a fat pig and eat like pig.. he is the one who tortures me and says that i am the one who harrasses him. he knows that i am scared of evils and at nights he purposley leaves me in the room and goes but waits for my reaction.
he beats me…. i really want to die i have no where to go..
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Rahul Reply:
May 7th, 2009 at 7:02 am
@Anu,
Leave your Husband and search for some one who take care of you.
i think my friend is also in the same situation if you required pls tell me i will give his contact no.
he will suggest you more….
Rahul
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Mayank Reply:
May 8th, 2009 at 9:43 am
@Anu hey there is no problem in life which cannot be solved through love. so i would suggest that try to love ur husband for say 2 months. Drown urself in love with him….
Hopefully, he will become more polite and understanding.
Even if he does not change then
its better to leave him and search for seperate livelihood and another companiion.
world is full of people, there are more than 1 billion ppl in India alone..
so
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Aseem Kumar Reply:
May 16th, 2009 at 6:04 am
@Anu, Hi Anu,
If you aren’t dead yet, go to Youtube.com and search for the video “I want a fat babe” Being fat is not your problem–you are just with the wrong man, or else, he needs a bit of mental support just like you.
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sarina Reply:
July 16th, 2009 at 12:29 pm
The problem is that u have no where to go. There is no problem with u, the other problem is clearly ur husband. If u can, please leave him. The only people that are beautiful r those that believe they r beautiful. So become strong Anu and leave him, as someone who causes you so much pain is not worth the pain. I know, I’am 22 and divorced. Best thing i did was to leave him
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GW Reply:
July 27th, 2009 at 11:46 am
Hey. There’s nothing to be afraid of. Just walk out. The fear is the thought of doing it, not actually doing it. You’re looking for help, not suicide options. Tell anyone, forget pride and dignity – you have nothing to be ashamed of. Move on and get out. GWX
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D Reply:
October 15th, 2009 at 9:27 pm
to me it looks like your not suicidal you just want your husband gone you really need to leave if hes verbal with words beating you thats just not right, there are women clinics for that you could go to stay they would help you get on your feet with out him. that would be the best thing i could think of to help, with out going 6 feet under for a man… me i pretty much have what ever i want or get what ever i want and im tired of it its the samething every single day over and over and over tiss geting really old and old quick in my mind its not spose to be this way for at least going on 15 yrs been thinking about it but im pretty sure im getting really close to saying my good byes and going i have nothing to look forward to when i wake up to Damn wtf i would have already done it but family i really hate have them go through something like that…
any more im getting where i just dont care they can deal with it. i wonder if i havent got molested as a child if i would be diffrent now thinking of it just wants me to do it even more and more now i should have not wrote any thing i just wish i could quit thinking about it and everything else but todays not my day but its getting very close i can feel it i know it is
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cad Reply:
November 7th, 2009 at 4:42 am
Im so sorry your husband is treating you like this. Go to a womens shelter and get some help they are very compassionate. If you want to email me you can anytime. cad
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sarina Reply:
July 16th, 2009 at 12:32 pm
@Phil Gordon, Well i want to have sex, but i cant as it is a sin in my reilgion.. one thing i would love to do more than anything. So its a bit hard to do what u want, with suffering from a very guilty conscience
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Joe Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 4:05 am
What a stupid comment from Phil Gordon, a person who obviously doesn’t have a clue about the life-long misery we are forced to endure by an ignorant society full of ignorant individuals like you!
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i think that people that want to commit suicide have not quite yet found true happiness but just by killing yourself it wont work either i mean we all go through rough times but we should kno that to everything there is always a way out and not neceserally suicide. live your life prblems will always be there but we have to be smart enough to fix them. God Bless!!
always:}? BABY CHIKANA
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Joe Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 4:31 am
Obviously ambar, you don’t have the experience we’re talking about here, just your pathetic pre-formed, spoon-fed societal/religious pablum. It’s not mainly about finding happiness you moron, it’s mainly about not wanting to continue to live in misery through an entire life.
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Since there is no afterlife, are life is ours to do with as we please, that includes ending it.
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Joe Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 4:33 am
first half wrong, second half right.
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Oh that scar looks really great, my cuts never gets so deep. hot!
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Joe Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 4:34 am
babygrrl—stupid moron!
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babygrrl i hope you were not seriously referring to some cut on your own body. Dont waste this life which is a gods gift!
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Sheesh people, the picture of the wrist was poached from a website about movie makeup i.e. no real suicide attempt, it’s fake blood! Don’t be so quick to jump to conclusions. The hanging man however is real but there’s no gore so it’s all good. Sometimes there is not even one person who really cares, trust me I know. Even then, you can care about yourself. But when even that gets impossibly hard and no-one gives a crap, you might as well do it. It’s selfish for people to not want you to die, but never visit or call or have time to see you in more than a year when they only live ten minutes away.
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Joe Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 4:37 am
Amen, Jazwazza. Every member of my family would condemn me for ending my life, but 2 or 3 years or longer are common intervals of them even trying to communicate with me in any way!
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i cut myslef many times & now i wont stop bleeding even at scoolim only 13 & im very scared
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slient scream Reply:
July 23rd, 2009 at 4:45 pm
hi just me alone….
my angel , no one really knows what is haapening inside of your heart even myself that have been a loner all my life i am 25 years old this year and ya the loneness do come often , i used to cut myself as well it seemed to easwe the sadness aND LONENESS But it never cured the brokenness inside my soul it sounds like i am preaching to you , but believe it only leaves scares that you need to hie one day .. ask me i know i cant wear swimwear becuase of that .. My advice tou you if you wanna take it or not , you are still young and you can sort yourself out before you grow up , Go and see sameone that knows the pain of brokeness or what has happen to you , talk to them and be honest if you are a religous person go and see sameone in your church it depends on what or in who you believe i suggest you go and see a pastor or reverend but it’s your choice …
ALL OF THE BEST MY ANGEL
SLIENT SCREAM
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Joe Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 4:41 am
silent scream, except for you name here, you don’t know what you’re talking about.
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if somone want to make you live like he want and marry who he want if someone want control you’r life inspite of you’r will
if you have not a choice your own choice to choose what you want if the life you are living is not your’s you want to live you’r own life you see that iam wrong and you are wright it makes me happy to be wrong same if iam wrong you can’t push somones against his will you see it white i see it black if i am not free what i have to do with these life
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Joe Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 4:43 am
jhon, speak English!!! Is your name even spelled correctly? Ignorance doesn’t help our cause.
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If you think it’s stupid and stuff, why did you put this on this site:
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If here come people who wants to kill them self, you are helping them with these words >..<
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Suicide..Is the solution
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i tried killing myself many times, i have scars on my arms and neck. i now relised tht life is worth living and if u have a bad day, just put it behind you and be happy. i still have times where i get really pissed off and i have skitzophrenic moments where i hear a litte voice inside my head telling me 2 kill myself. i usually can ignor it but i have been put in hospital for knocking myself out by punching myself in the face, i woke up in hospital with a roken nose and jaw nd a fractured eye socket. i wish i had never done it now.
let this be a warning to yas, LIFE IS THE BEST THING THAT CAN HAPPEN TO YOU.
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Joe Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 4:48 am
Anchor, you don’t get it at all! LIFE IS THE BEST THING THAT CAN HAPPEN TO YOU…to YOU maybe. But not ME !!! And you don’t have a say in what’s the best thing for ME! Typical sermonizing, pontificating horse shit!
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Better add some more horror pictures so that one who see those will not try to commit suicide.
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Joe Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 4:50 am
dafodyls, stupid donkey! More gruesome pictures would only prove the point further…I should be able to end my own life peacefully, painlessly, and in a way that’s not messy.
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that is crazy i use to cut i still do but i am getting help to all yu people how just need someone to talk to i am always willing to talk yes there are lots of people if is yur parents are even a close friend yu trust talk to someone.
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Ok i am a self harmer and i do love to see my blood pour but i wouldnt suggest it to anyone else.
What i do with my life and my body does not affect anyone else.
So just because people love me thats not going to stop me from what im planning.
And people who are considering suicide can be happy with some aspects of their lives but may also feel that their life is incomplete.
So all that crap about people who commit suicide have never experienced true happiness its just a load of shit.
Yours truly suicidal maniac
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Joe Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 4:52 am
Suicidal maniac, I AGREE ! And I’m not a maniac at all.
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Suicide is a form of art…if u cant take the pain no more…try it…i will do it soon..
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this website is f***ing terrible! I lost my husband a month ago unfortunately he hung himself due to some ass hole giving him drugs. My young daughter found him in my house. There are some real scum bags in this world who ask people to contemplate this, i now absolutely fume over websites like these, i am telling you all now it is seriously not a way to go. Dont consider anything like this just think of the people who you will leave behind. As i have personally felt the pain and immortal grief that i have to live with for the rest of my life. My sense of pain reveales that it is not helping at all. So for gods sake please please i am begging you people that if you are cruel on yourselves you will be cruel on others.
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Joe Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 4:55 am
Z, what happened to your husband was murder, not suicide. Get clear on the difference and don’t pretend to know what’s best for me. You’ll never walk in my shoes. You’re suffering too much personal and selfish grief to understand me.
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this is absolute bullshit, you going on about ’short term’ problems? what about the people who have suffered with depression for as long as they can remember and don’t have the will to keep fighting? fuck you, suicide isnt considered to be a solution to ’short term’ problems, its a release for those who are past despair.
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Joe Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 4:55 am
100% CORRECT Mike!
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Another linkbait ?
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thank you for this pick i can now saw kill my self…iwas search a reason to kill me so now i have the solution thank for the master of this site and sorry for my english my true language is french im juste a suicide man and not a real man im just a coward…sorry if i talk about this so i had need this for kill me :’( sorry guys
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I think that if you want to commit suicide then you should be able to do what you want. Do you people seriously believe that “God” gives a shit that you ended your own life? What the fuck does he care? He might have put you here but who takes you out of this world? He doesn’t go around and tell you no you can’t do that. Thats free will people and “God” can’t mess with free will. So if you want to kill yourself just remember the poor bastard who has to clean up after you and just hang your stupid ass.
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lately i do not feel like living today is my birthday and my mother told me that i am her biggest disappointment that i am her worst nightmare, today was suppose to be a day of happiness but it is a day of grief i feal desperate i do not want to be here i want to start a new life where no one knows me, i was three weeks pregnant and my boyfriend walked out on me my body rejected the baby and i lost it , i feel like there is no purpose to life i feel like i need to get out i want to be sent free and is is disappointing , i have spent my day pretty much all day by my self i got up left the house and have been by myself today is the day that i was suppose to be getting engaged, but instead i am home alone eating like allways feeling miserable and lonely
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johnnyboy Reply:
May 7th, 2009 at 6:20 pm
@angie, come on …i have kinda gone thru a similiar kind of pain….but m a guy…but the pain felt is same….even i have been illtreated by mom…
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Wtf.. why are you here then for fun .. FYI? Grow some balls or be weqker than the people that have actually pulled this off in.. desperate situations.. dont try to understand.. you wouldent.. if you did.. youd say nothing and let it go.
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lol.. I made two long paged on my thoughts…(twice) somehow i fucked them both up.. Basically.. i don’t wanna see this get fuct.. make your own choices.. your life and no one else would care.. if they did they would of showed it… not gonna write another 2 pager in fear, i will get erased again by my dumb-ass..Well shit .. if you need a procrastinating partner contact me… I’m interested in other views… ill leave a alt e-mail.. Don’t be afraid to contact.You dont feel the way you do for no reason.. its up to you, you own yourself and your free will as a thinking creature to end it.. or change it..no god, government, or some dick-head husband, wife, criminal, asshole, bitch youv’e hated been abused by can take that ultimate choice, we all deal with this burden differently, but in common, we don’t feel we should be here…. need to stop before i fuct this paragraph..Need to talk before you depart? mail.. me id like to talk..heres a alt accnt to contact :
Love and Hate,
P.s. I don’t help in departs, just talk.
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if someone wants to die help them how to commit suicide
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Perhaps a reservation of judgement is appropriate. After suicide perhaps? What does anyone know anyhow? I would love to assist others in self extermination. If only they aren’t usually the type of people that actually deserve to live. Irony. Ain’t it a bitch.
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Tell me the most painfull way to kill myself, plz. thx…
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This is terrific
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I cut, I still do I tried to kill myself but my “b/f” called me and talked me out of it:( Now Idk what to do anymore i’m going to try again next monday and i no longer have him to stop me..I’d show you my scar but i can not. I have no camera:( but its about 2 1/2 inches long and it dose go down my arm not across like all the poser emos!
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OK people. I just read somethings and it really bothers me that anybody would be so hateful or careless about life. Life is only given to you once and it isn’t for you to waste it. Every year babies, children, and even adults pass on from illnesses or other tragedies. If you ask their families they’d do anything for another moment with their loved ones. I cannot think of one thing that could be so horrible it would cause you to end your life. Yeah, we fight, we hurt, we get hurt…But life goes on. There’s a solution to everything. Maybe before you give suggestions on how to commit suicide, you could stop and rethink about your situation. Sit down, calm down, and find a better way to cope with your anger or hurt. There are many people who would love to help those who think they have a problem that cannot be solved. There IS help out there for the mentally ill. Basically, I’m trying to remind you all that you won’t just be over and done with in a short while because after you’re gone, there will always be at least one person hurting for you. Try not being so selfish as to extinguishing your problems by causing others more pain. THANKS, bye!
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well if someone is contemplating suicide, i think you should let him/her carry on. its their life. all the docters and psychitrices that try to help you, its all bull shit.
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hi to all ,I tought of suicide so damn many times in my life and i commited suicide many times too,but my way to doing that was not right and also i did not want to get much pain and time.2 times i did that with so many medicins(all the medicines wich I could find at home) and the other time cuttin myself ,but every time finnaly i woke up after awhile and saw life was going on and going on and alwaysI was looking for painless and fast suicide,because if i got pain in all my life, I don’t want to die with pain atleast.finally i tought maybe i should live becaz 3 times suicide withouth any result was so stranege for me! I’m an artist so after 5-6 years beeing depressed at home and don’t doing any thing, i started drawing again,after 6 years my hands got so dry,I could not do it well,but after awhile i was doing every hting with the paper and the pencil or any damn thing else,i was crashing the paper with pencil by drawing so wild and relieve all my energy on the paper ,i do every hting even spiting on my drawing and… you know some thing,it’s such e greate way to get relax.after that u would fall to a pleasant sleep and u get refresh.you can be alone in one room and do every thing you like over there with so many colors,with writhing any thing you like and…and then after you get relaxed,you feel you are very powerfull person,so when you are so powerfull,why you let other shitty things and shitty ppl put influence on you?
now some times i htink of suicide so badly,some times i planed for it too, but after doing what i wrote in top, my mind gets refresh and starts thinkin of other things automatically,that’s very good expirience, you do that too,I promiss you that you will feel fine after doing that.
I love all of you becaz i understand you,becaz in this damn cruel black world,just honest,good and innocent ppl would commit suicide and others are limiting them,kill them,abuse them and finally eating them bodies meat as they are eating such a tasty food!!!!!!!!
I hope the best things for ull.
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renee Reply:
August 9th, 2009 at 8:27 am
i wish i was dead – ive thought about it so many times but im a coward. im too scared to jump or cut myself cos im a gutless arsehole. I have collected tablets over the years, and am so tempted to take them – but I am scared they wont do the job. Does anyone know what type of medication would help me – i do not want to vomit it up and end up like a vegetable, or end up in hospital with every arsehole fgeeling sorry for me. i want to escape my nightmare of a life
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Ive been thinking of killing myself few years ago.I was feeling so sad..I cant describe it, I just wanted to end it and that noone remember me NEVER!!.And this year I tried to cut myself 2 times but I couldnt die!!I was very annoying for this. In my 2nd chance I didnt stop bleeding but just in that moment my mom got into my room, I just told her that I had to see a friend, I called her and went to her house.Now I got 2 scars and noone in my house have seen it..jajaja
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Yes, there is something very sweet in the idea of death, something temptingly easy in just giving up. Death is the cessation of pain, an end to loneliness, a refuge from any problem that one has created for oneself. I have been battling drug addiction for many many years and have contemplated and attempted suicide myself but have come to realize that I am the one and only person to blame for my unhappiness. Basically what I trying to say is I corrupted my life so I must be able to purify it in one way or another. I truly believe that suicide is the greatest form of weakness one could possess and sure as hell is no solution any problem. Think..Think..Think.. Many things in life cannot be fixed but many things can. Oh yeah.. It really boggles my mind why none of you can type a simple paragraph that can be understood. Either go back to school and learn some grammar or learn how to type. -[SDMF]-
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basically if someone wishes to end their life, they shod have the right o do it. i mean many people actually commit suicide but it goes unnoticed. i mean look at all the people who drink alcohol???? evetually they get liver damage and die, even people who die from a heart attack, for example, many a times it is their own fault because they didnot have a balance diet and the same goes for hypertension and many other self-inflicted diseases, just that people dont look at that as suicide doesnot mean that it is not a form of suicide.
i think people should be allowed to commi suicide and anyone who wants to can join me because i am thinking of mass-suicide. im not forcing anyone to do so but if you want to then e-mail me on foreverhope@rocketmail.com and we will all commit suicide together.
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Re:sadistic
If your going to go kill yourself fucking do it then. Or is it some sick inmature way of drawing attention to youself?
su-i-cide 1 The act of killing oneself “INTENTIONALLY”. As for the people who die from liver damage, heart attack’s, hypetension and many other other self-inflicted diseases, it’s not a form of suicide. They had no intention of killing themselves they were just weak minded people that lacked the will to live a healthy life. Grow the hell up and think before you post. I find people like you sick. I have a few friends that ended their own life but not because they thought it was some recreational thing to do. They had major problems in their lives a thought there was no better way to fix them so they killed themselves. You sound like a damn fool. Go ahead and do it I could care less.
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id jst like 2 say, i dont think people who think about suicide are pathetic or selfish. everyone thinks about it at some point in their lives. i hate myself cause im not the happy normal person my family and friends deserve. i’ve taken an overdose, i’ll admitt it. i have mental problems that are being delt with. now of course i feel much better about myself and think i was stupid to do such a thing to my family. at the point when i was at my lowest, people thought i was going through a ‘phase’! i hated that and felt i had to do something drastic to get help. yes stupid idea. my point is if your teenager is depressed it might be more serious than just a phase. talk to them. they might tell you whats going through their heads and take action before the situation resorts to suicide. please listen to me! i know what im talking about.
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people who think in suicide is consider weak, selfish or a coward??but I really consider that someone who make this, need to have some courage to do it!No many people can finish their lifes just cause they want to, many of us just are in the middle of the way. People wont stop!! some day we are going to finish what we started,Im sure of that. in fact, i think that we are doing something good for everyone else because in the world only should stay people who really want to be in this damn world!!
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when you know that everybody hates you for no reason at all,
just for existing ,and everybody who dont know anything about you just hate you and cant tell you why ,they just hate you ,then nothing anybody says will be helpfull.
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Hello, sry for my bad English, I’m German.
ankit, you wrote on April 21th 2008 that you want to know a painless way of commiting suicide.
I’ve got a painless methode.
You only had to put an elastic band around your upper arm and wait 10 minutes. If you can see your cores, you take a injection fulled with air and inject it into one of the cores.
You don’t suffer and only die after a few moments without any pain.
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Jewel Reply:
November 9th, 2009 at 12:41 am
this sounds doable but what is a core
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hmm ok lemme get this straight you people are all against suicide ok..
so how come you on here lookin at it then???
nuff said!
suicide is someones way of gettin out easy..its not always the best but we cannot tell what goes through peoples minds
we may think we do but its much more complex than that.
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i absalutly hate my life pleas sum1 tell me how to kill myself using hydrogen sulfide. how do u make hydrogen sulfide?? what do u mix with toilet cleaner pleas relply fast i cannot wait any longer i hate my life and just want to end it!!!!!!!!!!
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some of us don’t have bad days…just bad lives…some of us are rejected on every level a person can be rejected. You know you don’t have a place in life, when eventually your tears run out from thinking about suicide. You realize you just want out of this nightmarish “gift” from god.
yes, life is actually a beautiful thing, that is sometimes. it is the times that destroy your appreciation for this life that are the cruelest that all of us have to face. that is the thing that makes life not worth living.
some of us were created different. some of us were born into horrible odds with life. i do believe there is a god, and I believe he is an asshole for creating us. for all the pain we have to endure. me, personally, am just bored by life. i generally dislike and hate everything and everyone and am just curious to what lays behind the curtain of death.
a few things people say when you talk about ending yourself….
think about how your loved ones would feel…well, they obviously didn’t care enough to make you happy when you were around.
or you will burn in hell for eternity….but by my calculations, hell is overtaking the earth anyway and we all seemed to be stuck in nightmarish situations. thanks a lot free masons and the nwo! lol….like I really give a shit..hehe
or think about everything you will be missing….yeah, I have been there…done that…nothing new…life is just a cycle of events that come and go just like the seasons…seen one, seen them all.
what about love? love is the most awesome thing in the world…until it shows you how imperfect and impure it really is. how heart breaking and viscious is can be. behind every rose is some thorns…
so, yeah…i wouldnt say suicide is a cowards way out. I would simply say it is something that smart and intelligent people who are actually seeing things in full would do…
…I mean, come on…for crying out loud…is this thing we call “life” actually worth it?
think about it…
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thinking and knowing you can kill yourself and make this whole wide world go away is actually a good thing….it keeps you in control of your universe…
it gives you the power to be god over yourself…to take and leave it when you please…
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thats good thing of you end this life..!
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Why are a lot of people on here even looking at this website if they’re against suicide? You can’t really say ‘You shouldn’t kill yourself because your depression will go away’ or whatever to someone until you actually know how they feel. Theres no point judging people because they want to end their lives. You don’t know how they feel and don’t you think it makes them even more.. distressed (?) when you’re having a go at them? The best thing you can do is be nice and care.. use your common sense – fools.
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im15 and i think about suicide everyday. people call me fat and ugly all the time. i have no true friends. a abusive dad. a mom that ignores me. ive never had a girlfriend. never hugged, kissed, or held hands with a girl. my so called friends always tells girls that i like them when i dont and the girls always call me fat or ugly. i like a girl but i know that she will just reject me. so why even bother with this life. im thinking of just ending it. i always try to hold my breath and hope that i suffocate.
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tired of life Reply:
June 8th, 2009 at 11:35 pm
@slip1160,
hey now dnt think looks are everything because there not find what u love about urself before wanting otheres to love you i hate my life and im pretty skinny and i dnt have a guy to coem home to the guy i love cheats on me and treats me bad soooo dnt think what others say is true ur probable amazing and i wish i could be ur friend because id never let anyone talk bad to you!
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Suicide is our right, whether it would be for emotional reasons or physical. NO ONE, i mean NO ONE has any right to stop someone from killing themselves. Society does not care for the happiness of the drones, it only wants them to stay and work their ass off so the rich can get richer.
Others use the famous “selfish, think about your loved ones”. Well i can spin that around and say :”is it selfish to let that person suffer just you can be happy?” Believe me…when you do it, there is no other way.
Those that use the religion card, i won’t even bother…fairy tales are for the delusioned. Depression opens your eyes, it sees how pointless life is and the suffering with it. Cure for depression? LIE to YOURSELF and HOPE..which is the denial of relity. Some can pull it off, and others can’t.
Those that say, stay to find happiness (love?),..well no offence, happiness is fleeting and doesn’t really exist, like i said before…Lying to yourself is a tricky business.
Well i’m out of here.
peace!
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sarina Reply:
July 16th, 2009 at 12:37 pm
@Thanos, Thank you for your comment, one of the best things i have read here.
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two words for you….ATTENTION SEEKERS!!!!!!!!
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Hey amit….thanx for these ways man…..can u help me with more ways….i want to commit suicide…
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hey amit….can u help with the more ways….??
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I recommend getting some kind of anasthetic like ketamine
generally if you consume enough of those you might feel
less of the asphixiciation pain that I think exists.
I am no expert, the real problem with suicide is that
satan doesnt like people to leave this earth before he
caused them enough sickness and misery.
So he makes it bad for them. I also recommend getting a
dying body, a body which has done a lot of exercise
and is used to oxygen debt. Also this will stimulate the
endorphin center and increase the amount released.
In any case it wont be fun
however it is better to live free or die than to remain
in a slavish state. Hopefully God will get you out of
satan clutches soon enough. Pain really is satans
cause so the more you believe pain is an illusion
the less you feel it, but also the harder it is to
kill yourself.
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A person can only handle so much stress. If they think the best thing for them is to die, then you can’t hold it against them. They have to draw the line somewhere.
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you are all in need of some form of life!!! if going to do it then do it…..im guessing u wont be missed 4 long…sick sick sick website
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life is a sick joke played on us by a bored god….
an ahole that wants all the glory for everything…
we ALL are better off dead…
life is a game that you will lose anyway…
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by all. life is never going to get better for me. it has been this way for as long as i can remember. im so tiered
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u aint seen nothin yet
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“we ALL are better off dead
life is a game that you will lose anyway…”
Lose, yes, if ones fate looks shallow; you may predict this on yourself. for instance, a lost of hope.
everyone has their own destiny, finanicals are the most common, but i wont get into that discussion.
so many things are played out.
WORLDS COMMING TO AN END!
or just your world is.
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i know people want to die. i’m one of them. i hate the idea of me dieing but its hard. the top image is bad. it reminds me of me…. yeah. i know someone who lost a friend because they commited suicide. think about all the people that will suffer.
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really??? seems to me that the economy is on a state of declining emergency…inflation is getting the best of everyone…the housing market is collapsing…war never seems to end…weather patterns are getting more unpredictable…
so…the world may not be coming to an end…but does the word “hell on earth” mean anything to you?
if you were smart, you would put an end to your miserable existence too…
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hate to be the bringer of bad news…but if I have to be the one to tell you…then obviously you are not living on this planet at the moment…lol
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I’m a grl…but I don’t know why…even when I try to show some emotions… I’ve rarely cried fo any situation…& sumtyms I feel lyk I had no one… I wish I was not alive…nd den it reminds me “padh likh kar kya karna hai..marke wapas hi jeena hai..”…no end of life!!!…dammit..itz Shit!! Shit!..
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Why should you have the right to take your own life, just because you are mentally unstable and cant cope with the pressure of reality doesnt mean that you can then go on and spoil the lifes of your loved ones and friends leaving your mother and/or father contemplating suicide out of the pure fact that they dont know where they went wrong and are confussed about how there lifes started to unfold. so yes suicide is a very selfish act because you act on impluse and thinking of only your self in the process not taking into consideration the destroyed lifes you leave behind.
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chris Reply:
August 18th, 2009 at 6:39 pm
Dear “the truth,”
Individuals should have the right to do anything they want to their body. A more poignant question is, why should you have the right to tell others what to do? In your unfettered quest to control the actions of others, it appears that you are the one “who is mentally unstable and can’t cope with the pressure of reality.” In addition, you assume that those who engage in self deliverance “spoil the lives” of their “loved ones.” Why do you assume there are loved ones to begin with? Many people don’t have anyone, no family, no friends, no partner.. nothing. I personally was disowned from my family, and never saw my parents again. I didn’t even go to their funerals. Your assumption indicates that you are lucky to have loved ones, but please do not judge others who are not as lucky as you. Lastly, suicide IS NOT A SELFISH ACT! It is an overwhelming desire to end the pain created by the environment in which one lives. In essence, the situation mediates the behavior. Please read Durkheim’s Theories of Suicide regarding this topic, and educate yourself. Also realize suicide is not selfish because it is performed on an impulse. If you give money to a homeless person on an “impulse” is that a selfish act? Your logic needs re-thinking here. Regardless, suicide is rarely if ever done on an impulse. Rather it is calculated, planned, and thought out often for years. Moreover, for those who are successful, there are often multiple attempts. Interestingly, for males it is eight attempts before the act is completed. So please “the truth,” think before you speak, educate yourself about the facts, and don’t judge others. When you do, your version of the truth is really nothing more than a bunch of lies.
-Best,
Chris
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learn to type you stupid douche
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Read this. Look, im not going to go on about logical terms or use words you wont understand but many of you don’t have a clue what your on about, i tried to kill myself and often self harmed so i have some idea. Suicide is weak, there is a solution to every problem. Please it is frustrating to watch you throw your lives away and to people being harsh about the subject it doesn’t help. i’ts such a selfish act, think about what you do have in life and even if theres nothing there, theres nothing stopping you from doing something about it. Think of the people you will be leaving behind, think how bad it would hurt if you loved ones killed themselves. I have the up most respect african people and others in there situation. So hungry it literally kills you, dieses that feel like you have a knife lunged in your head, they don’t complain. Nothing is what they have often one child left alone with no family and you know what they get on with life depsite having nothing to gain out of living other than hardship, thats what strength is, not having the bottle to kill yourself. Please think about this, because you only have one life and okay if it means your life is going to be hell for a year or two theres something worth living for after that.
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chris Reply:
August 18th, 2009 at 6:54 pm
Dear Nelle,
I’m not sure where you are receiving your information, but suicide has nothing to do with individual “weakness.” In fact, suicide is mediated from the situation in which one resides. Moreover, the term “weak” is subjective. What is perceived as weak to some is actually a strength to others. In addition, the concept that “there is a solution to every problem,” is naive pollyanna. Tell me, what is the “solution” for incurable and inoperable cancer? Your response is, living a life with a disease “that feels like you have a knife lunged in your head,” and not complaining. Really? What kind of quality of life is that? My goodness, we treat dogs better than that. I an assure you, I would rather die than live out the kind of life scenario you want to thwart upon me. Unless you have walked in the shoes who have engaged in self deliverance, you really don’t know now do you?
You also assume that those who commit suicide leave people behind. Wrong again. Many people have no one. No family, no friends, no partner, nothing. Rejected by society, the abject loneliness and subsequent isolation resulting from the lack of social integration mediates behavior, literally compelling individuals into suicide. This is not a personal flaw, or some primordial biological trait, but rather a social phenomenon. I sincerely hope that you please think about your comments in the future, for they are rather misguided. Such comments are so flawed, that they metaphorically kill me,
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no there’s not…you should kill yourself too……right now….douche
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chris Reply:
October 9th, 2009 at 8:18 pm
No “there’s not?” Real smart.
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In all the replies/ comments none of you is telling how to commit suicide and which over-the-counter drugs could help me do it. I do not want to live and it is my life so I do what ever I want with it.
Can some body give some suggestions? No lectures please.
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i think if a person wants to kill themselves their the only idiots…no one should tell them not to…its population control and their stupidity will get them nothing but a short life. I have been through many bad experiences but nothing has made me think of death upon myself, i value my life and what i have than what i do not have. Noone should be the judge of whom should live and whom should die. A person makes their own decisions and if they decide to kill themselves they should seek psycological help before any drastic desision is made.
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go out with a bang…get some firearms…and blow up a government building…that is the way a rockstar would do it…
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3 sleeping pills and a swim in the ocean pleasant but not for who ever finds your Bloated corpse
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The best way to commit suicide is to join the U.S. Army! Even if you didnt want to before, you will soon after (and check any statistics if you don’t believe it).
And to you fuckers who might say “support the troops”, STICK IT UP YOUR ASS AND SEE WHAT LIFE IS LIKE IN FUCKING IRAQ ASSHOLE. WE DONT NEED SUPPORT WE NEED A TRIP HOME.
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What I really love is how you have the US National Suicide Prevention Hotline’s number at the bottom.
Hello, you just put together an entire article listing /ways to commit suicide./ Maybe you should focus, like the rest of the sane world, on trying to actually stop the numbers of suicides rising instead of giving people ways to do it.
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The book Final Exit offers wonderful examples on how to engage in self deliverence. I too wish to die, for reasons that are to lengthly and complicated to get into. Although I’m happy for those that “value their life,” that is not the case for everyone. Accordingly, no one has the right to judge another, for you do not know the situation that those who wish to die are in. This decision is not taken lightly, nor are my problems “temporary.” Also, please do not assume that those “loved ones” left behind will be devestated. For many, there simply are no loved ones. No family, no friends, no network, not even a pet. No, I do not believe in a fictitious supernatural power like “god” (small g), becuase it does not exist.
Now back the question. What I did was drink hyrogen peroxide. At first, nothing happened. Then, I became so exhausted I could not move. Within a day, I began bleeding profusely. I did not have a bowel movement, but rather buckets of blood poured from me. I was happy. Unfortunately, someone found me in this unconscious state, called the ambulence, and I awoke three days later with ulcerated colitis. I never told the hospital what I did, for fear of retribution. In fact, I never tell anyone about my desire to finally relieve myself of this pain.
After a year passed, and any connection between the hydrogen peroxide and my true ambitions were put to rest, I tried carbon minoxide. I live in a tiny studio apartment in Manhattan’s theater district. It is a newish building, and has over 500 apartments. First I cleaned the apartment, showered and shaved, and put on nice clothes. I placed a “Do Not Revive” note my table, along with a note to the only person I ever loved (who by the way despises me, which is part of the reason why I’m doing this). Then I sealed the door frame with masking tape to prevent the gas from leaking in the hall, and double locked it. Then I took a sedative along with sleeping pills (Ambien is my preference), turned on the oven and layed down on my futon where I fell aslepp. Again, I was happy. Unfortunately, after sufficient time the gas did leak into the hallyway. Security forced open my double locked door, and I was sadly rushed to the hospital. I can’t begin to tell you how devestated I was when I awkoe. “No,No, No” I screamed over and over. When I returned home, I informed the building that I was “cleaining my oven, and simply fell asleep.” Ironically, the building was sold not one month later, and the new managment team (which is as cold and impesonal as the last), were never informed of this event.
Needless to say, some time has elapsed, and it is time to try it again. When, where, how? I’m not sure, but I think I will travel perhaps to San Francisco, my favorite city, and do the classic jump from the Golden Gate. I’ve been told that more people commit suicide there than anywhere else.
I am writing to tell all those who try to prevent people from engaging in self deliverence that we don’t need “psychological help, medications, or to be concerned with family and loved ones.” There aren’t any anyway.
Medications have proven to be ineffective along with all forms of psycho therapy and psychiatry. If you are unsure,
please read the chapter on suicide in Peter Gray’s text book entitled “Psychology.” These conventions simply do not work. My life has been plagued with the desire to end it since I was a child. No one should have to suffer for over thirty years. We treat animals better than people, so please don’t tell me to go find someone to talk to, or be worried about those left behind. No one cares, not now, not ever.
Death is a part of life. Indeed, birth is the greatest cause of death. Whether I die thirty years from now by natural causes or now by my own hand is no one’s business but my own. My life is insignificant, and time will not alter that fact. Moreover, I can not tolerate the physical pain which I have had to endure, nor the even more crippling emotional pain. Unless you have walked in my shoes, don’t judge me. If someone wants to die, take it at face value. Help them die with dignity and grace. Don’t let them wake up in an emergency room screaming “No, No,No.”
For all those in pain tonight, I understand. I empathize. There is no reason to go on if you so choose. No reason to make church going do gooders feel better about themselves, or the witch doctor psychologist richer, or the pharmacutical companies stock increase. They want you alive to perpetuate their economy, or to give them a sense of helping someone in need. I know better. My painful friends, you are not in need of them. You are in need of a solution to permanently end the misery.
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cries alot Reply:
April 27th, 2009 at 11:53 pm
i was told at thirteen when i was put in the hospital. I agree with your comment,i have wanted the pain to end for 21 years now. I have also woke up the hospital screamind no,no,no! I am tired of all the doctors and the hrrible side effect from all the stupid pills. I am done, when i was younger I had some kind of desire to live. The desire to live left me seven years ago, I realize now that the feeling will never return, I want to go I am ready to go.
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sarina Reply:
July 16th, 2009 at 12:47 pm
@chris, Thank you soo much for your story. I also have tried suicide three times. I have much suffering which the outside world does not know about and nor do i want anyone to know. I have taken medications etc. and now iam also thinking of jumping off a cliff or drowning in the ocean. I believe i deserve better than to live this miserable life of mine. I wish you all peace whether it is in life or death.
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I agree, and what is most ashame about the whole thing is that most of those people you mentioned are the causes of making life so shitty to begin with. The big one is religion. Unless your buying their ‘god’, you are going to their ‘hell’. The doctors only talk ‘at’ you, not ‘to’ you. Mankind has made the last and final beast on this world. Their very structure has created something that they fear most, themselves. The ‘better’ they get, the more they need someone else to blame. You are right, only ‘we’ own our lives and don’t you forget it. I would never think of suicide if I knew there was something good in this life to look forward to, but I sure as hell won’t sit around in this life just to endure some other morons bullcrap while the pain is dished out on me for thin and broken reasons. Their ‘god’ can kiss my ass. This life will be my way or the highway, and I sure as hell do NOT have to be afraid of taking the highway. Quite frankily, I love a good Sunday cruise…
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…oh wow… thanx for the help (: ….
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is there no other way to die in peaceful and painless way?
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i don’t think these images should be removed. They are real life and this is what happens when people kill themselves. If you do not want to know the reality of death and pain then why are you here. Really, this is how people kill themselves. Get over your own sense of death.
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my grandma commited suicide.. =/ its too bad that the people who commit suicide are so self absorbed that they dont give a damn about anyone elses feelings.. its also too bad that she’s probably frying in hell..
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I personally think suicide is a sign of weakness, not a sin.
Then again, I’m an atheist, eh. But the point is, suicide is a long term solution, to a short term problem. Your boyfriend broke up with you? Ok, shit happens, thats no need to slice your wrists like ribbons, it just shows your fucking hopeless.
They think they’re be remembered for life because they “had the balls” to kill themself. But in reality, they’re just pussies, if they truely had brass balls, they’d survive through the daily grind, instead of just calling quits early.
No mother should have to hear someone else telling them that their offspring’s life was cut short, much less by their own hand.
So my advice, suck up the pain, and don’t be a fucking quitter. Life gives you lemons, then fucking eat them with a smile on your face.
Then again, go ahead and kill yourself, because it just proves the theory of Darwinism. Just make sure you put across a message, except that you were too easy to push around.
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Great, an atheist. Material is the solution to everything hé? Work,work,work,spend,spend,spend… You are a pussy if you can’t see how great life is. Get the fuck out of here, why are you here atheist? To becky, she is even worse hoping her grandma is in hell instead of peace. Bah, i’m not gonna miss the stupidity of life like those two.
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lol to harold.
I didn’t say life wasn’t worth living, or can you not read?
Are you to quick to judge that you don’t bother reading someone’s full paragraph?
I clearly stated that I was against suicide, i.e. I like life.
Connect the dots before you go off on a tangent. And material isn’t everything to atheists, we just lack faith. We lack a God, and understandings of why you guys follow one, like you don’t understand why we don’t follow a religion.
The difference is, us atheits are predominantly aren’t known for shoving our beliefs down others throats. I could lecture and tell you why your religion is false, and cite examples, but I don’t.
Harold, you’re egotistical, close minded, and have problems with writing out a complete sentence. And the irony is, you call me stupid.
You Fail.
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And also, as a side note, for all the uneducated people who think atheists are people who hate life, and whatnot.
Atheists are just people who don’t call the traditional God, well, God. Chances are, we have the same morals as, aka- Don’t kill another person, don’t cheat, don’t steal, etc.
We love life like Christians, Islams, Jewish, etc.
We respect others, we treat others the way we want to be treated, in other words, just like you. Minus the deity.
So before you go ripping on another atheist, then please keep that in mind.
If not, then enjoy being a bigot, like Harold.
Wtf kind of name is Harold anyways?
Did your Mom/Sister give it to you?
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Also, I want to make an edit on my first reply comment.
I meant to say that atheist AREN’T predominantly known for shoving their beliefs down other’s throats.
My bad.
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Keep your opinions to yourself, All this arguing is pathetic.
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more things should be included like how to make hydrogen sulphide, how to make posion
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suicide y honestly wud u want to commit suicide
i lost my brother last year found him hangin in his apartment at 19 becuz he cudnt make it in soccer his fiance is so unhappy and upset still 3 more of his friends followed him suicide isnt a game u die and ur family are lost without u
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fuck the suicide
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..ok.. my reason is little poetic.. I am 33.. and fell in love for the first time in my life… I believe she is the only one and no other woman will touch me unless she is her.. it began well.. but ended up simply bad… I have survived many losses in my life… but I don`t wanna survive anymore… I want to live with love… and If I don`t have her love… anyway… thats it.. not to bother you all… I am just looking for a cocktail of pills that wouldnt leave me disabled and finish the job with a bottle of vodka… dont worry I have only two brothers who will understand me at the end…
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“it’s too bad that the people who commit suicide are so self absorbed that they dont give a damn about anyone elses feelings.. its also too bad that she’s probably frying in hell..”
People who want to commit suicide are not”self absorbed.” They simply want the pain to end. Furthermore, it has nothing to do with “anyone else’s feelings.” For many of us, there simply isn’t “anyone else.” Please do not be presume facts in which you know nothing about. And in terms of “frying in hell,” I personally don’t believe in such
a place. In fact, I believe people who willingly cede their agency to organized religion, which is nothing more than a hoax which perpetuates mind control, are delusional to believe in a fictitious supernatural power.
Indeed, it’s to bad that people like you condescendingly pass judgment on others.
Best,
-chris
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alan Reply:
September 9th, 2009 at 8:30 pm
I really couldn’t agree more with your comments but i’m really only on this site so i can find out how to top myself efficiently!
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“Great, an atheist. Material is the solution to everything hé? Work,work,work,spend,spend,spend… You are a pussy if you can’t see how great life is.’
What an ignorant comment about atheists. In fact, it was George Bush, a “god-fearing christian,” who told America to go out shopping immediately after 9/11. Indeed, it is the Christians who solicit money to fill their coffers. Moreover,
Christianity was not always in place. Paegens preceded modern day faiths. Furthermore, Secular Humanists, a.k.a. Atheists, do not believe in the spend, spend, spend mantra.
What you are referring to is capitalism, which was instituted and perpetuated by white christian males.
Please don’t insult us Atheist’s with your Christian spend, spend, spend, emphasis on material goods, “values.”
Best,
-chris
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I think that this website is horrible!
people do commit suicide… but thats not funny you shouldn`t make a website showing kids how to kill themselves thats not cool. if you think about it you have made so many kids kill themselves.. hope your happy…
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well, yeah..like you are doing your kids any good…what a wonderful world you have given them…
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“You shouldn`t make a website showing kids how to kill themselves thats not cool.”
I think you’ve missed the point of what the website is about. And yes, I’ve thought about it, and NO I don’t think anyone has made “so many kids kill themselves.”
Your comments are unfortunately misguided, and represent a true lack of knowledge regarding suicide as well as social behavior. Please don’t speak about things you know nothing about, and please stop judging others. There is enough of that already in the world, and that is what cause people to engage in self deliverence.
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there is a lot of problems going in my life,,,,startin wid am nt gud at studies,,my health is really in a bad condition,,,am obese ,,,am not gud at sports,,,i have relation problem,,,,and most importantly am a gay,,,,thats y i wan 2 cummit suicide …….
coz of havin so much of tension n being depressed ol da tym….
i wud rather die~
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I was googling for methods to do the deed 10 months ago. I thought I had to put an end to my problems by running away from them. Needless to say I am one of the 9/10 people who think about doing this because of a girl. Now I see many things that I didnt back then. Its stupid to do it. But, I wasnt in a state to listen to other posts like this before. TIME IS THE BEST HEALER…believe in this and you will thank yourself for not doing it a few months from now. As for this website with this list…its a shame. Instead run a website on why not to commit suicide. But, who am I to tell you? You need to realize if you can either be a person who nudge people to either take or give likes by the content of it.
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or you might slip with a knife and cut off your prostate legs
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“TIME IS THE BEST HEALER…believe in this and you will thank yourself for not doing it a few months from now.”
I’m so glad time “healed” you, however that is not the case for everyone, believe me. For example, time only extends and augments pain for those with terminal diseases. Furthermore, people with severe mental disorders never do recover, and in fact worsen with time.
“As for this website with this list…its a shame. Instead run a website on why not to commit suicide.”
Wrong again. This website is refreshing. If you ignore the realities of suicide, then you are ignoring a reality of life. In essence, you are not authentic. There are a plethora of websites, hotlines, and crisis centers that
purport the kind of mentality you are refering to. It’s about time that an alternate view be represented.
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For me, have seen suicide and been through the feeling of it when someone close did it. I understand now that people who commit suicide isn’t self absorbed totally. Some of them may think that death is a better option for the horrible things they did. it’s a feeling of guilt and shame that drives them to the corner of it. Most of you only speak on the point of view that life is valuable based only on your experinced without seeing or going through the pain they have. Some of them had done terrible things and knows that whats done can’t be taken back. Some have failed on something which they hope for so much but never seem to achieve. Some even done it with the pain of heartbroken that they feel so depresed. The point is that most of them feel incomplete and think that to achieve that completeness is impossible for them. It’s true that I think no one in his world can be perfect but my advise for those who wants to end it, “Look yourself in the mirror and ask a question, ‘Will it be better after i am gone?’.
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It’s simple if your suicidle and ppl say oooh dont kill yourself there are other soulutons, thats bullshit if you dont kill yourself then you will still feel pain of watever happens in life theres no garuntee if you choose to live everything will be sweet and nothing can hurt you whereas if you kill youself it’s over no pain left to feel just nothing therefore i think the best option if your really seriouse bout suicide is just go for it, i just wish i had the balls (and rope) to hang myself.
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“Look yourself in the mirror and ask a question, ‘Will it be better after i am gone?”
For many, especially that have committed suicide, the answer is yes.
This whole argument boils down to what rights one has over one’s own body. If one opts to live, there appears to be no social conflict. However, if one opts to die, the converse is
true. The attempt of government, hospitals, churches, schools, prisons, and a plethora of other institutions are in the business of exerting control. Their aim is to manipulate the docile body. To dissect it, to control it. Any deviation is labeled a pathology. Of course, this is nonsense, but based on anti-suicide sentiments seen in this blog, it is apparent that people more than willingly ceded
their agency to such institutions. Their minds have been etched with the “ethics” of those who exert social control.
In essence, they are not free thinkers, but mindless followers.
Those who openly and proudly expose pro-suicide views are accordingly deemed as anti-social. In reality, those who wish to engage in self deliverance are mentally strong, for they have resisted the rhetoric of those who wish to control their body and mind. There is nothing wrong in wanting to end one’s life for a plethora of reasons. Because people do not willingly cede their agency, does not make them pathological. Accordingly, they should not be judged, told what to do, or be asked to look in the mirror to reflect upon a rhetorical question. Such introspection has already
taken place. Therefore, when I look in the mirror and ask will I better of after I am gone, the answer is a resounding yes.
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So what’s up fellas? you’re getting kicked?
have you felt like a state of depression, you cant go out too many time but you enjoy it? hahaha. come on, reply
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umm…obregon? who the hell are you talking to? and what the hell are yoy trying to say? I didn’t even understand the lot of what you were trying to communicate. Next time, speak English ya tit p!ss.
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honestly i think suicide is your choice no im not for it but thats because ive lost amazing friends who have done it in the last 4 years ive lost 6 friends one even hung himself befor he got to 7th grade he was an amazing guy with so much life to live but he thought that no one cared and everyone had given up on him no matter what you think and how you feel i can honestly say there is at least one person out in the world somewhere that does love you or will love you not only for you acomplishments and the life you bring and live but also for your faults and maybe right now life doesnt feel like its worth living i know the feeling i got raped when i was 13 and i became pregnant evryone called me whore and said i lied i was so depressed i didnt hang out with friends i didnt go anywhere i spent all my time in my room after a while friends started to come by all the time cause i was normally a fun loving and bubbly person and they were worried my family also started taking a notice and started doing anything to make me feel better now im 15 im a sophmore in high school and im a mother to the most amazing little boy yes his conception was from a horrible event but i couldnt love him any more even if the guy i got pregnant by was the love of my life i no longer hide like a hermit im back to my normal self so believe it not someone loves you and cares about you and someone will miss you when your gone
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and i also think if you are against suicide you shouldnt be on this site no im not suicidal no i dont support it but i do think its your choice so quit with the bitchy comments you just make people feel worse and if your posting comments about being suicidal for attention quit some people are actually suicidal and need some one to talk to or even be there in spirit so they can ultimatley do what they decide in the end and i dont believe no one can stop you im proof my friends and family and MY SON stopped me
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i tried 2 end ma life so many times but it juss wont work……if sum 1 wants 2 kill their self than who can tell them no? its our choice 2 end our lives or not so fuck it if they tell u no juss do what eva u want its up 2 u. 4 realz yo
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Camden14—–I highly suggest going back to school to learn some grammar because your’s suck’s. I don’t understand why you along with so many other people try to abbreviate words but still use the same amount of letter’s but wrong letter’s. It only makes what your trying to say sound so uneducated. The purpose of abbreviation is to cut back on the amount of letter’s being used. This may sound petty but I am so tired of people who can’t type or spell correctly. My advice,,if your going to use the same amount of letter’s use the correct one’s. “4 realz yo”
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greenfuckinghell this isnt a site to be complaining about peoples grammar if they want to type all fucked up let them ist not your place to complain
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but what if you have tried almost every option to make your life happy.. starting with trying to love your self … but you cant seem to make anything work.. doesnt that mean you are completely useless and all you are is one big blob to the world. then what.. whats the point.. and then you keep thinking about suicide. but then you are way to affraid too.. .so then you get stuck in this stupid world and there is no way to escape.. so the pain gets worse and worse. until one day you do it. when does that day come? i hope soon.
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OMG THE PIC WITH A HUGE CUT ON THE ARM IS REALLY HORRIBLE!! I CUT MY HAND MANY TIMES BUT IT DIDN’T BLEED ALOT AS I THOUGHT :/
EVERY DAY I SPEND IN MY LIFE ISN’T WORTHY, I FEEL LIKE I’M A PROBLEM IN THIS LIFE.. ALTHOUGH I HAVE A GOOD REPUTATION AMONG MY PEOPLE, I STILL HATE MYSELF.. I’M 21YRS OLD AND I’VE BEEN THINKING COMMITTING SUICIDE SINCE I WAS 11 YRS OLD.. THE REASON THAT MADE A LIVE IS MY FAITH IN GOD… BUT IT WON’T STILL FOR SO LONG..
I’M SICK OF GETTING ADVISED BY MY CLOSE FRIENDS WHEN I TELL THEM ABOUT MY DEEP DEPRESSION AND I WANNA SUICIDE.. THEY ALWAYS DON’T GET MY IDEA!! I’M NOT IMMORTAL STUPIDS! I’LL DIE SOONER OR LATER BUT I FEEL GUILTY BEING IN THIS WORLD
I LOVE U MOM & DAD
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here`s the deal of life.
You whom do not have a reason to commit suicide in your wonderfull little protected life ,protected and cared by all your surroundings ,stop making this world a place for some of us to want to commit suicide. and we`ll stop wanting to commit suicide.
Suicide is the result of all uncaring unfeeling colds selfish self centered protected by everyone type people .
One of the kids has actually said exactly what it was all about before he blew all those kids (Teasing ,cold hearted) away and then himself.
GET THE MESSAGE!!!
lets see if the teasers can cope with it for a week ,let alone their entire life.
You NORMAL (BARF) people are the CAUSE of these actions.
IS IT REALLY NEEDED TO BULLY OR PESTER.
How long before anyone you know blows up for a little thing such as a fucking wedding cake in the wrong color ,or some other meaningless crap. weigh that against a life long of shit.
I guarantee that those people will consider suicide at the slightest hint of a drawback in business or relation or not winning a competetion etc etc etc.
I have seen all you humans do this in all the world.
rich and poor.
It is the people that have taken crap from you BILLIONS OF SMUCKS that are the strongest beings on the planet.
not the rich or poor but the uncaring cold hearted (Need to make a joke out of someones missery) type people who created this never ending stream of shit in the world.
and then they have the fucking nerve to point the finger at us?!
well who the fuck made us this way!!!!!
Now the time has come to reap what you have sown.
A word to my fellow suicidal (Maniacs), God will accept you into her/his world just as wlecoming as anybody else who has never done anything wrong.
FACT=NICE PEOPLE GET SHAT ON
FACT=BITCHES & SOB`s GET RESPECT
FACT=our mothers taught us the opposite
FACT=ALL HUMAN LIFE IS A LIE.
Now for those who want to commit suicide, there is a way to do it without any more pain
Why die in pain when you have lived in Pain (Forget the Normal people to ever comprehend this)
They only know how to deal out the pain but they are so weak that they have to do that in order to stay out of the victims point of view for they could not take even a fraction of what you are going through
Back to GOD.
You are ALL equal in my eyes.
you are NOT at SIN to want to end it.
I say Welcome home kids.
the rest you will find out when you either are HOME or Meditate with me (PRAY)=(TALK) to me in all sincerety.
You talk and I`ll Listen.
Take another look at OH GOD and OH GOD BOOK TWO.
GOD HAS INSPIRED THE PEOPLE to make a movie about HER/HIM
GOD LOVES ALL LIFE (THIS MEANS YOU!!!)
ALL OF YOU.
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So many ways to end Life; problems we have in life are hard to deal with especially when the one you love does not want to understand how bi-polar effects moods when arguements about simple things in life occur; Especially when your Wife says that they Love you and are needed in there Life .Words are misleading and confusing. My honesty is not enough it seems.I have been depressed most of my Life . Sometimes I don’t how I made it to 49 yrs. old. As I am getting older suicide is more probable since my pain has drained me mentally and physically.I know suicides hurt Loved ones; lessons in Life suck. Feel free to write if you should have any negative or positive views on thoughts of suicide
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I am ugly and wish I was dead. Is there any suicide methods that look like they were accidental? See, my dad killed himself and it wrecked my mom. She felt like a failure. I don’t want her to feel like a failure again. She’ll be sad I am dead but she won’t feel like it was her fault if it wasn’t suicide…
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@ Ashley,
well, if you have the chance to take a car, take it, and drive with a high miles pro hours over a street, onwith stands trees at the edge.
Than drive straight against a tree.
The people would say, that you you lost the control over the car, and they would say that that suicide was an accident.
Sry for my bad English, I hope you understand me…
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“”"”John Jacob Jingle Hymer Smidt (About Me) Says:
August 3rd, 2008 at 8:00 pm
Perhaps a reservation of judgement is appropriate. After suicide perhaps? What does anyone know anyhow? I would love to assist others in self extermination. If only they aren’t usually the type of people that actually deserve to live. Irony. Ain’t it a bitch.”"”
ok come help me comit suicide i live at 80 north main street saint albains vermont… life is a bitch so bring a bomb so i can take a few asshole with me
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All I can say is that I had enough. I am 45, single, no children, without a job for 1 1/2 years, with a mortgage to pay and another bank loan, no friends where I live (most people I know are all greedy and superficial). I am just extremely tired of everything because nothing in my life improves, no matter how hard I try. Life in this f****ng planet is nothing than Hell – thanks to whatever “God” who created it (who is just a big COWARD). I have been researching on painless suicide methods, and everything indicates that asphyxiation by using an inert gas (nitrogen or helium) is the best way to go. I might give this a try quite soon. After all, we are all going to die one day, and for me it does not matter if it was today. What is the point of living in nothing than frustration and irritation? As years go by, I will not become more attractive to find a lover or a job, and as years go by, I might get all kind of health problems, and die a slow death – like many old people do. For those who think that suicide is a coward act, read this site: http://www.suicide.org.
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@fallenangel, I don’t have a license… won’t work. Besides, that won’t guarantee death. I could end up being alive but paralyzed or something… that would be worse.
@Andy… yeah I am in the same situation, though I rent. Just got laid off from my job. There are no job prospects in this area and I don’t have a license. I just moved three weeks ago, so moving isn’t an option because it was expensive to move in the first place. It sucked, my boss knew I was moving and then lays me off two weeks later. I have no friends at all, people don’t want anything to do with me because I am ugly. They make fun of me everyday for it. My sister tells me I am ugly and then tells me to get over it if I get angry with her. She is beautiful, we have different fathers. My mother sure chose right for her…
I’ve never had a boyfriend. I spend every single day completely alone with no one to talk to except friends on the internet. It really isn’t the same, I need friends I can do stuff with. Whenever I go to the coffee shop, they purposely make my coffee gross. I know this because the people who work there don’t like me. They always whip my change at me from across the counter.
I’m 22, people tell me things can better but I doubt it. All I can see is another twenty years of being treated like shit just because of the way I look. I bend over backwards for people and they don’t give a damn. My facebook has 160 friends and only one person is a true friend, and she lives in the city. The rest added me to boost their friend list. I leave messages saying, hey how is it going or something and they ignore it. People from school days see me but walk right on by as if they don’t know me.
I like doing the same things people my age do, I talk about the same things but they don’t want anything to do with me just because I am ugly.
Reading your post just tells me that I am likely going to end up 45 years old and in the exact position you are in. I just need to find a way to do it that looks like an accident. My mom and sister don’t need to go through another suicide. It wrecked our lives when my dad did it.
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Woah. ha. good ideas. way to show us how. but wheres the druggie?
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anyone wants to commit suicide together?email me.punkcherry.x@Hotmail.com
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we are getting our life according to our deeds we did in the past lives. We get the family, environment, friends, social circle etc. to gain from the past lives good deeds and also get pain and difficult times according to past lives bad deeds we did. If we are passing through difficult times now we should understand that we are clearing our account and if we suicide, it means we are carry forwarding the bad deeds in the next life we are going to get, and may be, we get more tougher times there. As We all are souls, apart from this body, and soul never dies, it only changes the body.
So before you think of suiciding, first think, can this settles my account.
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Jesus, these pics are real…Quit being such a pussy. Believe it there are worse and will be. Still shouldn’t comment another peoples feelings even though you think you “feel” them or know.. you really don’t.. So let them go on to another alt. world of nothingness. If there was some other ” Purpose” for them ,it’ll come to them. or they’ll just die.. simple.
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Another tid-bit, would it better for me to stay here in this world and increase my hate and disgust for others.. probably dwell another life’s worth of shit..and one day snap and turn on others rather than myself?…Is it selfish to end your own before you know you go completely sour.?
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And when you think about it, those who want you to stay are selfish as well. People say it’s selfish for someone to commit suicide because it will hurt those who they leave behind. Well, a person who wants to commit suicide is in a lot of pain. Is it not selfish to want to keep someone in that pain? Say a person has been depressed for years, they’ve taken antidepressants, they’ve been to therapy but they are still in a lot of emotional pain. They would just be happier to end it all. But they stay because their family wants them to stay, yet their family ignores them half the time. Who is being selfish?
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You are absolutely right about the selfishness of those who want to keep people alive, and in pain, for their own self interests. For example, doctors, pharmacutical companies, and hospitals exploit the chronically and terminally ill in order to bilk insurance companies, as well as deflate the bank accounts of patients and their families. They do so out of capitalistic greed, not for humanitarian purposes. Keeping a brain dead patient alive via life support, especially when a living will is in place which explicitly stating “do not resuscitate,” serves no purpose other than to line the coffers of the medcial community. Truly shameful.
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Its a cool site. Suicide is always an option that I have in my mind.
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I was suicidel and its not the answer. It’s a selfish and cruel way to die. It not only hurts you but everyone you leave behind. It’s stupid don’t do it. There are meds im on meds for mine and its been 6 years and im doing great.
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I tried to kill myselg 10 years ago and I perfectly understand why it seems like the best and only option at times, bu now I have a beautiful child and life that I adore. Life is not any easier– probably much harder. It is all about perspective and how deeply into our egos we allow ouselves to go. Four months ago my gorgeous boyfriend shot himself in the head. He survived– but not so gorgous any more. He blew his entire face off. What a mess! Trust me I had to fish out all of the important stuff out of the blood and flesh that was splattered everyshere. Not too mention the legal, emotional, and financial mess it created. How do you explain the deformation to a four year old. I don’t love him any less for his weakness, but it is oh so hard! Please think of all of the alternatives. What about taking all of the money you have even just five hundred bucks– driving to the beach and seeing what could happen next! Life is full of surprises– create good ones!!!!
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i have tried to kill my self but every time i get close i think of all the good things in my life but then i think about all the bad stuff like when i was little i got beat by my sister. and then after thinking about all that i say fuck it and try it again and this time i succeed and my mom found me laying on the floor with blood on the floor and a pill bottle next to me but she took me to the hospital so i told her fuck life what is the point of living.
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“I was suicidel and its not the answer.”
-Interesting, if not beaten to death point, but why?
“It’s a selfish and cruel way to die.”
-Again, how is it selfish, and how is it cruel? Your simple minded conjectures have been discussed and reputiated in the above posts.
“It not only hurts you but everyone you leave behind.”
-How do you know it hurts me? Indeed, how do you know anything about me? Furthermore, you assume that I am hurting those I leave behind. How do you know that I have anyone to leave behind? And, if I did, how do you know they would be hurt. As confirmed in Durkheim’s book entitled “Suicide,” most people who engage in self deliverence don’t have anyone. They are not integrated into a social system, whether it be family, school, or even something as fictitous as a religous body.
“There are meds im on meds for mine and its been 6 years and im doing great.”
-I’m thrilled that you are doing “great” on meds. What type of condition do you have? Are you bi-polar, uni-polar? Do you display syptoms of flat affect? Regardless, MAOI’s and SSRI’s have been proven ineffective for most people. In fact, in Gray’s book entitled “Psychology,” long recognized as the superior word on the topic and therefore taught in major universities, double blind scientific studies confirm that medications which stimulate neuro-transmission does not work. Any perceived benefit has been correlated with psychological beliefs that medications work, and/or with the passage of time. Moreover, long term effects of medications are currently unknown. Indded, you may be poising yourself, which will have the opposite effect of your intent.
Regardless, people who seriously wish to die have already contemplated and utilized a plethora of pharmacology. Simply put, It hasn’t worked, which only leads to futher depression. The same can be said for psychology, I.e. “talk therapy.” Similarly, for many time has only augmented pain, not diminished it. However, the core of your “arguement” needs investigation. You suggest that depression is casual in suicide. Although depression, whether caused from a physiological disposition, or from something as devestating as social rejection, may play a role, but may not be causal. In many people who commit suicide, deteriorating health is the primary indepentant variable.
Suicide is a complex phenomenon that has yet to be fully understood by the medical community, let alone by you. When you offer simplistic and sophmoric platitudes as if they were a panacia, you not only belittle those contemplating their life, you belittle yourself.
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“This whole argument boils down to what rights one has over one’s own body. If one opts to live, there appears to be no social conflict. However, if one opts to die, the converse is
true. The attempt of government, hospitals, churches, schools, prisons, and a plethora of other institutions are in the business of exerting control. Their aim is to manipulate the docile body. To dissect it, to control it. Any deviation is labeled a pathology. Of course, this is nonsense, but based on anti-suicide sentiments seen in this blog, it is apparent that people more than willingly ceded
their agency to such institutions. Their minds have been etched with the “ethics” of those who exert social control.
In essence, they are not free thinkers, but mindless followers.”
This seems sort of hypocritical, in the fact that you seem to be biased against people, who are against suicide.
Being against suicide doesn’t mean you’re “siding with the man.” Its just the person’s overall morals, and its an opinion. Your personal opinion is that suicide is a valid thing to do, when you encounter enough pain that you don’t want to have to deal with it, because of fear of prolonged pain. But you’ve stated that you were suicidal, but yet here you are, still talking about the choice.
Depression is indeed a serious case, I’m not knocking that. But usually it seems the people who type here, promoting suicide seem to not have a valid reason for doing so.
Everyday, life presents itself with new challenges, sometimes life fucks you in the ass, royally I might add.
But suicide is never the answer, emotional pain is slightly worse than physical pain, because usually, it takes longer to heal. But to make a comparision of physical pain, to emotional pain to promote suicide is the wrong thing to do.
To kill yourself over anyone is sad, and I don’t mean that in a deragatory way either. But emotional pain can usually be cured through being social, and finding new people to talk to. Or just relieving stress through a medium, blogging, writing music, writing poetry, all of those are the most famous ways of expressing discord and discontent.
I say try these methods fully, before trying to off yourself.
Most kids who try to decide whether or not to kill themself, are in Middle School, or High School, people who don’t understand the world enough, who think they’re experiencing the most pain in the world.
When what they’re experiencing is just a part of life, sadly enough.
Yeah, its shitty, yeah, it sucks, and yeah, it really fucking hurts.
But thats life, with every good thing, there’s usually a bad one right around the corner.
Its better to live in the now, than in the past, although I understand that that’s harder for some, than for others.
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chris Reply:
August 18th, 2009 at 7:22 pm
Dear Edification,
No one is being hypocritical here, for there is no bias against people, who are against suicide. What the bias is against is misinformation and those who negate verifiable scientific data. In addition, you falsely claim hypocrisy because “you’ve stated that you were suicidal, but yet here you are, still talking about the choice.” That does not mean I will not be engage in self deliverance in the future. Indeed, research has verified that in males, there are approximately eight attempts before the act comes to fruition. Furthermore, you are correct in denoting that “depression is indeed a serious case.” While no one here is “promoting” suicide (don’t know where you got that from), people who resonate with the topic do so not because of the challenges of “everyday life,” as you so eloquently stated. Indeed, challenges for the suicidal are not mundane or common, but extraordinary. Moreover, they are the result of the social context in which one resides. Inescapable and implacable, it is the social structure that mediates the behavior, not the converse. Our inability to exercise free will, antithetical to what most people realize, is astonishing. Furthermore, you are likewise to correct to notate that “to kill yourself over anyone is sad.” Sad but true. People who are rejected and isolated are more likely to engage with suicide. But it is a far more complex issue that one may think. Integrating oneself into a social network (which indeed mitigates suicide), is not an easy task. The more one is rejected, the less likely one integrates. This cycle of rejection and failed attempts at social integration increases in velocity, further augmenting the uncontrollable desire to end one’s life. Moreover emotional pain is never “cured” through blogging or writing music. Such methods may provide temporary outlets, and are analogous to placing band aid on a wound created by a torpedo. Lastly, you are intent to focus your comments on “kids.” As we age, and our bodies deteriorate, our family dies off, and we become isolated and alone, we are far more like to commit suicide. Single adult males who live in urban centers who are isolated are the most likely to engage in suicide. Interestingly, coronary studies show that such individuals are most likely to end their life in the month of April. Regardless, your empathy, and subsequent understanding of the topic, should be placed with those which you would perceive at highest risk, rather than with children who are experiencing life’s growing pains. There is a great disparity between a man dying of cancer, alone, rejected by his family, financially ruined, isolated, and unable to tend for himself than there is between a boy who was unable to obtain a date for a party. Indeed life sucks, and “it really fucking hurts,” but there are degrees, and a one size fits all mentality regarding suicide necessitates edification.
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chris Reply:
August 18th, 2009 at 7:27 pm
Forgot to mention, that those who wish to impose their beliefs that all suicide is wrong for everyone at all times (similar to the anti-choice people), are the ones that are “siding with the man.” Please read my comments, which I stand behind, again for edification.
“This whole argument boils down to what rights one has over one’s own body. If one opts to live, there appears to be no social conflict. However, if one opts to die, the converse is
true. The attempt of government, hospitals, churches, schools, prisons, and a plethora of other institutions are in the business of exerting control. Their aim is to manipulate the docile body. To dissect it, to control it. Any deviation is labeled a pathology. Of course, this is nonsense, but based on anti-suicide sentiments seen in this blog, it is apparent that people more than willingly ceded their agency to such institutions. Their minds have been etched with the “ethics” of those who exert social control. In essence, they are not free thinkers, but mindless followers.”
Best,
Chris
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“There are meds im on meds for mine and its been 6 years and im doing great.”
Not saying all of them do, but a lot of med’s increase suicidal thoughts. And the med’s I was on made me gain weight. So I went off of them. I was already depressed about my appearance, that just made it worse.
“Depression is indeed a serious case, I’m not knocking that. But usually it seems the people who type here, promoting suicide seem to not have a valid reason for doing so.”
Everyone I meet wants nothing to do with me because of the way I look. I’ve tried making friends, I go out and I’m friendly. People will look at me with disgust, whisper behind their hands that I am ugly. People bark at me on the streets. My own sister wants nothing to do with me because of it. She won in the looks department because we have different fathers.
The only reason why I haven’t done it yet is because when my dad killed himself it put the family through hell. Even though my mom and sister ignore me I know they would go through hell if I did it. That’s why I am still here. I hope all the time that something will kill me naturally.
I’m being shunned by society just because of my face. I think that’s a good reason to do it. So no therapist or pill can help me because I am this way because people won’t stop treating me like shit. I can talk to a therapist about my feelings but I will still be barked at. I am 22 years old, I’ve been in hell since I was 14. Life is not going to improve for me.
My dad’s reasons for killing himself were selfish and so he shouldn’t have done it. He had a wife and a little girl, well two if he counted my sister he had a reason to live. I have no one. I will never be in a relationship because of it. I just lost a whole bunch of weight hoping that would help me but I am doomed to be fugly for ever. I’m only going to get older and uglier.
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Kevin Reply:
May 30th, 2009 at 2:43 pm
@Ashley,
It’s been almost a year since you last posted here, so you’ll probably never see this, but if you do, I just want to tell you that I’m in the same situation as you and I want to talk to you. If you’re still on facebook, my account is “Kevin Winnipeg”.
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KevinInWinnipeg Reply:
May 30th, 2009 at 3:39 pm
@Ashley,
It’s not hopeless. I know for a fact that there’s at least one guy out there who is in the same situation as you and who wants to reach out to you. Find him, and use him to turn your life around!
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You do realize that by putting up suicide suggestions (as some may take it), this could be harmful to people who are browsing the internet to look for the easiest suicide.
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You are right Sara, those methods are kinda “old”. There are some cocktails out there that would do the trick in one day..sleep and you are gone(DC AC cocktail). See? EASIEST methods out there, oh no not really..nembutal beats all.
Enjoy!
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that cut looks twice as deep as mine
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Want to know how to kill yourself by accident? Drink a lot of water. Just keep drink as much as you can throughout the day. Don’t believe that can kill you? Google it. You could also try to see how much water you can chug under a hour. I believe that’s called water poisoning. What happens is you take in too much water and your stomach can burst or else you can flood your kidneys.
I read a couple articles about this stuff. However, if you want to make it like a true accident I would just drink as much water as you possibly could in a day. I’ll see if I can look up the link that explains. But I am sure if you really want to do it you could just google it!
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“This seems sort of hypocritical, in the fact that you seem to be biased against people, who are against suicide.”
-WRONG. If people wish to engage, or not engage, in suicide, I support either choice. Such determinations are based on the personal judgements of individuals. It is not appropriate for me, or anyone, to infer personal bias or interpret morality regarding suicide, or to invoke a false understanding of the situation and context in which others unwillingly find themselves. Accordingly, you have no basis to qualify me as being “hypocritical,” for I have neither state or implied your false accusations.
“You stated that you were suicidal, but yet here you are, still talking about the choice.”
-Your statement unintendly validates my point, as well as my belief system. As stated above, I support “choice,” regardless of what that choice is. If I determine that my life has run its course, and should therefore end, then I am the creator and proprietor of that choice. Death, and specifically suicide, is one of the only things in life in which we can exercise some control. My decisions are not reflective of your situation or your choices, of which I am equally supportive of.
“It seems the people who type here, promoting suicide seem to not have a valid reason for doing so.”
-You don’t seem to understand that validty of reason is determined solely by individuals contemplating life or death. It is not for anyone else to contemplate.
Again, the point is control over one’s body. If you do not like what someone does with their body, then do not do the same with yours. When we judge others who wish to die, we impose our morals, values, and biases, which only tirivializes and demeans.
“Everyday, life presents itself with new challenges, sometimes life fucks you in the ass, royally I might add.”
-Indeed you are correct. Challenges abound for all. However, what “fucks YOU in the ass” is very different that what fucks someone else.
“But suicide is never the answer, emotional pain is slightly worse than physical pain, because usually, it takes longer to heal”
-Again, this is your “opinion.” Indeed, suicide is, and has been the answer since civilization began. As far as you analysis of “emotional” versus “physical” pain, such comments are constructed on a frame of personal reference, rather than scientific knowledge. Indeed, physical pain can be deleterious beyond repair, and it can percipitate emotional pain. The converse is also true. Fortunatley, medical journals containing scientific data regarding this matter are available. I would summize that such information may prove to be a more valid source of information than well intentioned conjecture.
“emotional pain can usually be cured through being social, and finding new people to talk to.”
Correct, but not completely. Durkheim’s theory of suicide validates your that those who opt out of life do so because they are not socially integrated. However, Durkheim also evidences that integration must be coupled with regulation, which deals with rules. This concept is unfortunately to complex to get into in this post, but your comment does bear some truth. Regardless, the reason why people don’t integrate is because they can’t integrate. Such attempts have been greeted with rejections, hence isolation and suicidal thought. The process is cyclical. Take homosexuals, for example. Gays, are rejected by family, churches, government, schools, and society in general. THey are even isolated in prisons. Accordingly, they are socially constructed and subsequently labeled as pathological and deviant. As a result, people who are Gay, especially males, commit suicide at statistically higher rates because they are isolated, and can not fully integrated into society. Mind you, this is but one example, and a simplistic one at that, and not intende to be a critique of homosexuality, which I personally do not believe is pathological. Of further note, the elderly are likewise statistically more likely to engage in suicide than youth. Rendered to inferior old age homes, they suffer the same isolating inflictions which subsequenlty lead to suicice.
You also claim that people can become less suicidal if they relieve “stress through a medium, blogging, writing music, writing poetry, all of those are the most famous ways of expressing discord and discontent.
-I wish so much this were true, but the historical legacy of the arts points in the opposite direction. Great painters have dismembered their bodies before committing suicide. Similarly, composers and authors, who are equally misunderstood, shunned, and isolated by society, have done the same. Interestingly, the vary nature of artistic pursuits necessitates a process which is isolating unto itself. Painting, composing, and writing are performed inj solitaire. I don’t necessarily think that working on artistic projects percipitates suicide, however. Instead, people who tend to be creative are drawn to the arts in order to develop and hone their natural tendencies.
There is much genetic data regarding creativity, isolation, and suicide, as there is between homosexuality and suicide, and disabling diseases and self deliverence. It is not creativity or homosexuality that specifically leads to suicide, but how society views people who are creative and/or gay. Interestingly, many people who are gay are also creative, and therefore at greater risk. All one needs to do is look at how society, both present and historically, has viewed such people to understand how they become isolated which, as you noted, can lead to suicide.
Interestingly, the geneticist who discovered the double helix believes that the “creative/depressive gene” can be isolated and therefore detected in a fetus. Accordingly, if parents know beforehand that their child has the potential for creativity and corresponding depression, they would have the option to abort. Ditto for homosexuality and certain disabling and painful diseases. Of course this is a highly charged debate, and I am not taking sides. Simplistically speaking, and if one accepts the theory, wouldn’t that be a sad commentary on society to have only happy un-creative people who will never paint great works of art, compose sympohnies, or write poetry of unrequited undying love. Conversely, wouldn’t it be a relief to never experience the depths of emotional pain, or pain from a disabling disease. Or on another level, to never be rejected from society becuase you are different from the majority, because society would be homogenous, at least sexually. I honestly don’t know. Perhaps pain and suicide have a purpose after all. Perhaps it is simply a yet determined way in which biology and nature helps perpetuate humanity.
“Most kids who try to decide whether or not to kill themself, are in Middle School, or High School, people who don’t understand the world enough, who think they’re experiencing the most pain in the world.”
-I would agree with you on this point. Children do not have an understanding of the world which surrounds them. They have not developed cognitively. However, most people who commit suicide are not kids. People who do understand the world enough, or maybe to much, have substantially higher rates of suicide. Much attention and resources are focused on youth, yet our elderly remain at augmented levels of risk. Perhaps this is because we live in a youth centered society, and a suicide commited by a single youth commands greater attention than a multitude of suicides committed by adults. Regardless, it is sad that so many people are not cognizant of this fact, and unfortunately buy into the myth that suicide primarily aflicts the young.
Lastly, for Sara, who stated, “You do realize that by putting up suicide suggestions (as some may take it), this could be harmful to people who are browsing the internet to look for the easiest suicide.”
-Do you realize how harmful it is to keep a terminally ill person alive only to face unbearable and hellish pain for the remainder of their days, for no other reason than to line the coffers of greedy pharmaceutical and insurance compaines? Do you realize how harmful it is to keep a brain dead person alive, who has no control of his legs, arms, and bowels, who has written a living will delineating his will not to be kept alive, but is artifically recesitated to sustain the flow of money to selfish doctors and hospitals? Do you know how harmful it is when government officals impose their morality regarding end of life choices, taking those choices out of the hand of you and me, and placing them in the hand of people who will gain financially without thought to our wishes and desires? Do you know how harmful and dangerous that is Sara? Until you understand the overwhelming complexities of situations in which people find themselves, as well as the complexities of society in general, please refrain from your misinformed, myopic, and misguigded comments. Alghough they may be well intentioned, and may even give you the false impression that you are doing some kind of “good,” such your shallow statements are deeply offensive,
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how lovely.
i think ill go with the rope hanging.
or maybe drowning.
both very good ideas.
thanks!
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well idk but all these have passed through my mind, however i like to taunt myself, and attempt suicide every couple years, i dont want to die, but i do want to feel pain and suffering of my consiquences and of my actions. i like to play games with my body, and hopefully ruin all internall organs in the process, i love to think about all the posibilities of death, its like a hobby but not quite. i love to put my loved ones in scare, and make them suffer, but not to the extreme of completely killing myself. i like doing that so that when i do snap completely it wont be much of a suprise. i probably sound completely nuts, but oh well fuck it lol i am. my grandfather is a minister, ive thought about ending my life so he can do the funeral, but why give him the satisfaction? these ideas are for the boring ones, i want to be way more creative. thought about making a statement, but thats old too. idk ill figure something out ha. they say seeing death really seeing it changes minds about dieing ha it makes me even more interested! however my sis thinks that ppl who want to die or kill themselves is pathetic, i say sure why not go with it, so im pathetic like thats going to change my mind ha. killing yourself is a choice you make, and a destiny u create. love or hate life up to you, as for me ill play still..
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honestly people who wanna kill themselves are straight up fucked.. baby girl ur just a loser who cant go out and find friends like a normal person.. people who wanna commit suicide should shut their selfish mouths and live their life like its intended to be .. stop encouraging people to kill themselves fuckin retards
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“killing yourself is a choice you make, and a destiny u create”
-Unfortunately, that is a completely incorrect, and inappropriate, comment. The reality is social structures mediate our behavior. This has been proven through scientific research, such as in Durkheim’s correlative book entitle “Suicide,” Another good scientific book that delineates this phenomenon is Milgram’s “Obedience to Authority.”
Unfortunately, uninformed people like “K” are allowed to post false statements, because they don’t know better.
Furthermore, “K” talks about all the family members he has, and all the pain he supposedly will cause should he pursue suicide. The reality is most people who engage in suicide do not have social (I.e. family) structures. Indeed, K’s “ideas” are not only “old and boring,” but they are misguided because they are false.
My unsolicited suggestion to K is to read about the topic through credible (scientific) means. Books on Sociology and Psychology would provide a good access point.
Finally, I’m sorry to hear that K’s sister “thinks that people who want to die or kill themselves is pathetic.” Again, nothing could be further from the truth. When you make such statements like that, K, you are the only one who is pathetic.
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thanx i didnt know it only takes a second with a gun im really sick and tired of the pain and suffering
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yeah every1 wants2 say sumthng 2 show th@ they know what this thing is about,sure,y not,go ahead,nothing’s stopping u right?
U r all pro’s,u want 2 seem lyk u have more experience right?Hooray 4 u then,y r u still around?
I was thinking of ending it myself,still am but,I don’t know what’s stopping me.Itried by starving myself,overdosing pills,holding a knife against my chest,guess I didn’t succeed.
Wana help me out?C’mon now,where r all the pro’s that claim 2 be the best,with experience?Speechless?
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YOu better just make sure you do it right the first time. Whats one less person in the world going to hurt?
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Hi everyone,i just wanted to say hold on a little while longer the king will return soon.Everyone feels pain ,sadness ,and sorrow in life,just as Christ did as he walked the earth,and just as he did when he died on the cross.I know that there are some who will read this and think here we go again with this BS,but i just wanted to say that organized religion or organized anything for that matter usually has a agenda that caters to its own purpose and or goals,the wonderful thing about Christ is that you need no other assistance from anything or anyone,you need only to suspend your disbelief for only a few seconds and that is all the time that is needed for him to enter into your heart.
The whole function of the world is to distract you from the fact that above all else you have someone in heaven that not only would, but did give his life for you as well as me,someone who stands for all the things that we should stand for but don’t because of the way the world has conditioned generations to be selfish,abrasive and uncompassionate to the needs and feeling of others.
I mean think about it why do you think the world is always in a constant state of rushing and fast movement,that because the faster something goes the less chance you have of seeing all of the BS that its composed of.There are forces of wickedness and evil at work everyday and that is where suicide comes in , its okay to be fearful, its ok to get weary,but do not bow down to these evil forces stay in there and keep swinging if for no other reasons than to spite these forces that seek to keep you from your happiness.
Christ has overcome the world and i see it everyday because if he had not than this crap(the world)would have went up in smoke along time ago ,we would have destroyed one another a long time ago.The Son has prepared a place for all of us a place where pain,suffering,fear,anger, hatred ,and depression will cease to exsist.For those who may feel like they have no one that loves them, no one that cares, i want to say that I love you and that i care,but even more important than me ,is that Christ loves you and Christ cares.
Hold on people we are almost home, i know things are bad but just try for one second to Forget the world ,forget your finances ,forget your material possesions,forget your job or lack of a job,forget any physical or earthly imperfections you may be concerned with,forget them for just a few seconds and when you are quiet and still and all by yourself ask Christ into your heart do this and the size of the whole world will shrink and so shall all of its problems along with it.
I love you all
Joseph
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Tom Reply:
May 8th, 2009 at 2:30 am
Joseph,
Your message has been truly uplifting and inspiring to me. Especially the quote, “There are forces of wickedness and evil at work everyday and that is where suicide comes in , its okay to be fearful, its ok to get weary,but do not bow down to these evil forces stay in there and keep swinging if for no other reasons than to spite these forces that seek to keep you from your happiness.” Everyone on this post keep saying that suicide is the answer to dealing with pain and all of life’s conflicts. Just those words you wrote have convinced me otherwise. I’ve been contemplating suicide on and off for about 4 years, ever since my parents were going through a divorce. Just these past two years I’ve lost two of my closest friends and mentors; Zoli and Dr. Patterson.
I’ve also my mother, just this January. She ailed not only from the BS from the divorce, but from the advanced stages of Parkinson’s Disease. So, I’ve definitely gone through my share of loss. Zoli and I were both interested in Renewable energy, and I made a promise to Zoli after he died that I would fulfill my dreams for both of us. Every time I think of suicide I think of that promise I made. That is what always held me back. Lately I’ve found it difficult to make good on that promise, as I’m living with my dad, the cause of the divorce (cheated with another woman). Since I have no job, I’m forced to live with him as he is the only one that can financially support me. I’ve had to put up with so much BS lately that I reached my breaking point and that’s what led me to this site.
This time I was really serious about wanting to kill myself; I even started apologizing to Zoli, telling him I would go back on my word and simply end my pain. As I read through countless posts on this blog, your post was the only one that actually struck a cord with me. As I read your words and your talk of not bowing down to evil forces that prevent me from happiness and letting them win, I started to cry, and still am as I type this. I feel so much shame for giving up so easily. God put us on this earth to pursue happiness and to help each other in times of crisis; to give and receive love and to pursue our passions. The measure success in someone’s life does not have to do with financial statis or social standing, it has to do with how many people live better from your existence, and if you live better because of other people. Life is about pursuing these relationships.
I can say for a fact that now I truly live better because of your existence, or should I say, because of your existence, I no longer longer wish to simply give up on life and my pursuit of happiness. You are such a wonderful person for showing me that. Some of the people below might think what you said was preaching or just religious BS, but those people are just assholes that talk faster than they can read! If they had taken more time to read your comment, they might’ve actually realized that what you said had meaning. I believe in angels on earth, and you’re one of them. I would love to talk to you again sometime!
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@ Joseph,
We are a little too old for fairy tales. All nice but it doesn’t change shit about our situations. Christ this, christ that, maybe you can keep lying to yourself, but some of us can’t. Even watch the Matrix? You are the guy who saw the truth but will betray everything just so he can go back to his Safe little happy God World eating Steak. We..no, we see the world how it is (POV?), we see the bullshit,the pointless suffering and we just don’t want any part of it.
I hope you can accept that in your heart,
@ Patty: Please kil yourself.
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f*** off joseph with your preaching no one wants to hear it unless they are religious go find some religious community and preach there
THERE IS NO GOD! If there was, he wouldn’t have let the world get so fucked up
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I believe the decision to live or die depends on that person and their relationship with GOD. We all have ups and downs but if you cant find faith, hope or reason to live more than you can find reasons not to exist, then what advise can you give?
I have a chronic illness and I havent reached 35 yet. First things were allright. I felt like I could handle it but when it started messing with my brain (which may also explain why I’m suicidal), It took a different toll on me.
As far as selfishness is concerned. We live life alone. It would be good to have a personal (see, feel, and touch) relationship with GOD but he I believe in GOD but as I look more at the world, it’s getting worse and so are people.
I live for the people I know cherish me and love me but they arent there when things are hard and I know that soon, they’ll go on with their lives and I encourage them to.
When I pass, remember, I never loved or liked life anyway and the best times I remember is blackness or being in Mom’s womb. Not saying suicide is good but it depends on the person and what they’re living for.
Bless you all and I hope those of you that can be saved, will be. Including myself.
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” I have you fast in my fortress, and will not let you depart,But put you down into the dungeon ,In the round-tower of my heart. And there I will keep you forever,Yes,forever and a day, Till the walls shall crumble to ruin, And moulder in dust away”. from “The Children’s Hour” by Longfellow. I only hope that there is one person whose life I have made enough of a difference in that they may hear those words and feel that way about me. As long as I’ve left a good feeling in others, and done no harm to anyone…I’m done, I’m just tired of living’
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i want to die but i’m afraid
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Depression Mental Illness is a disease like cancer but there is an end to the suffering of cancer DEATH. Those who suffer from depression, there is no end, sure meds, therapy, positive thinking sure Ive done it all for years it helped for a while then it creps up on you again you suffer you become ashamed a burden on your family. I am tired of my 7 yr old son seeing mommy cry when everything in live is perfect. I never know when my depresion is going to hit I begged my husband to help me end this suffering. Please Ive not read if putting yourself in a garage with the car on really works I want to end this suffering for all who has watched me suffer. MJ
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In the past, before air-quality regulations and catalytic converters, suicide by carbon monoxide poisoning would often be achieved by running a car’s engine in a closed space such as a garage, or by redirecting a running car’s exhaust back inside the cabin with a hose. Motor car exhaust may have contained up to 25% carbon monoxide. However, catalytic converters can eliminate over 99% of carbon monoxide produced.
Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Suicide_methods
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PLZZZZZZZZZZZZ TELL THE PAINLESS METHOD TO SUICIDE
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Breathing an inert gas, eg. nitrogen, helium, carbon monoxide or nitrous oxide.
My research indicates suicide by carbon monoxide poisoning through burning charcoal, such as a barbecue in a sealed room is simple and painless. Popular in Japan, often in cars. The gas from the coals will displace the air in the room with carbon monoxide which is odorless, colorless and tasteless.
Btw, catalytic converters became mandatory on US cars in 1975 and UK cars in 1993.
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Charcoal-burning suicide.
Sources:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charcoal-burning_suicide
http://www.bookrags.com/wiki/Charcoal-burning_suicide
http://www.wikidoc.org/index.php/Charcoal-burning_suicide
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No offense to any of you but I actually think what this person did wasn’t as bad as everyone thinks I mean come on if your suicidal you know all this shit and chances are you’ve tried half of it the ppl that don’t know this shit are the ppl that do need to know it and also if you read it the person states the severe consequences to living any of these methods and also lists help lines at the bottom of the page so maybe you all shouldn’t be so grossed out and just be more aware that that’s the reality we all live in almost every teen goes through it and a huge percentage of them take their own lives so take a look around you and help the ones that are hurting but getting educated on this shit
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and Jenna just keep holding on no matter what you believe or don’t believe in anymore things will get better and I know everyone hears it but it will in time
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I am always thinking of committing suicide, why? Because I’m coward. You can say whatever you wanted to say because you’re not in my shoes. You don’t feel what I’m feeling right now. You don’t feel the pain and sufferings. I really have to make a choice, to continue living my life or to end this shit. I know I will hurt my family and loved ones if I commit suicide, it is also one of the things that I’m considering. But sometimes when I feel so deppressed and desperate, I only think of myself. I am not selfish because if I am, I won’t be here writing this comment. I always consider what my family would feel if I commit suicide. But this is a big black damn world. Even the very first person who should understand me, rejects me. Why can’t he understand that I’m fighting my own evil? Why can’t he understand that I am suffering so much? It is really hard to express my true emotions to him because he cannot understand. He thought that I am just making up, inventing things, rationalizing things. He thought that I only believe what is right for me and i didn’t see the whole picture. It’s like him telling me that I’m selfish and inconsiderate. He really doesn’t know the true person in me, my urge to change for the best. Ye, I am not perfect, I always freak out. I am paranoid. But there’s a reason and why can’t he understand the reason? I want to go to the psychiatrist but I don’t have money to spend for that. I pray always for guidance. But still there’s this suicide thought in my mind. Can’t help it. I want to die!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT PEACEFULNESS!
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Thanks Peter, Im feeling better today. The thoughts are still there but Im going to keep on living for now for other people in my life one day at a time god bless all of you. I know how you feel. To you Keila your man will never understand know matter how much you try and cry you need a support system there are many free groups that meet look in your local paper or call that shrinks office and they should have resources that are FREE for you to attend. These are groups of people who feel the same way you do you wont be alone there. The suicidal thoughts may never go away I know that but get out of bed take a shower and find a group help yourself your man doesnt know what or how to deal with this good luck MJ You are not selfish
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I think that dieing is a gift that we should all be able to face… Sometimes you get to the point when you know life is no longer a gift but a curse your being forced to endure. Believe in what you need to believe……
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I’ve been sitting here reading all of these other messages and none of you ‘positive people’ have one goddamned thing to say that would make any type of since to some one wanting to die. Thank you all for the input but I think this was a site made to not have to talk to people like you.
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we are all afraid of death – i think its just some that get lucky and are able to end it all. I think the trick is to invent a paranoid delusion and pretend that you are a hero or something by doing this. Otherwise the brain kicks in and fear stops you from doing it. Drink doesnt help if you feel fear. Also being with others who have the same intent in mind is beneficial if you feel fear. A suicide cult probably is the way to go.
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keila I have been in your shoes for 6 years of my life I cut up my wrists I’ve been in the hospital too many times to count for trying to take my own life believe me I know every situation is different but I have been there
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As a treatment for severe major depression, I receive and recommend electroconvulsive therapy (ECT), also known as electroshock, a treatment in which seizures are electrically induced in anesthetized patients.
I have fortnightly treatments, with most patients having treatments every few months. Sometimes I gain no benefit, but at the other end of the spectrum, it sometimes results in a feeling of euphoria lasting 1-2 weeks; fyi, I also take 2 types of antidepressants and a large daily dose of Omega 3 EPA.
I had an ECT treatment this morning (I’m in Australia), and I’m feeling much better. I have seen ECT induce mania in depressed bipolar patients.
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the one way to commit suicide painlessly is to learn to meditate and reach that level of awareness where you decide to not come back (check out all the out of body experiences) until your organic body dies ,you will probably have to help it a bit if you have people around trying to revive you.
also if you know how Inspiration works you could inspire those around you to give up.
But i have to warn you ,automatically it seems all meaning of life will become part of your knowledge and that will usually make you decide to come back.
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To Pete thanks for the info on ETC. I have heard of this but it all seemed so drastic, but at this point I may need drastic measures. Do you seem to hve less episodes of depression, my episodes seem to cycle but Im not bipolar usually the MD ups my doasage of meds (yes more then 1 too) I see my M.D. in the am so I will bring up the subject. Thanks again for your input MJ
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you all cry to damn much if your going to kill yourself do it dont cry about it to some damn website do it hang yourself, shot yourself, take pills, cut yourself veins open, walk into traffic, jump off a boat into frenzing sharks, fight a bear, do something because all of you coming to this website whinning is to mainstream stop calling out for help and end it all
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Way to go Ginger, your so right its funny isnt it how all these weak self lothing people need help from some bullshit website to deal with suicide, dont make me laugh your all weak and you should kill yourselves for thinking this would help
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Joseph, Hatepreaches,Peter,Jenna,Livingishope,Keila you should kill yourselves first and just shut the fuck up with your mindless propaganda you are all too damn pethetic to kill yourselves just keep crying about it and for any of you who want to go painlessly you have no reason to die because a true suicidal person would want to go out the way that they lived. so to peter you especially stop giving people easy ways out let them suffer those bastards deserve it
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You know how I found this site? By searching suicide… I’m sure that’s how other people that posted here as well. So I am curious Jesse, how did you find this site? You’re calling everyone on this site pathetic for needing a site to help them kill themselves, well why were you even here then?
You’re probably another person feeling down on life except your only outlet is to insult people on the internet which is pathetic. Get a fucking life you hypocrite.
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jesse wheeler I have a question for you, if that is how you feel with what you see, then why are you even here? I mean seriously tell me you haven’t ever thought of what it would be like to die? hmm you can’t say no no matter how much you try and convince us everyone thinks about it at one time or another but for some the feeling the urge the need lingers and besides who the hell are you to judge us?
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and also it may not even be suicidal or by your own hands your thoughts on it everyone has being on a roller coster that’s scary you think omg what if I die will ppl cry? will I be missed. and if this site pisses you off so much then leave you have a choice to stay here it’s free country so if this site bothers you so much then choose to leave it behind you.
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Just dont do it ok life gets better every new day is a chance to do something spectacular who in the world knows….you might be really sad but u could discover the cure for cancer and that could have been you reason god put u on this eath dont do it!!!!!!!!
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Hey.. this is fucking stupid if someone wants to die they have the right to i have tryed to do it plenty of times nut i didnt know happieness. i had trouble accepting i was going to leave the world but nou i regret what i did. just wait it out and pull through it
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I think that suicide is dumb, but I sometimes wish I had the guts to do it. The scary part is that I know all the reasons why not to commit suicide, and yet I still want to. The only thing stopping me now is fear, will I go to hell for eternity? I believe it’s unfair (what isn’t) why cant I have an easy ticket out of the pain and go the heaven? This wanting to die is recurring more often and just gets stronger every time, I hope it ends soon!
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i really dont even know what to say.. i tried to kill myself October last year.. i made myself go to a crisis stablitation unti && everything to get better.. ive been on && off bipolar meds since. && yet i find myself feeling worse && thinking more && more about how i want to do it right this time. it’s hard waking up everyday angry at the world bc for some reason u just cant be happy like everyone.. feels like there 200 lbs sitting on my checst bc i constantly feel the guilt && hopelessness waying me down.. i want to be able to tell ppl its not the way to handle ur life.. but i dont like the whole hypocrite thing.. i know it’s not the right thing to do, i have two kids, am married, && only 22 years old.. but all i can think about is i want to get better.. but there’s really no guarentee that the meds will ever work or if if they do that they always will.. but it is a good thing if ur thinking about it to talk to someone about it.. or if someone u know mentions theyre thinkig about killing themselves, dont ignore them.. they wouldnt say it if they wrent thinking about it as a serious alternative to being miserable
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in reading through a lot of these comments, i’m prety shell shocked!! i dont understand how a person could come on here && tell ppl to “go ahead && do it, what’s one less person in the world” it’s cruel and kinda pathetic. yes, i have suicidal thoughts && its been really hard for me not to act on them! i know what it’s like to not wanna feel the pain anymore, && for it to hurt to smile, but to try && force it for the people around u. it’s a struggle for me everyday. so i can see how ppl truly cannot deal with the constant thoughts && the feeling like a burden to loved ones((friends and and family)).
There is no way i could mock someone who feels that way && tell them to just off themselves and quit whining.. what kind of coward does that?? i could care less about the offering of ideas of different ways to kill urself. but it’s really disgusting to just laugh in their faces to make urself feel better.. it’s heartless and ppl like u are what make people like me believe that no one cares. all ur doing is picking on their weaknesses bc u hate ur life and wanna make someone else feel worse than u. hell, i do it all the time.
I always want ppl to feel the way i do… BUT it’s the “normal” happy ppl that i want to feel that way && i lash out b4 i even realize what i’m doing ((but i am truly working on this, maybe not getting anywhere, but i know it’s hurtful to my loved ones n aquaticences..)) but what’s the point in making someone who is already miserable feel worse.. maybe the last thing they need b4 they actually do commit suicide is feel like they had one connection, someone who understood their pain, && maybe not feel completely alone anymore.. u might even safe a life in the process.
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@ jamie – you are spot on and are one of the beautiful people in life
@ jess & likeminded ignorant people – do something productive with your life instead of being such a vile human being.
This site is to help people who want to go, go as painlessly as possible or to help people overcome their wish to die by support from people who have been through it.
So next time you want to be openly critical and nasty to someone without even understanding how they feel and what they are going through (which you plainly don’t!) go and do it phyically instead of cowardly doing it on line. i feel sorry for people like you – the ignorant poisonous people. look up karma and think how your’s will eventually come around, because it will.
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[...] this topic with myriads of schools of thought for the past few years. For many years now assisted suicide has been a deliberated topic from the points of view of all the measures to keep your knowledge as [...]
MJ: Do you seem to have less episodes of depression, my episodes seem to cycle?
I’m not bipolar either. My depression currently seems to cycle over a 7-10 day period with 3-4 days of severe depression and 3-4 days with a feeling of normality. Within each day the severity always peaks at night. Since I started ECT I have had some very favourable cycles which I attribute to ECT. With many medications and therapies it’s often difficult to be sure which is helping, but ECT benefits are immediately evident within 1-4 hours.
MJ: I see my M.D. in the am so I will bring up the subject.
Please let me know what your MD had to say.
RE: jesse wheeler and the other fools
Please ignore them. Their intent is simply to invoke a response.
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well said chris,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
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wow… that’s freaky… but i myself am 16 and my life has been going downhill for over 18 months… and i’m realy thinking of comiting suicide lately… i’m hurting myself phisicaly and mentaly! i know that i don’t like the pain but still… i can’t see a reason to live anymore… i would of done it yesterday or today if i didint want to make someone as unhappy as me… (aka my friends & family…) =(
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wow.. jamie i read your comment after i posted mine.. that’s soo true… i know what you meen… if you know that someone will realy be hurt if you went then you’ll try to fight against it… that’s the only reason why i’m still her… it’s because i don’t want to make anyone sad… i just hate it that all the kind people don’t get any credit in this life and the good looking people get everything they want..
hell it’s even my birthday soon and i don’t care… i just don’t want to live on without anything or any purpose… but i don’t want to hurt people so i’m just hurting myself the whole time mentaly…
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Thank you faith. I appreciate your comment.
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The only reason I stay is for my cat… I am so scared of what will happen to him if I am not there… pathetic huh? I love him more than my own life.
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Tired, that isn’t pathetic at least you’ve got a reason to stay, most ppl don’t… be thankful to that little kitty of yours and hang in there
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@ShyFM: i have had problems with depression and thoughts of not wantig to not be here and feel the pain anymore since i was about ur age.. it’s hard dealing with the problems in the world especially in high school sometimes.. you may not have to worry about kids or a wife or keeping most of ur bills up, but u have people at school who will say anything to make u hurt so they feel better about themselves.. i went through the same thing in high school.. i always kept to myself bc i was there for school, not a popularity contest. if u have one true friend through school, cherish it.. bc that’s what got me through it.. you gotta stay strong bc u have so much in life u havent experienced yet. make ur parents listen to you and try and get help from a pshyciatrist. and just bc u have to see what i like to call my crazy doctor
) doesnt mean u are crazy!! i promise.. only people who think they know all about life bc daddy gives them whatever the want whenever they want would try and judge you. but the truth is reality (for most of them) is going to kick them in the ass after high school. but YOU will be able to handle urself in situations pretty well once u realize it’s ok to have the suicidal thoughts, just try ur best not to act on them. talk to someone u trust about what’s going on. dont be afriad to be vunerable. ok? and i am always around here somewhere and for some reason i’m better at helping other people and giving advice than i am for myself 
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@ Tired : my mother is a double amputee and stuck in a wheelchair and i truly believe her cat is what keeps her going.. and i myself have two cats.. cats are sensitive to ur feelings and really there to comfort you (unless they get in one of there moods)
) you shouldnt feel like ur pathetic.. cats are good companions.
and finally @ LC: thank you so much for the comment, it’s so nice to know that someone out there thinks i’m not completely loopy and appreciates what i have to say. truly means a lot. thank you
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oh yea, i ran across a comment the other day that really hit home for me “suicide is not chosen, but when pain excedes ur coping for pain” (it was something like that, u get the jist) u shouldnt feel ashamed or weak bc u have these thoughts bc life is rough especially at these times… but we all have to hold on bc if we really due follow through with our suicide attempt, it could cause our parents, kids, or friends to blame themselves for not being able to be there for us, not being able to see how much we were hurting.. and they could end up not able to deal with their grief… and in return kill themselves. i dont want anyone in my life feeling the guilt that i feel everyday.. so if nothing else stick around for them and give them the chance to help you!
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my fried doing chemistry study. he wants to know about cyanide, its other chemical names, its effect on human body,
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Hydrogen cyanide: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hydrogen_cyanide
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once you dead.. how long you think the people around you gonna sit back and think about you and gonna cry? hardly a year or 2 years? well, the only thing i worry when i think about killing myself is, who will be there around my loved ones when they need some one, if i am not there? in life i dont find anything like useful/meaningful/purposeful, other than helping/ being there for some one[can be any living beings] when they need you the most.
fuck religion! god and religion are just a drug to ur head to keep you going in a controlled way. an atheist can also live a better life than the so called believers.
i even wonder why people wanna give birth to kids and bring them in to this hell damn shit life. before you born you were nothing , after you are dead again you are nothing. if you feel like you don’t wanna take this life anymore and if you find no one who needs you then if you choose to end your life soon, then i don’t think people can talk sick about that. he/she died cause you dick head not there when he/she needs some one. so please shut your fucking mouth talking bad about suiciders.
great! one fucking grand kid is longing her/his grandma to burn in hell, no wonder she committed suicide.
my cousin sista hanged herself, i saw all fucking people crying after she is dead, but when she was alive no one bothered about her cause she ran away with a guy. and one fucking pastor is crying for her cause he said she wont be in heaven. i felt like killing that fucking bastard!
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you guys are fucking sick as shit. telling people how to kill themselves. come on. grow up get a life and maybe make something out of yourselves. if you think this is so cool then take your own advice
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[...] Whenever you think of your friend or family member who considers suicide you may be afraid to bring up this subject and have a discussion. But you should openly indulge in talking to the person concerned in the aim of curbing such tendencies without losing track of their future progression in his or her life. Professionally you should give a lot of help by reinforcing the qualities of reassurance, support, empathy, as well as understanding or concern which may make your loved one to refrain from the thoughts of committing suicide. [...]
I am one of the people who want to end their own life i think Suicide is a powerful thing it’s better for me the dying a normal death because everyone who knew me would understand that i was unhappy with my life what bigger way to do that than commit suicide i do not wan’t to die unless it’s by me ending my own life that puts a statement out there anyways getting through every day is a struggle for me i’m trying to remind myself why life is fun but it never works nothing at this point in my life could make me want to live any longer everything that i used to enjoy isn’t enjoyable anymore is that life? if it is i don’t want to be any part of it i just want to go away with out having to deal with everything in my life my life has no meaning anymore and i wan’t to die. if im lucky it’l happen i only hope that some people that have had a bad life get another shot or a second chance to live to get the life they never had
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[...] suicidal tendency usually has a history of long-term unsolved problems and increasing isolation. Often medication and [...]
Every single morning my alarm clock goes off, I lie there for about 20 minutes wondering if I should actually go to work or just walk in front of a bus. Life is SHIT. I don’t enjoy anything at all anymore! I have almost no motivation to move. If my mother wasn’t alive, I’d be dead, for I know it’d ruin her life if I died. It’s the only reason why I haven’t done it. Sometimes when I’m really angry, I wish she’d die soon so I could do it too without anyone caring.
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“Professionally you should give a lot of help by reinforcing the qualities of reassurance, support, empathy, as well as understanding or concern which may make your loved one to refrain from the thoughts of committing suicide.”
People who often commit suicide DON’T HAVE A LOVED ONE!!!!!!! They don’t have a special friend, or any form of family to indulge their thoughts with. It is this isolation from others, society, and self, that percipitates suicide.
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I feel soo upset,,crying and lonely im only 14 and i see no furture for me all my friends have fell out with me for no reason and i jus want them back but i dnt see a way possible….and all i think off is dying bt im to scared to do anything so painfull and i cnt gas myself ina garage cause im only 14 and cnt get hold and do stuff lyk that….i cut myself acrosss my hand it wernt deep at all bt it hurt…and i poured ink into a bottle and drunk abit but it never did anything….i jus want my life to end….i thought sometimes that sometym soon some mad man myt jus do it for me but it hasnt happened yet….my life is over which ever way you see it….
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Peter, are you there? Ive been feeling better. I did see where the FDA approved a new less invasive electro shock therapy. It is call TMS the web sit is neurometic.com I am looking into it Im so tired of taking all these meds what are they really doing to my body and brain. I hope your hanging in there MJ To you Chelsea, you are young an need to tell someone how you feel. talk to someone you trust life is difficult at any age. I remember being that age and feeling hopeless like know one cares well there is someone out there that does care you just being on this site shows that you have reached out for support you are not alone. by the way are you on any antidepressants???
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Peter, sorry the wb site I have given to all of you is incorrect just search TMS and you wil find the info you need
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MJ, I have also been feeling better (the new meds seem to be helping), so I’m taking a break from ECT; I was having fortnightly ECT treatments. rTMS looks promising; I’ll discuss it with my psychiatrist next week, thanks.
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this kinda helps but was thinking… how can i kill myself with no chances of getting it wrong or surviving?
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I know lots of people have asked this already, but I havent been able to find a suitable answer yet.
Can someone please tell me a way to commit suicide that will make it look like an accident?
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My my..so many jobless people and so many 500 words advises. You all deserve to die as you have so much time to fill out this site with suggestions. All the best dieing. I am going to live all the days i have left from here.. Have sex, drink, laugh, cry, live every emotion, watch movies, eat everything i always wanted to eat ever, try all weird things before death comes to me. You have shown me the way to life. Thanks a ton. Live like there is no tomorrow.
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i had tried once and cut my hand deeply like all my vains were damaged but i still want to kill myself cuz just don’t wanna live the 1st picture which shown the hand which s cut badly it wa the excact situation with me
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Dear kka,
Thank you for educating me! I didn’t know that you had to by “jobless” to feel such depths of pain and suffering that one would want to engage in self deliverance. I am relieved to know that the reason someone would want to die is simply because they have nothing better to do than sit around and make “suggestions” on this site.
Perhaps you should contemplate becoming a Psychologist, unless of course you already are one, which you could very well be based on your insightful diagnosis. Moreover, I’m really glad you are not here wasting any time by making comments on this site, because then-according to your diagnosis-would be suicidal too! What a shame it would be to have a world without kka.
Additionally, I’m so glad you are living life to the fullest, and trying “all the weird things before death comes to” you. Perhaps telling people who are suffering from indescribable anguish, profound despair and overwhelming grief to the point where life is joyless, is one of those “weird things” you were referring to. Regardless, I’m glad you can diagnose and provide a curative for all of us suicidal types! How silly of me to think that suicide was in any way predicated upon a physiological response corresponding to one’s social context.
Indeed, the real and true pathological reason is that we all have too much time on one’s hands, which subsequently leads us to make suggestions on this site. Thank you Dr. kka for showing us the way. Lastly, I want to express my deepest gratitude for telling us to that we should be just like you, and “live like there is no tomorrow.” This is an especially good diagnosis, for indeed there is no tomorrow for some of us.
Best,
Chris
p.s. where do I make payment for your services.
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hey no one knows the reason why one is commiting suicide, so u can’t advice them to commit suicide or not.
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Dear “The best Aggarwal”
Sometimes we do indeed know the reason why someone wants to commit suicide. Below is an interesting article written by a doctor about a woman who delineates why she wishes to end her life. Problems arise when she seeks the assistance of the physician, which raises the moral question of physician assisted suicide.
“So Tired Of Life”
An elderly patient asks a doctor for help he cannot provide.
by Neils Calman
The standard for my work as a physician has been to treat patients
as I would wish to be treated in their circumstances. But I would never want to be treated the way I treated Sarah Brownstein. Sarah (whose first and last names are fictitious) lived on the eleventh floor of an assisted living facility on Manhattan’s West End Avenue. Her large apartment was flooded with sunlight.
The furnishings were sparse, and there were no collections of mementos or other tchotchkes one might expect from more than ninety-two years of living—merely some paintings whose artists she identified, readily telling a story about each one. The place was spotless with not one item out of order. I was there at the
request of Sarah’s nephew, a friend and longtime colleague.
At our first meeting the diminutive Sarah was as poised as a debutante at her coming-out party. She was meticulously dressed, with just the right amount of makeup to look like she had been sunning in Florida, although I later found out that she rarely left her apartment. She wore no glasses, but a strained squint revealed
her deteriorated eyesight. Hearing aids were barely covered by her scant and wispy hair. She greeted me like a rescue worker coming to take her from her burning home. Yet she was uncomfortable about something in the other room, where a brief rustling of papers could be heard. Sarah put a finger to her lips as if to warn me of a hidden danger. Moments before, a visiting nurse had arrived.
Normally a welcome visitor, right now the nurse intruded into Sarah’s plans to talk with me in private. Sarah asked the nurse to take the medications she was documenting to the lobby because she “needed some privacy” with her doctor.
Soon we were alone. Sarah ushered me to the couch that occupied one wall of her living room. She sat down next to me, her shoulder against mine, and grabbed my arm with both her hands. For a minute we both sat silently as she held my arm firmly but gently,
as if to make sure I was real or to make some physical connection between us. “Dear Doctor,” she began. “I hope you can help me. I am so tired. So very, very tired. I have lived a wonderful and full life, and now I am just no good. No good to myself and no good to anybody else. I have become a burden to everyone, and I
have nothing left to live for. I hope youwill help me. I justwant to die. I amso very, very tired of living.” Her eyes welled up with tears. “Tell me about yourself,” I suggested politely, postponing any response to Sarah’s direct request until I could construct a fuller picture of the circumstances surrounding her bold request. “I want to know more about you.” A Life Once Lived
Sarah briefly outlined her life in perfect chronological order. “I was married to a most wonderful man,” she started. “Together we shared a full and exciting life.We loved art and supported many local artists in our time, some of whom have become quite famous.” She rose to pull an art book off the shelf, one of only two books visible in her apartment. She turned to a well-worn page and told the story of an abstract artist whose work she pointed to. It was
clear from the oil smudge on the page that she had done this countless times before. “My husband and I sat on the board of directors of music and art associations in our time, and we helped to start a new museum that is still there today.” Then
her eyes turned down. “But my darling Richard passed away more than thirty years ago, and I have been alone for such a long, long time.”
Her storytelling was impeccable except for her inability to recall names, which would cause her to raise her fist at the ceiling as if to curse the higher power that brought mental dysfunction into her life. “I am no good,” she whined. “I can’t hear, I can’t read, I can’t even think.” A tearwould then come to her eye, and I
would reassure her that she could take her time to tell the story. This was not altruistic on my part; I was mesmerized. One could not help notice the juxtaposition in her stories of the younger Sarah—an intellectual and social powerhouse—and today’s slight and failing Sarah, alone in her New York City apartment and ready to end her life. Next she spoke of her sons. “The worst thing a mother can do is outlive her son—no, to watch her son’s health deteriorate,” she said. “My younger son lives out west, and he is slowly dying of Parkinson’s disease. I can’t bear to think about
this, and it is on my mind constantly. My older son is a famous scientist, and I do notwant to be a burden on him. You see, I amno use to anyone. Not even tomyself. My medicines and my home nurse are using up the little money I have saved for my sons. I am so very, very tired. I want to die.”
Sarah had nothing to look forward to. She wanted desperately to die. She wanted me to help her, to prescribe some medication that would put her to sleep so she wouldn’t have to wake up anymore. She was ready. She would do it now, or tomorrow, orwhenever I could accommodate her request. Thiswas uncharted territory for me, and we both knew it. I wanted just to be her doctor and take care of
“Sarah wanted desperately to die. She wanted me to prescribe some medication that would put her to sleep so she wouldn’t have to
wake up anymore.” her as a doctor would. But Sarah didn’t want a doctor to treat her malady; she wanted a doctor to end her misery.
Nonetheless, unsure of what else to do, I fell into the role I knew best. I asked her to produce the tray of medications she had been taking. She laid out before me yellow bottle after yellow bottle of pills. There were medications for heart failure, hypertension, depression, seizures, and elevated lipids. Therewere platelet inhibitors,diuretics, and a potassium replacement. They totaled fifteen different medications—twenty-four pills a day—all designed to keep Sarah alive months after she had decided she wanted to die.
Some things about Sarah’s request to die didn’t fit. She lacked most signs of depression. She was eating and sleeping well, and she dressed up and put on makeup every morning. Even her affect was not depressed except when she talked about her physical condition or her ill son. She obediently took her medications laid out weekly by the visiting nurse while repeatedly asking me if all of the medications were necessary. Sarah’s medical condition was stable, and I was loath to change her regimen. Even so, after relating to me her desire to reduce the most costly drugs for fear that their cost would erode her sons’ inheritance, I stopped six of the
drugs on the first visit. Her condition remained unchanged.
A Request Denied. A Week after week i visited sarah. While trying to assess and respond to her changing needs, I desperately avoided the subject of my helping her to die. Sometimes we both pretended this issue was off the table; sometimes shewould askmewhat I had decided to do to help her end her life. One Wednesday, on my way to the office, I double-parked in front of Sarah’s building as usual and nodded to the doorman in a gesture we both knew meant
that he would watch my car. My double-parked visits were usually short, but today Sarah had other ideas. “Damn it!” she said when I walked in. “When are you going to do what I asked? Don’t you see how I’m living? I can’t hear, I can barely see to read, my life is useless. You promised to help me.” I hadn’t promised anything, but I knew there was no longer any escape. “Mrs. Brownstein,” I started, making up my response as I went. “I cannot give you medication to kill yourself. You are asking me to do something that is against the law. I run the risk of losing my medical license and even being put in jail. I have discussed thiswithmywife,who beggedme to help you in anyway I could—without putting my own professional life in jeopardy. My colleagues advised the same. I
know what I want to do, I know what you want me to do, and I believe it is your right to end your life if you so choose. But I cannot do it for you or even give you medication to do it yourself. I know this was not your expectation when I first came to see you.”
She remained silent and looked at me scornfully. The charade was over. I could not do the job she had hired me to do. I waited for some cue from her as to what to do next. There was none. Then, spontaneously, I went on. “I do have a few ideas that may help you.” She continued her stare. “You could stop taking all of your
medications. That is completely within your control. I cannot predict what will happen, but if you should become uncomfortable or filled with fluid from heart failure, I can prescribe a pain medication to take away the sensation of being out of breath, without treating your heart failure. I promise to come to see you, any time day or night, if you should become uncomfortable at the end. You are of sound mind, Sarah, and you still have control over the treatments you accept and those you reject.” We both stared at each other. “OK,” she said. “Butwhat happens when the visiting
nurse who counts out my medications sees that I am not taking them? ”Without waiting for an answer, she continued. “I will ask her to stop coming. I will tell her that a relative is counting out my medications and that you are monitoring my blood pressure.” The planwas hatched, and the visiting nurse came no more. Sarah
stopped taking all her pills except aspirin, the drug to prevent a recurrent stroke (at my suggestion), and the nightly sleeping pill. For months she had no change in symptoms or mental status. This infuriated her even more, as she recounted the huge expenses she had incurred for her medicines.
Psychic Pain
Then, one morning, everything changed. My cell phone rang about
6 a.m. with Sarah’s home health aide on the line. “Mrs. Brownstein is very bad,” she said. “I can’t understand what she’s saying—she’s screaming, hitting me, and wandering around the apartment completely confused.” “Don’t call 911,” I retorted, remembering Sarah’s Do Not Resuscitate order lying prominently on her dining room table and her living will stating that she did not
want to be brought to a hospital under any circumstances.
I quickly dressed and rushed off to her apartment. Sarah had experienced another stroke. She had had many before, and although
they were possibly responsible for some of her mental deterioration, they had not left her physically disabled. She was fighting with her home health aide as I entered the bedroom. She appeared uncomfortable in her own skin, pulling on her clothes, struggling to walk around but clearly aimless in her intent. The sight of me seemed to agitate her even more. I retreated to the living room, out of her sight. I called her older son with whom I had spoken many times before and explained his mother’s condition. Together we decided to treat her with a low-dose
“At the mere sight of me
Sarah would turn away. I had failed her, and now she
was suffering.” antipsychotic medication known to help in these agitated states. Sarah improved but remained miserable, combative, and in psychic pain. For the next month I visitedweekly. As confused as Sarahwas, her angerwith mewas obvious. At the mere
sight of me she would turn away and become increasingly agitated. I had failed her, and now she was suffering. I felt deep remorse for my prior inability to have helped her. Months later her son transferred her to a nursing home near him in Boston. She died shortly thereafter—a boutwith pneumonia and a family decision
to honor her request for no more treatment finally took her life. A year later I cannot get over Sarah’s pain and misery in her final months and my own inability to intervene on behalf of this fragile woman who sought my help. I was not the cause of her suffering, but I surely was not the merciful helper she sought.
Hands Tied
As doctors we are restricted from helping those in pain at the
end of their lives to end their own suffering. We are restricted from using marijuana to help those suffering from the nausea of chemotherapy. We run riskswhen using drugs “off label” for conditions that have proved to be remediable but for which the drug maker has neither sought nor received permission to list as a “use.” And we are asked to balance our moral position on these issues—and many others—against the possible legal consequences of acting in what we consider to be our patients’ best interests. The laws that govern medical practice are not created by physicians or ethicists but by governments. Like most laws, they lack the ability to distinguish subtleties in the human experience that might require
extraordinary interventions. Yet as physicianswe must consider the needs of each person and individualize our actions in our patients’ best interest. In 1997 the Supreme Court upheld states’ rights to legislate the legality of physician-assisted suicide in deciding on matters brought before it by advocates of the practice fromWashington and New York States. To date, Oregon is the only state to legalize physician-assisted suicide. Between 1998 and 2002 only 129 deaths in Oregon resulted from doctor-written prescriptions; four-fifths of these deaths were cancer patients.Would Mrs. Brownstein’s end have been more humane if she
had been treated by a physician in Oregon? Even if physician-assisted suicide had been legal in New York, would she have fit into an allowable category? Would I have felt differently about assisting in her death? I do not know. I do not think any of us can predict howwewould feel in Mrs. Brownstein’s situation. But if I should find myself aged and failing physically and mentally and if I
sought relief from the “pain” my life was causing me, I would hope that the physician I turn to for help has a good understanding of palliative care and end-of-life options, has the courage to act onmy behalf, and has more merciful laws to protect the decisions we may make together about my end-of-life care.
NeilCalman (ncalman@institute2000.org) is a practicing family physician and president of the Institute for
Urban FamilyHealth inNewYorkCity
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i think this is a good site, however methods discussed are not sufficient and easier methods should be followed, i think it is logical to feel suicidal after assessing that your life is over, one should definitely get the option to an easy way out, however a proper assesment is required, do u know of a website which helps asses as it will help people if they should commit suicide or should they try for some more time
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@ Guarav : Discussing methods on a blog is a pain in the ass. Plus some “suicide sites” are being hunted down in whichever country you are. Newsgroups not.
Some great newsgroups (18 age required)
http://groups.google.com/group/alt.suicide.methods/
This is for methods and if you aren’t fucking around with the “should i bullshit?” If you are sure and you need information to do the deed ,you can ask around. Preparation is important, could take months.
http://groups.google.com/group/alt.suicide.holiday/topics
This is discussion about suicide and a great place for those who are in “limbo”. These newsgroups are NOT pro-suicide but pro-CHOICE.
I’m giving these links because these groups give you the liberty to express yourself where on suicide forums ANY “pro-suicide” arguments are immediately edited or deleted.
So goodluck, the choice is yours.
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RE: jesse wheeler
I found this site whilst searching for painless suicide methods. Why are you here ???
Did your parents and partner abandon you? Maybe you’re a closet homosexual or paedophile? You should ask yourself why you have no friends.
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WHY DID YOU POST THESE IMAGES
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Peter that wasnt very nice. Hope your doing well MJ
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Sean this is life there a people like most of us depressed and hopeless and want to in fact commit suicide this is the reality of it all. Why did you look at this site? MJ
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Yeah I always wonder why people get upset about someone posting this. You had to have been looking up Suicide in order to get here in the first place. I found this site from stumbling suicidal sites.
And to those who say stupid stuff to the people who do want to kill themselves, don’t read this site then. Why are you on here if you feel that way? The only way you’d be here is if you were looking up suicide.
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I also read through all material looking for a quick way for suicide. I have found one. Thanks. I believe that if life is this hard death must be harder. However now I believe that life is only this hard due to all the people like me overpopulating the world and taking food from potential thinkers that will change the world in someway I see that I am not that brain.
For the young kids on here no, don’t do it you are capable of great things no one under 30 who isn’t suffering from a painful disability should be here. Our youth is our future if you all want to end it what does our future hold. I am not a doctor, lawyer or anyone respectable by any means honestly I am just a bum that has been leaching off the system due to a disability. I believe that if I’m out of here there’s one more opening for sSDI so you can make a difference. SO instead of scrolling on here to find a way to die, look for a way to live brighten someone else’s day. Tell a joke! laugh out loud and remember for the boy a month ago who said he was too fat to find a girl or anyone to love. Money talks go earn some and you can buy the ass you want! Off topic I also believe in prostitution because women marry wealthy guys just for what they can provide to them sexually. People don’t marry for love anymore because love won’t pay the rent. Peace to you all.
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Is there any other way that has no option of living?? please let me know as soon as possible. thanks
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I am not sure what I want to do. If I die I want to make sure my family is taken care of and doesn’t feel guilty or self-hating because of something I chose to do. Suicide is an option and I am not worried about pain, just want to make sure it looks like an accident. That’s what brought me to this website.
I love my family but I am not sure I continue to cope anymore. I am taking my meds and doing my therapy sessions. I was undiagnosed depressed for at least five years that I can be sure of. It took everything I had to reach out to the doctor, then the therapist, and lastly my spouse. But he said he was tired of us and didn’t love me the way a husband should anymore. Hard to blame him since I was the one who withdrew for so long. And it has made me so wounded inside to know that now I was trying to change things, it was too little, too late. We have a beautiful son who is about to turn ten and this impending separation is hurting him. I don’t want to add to it by spiralling back into the depression which is what I feel I am doing. I read some people’s comments that are so mean and thoughtless. No one knows what is in anyone elses head. No one knows what someone elses limits are. I know I am reaching my limit of what I can endure. I don’t want to go back to the sleep-walking life I had and if the meds and therapy stop working, then I want this as an option and I need the help to plan it. So I am glad there are web-sites and people who won’t condemn you for looking at this as an option. I do belief that life is worth living but it hits a point when you’ve tried everything to make that life worthwhile. Why should someone else condemn you if you make the decision to end it after the other options are exhausted?
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i m doing this only for u…….?
i m very heartly soory to disturbe your life…….
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flantrex@hotmail.com
The best death to life .. “Death Corps”
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This life is not worth the coffin .. t all smiled .. I remember crying tears … … .. pain blood .. All one does not cry smile all crying for several reasons .. Love them .. Treason .. Parents .. And a number of reasons Akhara …
(Please help me) E-mail : flantrex@hotmail.com
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c’mon ppl…i dnt think dat suicide is any solution 2 our prblmz….gawd has given us just 1 lyf 2 live…so njoy it ppl…go out..have fun….y do u damn care abt ny1…LIVE UR LIFE 2 D FULLEST PPL..MAKE FRENZ….BECUM SOCIAL..ND U’LL C UR LYF SMILIN AT U/….TAKE MAH WRDZZ….BE HAPPY:):):)JUS LYK I M..NJOY..LUV YA ALL..
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Look we may all think different things about this. I personally have too many scars to count, and too many people take the piss out of and bully me i’ve been cutting just to take away the hurt and pain everyday living for over 4 years…I’m 15. My parents have tried sending me to see a shrink, it didn’t work. The truth of the matter is that not everyone can be prevented from feeling depressed there are just too many things that can cause depression, but some of those images are abit fucked up, still it’s not up to me what you do with your webpage
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I’m so sick of you people thinking that depression is an easy thing to get over. It’s not! You can’t just wake up one day and everything will be magically better. I’ve been unsuccessfully trying to get past mine for five years. The idea of someone just deciding they want to feel better is pointless, it won’t work. So stop thinking those remarks such as ‘ live life’ or ’suicide is not the answer’ are gonna change anyone’s mind
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i know dat this is d formailty 2 say hi to all
bt i want to tell one thing.suicide is not the way to resolve yours problems may be it could be solve your misdemanour or your personal issues but your suicide will be harsh for your family or dear and near ones.they all miss you very much.nobody will b here 4 their help.they will b helpless and condition even more bad for them who love you.i am just 23 year old guy may be i am not capable to help you financially at present but i will support you emotionally and i will be fortunate if somehow i could help you …………………
so give me a chance really please dont do ever this and if anybody want mail me den my mail address is sonurajiv_007@yahoo.co.in
n my no is anyone want 2 get my name then mail me i’ll definately give you my number…………………..
i’m praying to god for all of you plz solve their all problems because he is only almighty power who can give us power to drift through our rough patch in entire life
bbbyyyyyyyyyyyye n god bless you all.
your well wisher n true friend.
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when somone has suffered a stroke severe enough to have the person bed ridden for years, or little hope of really walking or using ones limbs, then it is not up to anyone to say whether they want to die.
It is that persons right, and only that persons right to mae that choice, and no dam amout of some proclamied god is going to have some mythical dicision in it. ANyone who thinks that life is worth living like that should have a stroke, and no I wish it upon them to have one so they can stop the self rightoues, self severing myth of god and hell, and anything else religion can offer to not make you people live in reality.
to see someone like that day in and day out, is not only wrong for that person, for for everyone that has to go through it.
you people are morons!
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I’m just staying for my cat. I have no friends because people don’t want to my friend because I am ugly. They all make fun of for it. I’ve never had a boyfriend and I am twenty-two.
There is just no point to my life.
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please provide more detailed and good methods of suicide
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to sad – the people that make fun of you are not worthy to be your friends. remember real beauty comes from inside. you have a lot more to try before you seriously try this way. because it hurt physically and mentally you and others especailly if you are found and bought back. keep trying girl, you never know
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antha bhayakaranga emi levu,inkaa terrific ga undali.. na lover tho naku chavu ki vasthundi
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Hey the world is just getting smaller and there is little or no adventure left other than wondering or pondering whats on the otherside. Could it be better or just harder? Is it right to take our own life when so many other people starve and sacrifice just to live? What about the people who have seen so many horrors of war and keep on going? Who can really make up your mind when you want to die and you are alone just looking for answers, you.
Even people with debilitating, degenerative diseases have a choice but sometimes emotional choices aren’t the right ones. To the girl who only has her cats to live for no thats just not true we are all here for a reason, to be strong and try to survive. World wide catastrophies happen in the blink of an eye and to many of you who are contemplating death just be patient it is coming for us all. The one selfless act you can do is just being, you can live long enough to save someone else or help someone else who is hurting.
You can live long enough to write those words on paper to politicians so they can fucking do their jobs. You can use that emotion on the phone to insurance companies so they can pay for pain killers for people with cancer and take that power you want to keep trapped inside you and make your world bigger. Living in such tiny living spaces going back and forth to dead end jobs sucks, I go to work and still need food stamps, I still need section eight and I can’t even afford presents for my son I was really considering just doing it. Seeing that I have very little, but if I quit now what if my son sees my way as the only solution.
So every day I fucking deal with the pain, fight with insurance companies and try to go on. If you have the time please read my words and know that I care, post an ad on craigslist if you need a friend its just that simple. If you need to get laid get out there and try if your questioning your sexuality save up all your birthday and christmas bonuses and hire someone to do it. Everyone has a purpose even if its failing at suicide and realizing that your glad your not dead because believe it or not some people really need you.
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my name is aja im i just turned 15 yrs old i think about suicide everyday i alwayz think tht if i jus kill myself everything would b so much better i feel tht i dnt deserve 2 liv & im jus fed up w/ my life ive had da most fuked up life since i waz born my moms on drugs my dad is broke as hell & he never finished skool he doesnt hav a job the first tyme i tried 2 commit suicide i waz so young like pro 8 or 9 & from then on as my life got worse its something i feel i have 2 do im so scared 2 but i want 2 so bad im so fukin depressed i dnt kno if i want help or not im miserable and i jus wanna die kan someone email me asiadt25@yahoo.com plz
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one more thing for all the other comments i read it waz so sad b;c i kan relate 2 a lot of yu its so fuked up how we feel we hav 2 kill ourselves and im so sick of ppl tellin me it will get better thats bullshit ive heard tht shit so many tymes & it gets worse but suicide iz tha way out 4 me i jus need 2 find the rite way 2 do it
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Okay its because I have little left to do today online, if you actually read everyones responses from the very beggining you would see a least three ways to kill yourself. I can’t even get to posting unless I read all of your remarks. As for the 15 year old with the fucked up life, go to the nine line website you are so young to be on here with a bunch of adults who already dealt with their fucked up drug addict alcoholic parents.
No one has a good childhood its how you control your emotions that makes a difference. People out there that contact you may not be right in the head either so its like a blind man taking a splinter out of another blind man. There should be some people on here that have education and not just loads of people who want to kill themselves.
I feel bad that my comments aren’t really going to help you because I am not educated and I had a fucked up childhood. The greatest thing I learned is that I know nothing and everyday I have to learn something new. Most of the country is feeling pain, job loss divorces, drugs, addiction so what this site is here for is to get a bunch of people at there lowest points to join and if you do commit suicide and try to make it look like an accident the insurance companies won’t pay because of course its against the law.
The creator of this site might just be getting a commission from the insurance companies and its a great side job for him. Or this just might be someones project for school when they are getting there MBA in Psychology and they want to know if humanity still exists and how many people will just not help anyone else. You dumb asses that post how life sucks and you want to fucking kill yourself aren’t really going to do any good for anyone else if you do have an insurance policy.
There was one comment on the board that I read which said if your serious about dying join the Army, or Marines. True lots of our men and women do die from (ff). Or you could just starve yourself and make a statement from a hunger strike to try and make a difference in the lives of the homeless and hungry children/ elderly. There are so many elderly in nursing homes that scream out they want to die and they can’t they have to be force fed even when they refuse to eat the doctors put in iv’s so they can stay alive.
WTF, people on life support with thousands of fucking dollars poured in from insurance companies and families because they forgot to sign a health care proxy or even the right to pull the plug forms. And people have to fucking sue the city because welfare won’t help out when people loose their jobs there is so much to fight but think about it if you don’t fight for something whats going on? FIGHT with me and create a plan to fix this place. Tell a fucking joke when your depressed if more of you give up …
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How can u people say that this isn’t an option?!?!? How would you know? Some people don’t have a choice, some people live in a complete hell, that maybe they can’t escape, unless they die! Im not saying its the best choice, but sometimes its the only choice!!!
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Oh boy… Opinions, advise and criticism to those who probably had enough of that already, blabalabla It seems everyone has something to say about it. Suicide is personal has nothing to do with God or JC, heaven or hell, you or me, it comes from within, from life itself. Usually a long journey through hell and back, so. … If someone wants to take their life because he or she -empirically- feels that it can’t go on like this, it is the right of life itself and very personal, most importantly: it is their own choice. Stupid or wise, THEIRS.
I think it should also be said that one must really think it over, and over … and then again: think it over. before tying the knot. There’s reasons and reasons my friends …. Disease, serious mental disease, excruciating chronic pains etc. : YES. Girlfriend / boyfriend, money problems, addiction and what not, little shit like that: NOP, LIVE ! (… this, in my opinion.) Hence I say: think it over, wait a day. Talk to yourself and try to listen. Try to listen closely, listen to your soul. You could even become your own best friend, living another day in this rathole, you know ? Just remember that it is your life and you may do with it as you please. Kill yourself and be free from whatever you so desperately want to be free of, or wait and try to see it trough another day somehow and gather some beautiful moments along the way. Both options remain, free and honest. YOU decide, after all. And all in good right.
So, since no-one dares to put a ‘painless’ way of suicide here, I will ……. one, ve-ry effective, proven and ab-so-lute-ly painless, except for your goodbyes and writing your so long note and realizing that when it is over there’s no way back, gone is gone. Here goes….
The answer is: nicotine. About 50 to 60 mg’s will do the trick in a matter of hours. 100 to 150 in matter of minutes. Soak 150 to 200 grams of pure tobacco, like cigars or dark shag in a big pot of hand warm water for a few days. Avoid filter cigarettes, simply because they are too weak and you might not get the dose right. Eating a couple of boxes of nicotine gum will definitely NOT work. This will also leave you some time to re-consider or just to prepare your will and yourself for the ride. When soaked after a few days, 2 to 3 should do it. Strain well and gently boil down until you’re left with approximately 2 tablespoons of the thick brown sirup. You can’t go and swallow this whole, you’ll throw up in a bad way. Try to fit it ALL in to one, two or three chocolate bonbons, with a syringe or anyway you see fit. Seal the bonbons up. Then, take a serious dose of sleepers. 25 to 50 oxazepam/ diazepam. 15 mg’s and up will do.
The higher the dose the better, as long as you will get to sleep reasonably fast and seriously sound, this to make sure the coma sets in naturaly. Have a bottle of hard alcohol ready. Then. Swallow the sleepers, eat the bonbons of relief without chewing, swallow whole ! Have yourself a couple of stiff drinks. Don’t mix ! The whole bottle would be perfect but you will not make it that far. Besides too much liquid in your stomach might weaken the overdose of nicotine and leave you alive somehow. The sleepers will start to do their work. Lay down and fall asleep, you might even begin to dream your last ever dream. After an hour or two you will go into coma and shortly after that Kansas goes bye bye…. rip.
Please, think, before taking the final trip. Make sure you are at ease with the decision. In some cases you’ll leave a lot of people heartbroken in ways you can’t imagine. Be kind to yourself and grateful for the greatest gift in the Universe, no matter how rotten your life was or is. But if there’s no other way, so be it, hasta la huega.
Sebastian
Still on the brink of, but holding on …
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I really want to die, please help me to do it fast. What u think about a shoot in the head ?? The problem is the blood in the ground… Hey !! I could do it in a far away forest !!!!!!!!!
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Dear me …
(… and that wouldn’t be one in the head !)
The blood on the floor and the walls will not be your problem once you’ve shot yourself, but for the ones finding your
brains spattered on the wall. If you miss … you havn’t got an idea … Going to the forrest far away would be a good idea anyway. Breath of fresh air, no arseholes around for miles, only lots of trees and the sound of birds. Just to sit and meditate for a bit. Nothing special, just sit and cry. Or laugh about the whole thing, or just do nothing … just walk around. You’ll feel better for sure mate.
I’m terribly suicidal myself, I have a huge tumor on the windpipe … la di da. And things don’t look too good. But everytime I want to tie the knot, I muster all i have and think about my beautiful wife and kids , and how they are gonna feel when I deprive them of another day or even hour with me because I’m too fucking scared for the pain which will eventually come … and It gives me the strength to hold out another day.
I hope this helps my fellow suicidal … give it a shot,
Art.
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“me” do not dwet taht Life does not deserve this .. Drugs or drinking will help you
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With all the pain and bitching in the world, as you can see just from this one page, is it any fucking wonder people wanna kill themselves. And to all the people on here saying I hurt myself I want to die, at the end of the day if someone wants to kill themself they will, they wont come online and broadcast it first as a cry for help, because then all they are doing is hoping someone will write ‘oh dont do it we love you’
It’s called attention seeking, get a psychologist/psychiatrist. And to all those that really did have fucked up shit lives that couldn’t cope anymore. R.I.P
x
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I’m sorry for the above post I do have a heart and have been where a lot of you have, I’ll talk about it now as it’s past. I’m 22 and I have attempted suicide 3 times with no success, had scars from head to toe at one point and have seen more ‘professionals’ than some of you youngsters have had hot dinners.
The difference between you and I is that I didn’t tell anyone.
I thought I would do it properly and planned out my day of how it would work but I had a call from the drs surgery to tell me I was pregnant, from that moment on my life DID change. I’m torn between both sides now, I understand people who have had enough but I can’t be doing with the kids cutting themselves for attention etc. I’m now a mum to a gorgeous disabled little girl, and I wouldn’t change her for the world, I have my own company, house,cars etc BUT while at school I was thrown out for fighting and was told I was a nobody!! I think I proved them wrong and do you know how great it is 6 years on to walk past my old teachers with my head held high, knowing I earn more than some of them. IT’S FUCKING BRILLIANT!!
People will tell you your whole life, it will get better, some times it does and sometimes it doesn’t but keep your eyes open for that one thing/person that is about to change it all.
x Sleep tight to all those angels that couldn’t do it.x
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Ive told alot of people about me trying to kill myself but now i dont really ettempt because at the end of the day i know i wont succeed im to weak to kill myself, although i cut myself occasionaly ive bene doing it for 4 years now… i started of because my friend did and i didnt understand so then i tried it out told her and she went mad.. so then i started to see the hard side of life and took things so the heart waay to easy and then i got “addicted to cutting”, ive overdosed more than 5 times cut myself drank took overdosed and cut myself of the same night but yet again nothing worked…Im trying to sort myself out but the more i try the more i fail, so at the moment im jsut giving up on everything ive got to give because i cant be botherd with life at the moment. There if two people helping me avoid killing myself Kebab boy and Davey i really dontknow what id do without them to be honest. I keep all my problems to Kebab boy and he makes me happy alot and helps me out, and Davey well .. i still in love with him =/ as for my friends in school and live near me.. they mean alot but not enough to keep me alive. In my eyes ive gone through alot for a fithteen year old growing up with my mum and dad split up with a new “dad” moving in touching me up since i was around about eight i started to wonder why hes doing this, Ive got chased by someone before My two uncles i love so much died my nans basicly going my sister telling me her life and her ex beating us up throwing glass at us police incolved all shit like that, being bullied since i moved to north wales but i try my best to ignore all that pain and put it behind me, all i want to so now is help people out, so if you need help add me on msn kays =] Jazzy.Penguin@hotmail.co.uk
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to justme, i think i know where you are coming from, but, i’m sure you know, self harm is quite different from suicide…although they join at some point…really, when you are younger – it is different, and you (we all) do really knowingly and unknowingly cry for attention because you bloody need/needed it and deserve it. the right kind of attention, love, care…that’s why younger people can show their pain this way – it makes a lot of sense – and if they don’t get it – it will often become the much more life threatening serious attempts at suicide. and yeah, once you get serious you don’t tell anyone, no matter what age.
I came here because my suicidal thoughts are starting to run the day – i’ve been here a few times but, it seems to be more sinister this time. I started making up a 5 year plan, where i can die far away, just save up and try to do a couple of things i’d like to do, and find a way to die that i can manage…and if, i change my mind by then – well that’s great. it worked for a while but, now, the pain seems to much and i believe i will be alone again all christmas and, it broke my heart last year and i am dreading doing it again.
Because its so hard to hide, everyone is celebrating their families and loved ones and i can’t hide from it. i tried to do it last year and it broke me, another year on and i am just more broken. to you people, who complain about suicide advice – by telling me to think of all the people who will hurt…do you know what it is like to live for that reason and no other reason? it is agony. 24/7. and makes you want to die even more. sometimes just like when you really really really really really really want something…and you know you will feel so much better…and its just in reach, you can see it….you really want it! and someone is saying ‘remember the others!’ its just not cutting it and you make me really angry.
I’m sorry if you lost someone but how would you feel if they didn’t die and ended up in a permeanent coma, or paralysed from the neck down and STILL wanting to die, a prisoner now in their own bodies with someone like you to make sure they stay alive for YOUR sakes. You will be angry with your loved one for leaving you, just as if they walked out the door and never came back, never contacting you again. absolute treachery, that has actually happened to me. But that is not enough reason to tell people not to talk about it,and choose to do it.
I don’t think people should just dissapear out of loved ones lives, but, i’m trying to work out if i can tell people about even my five year plan…I just can’t see how it’s going to work. they will all say ‘but what about us?’ and also worry about me, but also not be able to help me. i dunno, i’m ranting. yes i want help. no i don’t know where or what to do, no i can’t talk to people or doctors, hhhuh. i’m just tired of this and i forget why i’m doing it. if life is painful and crap…for years and years, and years and years…why do it?
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If someone wants to kill there self let them do it. Its there choice and hey, who knows, maybe they were hurting other people and couldnt help it. and they didnt want to talk to a fuckin dumbass with a piece of paper who says they can take away your problems and all you have to do is talk about it. FUCK THAT!!!! Ive tried commiting suicide and failed, and this time im gonna make sure it happens.
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(quote) hatepreachers said:
f*** off joseph with your preaching no one wants to hear it unless they are religious go find some religious community and preach there
THERE IS NO GOD! If there was, he wouldn’t have let the world get so fucked up (End of quote)
God didn’t make this world fucked up, the devil and we did…
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Please let me know a easy way to die as Iam very very upset and frustrated with the way my life is taking me,I have everything still do not have anything with me,I feel like killing my self each moment that I live,Yes i am sacred, I tried to cut my hand but worthless,Please I beg those people who know the art to please tell me the way of easy death as I am really fed up of my life and dont want to live now,I know these are the decisions of a coward but please before deciding be on my place and then think how problematic this life is its a sin people to have a life like me seeing each and every moment that ticks I only think of dying,I don’t have any disease or am I handicapped,I have 1000 ways to smile but as usual the life goes on the important thing in your life is never going to be yours.So please anyone be kind enough and tell me the way out of this hatred world where the happiness is only for one moment.Waiting for your reply.
Thanks
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Well, if you really want to die give me your name and address and I will come help you. I will need 1000 on the fridge. I can’t reply to you unless you leave an email address.
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Why so quick to ask for help, for an emotion. Are your emotions in charge all the time? Do your emotions give your family name honor? You are in charge of your own body you are in charge of your own mind. There is nothing you can do but wait for fate to take its course. No one would be here if it wasn’t for the fight to survive start fighting for the right reasons. It will pass, this world is a scary place you are more likely to die in a car accident or eating some contaminated food products, dirty water or just a mosquito bite. Don’t ask for death to come to you.
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Hi Kill me,
Here is a easy way. Marry my wife
Good luck
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Let me ask u all this, Im not saying I have never thought about killing myself because I have tried. I put a service revolver to my head and pulled the trigger but it didnt fire. I then tried jumping off of a roof of a 2 story house that had a 60 degree angle hill that i would have roled down until i got to the lake. It didnt work either. At that point I realized that God had a reason for me to be here. I stop and got help. For those of you that are thinking of suicide, how any of you have actually lost someone to suicide, Im a senior in hih school and so far we have lost 1 person every school year for the last 4 years. All of which I was VERY close to. Dean, Austin, Sammy, and Travis! (RIP) please try some other way than commiting suicide. If u feel like no one cares. U are all alone in this world. U feel like ur death wouldnt matter to anyone, think about the people who make u smile. Anyone u talk to on a regular basis. Ur death WILL hurt them to no end because they DO care about you.
Just consider another option. Dont kill urself PLEASE!!!
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My point exactly. Give it some time. Think twice. No matter what.
Be brave. Learn to walk again. I’m triyng too.
Art.
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i want to know the painless method of suicide like eating poison & all
please help to get t20 poison bcoz 1 of my nice friend committed suicide by consuming t20 poison & i am also very depressed of my life please help me to get any poison by which i can sleep forever
mail me at taj_r88@yahoo.co.in
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though that girl with the rope is smoking hot.. xD
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For all the people giving “God” a reason to live and blaming the devil. Idiots.
“Dear god,
Hope you got the letter,
And I pray you can make it better down here.
I dont mean a big reduction in the price of beer,
But all the people that you made in your image,
See them starving on their feet,
cause they dont get enough to eat
From god,
I cant believe in you.
Dear god,
Sorry to disturb you,
But I feel that I should be heard loud and clear.
We all need a big reduction in amount of tears,
And all the people that you made in your image,
See them fighting in the street,
cause they cant make opinions meet,
About god,
I cant believe in you.
Did you make disease, and the diamond blue?
Did you make mankind after we made you?
And the devil too!
Dear god,
Dont know if you noticed,
But your name is on a lot of quotes in this book.
Us crazy humans wrote it, you should take a look,
And all the people that you made in your image,
Still believing that junk is true.
Well I know it aint and so do you,
Dear god,
I cant believe in,
I dont believe in,
I wont believe in heaven and hell.
No saints, no sinners,
No devil as well.
No pearly gates, no thorny crown.
Youre always letting us humans down.
The wars you bring, the babes you drown.
Those lost at sea and never found,
And its the same the whole world round.
The hurt I see helps to compound,
That the father, son and holy ghost,
Is just somebodys unholy hoax,
And if youre up there youll perceive,
That my hearts here upon my sleeve.
If theres one thing I dont believe in…
Its you,
Dear god.”
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Thanks. I wanna die. So i wiil try the search words and other methods mentioned below.
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Hey if you need someone to talk to please just email me I will get back to you asap! Suicide isn’t the best option, its just an imbalance in hormones so please just e-mail me well talk! peaches_creme08@yahoo.com
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Hey KKA,
I don’t know if you posted that because you are a teenager or just really angry. There are people with problems both environmental and physiological. Your angry advice might just of been what one of these people needed to push them over the edge. Personally I hope you choke on some of your indulgence or better yet maybe some day you wil, hurt so bad that the thought of taking your life is the best solution at the time. Either way why don’t you post you address so you and I can talk about this in person. I would like to share my opinion with you in a very private dark alley way. You sick Fuck. While your at it why don’t you try some books on compassion or just go to the gee my life is perfect site and make posts there. You are definitely not helping anyone here.
Bye,
B Dog
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AtheistvsimaginaryGod a very good one..
Thanks do post some if you have..
Felt very proud to hear and read what the almighty is doing, so can understand and now I know he is not with us
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I thought about suicide lots of times for two years now.
People don’t just wake up and just want to die! Its a process and people think about it before they do it. It’s not easy to continue on living when you feel like life is biting you in the ass. When everyday all you feel is misery, rejection and the feeling that nothing is ever going to make you happy. When you feel like you cause more sadness than happiness to others. When you disappoint your parents and make them cry. When you feel as if your the biggest looser on earth. The most painful part is when you realize that you dreams and ambitions will never come true!
It hurts and everyday as you wake up reality sinks in deeper. I blame myself for it. It’s my fault that’s why I deserve to die.
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I am waiting til my husband and I get back from the holidays to do it. Found a couple good ways. Anyone who wants to discuss ways and shit email me reston_88@yahoo.com
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Great welcome-back present for you’re husband to come back to.
You can still take a holliday. You have a husband …
Hm. You should really THINK AGAIN !!!
Art
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Moments of pain ….
In the silence of the night when sitting alone and feel that the entire universe Ilk and that no one loves you or Ifamk in this world and find that your tears are not warm to Jntek No one Imshaa you.
When her suffer in silence does not relieve you find articles added, even those closest to Kzlok.
When the universe is dark and you can see the light of a flash or even a simple beam lights you a small part of your life.
When looking for love at the earliest, but you find people had been implemented or that you spare him.
When there is security in your life and feel that your book is written around the time … You!! Can not control your life .. Can not only control Bmchaark and you also learn the accountant.
When wishes death every minute, but with all the same out of you, because close relatives.
When believes that there is afraid of you and loves you, but .. Suddenly you wish departure.
Totman when one of the password and believes that, but the governor .. Your when suddenly find everyone.
When it is not personal to you and try to look for yourself, but .. There always prevents you, you are in high Booamra and take the decisions for you ..
When you want to scream your highest Atrcni Bmaver has grown enough to be responsible for Tsrfaty and my options, but .. You find yourself in the wall of silence.
Iredok when they feel alone and you feel for them like any person or any transboundary animal want to tame it.
When they feel that their role in life is death and destruction Atzazk your trust yourself.
When you need to feel compassion and safety but you Atgda to close at the earliest, and feared that she was not looking for … Afraid to love one Phippadlk versa … and feared that one loves you if you turn secured it.
When you do you know all this because of because of you or around you.
When the lack of dialogue can not communicate with them.
When trying to appease the warlords in various ways, but .. Avaidp .. then to feel that you want to live alone in this world and does not want one of them.
When is it truly loves you can not divulge that does not have anything to do for you because of obstacles and that it might lose his life living.
Once you find that your life turned black hell day after day.
Once you find that the person who is he supposed to find safety, love and compassion you wish injury and wishes and calls not to live a peaceful life at all.
When the person you love, but after you and people you love but you busy and loves people and loves you .. but does not find the time to turn your life day by day into a nightmare can not wake up and terminate it, but is designed to terminate you.
When the crying and crying and that happiness is absent from your life and find it joins you Hznk.
When despair to sneak inside you and Intefi a glimmer of hope in your heart and you feel worse and you creature was so bad you consider yourself a burden on society.
When you search for your goal in life is to find only one goal is to satisfy the love but you always fail and you find you trying to Aigdr .. Then learn that there is no point you!.
When acting in good faith, but around you think the worst suspicions .. Then if you wish did not come to this world.
When you want to disclose everything, but you have Estpzk Your silence.
When people want to be another trying to be a better person, but there are always hinders your way .. always there to stop you.
When moving in your prayer to God and wait impatiently to answer but did not .. but you know for sure that they will come one day.
Pining to the days when past and present wishes and leave you afraid of the future.
In the end, do you know what to do!! But you shut up and shut up and shut up forever ….
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when u commit suicide you don’t end the problems, u only leave it for someone else
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escape it all. anyway you can.
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when you die ..! you Create problems !! that’s..! not good!
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Please don’t kill yourself
please give God a chance
and fellow Christians
please act like Christians
please study your bible so you know what ur talking about
to all
hate me if u have to because i love Jesus but
please don’t commit suicide
please give God a chance
and understand
im not condeming u to hell
its not my place
God gave u a choice
and now its your turn to pick
it is your choice
but i can guarantee
eternal life is much more pleasant than
eternal suffering in hell
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am tired of everytn goin on in my life..just wanna suicide n finish it all…..dat will end all problems …but i dnt have de courage to do it..i have tried cutting my hand but i end up just makin red marks which burn a bit..i just need more courage n it will b all done…
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Amit Bhawani Reply:
December 23rd, 2008 at 5:53 am
Hey girliegirl , why not post down all your problems and our fellow friends can help you out in solving them instead of just one time solution!
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My brother just killed himself last week after reading about how to do it on stupid fucked up suicide sites. And no, it wasn’t painless. Even though he was told it would be. How some of you lot can sit there talking about it as if it’s one big joke is completely fucked up
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I’m tired of all the people who claim suicide is selfish or ‘there’s always a reason to live!’ What about people who are dying of a painful, terminal illness and can barely move? When their families entire life savings is being drained away? Most people who commit suicide are elderly, not kids. Yeah, more kids ATTEMPT suicide, and yeah life sucks sometimes. I tried to commit suicide once and my two major reasons for not doing so again are a.) if I fail, I’ll be committed again, and it was the worst experience of my life and b.) My mom cosigns for my school loans and suicide ivaldiates life insurance policies when done within the first two years of owning it.
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this is good to show people…telling them what could happen if it doesn’t work, the pain they could be in util they actually die. i have these temptations all the time…often every day…this scares me. but it still tempts me. but all of this helps…thank you.
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If i choice when die and life I choice die .. because the die ..! live in the die ..! that’s..nice choice..i chang my choice!!
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hey suicide is an option for losers in all areas of life and life is gods gift so y spoil it?????????? love life the way u love no 1 coz ull never love any1 stably in Ur life love varies depending on the situations….. so wateer the situation love life live life………till u die
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The most beautiful moments of life…Death!!
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there is no fucking god.. If there was millions of people wouldnt die everyday! People wouldnt have to suffer! babies wouldnt die. Now tell me its us and the devil doing it because thats bull shit too! People say i drink ‘away’ my problems but i wake up everyday living the same sad excuse i call my life! Sooo go fuck urself and ur bibles!
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To those of you who judge, you are narrowed minded asses. The same applys to those who gleefully endorse this. I understand that life is precious, but I was never asked if I wanted to be born. And I understand that those who are left behind suffer greatly…
But I have made up my mind and I will be dead in the next month. I am 33 and have lived a good life. I have a good family and wonderful friends. I’ve traveled, loved & lost, faced most of my fears, jumped out of a plane, etc. But I’ve always felt I should not be here & have never really felt happiness; just fragments–enough to make me know I’m missing out. The professionals say I am depressed (really?), so I’ve been on medication for years and they don’t help. When I was a teenager, I told my dad that I wanted to die and promised I would not do anything for 10 years. Well, the time is up and I just can’t see myself living for another year. I know this will hurt those I love, but why do they want me to suffer?? I can’t live for them anymore. I’m so sorry.
They won’t find my body, but they will receive the call. I can’t stop that. I have taken care of how my body will be disposed. I am sorry.
Much luv,
Connie
Ps. If you are young & thinking about ending ur life, don’t. Wait. I know it’s hard, but you are young and things could change in a year. If you are suffering from a broken heart, wait–time does heal.
Life can be wonderful and I will miss so much, but have decided.
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Oh thank you Madam for your useless advice.what do you mean by live
life,love life an whatever..i hope we are here to discuss about the
pains life has for us an the reason why we have opted to sucide.
No one in this world would ever get up in the morning and say Hey you
know what i want to sucide.To tell you my friend there are lots of
pains and suferrings due to which this decision has been opted its
difuclt to even live a moment with this hatred life an selfish world
around so do you think we can love life.
Sorry if i have hurt you but thats true an it HURTS a lot
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thats fucking dusgusting.
but sometimes people have bad enough lifes that they think thats the only way to get rid of them. (THEY THINK)
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I think the picture with the gun should be removed as it is depicting an incorrect execution of this method. The temple shot (as well as the under chin shot) have been made popular by Hollywood but they are extremely risky. Both methods may leave the victim without a face and perhaps a frontal lobe but alive and likely far more miserable than they were before the attempt.
The ideal target if you will is the brain stem although not exclusively. The damage from a gun shot is not just incurred in the path of the bullet but by the shock wave it creates in the surrounding flesh. It is my opinion that the optimal approach is through the eye socket and angled towards the brain stem. In this fashion much of the brain will be destroyed along with the stem.
Hollow point ammunition is an absolute must to guarantee success. For those unfamiliar with guns an affordable .22 will be a gamble even with the correct technique. I suggest a .357 revolver with .357 hollow point ammunition (as opposed to .38 special ammunition that may be sold to you as it is also compatible with this weapon).
Roughly 15% of attempts using firearms are unsuccessful and the actual number is likely higher due to occurrences claimed as “accidents.” Death is not as it is portrayed in the movies. It is an elusive and fickle creature that evades even the most resolved of its seekers while ensnaring those who hide from it. Every precaution needs to be taken to guarantee success. I suggest shooting oneself while standing in water and wearing a heavy backpack. One could also put their head in a noose and then shoot themselves.
It is my hope that in time society will honor the will of the individual and peaceful assisted suicide will be freely available in a mature and regulated fashion. Until then the hunt will go on. Best of luck everyone.
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I am 15yrs old, and I have been fighting against suicide since I was 12, I know for a fact that many people are much, much worse off than I am, and when I truly think hard about what ending my life will mean… I change my mind!… I know that many of the comments say that if you are young you must live your life and wait because things will turn around, and I do believe that in some ways. My twin sister is the only one I can talk to when Im feeling down, and she really helps. Many a times she has stopped me from doing something I would regret. Even when Im in one of those mood where every thing seems pointless I still think about what pain it wil cause my family…my sister. I have social phobia which makes comunicating with other people (especially around my age) very difficult. I now do home schooling because I just could not go to school…and that made be feel weak and worthless…what teenager doesnt want to go out with friends and stuff *raises hand* me! But after the doctor diagnosed me with social phobia I was in a way releived, because I wasnt abnormal or differnt. I have gotten help over the past few years, and although this helped me greatly I still catch myself thinking about ending it all and wanting it to be over. I have tried on numerous occasions to end my life by drowning, cutting, hanging… and I can tell you now that they are not a way out. I fear pain (who doesnt really) and I went looking tonight for a website that would show me painless ways to kill myself. But after reading peoples comments on a few differnt site I realise that once Im gone…Im gone…there is no turning back time no nothing. The saying “you only live once” is worn out, people say it and read it and dont take in its real meaning anymore. Because once you pull that trigger or tighten that rope or whatever its all over, you will never be able to see your family, talk to them, get annoyed with a sibbling or laugh with your mother. You wont be able to laugh at some stupid ad on the television or have a joke with friends… anything that life permits you to do… anyway I have gone on and on and really have not come to a point so I shall round this off, and go in search of a funny youtube video to cheer me up, instead of a suicide one.
Cheers all.
And just remember “you only live once” yes people only once, now take in the words what do they really mean…?…
Now think long and hard about it, will you miss your family when you are gone?…simply put no…how could you? you would be dead…but Im willing to bet that your loved ones would really get hurt…My sister is in tears when Im in one of my “dont stop me, Im going to end it” moods, and thats what makes me stop, and consider what she’ll go through, twins are very close, she and I are identical I tell her eveything and she tells me everything, If I lost her I would be dead even if still breathing, and thats how she would feel…ok now this comment is really ending.
“You only live once!”
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>>> to twin !
GOOD ON YOU !!!!
)))
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Art.
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what good is this life?? I read ppl say life is wonderful, beautiful, etc.. But i only ask, what good is it??
Is it any good if u always keep hurting ppl?? No matter how hard u try, u end up in tears? Y is it that our life aint our own life? Y do many ppl have or take over control of our life?? If u love someone, ur parents hate her.. If u earn, u cnt spend for urself..?? Cmo, they were supposd to teach me to save, fine.. Buh they taught, that shd b it really.. Not force me to do it!
N when i lied, they hated it.. Hated me.. I mean, y cnt i jst b left alone? They alrdy sent me far away frm them, miles away to another country.. Jst to kp me away frm a gurl.. Dnt knw what they thinking.. Aftr 4 years, its not possible fr me n her to live apart jst cs o freakin ppl who gave me birth dnt want it.. Jst cs they gave me birth dsnt mean they control me.. But they still wana control my life.. I dnt say that i am perfect.. But, m ok being whtevr i am.. I jst dnt want to hurt anyone.. N i thot of running away, but soon they will track me down.. Its easy for them… Its nt fair on tht girl, if i die.. I promised to b with her all my life.. She has lost her father alrdy.. How, i dnt knw.. She was young, and i never asked her abt it.. Cs i heard frm ppl that her dad committed suicide cs of her mum.. Life is all confused nw.. Suicide is not smthn i wud do, but seems no other choice.. By the end of today, i might break hearts if i live.. Ma parents’ n ma brotherz.. If i live, i knw i will.. I have to b gone.. N its gotta b today.. Far away frm evry1.. Cant take it anymore.. Any1 any good ways to leave the world??
Peace..
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All of you ppl telling others that they should kill themselves r sick and coldhearted human beings. its one thing if u want to die and dont care what others think, but its another thing when u encourage someone to kill themselves and give them ways of doing it. yes this life is hard…ive been through hard times too and ive thought of killing myself before, ive been through a deep depression where all i could htink about is how horrible my life is and how much i hate walking on this earth…
It sucked and no one understood, not my family not my friends, no one. my friends tried to be there for me but theres only so much a friend could do sometimes but its always good to have a friend to talk to because talking is helpfull. but its u who’s responsible for your life. i always blamed my problems on my parents which isnt completely wrong but how u react and deal with life is your problem and no one else’s. its all about attitude and the view u have of life. if u can find the strength to push every negative person aside and focus on what you want, where you want to be, how you want ur life to be…then u can choose to move on…
Im a very depressing person and i welcome depressing thoughts but i have learned to controll them. this is extremely hard and most people dont understand how it feel to hate life beyond passion. but before thinking about killing or cutting yourself u have to htink about teh good things in life even if there are only a few or even only one because no matter how bad ur life is htere has ot be one thing in ur life that u love or have loved in the past. and it is selfish to kill urself becuase there r ppl who love u and they will have ot suffer w/ur loss and it doesnt just last a year or 2, it lasts a lifetime. yes life is hard but there is more to life than just hte present and past. the future is up to u, u cant control ur past, but u can controll the present and future.
You have quit sitting going the floor crying or cutting urself, u have to find power and change the way you think…life is hard but there is a reason for everyone and everything. u r put on this earth for a reason, not to end ur life before ur time comes. u dont know what ur future has in store for u, but u have ot be strong enough to handle life…death is for the weak who cant deal w/their life problems…however, everyone is strong in their own way. ppl who cut themselves r strong in a sick way b/c they can deal w/the physical pain taht i was alwasy affraid of, but they r weak b/c they find the easy way of dealing w/life.
You have to try to stand up to problems and tell urself that ur stronger than ur enemy…there will always be ppl who dont liek u or want to get in ur way, but if u let them get to u to the point thta u want to kill urself then ur just proving to them that they could step on u like a bug. life is hard but its def worth living once u push through the hard times. and trust me it does get better…i used to htink it doesnt but thats only b/c ur looking at it negatively, u have to look at things possitively and then things just somehow work their way through, u meet ppl that make ur life worth living and find things u love and thats jsut what life is about…life is test, u have to be try to handle teh pressure to pass…and if u fail ppl will pitty u…i dont want pitty b/c im strong and i dont want ppl looking down on me thinking “that poor thing couldnt handle it”.
so before u kill urself think…y am i here, who loves me, who will i hurt if i do this, maybe tom looks better than today. but if u give up today then tomorrow’s surprise will never come. if u think no one cares about u, well i do even though i dont know any of u, i care, i dont want ppl to kill themselves b/c theres hope and i wnat ppl to come to the point that ive to…id love to help anyone who wants to talk b/c its sad when u hear about someone who gave up on life.
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btw…mastermind…ur always gonna hurt someone in life whether u want to or not. i have the type of problems w/my parents but i learned to believe that if they would do anything to keep me away from what makes me happy then they r not worth it…if u break ur parents heart, its their fault not urs b/c if they love u enough they would get over the fact that u love this girl and in time they will see that u r their child and thats all that matters…if they dont come to that relization(mine never would) then theyre not worth ur time, energy and love. u need to figure out who is more important to u, the girl that will always love u or the parents that would do anything ot keep u away from her, away from being happy? parents can be very ignorant and if they are ignorant enough to make u unhappy then they r not worth it. its all about who and waht matters to u. im running away soon and i dont care how much they hurt anymore because i need to do what makes me happy…htats what life is about, doing what makes u happy. we’re all in this life for ourselves and we’re not living for anyone else so we should be able to choose what makes us happy and ppl that want to stop u r not worth ur time and unhappines.
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oh and also…it is not free will to kill urself b/c u r not thinking straight…its like someone who is drunk. drunk ppl do things they dont know theyre doing and tomorrow when theyre sober they wont remember and if they do something really stupid they will regret it. thats how suicide and self mutilation works…u r not in a normal state of mind b/c u r being driven by ur negative attitude and outlook on life…ur not taking everything into cosideration…u r basically drunk on ur negativity…so dont call it free will, because if tomorrow ur r sane u will be glad that u didnt kill urself and would regret if u have cut urself…suicidal thoughts are drugs that twist ur mind.
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wanna die …. gotta know some effective means of committing suicide…anybody know where i can find cyanide and stuff…? or sarin…? or are there poisons that could kill me in a few minutes? where can i find them? please help
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Dam..this life!! why oll this !! pain..pain..
blood,death,tears,etc…
that`s fuck life man :’(
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i’ve been wanting to commit suicide for a long time i have nothing in my life. my story goes i lost my kids to my ex husband in 2006 i have 2 girls and the reason i lost them is i had no job, no transportation, no home basiclly no money im fighting for my kids but it seems hopless i also lost my fiance i lost him yesterday wooooo i just cant take know more hurt in my life thats why i want to end it and did i mention my ex was abusvive for 6 years i bet that really put the icing on the cake i don’t wanna live no more but its been nice chating with all of yall
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I have tried to kill my self alot but nothing as worked for me he sliced my wrist open, i have token over 30 pills(pain, muscle relaxers and sleeping) at once and im 16 but nothing has worked i have lost alot and seen alot and it gets worse daily is the any help to finish it
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im 16 and I’ve tried to kill myself but it didn’t but death is punishment from your parents because they give you life (cant have death without life)
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tats terrible..jz tink of it, if ur alive on tis earth 4a purpose..y go make a death 4urself n go to hell? pity…
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I’m 15 and I’ve been thinking about suicide since my mom died 5 yrs ago, I just can’t bring myself to it. If amyone has any advice on how to do it painlessly and quick please tell me. I’m catholic and that’s the only reason I’ve done nothing yet, but I’ve pretty much lost faith in god, if he’s even there…
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I think you should add some more options to the least. Perhaps some more comfortable ways of killing oneself? I just don’t like any of the above. I need some more inspiration.
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My easy way tonight…..Vodka 1 bottle consumed and .44 mag. Done deal.
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That Cut Gives My Butterflies, I Wish Mine Would Go That Deep.
I So Can Not Wait Till I Find My Perfect Way Out Of This Horrible Life !
I Think That I Can Never Do It Right Cause My Ways Are Too Common, I Must Find The Perfect Way !
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52 yr old male in missouri talented artist for yrs, lost my wife a month ago from cancer, livin in retail space no bed no shower, no fridge, just a tv and a computer. Left all my possessions behind; family has forsook me or is too far to visit; sold my vehicle cause i got warrants and dont wanna go to jail. I dont eat well, sleep well, i never go out, got no friends cause im in a new town. I walk to the store in the cold. Nothing in life has any meaning for me anymore. When my wife died I drove around in circles for 3 days, could not go back home for anything, and could not even go to the funeral. Oh I laugh now and then at an ad on tv, or a pic on the web, but the life has gone out of me. I miss my wife and want to be where I hope she is-with Jesus in Heaven. I think about ending my life every single day, but I dont do it. Not because I believe I’ll go to hell, or that I’ll hurt my family and friends. I don’t end my sad life because I dont got the guts, period. I hate pain, thats why I contemplate suicide! What-you think I wanna step out in front of a train? Despite my pain I go on, one day at a time, and I hope I keep doin that til the God who created me decides its my time to go. Is that courage? No, cause if I had any of that I prob would not be where Im at today. I’m too much a coward to take my own life, just like most everybody else that has posted here. Life is worth hanging in with I dont care what anyone says. If you post you wanna kill yourself, I hurt with you. If you post telling others to just do it, I got nothin to say to you. If you created this website, I thank you for giving me people a place to vent. I’d just ask yourself if what you are doing is doing more good than harm. As for all the rest of you, heres your one chance to actually use that “pathetic” life of yours to maybe help somebody. Cuz if it turned out you actually did help someone by takin 5 min out of your “no good” life to post something positive, maybe, just maybe your life aint so worthless afterall.
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im12 and from 10 years old to know i have tried to kill myself but something always stops me i just cant take
stress that good and no one knows about me wanting to do this tell now but only you guys life sucks and im like really good about hiding my feelings. and so when i want to cut my self ill use a spoon
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if there is a god way is he putting me though me though this i don’t want help nothing i just want someone to under stand and my best friends don’t even know and man i have a lot of friends and i am going to tell two of them on the bus and the rest of them at lunch and most of all is my mom because she is verbaily abusive
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but the thing is i know what is stoping me its my baby sister because i want to be there to watch her grow up
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but people who do kill their self dont see what their missing and who their hurting i know people think about doing it but they dont think about who their hurting and what change your going to make in their life because if you kill yourself then a bf or parent will kill theirself too so basicly me and outher people are always careing about yourself what about other people dont get me wrong life is going to be hard but thats part of life so you and me need to make the best of it because aloy
t of people have wors than use like i know a girl that just move to a differt school and she has only had one friend scence pre k and she has ben made fun of all the way to now and i hope she has good luck at her new school and she has never cryed when she is made fun of she had head lice so they had to cut her hair really short and she has always had a proublum when she pops in her pants its sad because its not her fault and she always has a good attitud and the other thing is she is really nice but me and my frinds dont really talk to her all we say is hi we didnt want to talk talk to her but we never been mean to her she has been throgh hell as it is and this yeari went up to er and asked her if she ever want to kill herself and she sead noway never so i just walked off that girl y hav alot of hop and sees a good futcher
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this..life..bad..every body .. kill slef !
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I’m too much a coward to take my own life, just like most everybody else that has posted here. Life is worth hanging in with I dont care what anyone says. If you post you wanna kill yourself, I hurt with you. If you post telling others to just do it, I got nothin to say to you. If you created this website, I thank you for giving me people a place to vent. I’d just ask yourself if what you are doing is doing more good than harm. As for all the rest of you, heres your one chance to actually use that “pathetic” life of yours to maybe help somebody. Cuz if it turned out you actually did help someone by takin 5 min out of your “no good” life to post something positive, maybe, just maybe your life aint so worthless afterall.
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I’m fed up with people saying those who commit suicide don’t think of the pain of loved ones they leave behind. I am suicidal because no one cares about me!If someone cared I wouldn’t be suicidal.My family have all turned their backs on me as have all my “mutual” friends who sided with my ex and abondoned me. All my attempts to form another relationship have been met with rejection and indifference.So I’m suicidal because no one gives a shit whether I’m alive or dead!! I don’t want to leave a mess for someone to clear up, I am not inconsiderate of others and I am looking for a way to end my miserable life in the cleanest tidiest way possible. I can’t bear to live this lonely life much longer though so I need to find a method soon.
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I’ve been suicidal since I can remember. I attempted suicide as a teenager once. Had my stomach pumped. I guess it was a cry for help. Lacking attention. Mommy didnt love me enough. Or just teenage hormons. As an adult 31 years old (most suicides are supposedly committed by white males in their 30’s) I feel more in control but the thoughts are always there. In my years of talking to people I have learned that there is one commoon charateristic of suicidal people. They are just good nice people that live a world full of assholes basically. I wish I could buy an island where all suicidal nice people could live and treat each other with respect and dignity. I believe then the suicide issue would subside. but who knows. Come to think of it. I dont think I have ever known a suicidal asshole. So if you are suicidal in my opinion your probably just too nice in a world for of people who are too selfish to give a fuc about you so therefore death seams to be the only way out.
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all I can say is please do NOT follow the methods shown above in the pictures those are the most PAINFUL WAYS TO DIE EVEN ANIMALS GET A MORE PEACEFUL END SOMETIMES! (if euthanized correctly
and that is the same method and way I will take out of this world I plan to kill myself real soon – my family hates me and I have lost my faith in reality before I ever lost my faith in God just remember that before you athiestic assholes push your agenda down every one’s throats.
Remember all the people you allowed to die ..
slitting your wrists is a hell of a way to go
drowning yourself is a hell of a way to go
suffocation is a hell of a way to go
all of these methods posted really are quite lame – one does not have to think too much to realize how animalistic our society is and the irony is that there are animals who get put down more humane than most human beings may ever be put down from these pictures I could almost say more..
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thankyou.
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You Guys Are So Stupid !
If You Don’t like It… Don’t Fucking Look !
I Hate People Who Are All “People Who Commit Suicide Are Just Taking The Easy Way Out”
So Fucking What. If Anyone Had Been Throught A Day In My Life They Would Want To Aswell !
Life Is The Hardest Thing And I Am Supprised I Have Lived This Long !
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i wish i could just die silently and painfully u know… like without knowing i would gonna die. i wish i could me murdered, and die instantly.
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chris – are you still alive? you haven’t posted since Nov 08. everything you say makes so much sense! I looked on here because I wanted to die but now I’m not so sure – all I have is mental/heart problems, and I know life can be much, much worse than this. I hope you and your common sense are still around . . .
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Alison,we have had alot of the same experiences that have led us to this place,I too am looking for a way out but reading your message has touched me deeply, you sound like a nice girl please dont give up.
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lulie the love of my life has gone,Ive driven her away because of my bi polarism she was the best thing thatever happened to me.Icant and will not stay in a world without her even though Ive got 2 kids from a previos relationship that i know i should think about,Ithink though that they will be better off without me around,afterall i aint willing to let them see me so unhappy anymore,it just aint fair on them.Im 44 and too old to find love again,I had my chance at happiness but my illness blew it for me.Im tired but calm now ive decided what i gotta do,its like a great weight has finally been lifted from my chest.thanks for the advice everyoneCO is the way to go…
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i go to jail to often and im not goin back.most people that kill self just hate themself.i on the other hand love myself but rather then go back to jail AGAIN im going to (like everyone sais take the easy way out)there is a lot more to my life then that but i dont need to tell anymore then i already have.love you all BY.
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actually that comment posted about people who hate themself killing themself I think you are wrong entirely.
Some people do it to get rid of pain and are living in poverty – can you imagine starving to death with nothing to eat or live off of? What about a family that hates you and everything you represent and shoves that down your throat ?
people wear many masks – but I suspect if we had wished to live a peaceful life we wouldn’t have gone the way of hell.
there are many things in the bible that mention a time for peace and restoration let alone the quote from ecclesiastes – so the reason this is happening in my mind (and increasingly rate) is because there is no reverence for God or for helping a fellow friend.
God said by the sweat of your brow not by the blood and death of it. There is only so much work a person can do before you are killing them remember that when God judges you I will not even go on to state the long list of things you have done because I know God has it all set in motion!
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Oh and by the way SUICIDE IS NEVER EASY – it takes a lot of pain to carry through with it – obviously the pain in reality must be even worse than the person killing themself.
Ever heard of emotional pain?
“Your a freak” “Your a psycho” or the entire tonal downgrade you get from a person talking over you all the time like your a worthless piece of trash!?!?
Or jee we can’t hire you because that’s how evil our generation was before you – you have to *kiss* ass to get a job now a days? Ah believe me when I say that all of this hateful arguing and anger is in God’s hands and he will judge!
As much as a bullet of anger pierces some one’s chest and makes them drop dead God has the power to do just the same to this earth remember that!
And to those who don’t believe in it romans 3:4 – [4] God forbid: yea, let God be true, but every man a liar; as it is written, That thou mightest be justified in thy sayings, and mightest overcome when thou art judged.
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Whatz up a-holes! Listen I’ve been thinkin’ about how damn absurd life is lately. I mean you wake up every goddamn morning and it’s always the same damn routine. man! once you really think about it life just litterely sucks like shit. I am 20 years of age right now, I have no intention of living past this age. Anyways, let me cut to the chase, I need someone to give me the perfect plan of the “perfect” suicide. I don’t bother givin’ me any shitty advice! I need a good thoughral painless suicide. And NOW! i CAN’T LIVE ANYMORE, i WANT TO DIE . Here’s a good thing: explain to me how you can get immediate cancer. I want to perish in hell forever! ha ha ha ha hahahhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
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what the hell is wrong with you!!! you think that if someone is seriously thinking of commiting suicide they are going to listen to that pathetic message at the end of your sick rant!!! your not helping anyone your encouraging them!!! maybe you should deal with your own issues instead of trying to make as many suicidal people as possible kill themselves!!! your sick!!! my mom tried to kill herself several times and its because of people like you glamourising it!!! how bout you kill yourself, people like you are not needed in this world!!!! ASSHOLE!!!!!!
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it is very nice to see this types of pictures and please improve the quality of sizes and photos which u r keeping and please keep very horror pictures gain the popularity from the fans of us and i a fail susaid person which i am living in slam areas of hyderabad a.p.india
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Nothing in life is worse than knowing you took from yourself what you could have had.
I was in an abusive relationship for many years. although i was a beautiful girl,my ex would always compare me to others and pick apart my looks. I started to believe him. it was hard to leave because of finances and other issues.
I developed Body Dysmorphic Disorder and started the process of picking at imaginary blemishes to create a better “me”. I was truly crazy and broken at this point. Things only escalated…one day my ex pointed out a wrinkle on my face. Although everyone thought i was very young (a teenager), i saw myself as extremely old looking. I literally BURNED my face anywhere i saw the slightest wrinkling. I went to a burn unit, lied, and told everyone it was an accident from hot coffee. While recovering from these burns, still obviously very delusional, i burned myself on my chest where i “saw”…once again…the ever imaginary wrinkles. I woke up the morning after my burn binge and discovered REAL, very pronounced wrinkles ALL OVER from sleeping on the damaged skin. It did not have the elasticity to go back.
I am scarred for life as a result of these things. My identity is not the same. I cannot wear anything nice looking even because of the pronounced redness and skin puckering. My face looks definetely different. I did this around the mouth and now there are pronounced dips there.
The best solution would have been to end the abusive relationship before it became so toxic to my self esteem and judgement, but all that has passed, and now i am left….UGLY…when i was once percieved, by others as well as myself, to be a vey pretty young lady.
Now, when others used to think i was 16 whe i was 21 people now think i am around 25!
Before i receive the lectures…yes…i know i did this all to myself technically. But it was not about vanity. It is a serious obsession and psychotic thinking. I didnt even go for the creams, or even to get professional advice! I just mutilated myself. Definetely NOT logical.
I am going to commit suicide. The only thing holding me back is how it will affect my family. But no, the problems i face are NOT temporary. I have mutilated myself and will be a different person now on for the ret of my life. No more dresses, self confidence, and free spiritedness. I never imagined i would do this to myself. It is still more like a nightmare than real life. My problem cannot be fixed.
I wish someone would just kill me
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i hate my life i’ve tried 2 commit sucide but noone let me so yeaa
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sonafabitch u could stand in front of a car and let it hit u that is perfect suicide or u can stab ur hart with a knife if u relly wanted 2 i guess have fun!!!
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hello everyone. well… i almost died
and i still want to
i hung myself and then passed out
leaving my parents to find me
and then rushing me to the hospital
i was there for almost 3 months
it was hell
but even if your thinking about suicide
talk to a close friend
they dont want you to leave
no matter how bad life it
i understand that now.
you can even talk to me
you acn email me.
bobs.ur.uncle22@gmail.com
i dont want anyone killing themselves
for stupid reasons
like getting attention
or getting rid of the pain
killing yourself just means your a coward
and your running away from everything.
its a bad idea
and well its really stupid
suicide isnt the answer
get that through your heads bitches
before you hurt someone that really cares about you
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I know a case where a man made a bet that he could drink an entire bottle of hard liquor at once. Well, he won the bet, collected and went home to sleep, but he never woke up again. Sayonara. So there you have it!
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i have tryed to kill my self meny times and i still want to and if someone wants to kill theme self they can and u gay ass fags need to lay off its not aginst the law
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this bad life :S
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I am planning to commit suicide within 3 days… wish me good luck
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I have attempt to commit suicide several times but I have not reach success, yet. I do not think God wants me to die. I drank bleach, poison, and overdose on pills. I woke up the next morning each time. I do not have a gun so I can not go that way.
I was rape for years, from as far as i can remember to the age of 14. From 14- 18 I was malested. All because My mother couldn’t part with her one true love, my Father. I also was physically and verbally abused. Trust me i wanted to tell, sooooo much. I was so scared, and my mom would of went to jail also since she was aware of the situation. Although, my mother forced me to live with my rapist, she fought to get my siblings and I fed and clothed. Most importantly she introduced us to God. Why should I lived?
My mom died 2 years after I moved out. She had 4 heart attacks 2 strokes but she died from cancer. Why should I live?
I am sorry, my life is hell. of course, I tried dating. As a result, I was lied to, taken advantage of , cheated on (and he inpregnanted her during the relationship), and of course verbally abused. The worst thing is I actually love the bastard so it is hurting me to be away from him. Why should I live?
I had been sexually harrassed by guys in each job I worked in. I talking about, physical contact. Why should I live?
I have always been questioned whether not I was stating the truth despite the apparent evidence. Why should I live?
I even experienced being homeless for a while. why should I live?
I was always taught not to express any negative emotions. I kept all my anger issues that do and do not acknowledge to myself. This is the first time I am publicly announcing what happen to me.
After someone lived that life which continues today then they can tell me what to do with it.
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Thank you very much for this information, I’ll take it into consideration.
Fuck the world and its meaningless games.
Oh well. Everyone can hate me if they want.
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I was hoping someone would give me some sort of hope. I guess not.I do not recommend any one to kill themselves. It’s just that my life is so mess up and I constantly live in fear of the abuse repeating to me or I repeating the abuse to someone else. I do not wish anyone cause any harm to themselves. I am just depress and insecure. I was planning to commit sucide last night but an old friend called me. We had the greastest conversation. I laughed and I haven’t laughed in years. I realized that night that I was focusing on only the bad things that happenned in my life. I needed to see the good. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. I survived everything I went through. I am still living. How many people can say that? Maybe, I can help or inspire someone one day. It doesn’t matter how tough life gets someone has it worse off than you and if they can survive so can you.
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no matter whats happened in the past,, things can only get better and suicide is not the answer. live your life to the full, its short enough without you making it shorter, dont waste it. you should live because your mum would want you to move on from your childhood and to prove your dad that your worth something. I had a childhood friend that killed themselves and it only made more problems… DONT DO IT.
Websites like this dont help the situation,, so it might be a good idea to take these images off.
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hey nancy….dis one is 4 u…..ur story is sad….evn my greatest fear is being raped nd i cn imagine hw u must hv felt….this thing is common abt d entirre male community…..most of them r just sex starved……u hv 2 lrn dis thing….stand up on ur own feet…..be economically nd socially independent…..trust urself….u hvnt done nytg wrong nd u shudnt suffer 4 dat…..plus i hv a suggestion which u mite nt like…adopt a baby girl….smn u cn search 4 happiness into again….its far-fetched…yeah…bt nt impossible….
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this message is for nancy,
i was raped as well by the love of my life. i have been in that position before and i have also tried to kill myself on many occasions but with the right help im dealing with it and soon hope to get over it, the only advise that i can give you is to confide in someone who has had similar expieriences and if there is no one confide in a freind and i strongly recommend councilling (thats what im having at the moment and it great its really helped me see things in a different light) i did this with my sister who was raped and abused by her father she is now 26 and in a stable and loving relationship and has moved on with her life and you can do the same thing im sure you can!!! your just as strong as any man or woman all you have to do is believe it! i know things must be hard harder than words can describe!! but you can pull through you asked for someone to give you hope and thats what i want to gove this isnt the end!!! i believe in you and i personally dont want you to take your life you hoave have come this no matter how hard please please please dont give up dont let them win. i hope this message doesnt sound in any way condesending (it was never ment to) but i just really dont want you to do anything! your life is far to presious and so is everyone elses!!!! please take something from this message your life is worth a hell of alot!!!
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RIGHT NOW I COME BEFORE YOU IN THE ANME OF JESUS CHRIST AND BIND THE EVIL WORKS OF THE ENEMY THAT IS USING YOU TO DESTROY OTHERS THRU COMMITTING THEIR OWN DEATH. IN JESUS HOLY NAME I REBUKE YOU AMIT AND THE EVIL IN YOU. I PRAY THAT ALL PRO-SUICIDE WEBSITES ARE DESTROY THAT EVERYTIME SOMEONE GOES ON THEM, THAT THEIR COMPUTER MAY FREEZE AND NOT WORK IN JESUS NAME. AMEN.
AMIT I WILL PRAY FOR YOUR SALVATION-YOU SEEM LIKE A BRIGHT MAN WHY NOT USE YOUR GIFTS TO HELP OTHERS LIVE A LONG LIFE?
JESUS CHRIST LOVES YOU.
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Hello,
My name is Joshua, and I want to die. Suicide has always been on my mind, since I was a teenager. Although I strongly wish to commit this act, I am a coward, and have realized I will never kill myself.
Therefore, I am posting this everywhere I can, looking for someone to help me die. You may kill me anyway you like. Of course we will have to take precautions, so that no one knows who killed me.(Unless you want to go to prison).
I am very serious about this and if you wish to help me out you can email me at joshuawebbert@yahoo.com
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I hate life. I hate school and almost everyone around me. I just want to die. I want people to know how much i hate life and them.
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hi all,
we all know nobody wants to die, unless there is enough pain.
i also want to die because nobody loves me, nobody cares for me.
I have a GF, I love her very much and I think she doesn’t love me but she shows me that she can’t live without me.
Guys I know that she is using me for her personal interests , I feel that one day she will cheat me, but still I am doing each and everything for her because I love her. I want to die but then I think if she really loves me from her heart, she will also commit suicide. I can’t understand what should I do?
At home and office nobody likes me; I don’t know why I was sent to this world where nobody is mine.
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Killing yourself may get yourself noticed but your not going to be around to see it.
If you hate life and school do somethign abotu it.
Move school
change the things you dont like in your life until you do like them…
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I tried many times to kill myself.I was even in the ICU for 2 months.Its really painful.Im looking for a painless method.
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will be attempting again on 23rd, hope it works this time
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Ohh, So horrible to see these pictures. Please give some small size pictures.
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Hello to all….
Nancy…..you seems to be such a lovely person….Don’t let that what happened with you in the past destroy what can happen to you in the future….Present is a gift…as life too….
In September of 2001 i tryed to commit suicide…not to call attention….i put alcohool over my head and body and tooked fire…..i will not describe here how it hurted…..but i just want to say, that 3 years after i had my daughter……and today, when i look to her sometimes, i just think about every smile i culd have loosed for being so stupid…..i am not a uggly girl, but i do have scars, that i didn’t wanted to hide, cause i don’t want to forget the stupidity i almost did to me….i start to thik about killing myself with the age of 12….this happened with the age of 25….i am 32 now……my boyfriend is treating me like a shit, and i was looking for some dark inspiration again…………than,after read all of you …i just want to say thank you all, cause the last thing i think at this moment is about dying…maybe sleep for few hours yes…to relief the pain that so many times is too much for me to hold…But life is beautiful…. LOVE TO YOU ALL!
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Hello my name is aaron(im sure thats obvious), im 13 years old and im in 8th grade. Im sure no one here cares, but my life pretty much sucks. I have always been shy and “mature” for my age because iv gone through more shit than most of the people i know (family EXcluded). A few years ago my brother locked himself in the bathroom with a glock preparing himsel for death as i walked home early from school.(it was a half day)i was 8 then… he was…24. imagine an eight ear old walking home to have thier most admired brother minutes from pulling the trigger and having to talk him out of it… ALONE!!! I (again) am in the 8th grade and iv gone to 6 different schools. 4 different elementary and 2 middle schools’. At my last school, I made many more friends’ than i ever have! it finally took me more than two hands to count them. (sad i know but shut the hell up… for those who do care thats wasnt directed towards you)I was known all around the school and even had “popular” friends. MY GRADES WHERE EXCELLENT!!! Straight A’s all year (no studying…) LIFE WAS FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC!!! this summer it all whent to hell. My brothers and sister movd out. Started at a my new ghetto ass school with a bunch of fuggin retards (no offense to any one in particular) Two very very very close family friends passed away recenly (one being Michael Steven Johnson you can look it up in the Richmond Times Dispatch) Now, I live with my mom… and my hated step-dad, in an old shitty house. Im to broke for a cell phone and my ass hole brother practically owns MY Xbox 360 (which connects to live and i can communicate w/ my friends. and now im here… lost my friends… lost my good school grades… lost the lively house(s) i once lived in with a big family, people comin and goin… no more… no motivation to get up in the morning… no motivation to eat (as im now anemic and on the verge of being diabetic) and now im lookin for ways to kill my self… i once dreamed of college… i had it all planned out, finish high school,get a loan, go to a graphics design school, and make video games and other computer produced medias’. now im thinking of dropping out of school and joining the army. if i could simply flip a switch, and turn myself off, as if turning off a light, i would……………………………………………………………………………. FEEL FREE TO RESPOND!!! i need people to talk to…bye.
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I think of it all the time. I put oil in the petrol and a hose from the exhaust into the car swallowed 148 valium 8 packs of asprin because it disolves your liver and kidneys and six shots of heroin, 3 bottles of 85 OP scotch. After I drank the drink with the dislvable asprin and crushed valium I released the tie on my arm from the heroin. As a final jesture to life I slashed my right forarm to the bone. I was on a dirt track and a bloke and son were walking their dog seen the light on in the car and the smoke comming from the busted drivers seal on the door as they got closer was when I cut myself and blood washed over the window. They got help. I had written my letters of goodbye. Woke up 2 months latter from a coma inducded by doctors to save my life. I dont feel as if I have anything in this life. I dont wont to be here.Why do I not end it its just pain. pain. pain. no one knows. You get beaten and raped all your life and you can say I’m wrong.
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We need to all focus our efforts on suicide in a way that assists those wanting suicide. If someone wants to die we should assist them in having a peaceful death with as little pain and agony as possible. There should be walk in centers where one can go and immediatly be assisted in dying just like in the movie Soylent Green. Those suicide centers were so peaceful with the special effect 360 degree scenery on the walls and the peaceful relaxing music as one just drifted off into eternity. Everyone over the age of 18 should be afforded that right.
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i have left two messages on this website, trying to persuade people to not commit suicide…the truth is i’m ill, i have been since i was thirteen, i tryied to kill myself for the first time when i was twelve, now im eighteen and im ten time worse, i have panic attacks everyday, i cant eat and im so depressed! i cant do this anymore! i ahve nothing to live for! why should i live surley if i was worth anything i would’nt have been raped when i was fifteen! this is to hard! im disgusting, no one will ever want a self harming depressed idiot! i hate everything. can someone please tell me the best way to kill myself, i tried overdosing and it didnt work. please just gove me a way out of this. i cant handle this anymore, im stuck and i dont know what to do? please help me. if any one has any advise Email me at black_stars_broken_hearts@hotmail.com thankyou.
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I want to die too. I am worthless and I’m so tired of working hard for nothing. This world is about money and I do not have enough. I hate rich bastards in all their expensive things, going around treating people like shit, you have everything why so misserable? Try being poor, lose your house to forclousre, have your car repoed, . I’m done with tring to pay. I want to die because i can not afford to live and i do not like people. my husband said, “nobody likes you, you don’t have any friends.” that is echoed in my mind 24 hour a day, i can not escape it. How about taking sleeping pills, isn’t that pain less? I love to sleep. My family hates my parents, sister, aunts, cousins ect…. husband, my kids will learn to because eveyonr does. see there is no reason for me to live.
/i don’tfeel sorry for my self, it’s just the truth and the logical ending. all my jobs suffer because i make people hateme, no one likes me but a few have put up with me. someone told me when i started high school that i should back off from my best friend because she was pretty and could become popular, but not with me as her friend so i stopped hanging out with her. she became a cheerlead and part of the student councel. i gave her a great gift. i will never make a friend again. i do not like to be around people. i have to work to be able to live, see it;s so clear, but i am such a chicken. please let me get a terminal illness.
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hey aaron, do not join the Army life will be worse I did for a place to live when i turned 18 my mom said get out, i hated.
what a messed up loser i am, my mother could not wait to get rid of me and my dad’s wife won’t let hime speak to me so i hate him.bye
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I have read the replies to my message and the other messages. I had a long talk with my mom last night and don’t discard this info because I am only thirteen. Consider me a counciler of sorts. Just reply to me and I will be more than happy to help or just be there. I have a few tips –>
1) In life, moving something heavy is difficult for one person, if you have someone close to you that is concerned about you, mom or dad, friend or spouse, co-worker even, don’t be resiliant, ITS OKAY TO TALK TO THEM!!! back to the moving something heavy, the burden they call life is difficult carried by one, but the more people you have to love you, the easier (lighter) it becomes. And so, in a no- homo or perverted or creepy way, I AM HERE TO HELP CARRY THAT BURDEN!!! just talk to me!!!
2) IT IS OK TO CRY!!! crying makes you feel better. They say crying washes away the sorrow.
I hope I helped and if your troubled, just talk to me.
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I want to commit suicide but im not sure when and how to do it.I have friends but im tired of always dissapointing people.When I was younger I had some health problems,they were noticible to me but not to othere people,but the problem is the surgerys I had left me with severe depression and mood swings and im tired of feeling great one minute and feeling like hell the next.this has been going on since the end of middle school and im in my second year of college now.So what would be a good way to go??any help would be appreciated.
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PLEASE, don´t remove the pictures of!
It is totally neccesary for people, who are just only playing with the idea about commiting suicide, what suicide really IS.
Thanks.
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im 15 and i have thought about suicide strongly over the last few days; its like any little thing will set me off. my mom told me to get up because i would be late for school, i said no and she started shouting at me. that really set me off. i dont understand why, like right this minute i dont want to kill myself, but i know tomorrow when i see the boy i love, (who for some reason stopped talking to me last week, after texting me saying “i love you xxx”) that the feelings of death will come back. i dont like feeling this way, but i cant help my thoughts and feelings towards this messed up life i am living. i suppose in the end i wouldnt like to leave family/friends behind, so i was wondering if anti-depressants work? i mean i know they’re supposed to, but ive heard people say they dont. help?
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Me,as now i want to thinking that way to kill myself because of some reason.I always ask myself, when can i make me happy?? I always want show to my happiness and caring to all my special in my heart but why is it their where always kill me by their words that i cant understand..i always cry,,and i always thinking to commit suicide.
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All of you people are disgusting! I had this problem when i was young too but i grew up and got help. i changed myself. suicide is the cowards way out and if you kill yourself then your a pussy! i cant believe all of the people on here who are so selfish and self-absorbed. it makes me sick!
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hay nina, i really feel for you. please give anti-depressents a try, im on them and they are working wonders. i use to feel intensly depressd and suicidal but know i dont feel at all suicidal. infact i dont even think of suicide. and its all what the doctors did for me and obviously family support.
go and see your GP who is the best person to help you. he or she can help you directly by talking to you, giving you medication and bu enlisting the help of otehr health care profeshonals like psychologists and counclors. you really need to get help, you are only 15 and you have the rest of you life ahead of you.
be honest with your gp and tell him/her how you feel. if you feel suicidal dont be on your own, talk to people, if you cant talk to people that you know phone helplines like samaritans or get connected. get connected is a free helpline and there number is 08088084994.or you could e-mail me. my email address is
foreverhope @ rocketmail.com
i hope i could help you. only if you were close to me i would help you personally but if you want to talk to me email me.
and that goes for anybody who comes to this website with the intension of suicide, selfharm or simply feeling low.
any body just e-mail me and i will try my best to help you.
love fatima
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this message is to Amamnda, how dare you call these people cowards! if you have been suicidal then maybe (although i highly doubt that you had the balls!) you remember how much courage it takes to put that knife to your wrist and pull, how it feels to down all them tablets, how it feels to get the courage to take poisen, how it feels to put that noose around your head! oyu dont have the right to call anyone a coward because you were obviously just to cowardly not to go through it, do yourself a favour and dont talk about things that you dont understand, the people on this site (including me) have got enouygh shit to be thinking about instaed of people like you trying to make it worse! some people cant just “grow out of it” a mentle illness isnt just something you grow out of, you have it for life. have you even read any of the messages on here? about people being raped and abused all thier lives, oh yeah you just get over things like that dont you? i swear if you had even an ounce of sense oyud hurt somebody, i hate people like you, your pathetic, a word of advice maybe you should get over yourself!!!!!! BTW DONT YOU EVER CALL ME OR ANYONE ELSE A PUSSY you WORTHLESS, INSIGNIFICANT PIECE OF SHIT!!!
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@Amanda, you liar. Anyone who was ever suicidal and overcame it would never calls the suicidal selfish and self-absorbed. You were probably one of those attention whores who uses suicide threats to get what she wants. I’m glad therapy did you good, but ONCE AGAIN, YOU WERE NEVER REALLY ONE OF US.
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well here goes my name is A c. recently my closest mate a mate closer then family a mate i grew up with seen every day commit suicde, He come to visit me drove 3 hours i hadn’t seen him in 1 day anyway he drove to see me we went into the city had lunch together he paid for everything after we checked out the ladys then we went out to the beach and watched the sun set and chilled as mates do after he dropped me home he told me to come see him out i did, he drove home and gassed himself in his car, while i was with i didn’t think anything was wrong as he didn’t mention anything he was happy and chill as we always have been when we kicked it together. So right now as u could imagine i’m in a prety messed up way iv’e been contemplating how to kill myself every day since it happened 3 weeks ago iv’e never experienced these feelings that come on real strong there un explainable its like adrenaline it makes u wanna get up and bolt and thats what i have been doing i have been around the country side now hitch hiking with nothing sleeping in bushes and sleeping at beaches looking up to the stars at night it makes me feel so close to him and think about him, i’m real scared of life not scared of death tho scared of what happens after. i have been planning my death now for the last couple of weeks since i have been away from reality aka the life i had before it happened i have lost my job and my partner i have had for the last year when i kill myself i’m going to record it play some music real meaning full music i want to give people i know an incite of how i’m feeling and this is how i’m going to do it its real intense buzz. to people who want to kill them selves i don’t think its a sellfish feeling as if u feel like doing it ur obviously in a bad way and it hard to think of a better way to deal with it or talk to someone or think out of that box i do understand u i wish people could understand the way i’m feeling.
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being suidcical is the worst feeling soemone can have and i dont kno=ink this is that place for anyone of us to judge people and call them cowards like amanda has done. people come on sites like this and have the courage to write about their deepest feelings because either they want help and support from otehrs using this site or they want to express themselfs, which helps us understand ourselfs better. they have the courage to talk about the most difficult and distressing of thoughts and thats not a cowardic thing to do. please amanda find another website to express yourself on, this is really not the place for you. im sorry to have to say thatand i dont mean to be rude or cruel in anyway. i know it is possible to get over the feelings and thoughts of suicide because i have done, but i can empthaise with thouse wo still have such feeling which it appears that you can not do. im sorry but this is not the place for you.
and another thing, if you had truly gotten over those feelings what are you doing on websites that are talking about suicide. you are either still supressing those feeling which are there and you are scared to admit it or you have come on these sites to have a laugh at those who have such feelings which is not acceptable.
or you simply want to learn more about suicide but i wonder why you would want to do that.
good luck amanda with wht ever you do but dont leave comments like you did because they could actually drive someone to feel more suicidal.
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How do I show that i want to kill myself by not actually dieing but almost because i can’t get across to my parents that i want to die and that my life is miserable.
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after checken this site i didn’t no how some pple are sick. i mean i’ve had the thougt n even tried t kill myself because i really find no reason ta live. that cut is so freaken deep, but then again both my arm are covered in scares on brutal burn’s that if some of u saw it u think its kool, i think its sick cuz all dat n im still alive man fuck.
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hi..please tell me the right technique of cutting the wrist..whenever i try to do it i just end up makin small red cuts on my wrist..nothing more..please help
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God Bless you Amit…..you took time to gather such info, which acts as a therapy in itself…
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to shynature, i know what its like to be fed-up of living or having a very hard life and just wanteing people to understand, but to attempt suicide, thats not the way. its far too risky to do that because there is always the chance that you will not get another change. do you see what i mean.
if you want to tell you parents who you feel then why dnt you go and see your gp, who can refere you to a councillor with whom you can discuss your problems and then maybe the councillor, with your permission, can talk to your parents and explain to then how bad the situation actually is…
its far better then actually tryiong to do something that you might or might not live to regret. you rather take the safe option.
also you have to live with what you do for the rest of your life, you dont want to grow up thinking that you attempted suicide or whatever, its not worth it. it will effect the rest of your life and you will never be normal again because you would have gone to the furtherst limits set by the human society and there is no way of undoing that.
i hope you get me point and understand that it is not bets to attempt suicide and that you can express your self in better ways. if your parents dont listen when you explain to them, then perhaps when your doctor or someone profeshional does the explaining they would be more likely to listen and understand.
please dont attempt suicide because that is some thing that you will regret…. think about it carefully.
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i don’t encourage anyone to end their life prematurely for suicide should be a personal matter – every now and then i have thoughts of suicide i understand it’s not my time just yet due to marriage bows and constant reminder of unfinnished business i have yet to fulfill – don’t get me wrong i still have plans to end my “phisical” life some day before ever becoming a burden to my loved ones or at some nursing home – for those who understand the principles of “calculated suicide” should be aware of loved one’s emotional pain that suicide might bring if planned poorly and once you’re gone there’s no turning back, there’s always some regretful moments we all have had at some points in our life, let not be this case in death. so think hard before making a drastic choice.
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suicide is the attempt of the weak
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earnest suicide is not the attempt of the weak. it takes courage and strength to even think about ending your life when everyone else has become so materialistic. it is the most difficult thiong to do and peopel that do try it are not weak. it might appear that way on the outside but that is not the truth.
some people are driven to suicide because of what happened to them in the past and what other people did to the and what they allowed themselves to get into. like me.
others do it because they are not happy with their menatl health and i have to tell you it is hard. i suffer from depression and i think i also suffer from some other disorder that leaves me thinking , imagining and see nng hearing the most bizar and wired things in the world but that has not been diagnosed. i hate the way that i am and i am not happy.
also some people are scared of what the future holds for them like me. i am afraid of getting into an abusive relationship, i am scared of having children that will be taken away from me, i am scared of having children and not being able to look after them and give them the best. i am scred pf the uncertainities of the future and because of all that id rather be dead. that does not mean im weak, well in a way it does, well maybe we are weak but who cares.
i dont care,. we might be weak but considering what we have lived with we are strong and each to their own opinion.
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Great. If people want to leave this sh*thole they have every right to. I’ve been contemplating suicide for a long time. It’s n ot a light choice like anything else.
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lets face it no one actually concidering suicide would take the time to ‘brag’ about it on this site. gosh ur just a load of losers who are seeking attention. prove me wrong, actions speak loader then words
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H, if you are calling the people who post here losers, what does it make you? Do you actually google suicide so you can feel better about yourself?
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WOT I THNK IS 2 INJECT A INJECTIN FILLED WIT AIR.IS D BST OPTN/…IS IT?
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I WANT 2 SUSCID COZ F MAH FMLY/…..TELL ME D SIMPLST WAY……WOT I THNK IGG INJECTIN A AIR FILLED INJECTN IS D BST WAY
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iiiii, i was having a bad day, any way i didnt realise this was a forum i thought it was just images but when i saw the crap people wrote i thought id respond anyway thats what this is for people to say what they think. there may be a few people here telling the truth but the moajority is crap, like that girl who says that shes tried to slit her wrists but all that happens is she gets little red lines, well its not rocket science, push down on the blade.
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Dear iiiii Atleast he wants to know why people want to commit sucide or why they are feeling sucidal and he is trying to do something for them ….. what i think is Good
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I agree with H, the decision to take ones own life is a very difficult and personal one and some of the accounts of suicide attempts here are clearly the made up glorifications of suicide of people living in a fantacy world where in one attempt of suicide they use multiply methods and yet come out the other side fine and perfectly happy to sit at home on their computer talking about it. When people actually have serious mental health problems they are put on suicide watch and looked after in a situation where they cannothurt themselves. Most people here seem to this that after trying to kill themselves and being in hospital the doctors just send you home to visit suicide websites. If people are having problems so bad they are considering suicide I doubt that they would bother talking here. People need to get busy living or get busy dieing. I hope that this helps x
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“So Tired Of Life”
An elderly patient asks a doctor for help he cannot provide.
by Neils Calman
The standard for my work as a physician has been to treat patients
as I would wish to be treated in their circumstances. But I would never want to be treated the way I treated Sarah Brownstein. Sarah (whose first and last names are fictitious) lived on the eleventh floor of an assisted living facility on Manhattan’s West End Avenue. Her large apartment was flooded with sunlight.
The furnishings were sparse, and there were no collections of mementos or other tchotchkes one might expect from more than ninety-two years of living—merely some paintings whose artists she identified, readily telling a story about each one. The place was spotless with not one item out of order. I was there at the
request of Sarah’s nephew, a friend and longtime colleague.
At our first meeting the diminutive Sarah was as poised as a debutante at her coming-out party. She was meticulously dressed, with just the right amount of makeup to look like she had been sunning in Florida, although I later found out that she rarely left her apartment. She wore no glasses, but a strained squint revealed
her deteriorated eyesight. Hearing aids were barely covered by her scant and wispy hair. She greeted me like a rescue worker coming to take her from her burning home. Yet she was uncomfortable about something in the other room, where a brief rustling of papers could be heard. Sarah put a finger to her lips as if to warn me of a hidden danger. Moments before, a visiting nurse had arrived.
Normally a welcome visitor, right now the nurse intruded into Sarah’s plans to talk with me in private. Sarah asked the nurse to take the medications she was documenting to the lobby because she “needed some privacy” with her doctor.
Soon we were alone. Sarah ushered me to the couch that occupied one wall of her living room. She sat down next to me, her shoulder against mine, and grabbed my arm with both her hands. For a minute we both sat silently as she held my arm firmly but gently,
as if to make sure I was real or to make some physical connection between us. “Dear Doctor,” she began. “I hope you can help me. I am so tired. So very, very tired. I have lived a wonderful and full life, and now I am just no good. No good to myself and no good to anybody else. I have become a burden to everyone, and I
have nothing left to live for. I hope youwill help me. I justwant to die. I amso very, very tired of living.” Her eyes welled up with tears. “Tell me about yourself,” I suggested politely, postponing any response to Sarah’s direct request until I could construct a fuller picture of the circumstances surrounding her bold request. “I want to know more about you.” A Life Once Lived
Sarah briefly outlined her life in perfect chronological order. “I was married to a most wonderful man,” she started. “Together we shared a full and exciting life.We loved art and supported many local artists in our time, some of whom have become quite famous.” She rose to pull an art book off the shelf, one of only two books visible in her apartment. She turned to a well-worn page and told the story of an abstract artist whose work she pointed to. It was
clear from the oil smudge on the page that she had done this countless times before. “My husband and I sat on the board of directors of music and art associations in our time, and we helped to start a new museum that is still there today.” Then
her eyes turned down. “But my darling Richard passed away more than thirty years ago, and I have been alone for such a long, long time.”
Her storytelling was impeccable except for her inability to recall names, which would cause her to raise her fist at the ceiling as if to curse the higher power that brought mental dysfunction into her life. “I am no good,” she whined. “I can’t hear, I can’t read, I can’t even think.” A tearwould then come to her eye, and I
would reassure her that she could take her time to tell the story. This was not altruistic on my part; I was mesmerized. One could not help notice the juxtaposition in her stories of the younger Sarah—an intellectual and social powerhouse—and today’s slight and failing Sarah, alone in her New York City apartment and ready to end her life. Next she spoke of her sons. “The worst thing a mother can do is outlive her son—no, to watch her son’s health deteriorate,” she said. “My younger son lives out west, and he is slowly dying of Parkinson’s disease. I can’t bear to think about
this, and it is on my mind constantly. My older son is a famous scientist, and I do notwant to be a burden on him. You see, I amno use to anyone. Not even tomyself. My medicines and my home nurse are using up the little money I have saved for my sons. I am so very, very tired. I want to die.”
Sarah had nothing to look forward to. She wanted desperately to die. She wanted me to help her, to prescribe some medication that would put her to sleep so she wouldn’t have to wake up anymore. She was ready. She would do it now, or tomorrow, orwhenever I could accommodate her request. Thiswas uncharted territory for me, and we both knew it. I wanted just to be her doctor and take care of
“Sarah wanted desperately to die. She wanted me to prescribe some medication that would put her to sleep so she wouldn’t have to
wake up anymore.” her as a doctor would. But Sarah didn’t want a doctor to treat her malady; she wanted a doctor to end her misery.
Nonetheless, unsure of what else to do, I fell into the role I knew best. I asked her to produce the tray of medications she had been taking. She laid out before me yellow bottle after yellow bottle of pills. There were medications for heart failure, hypertension, depression, seizures, and elevated lipids. Therewere platelet inhibitors,diuretics, and a potassium replacement. They totaled fifteen different medications—twenty-four pills a day—all designed to keep Sarah alive months after she had decided she wanted to die.
Some things about Sarah’s request to die didn’t fit. She lacked most signs of depression. She was eating and sleeping well, and she dressed up and put on makeup every morning. Even her affect was not depressed except when she talked about her physical condition or her ill son. She obediently took her medications laid out weekly by the visiting nurse while repeatedly asking me if all of the medications were necessary. Sarah’s medical condition was stable, and I was loath to change her regimen. Even so, after relating to me her desire to reduce the most costly drugs for fear that their cost would erode her sons’ inheritance, I stopped six of the
drugs on the first visit. Her condition remained unchanged.
A Request Denied. A Week after week i visited sarah. While trying to assess and respond to her changing needs, I desperately avoided the subject of my helping her to die. Sometimes we both pretended this issue was off the table; sometimes shewould askmewhat I had decided to do to help her end her life. One Wednesday, on my way to the office, I double-parked in front of Sarah’s building as usual and nodded to the doorman in a gesture we both knew meant
that he would watch my car. My double-parked visits were usually short, but today Sarah had other ideas. “Damn it!” she said when I walked in. “When are you going to do what I asked? Don’t you see how I’m living? I can’t hear, I can barely see to read, my life is useless. You promised to help me.” I hadn’t promised anything, but I knew there was no longer any escape. “Mrs. Brownstein,” I started, making up my response as I went. “I cannot give you medication to kill yourself. You are asking me to do something that is against the law. I run the risk of losing my medical license and even being put in jail. I have discussed thiswithmywife,who beggedme to help you in anyway I could—without putting my own professional life in jeopardy. My colleagues advised the same. I
know what I want to do, I know what you want me to do, and I believe it is your right to end your life if you so choose. But I cannot do it for you or even give you medication to do it yourself. I know this was not your expectation when I first came to see you.”
She remained silent and looked at me scornfully. The charade was over. I could not do the job she had hired me to do. I waited for some cue from her as to what to do next. There was none. Then, spontaneously, I went on. “I do have a few ideas that may help you.” She continued her stare. “You could stop taking all of your
medications. That is completely within your control. I cannot predict what will happen, but if you should become uncomfortable or filled with fluid from heart failure, I can prescribe a pain medication to take away the sensation of being out of breath, without treating your heart failure. I promise to come to see you, any time day or night, if you should become uncomfortable at the end. You are of sound mind, Sarah, and you still have control over the treatments you accept and those you reject.” We both stared at each other. “OK,” she said. “Butwhat happens when the visiting
nurse who counts out my medications sees that I am not taking them? ”Without waiting for an answer, she continued. “I will ask her to stop coming. I will tell her that a relative is counting out my medications and that you are monitoring my blood pressure.” The planwas hatched, and the visiting nurse came no more. Sarah
stopped taking all her pills except aspirin, the drug to prevent a recurrent stroke (at my suggestion), and the nightly sleeping pill. For months she had no change in symptoms or mental status. This infuriated her even more, as she recounted the huge expenses she had incurred for her medicines.
Psychic Pain
Then, one morning, everything changed. My cell phone rang about
6 a.m. with Sarah’s home health aide on the line. “Mrs. Brownstein is very bad,” she said. “I can’t understand what she’s saying—she’s screaming, hitting me, and wandering around the apartment completely confused.” “Don’t call 911,” I retorted, remembering Sarah’s Do Not Resuscitate order lying prominently on her dining room table and her living will stating that she did not
want to be brought to a hospital under any circumstances.
I quickly dressed and rushed off to her apartment. Sarah had experienced another stroke. She had had many before, and although
they were possibly responsible for some of her mental deterioration, they had not left her physically disabled. She was fighting with her home health aide as I entered the bedroom. She appeared uncomfortable in her own skin, pulling on her clothes, struggling to walk around but clearly aimless in her intent. The sight of me seemed to agitate her even more. I retreated to the living room, out of her sight. I called her older son with whom I had spoken many times before and explained his mother’s condition. Together we decided to treat her with a low-dose
“At the mere sight of me
Sarah would turn away. I had failed her, and now she
was suffering.” antipsychotic medication known to help in these agitated states. Sarah improved but remained miserable, combative, and in psychic pain. For the next month I visitedweekly. As confused as Sarahwas, her angerwith mewas obvious. At the mere
sight of me she would turn away and become increasingly agitated. I had failed her, and now she was suffering. I felt deep remorse for my prior inability to have helped her. Months later her son transferred her to a nursing home near him in Boston. She died shortly thereafter—a boutwith pneumonia and a family decision
to honor her request for no more treatment finally took her life. A year later I cannot get over Sarah’s pain and misery in her final months and my own inability to intervene on behalf of this fragile woman who sought my help. I was not the cause of her suffering, but I surely was not the merciful helper she sought.
Hands Tied
As doctors we are restricted from helping those in pain at the
end of their lives to end their own suffering. We are restricted from using marijuana to help those suffering from the nausea of chemotherapy. We run riskswhen using drugs “off label” for conditions that have proved to be remediable but for which the drug maker has neither sought nor received permission to list as a “use.” And we are asked to balance our moral position on these issues—and many others—against the possible legal consequences of acting in what we consider to be our patients’ best interests. The laws that govern medical practice are not created by physicians or ethicists but by governments. Like most laws, they lack the ability to distinguish subtleties in the human experience that might require
extraordinary interventions. Yet as physicianswe must consider the needs of each person and individualize our actions in our patients’ best interest. In 1997 the Supreme Court upheld states’ rights to legislate the legality of physician-assisted suicide in deciding on matters brought before it by advocates of the practice fromWashington and New York States. To date, Oregon is the only state to legalize physician-assisted suicide. Between 1998 and 2002 only 129 deaths in Oregon resulted from doctor-written prescriptions; four-fifths of these deaths were cancer patients.Would Mrs. Brownstein’s end have been more humane if she
had been treated by a physician in Oregon? Even if physician-assisted suicide had been legal in New York, would she have fit into an allowable category? Would I have felt differently about assisting in her death? I do not know. I do not think any of us can predict howwewould feel in Mrs. Brownstein’s situation. But if I should find myself aged and failing physically and mentally and if I
sought relief from the “pain” my life was causing me, I would hope that the physician I turn to for help has a good understanding of palliative care and end-of-life options, has the courage to act onmy behalf, and has more merciful laws to protect the decisions we may make together about my end-of-life care.
NeilCalman (ncalman@institute2000.org) is a practicing family physician and president of the Institute for
Urban FamilyHealth inNewYorkCity
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I am despair this life .. my friend betray me ! and take my G.F :S what this life .. fuck this life ..
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damn help i want to kill myself as in pronto
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Sometimes the pain just doesn’t go away, i have everything to live for but the pain never leaves me.I often think about suicide the only thing that stops me is the thought of traumatising the person or member of my family that may find me dead.
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i am obsessed with suicide and i cant help come back to this page over and over agin.. it surprises me how many other people find their way here also.
i dont feel like committing suicide anymore but i cant help think about it and the impact it has had on my life.
just like any other obsession i cant help myself, i am not bosting about it but it just makes me feel better to come to websites like this.
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end your life without ending your life…eventually, no one will care…good bye
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suicide is something that haunts me every day. i think about it when ever i do anything, like driving, working, laying in bed, eating, or just when im bored. it sneaks up on me and i cant ever get it out of my head. i have only actually attempted suicide 2 times and both times my sister found me. but in about 2 months she will be moving out of state which will leave me alone in an apartment. i feel like nothing and no one can stop me now.
am i wrong for feeling or thinking these things???
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I can’t think of a reason to live, except for the fact that I fear death, I really don’t know what to do. I believe in heaven and hell, and I’m constantly terrified of hell, I don’t know what to do.
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i feel so fed up. i dont know what to do about it. i have messed my life up so badly and i cant do anything right. i am always thinking about suicide, not thinking of doing it anymore but just wondering why i did it in the past, the way it has effected my life and whether or not i will do it again.
i hate my self and i hate who i am i really do,.. i want to do the right thing but it seems just so hard i cant seem to be able to do it. i hate my self for being the person that i am and i wish i could die sometime soon.
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i think the problem is, is that some people feel suicide is a way out of the mess people have made, but how ever bad ur life is you’ve got to think about the people u will hurt. suicide is selfish but i dont think its cowardly. if ur life is so bad try to change what u can first to make ammends because suicide isnt the end of the problem it just transferes to your loved ones so i guess if ur family and friends mean anything dont ruin their lives like u have ur own, suicide doesnt end with your death.
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I hope you’re right Kodi, but if you’re wrong… oops.
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want to live happyly and sucessfully or want to die . faced all failure
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If you have an incurable disease, which I do, that causes me to suffer daily pain and has made me addicted to prescription pain killers — why live? My family is a useless bunch of bastards. My husband yells at me every day. Since I became disabled I lost all of my friends. I am literally waiting for belove dog to pass away so I can leave this miserable planet and horrible excuse for an existence. Do it for yourself. If you are miserable, do not live in misery for the sake of any one else. I have been on every anti depressant and seen a shrink for 8 years. I STILL WANT TO DIE. I have tried but not succeeded – YET. There is no reason for me to be here at all. I serve no purpose – am isolated and more than depressed. I do not feel sorry AT ALL for ANY OF these people who complain that they are left behind when someone commits suicide because they are only thinking of their own happiness and did not care enough when the person was alive to love them and make their lives worth living. Get over yourself. Live with constant pain for almost 9 years, a mean husband, no family or friends and then you tell me how life is worth living. Stop being selfish and let people control their own destinies.
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No one who is thinking strait can do it. Here’s an idea: Drive around with your loaded handgun beside you at all times.Then when the time is right, maybe at a red light……Before you have a chance to think about it, just do it.You gotta fool your brain & that’s not easy because it moves so fast.That’s my plan anyway.I welcome yours.
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i want to die !!!
help please
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this gives me good advice.
thanks:)
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Ive thought about suicide for a long time, i always thinks of ways, and stuff, i havent done it yet (obviously) but i know someday i just might do it.
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i think that the people who use this website only feel sorry for themselfs. i know what that says about me and i dont care. i think people are stupid for attempting suicide and they should not have sympathy and i dont know why doctors bother stopping people from commiting suicide they should just let people go.
anyone that writes on this website is an attention seeker and anyone that cuts or attempts suicide does it becuase they are a weak person. if people did things to you to make you sad and upst and suicidal do it back to them match ire with fire. why are you getting depressed?
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Sarah, you dont have a clue what your talkin bout do you, i have done research on the amount of people who self harm and attempt suicide and the majority dont tell anyone that they do it or have done it before. so before you call the peope on this website weak think about the struggles that they have had to endure! people come on here to talk and get help not to seek attention, if you dont know the facts keep your mouth shut, do people like you come onto websites like this just to make people feel worse than they do already i really hope you got a kick out of it because its uneducated and horrible people like you who put these people in the position they are in now! you know what your the weak attention seeker not these people because they actually have the strength to keep holding on and not letting go, you dont even think about what your comments will do to some people do you! your insesitive and you need to really think about reassessing your pitiful life before you decide to pass judgment on others.
oh yeah by the way its a proven fact that most people who self-harm do it because they suffer with PD (personality disorder) not because they are attention seekers, this is the point were you should feel like a complete thick shit! dont come on this website again you are unwanted and not needed your pointless and incorrect insults are nothing but childish drawl! and lets face it you hardly came on a pro suicide website by accident so you obviously came on here just becaue your a bully an you think that your opinion is actually valued (it’s not, if i didnt make that clear before)
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Well, the image, perhaps the seen of a suicidal act would only disturb the one looking at it. The one committing would never be conscious enough to imagine how would he look later, so it hardly bothers the one determent for the act !! Atleast I wasnt moved at all!! But still i appreciate your step. May you get the blessings of those who changed their minds after goin through your website. All the best!!
vickydun@gmail.com
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Don’t commit suicide just say out
loud now Jesus I believe and I receive you in my heart please help me
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Alana, you say that most people who commit suicide dont talk to anyone about their feelings and that people who do here shouldnt be criticised for doing it but that works both ways, some might argue that by that very fact the people who are on this site arnt likely to commit suicide and are just attention seeking. although i dont think every one here is attention seeking, it does look like some is genuine but looking over alot of what people say we have to agree that a vast amount is for attention. if u cant agree even in part to what im proposing then maybe your a little nieve.
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alana. thanks for your kind words, not that mine were any nicer. i suffer from pd, but that does not excuse my stupid behaviour. i think its foolish to selfharm and i think it is my stupidity and foolishness that let to the diagnosis in the first place and not the illness that led to the behaviour.
i have the right to my opinion and that is that anyone who selfharms or attempts suicide should not be helped. they should be allowed to continue along their ways if that is the way they choose/. in sorry if you find this disturpbing but that is the reality.
the reality is that the first suicide attempt is totally serious and you do not know the out come so it not for attention seeking and stuff like that but after peopel have responded the behaviour continuse as a form of attention seeking . well atleast to some extent.
you might not do it delibratly but it true. now i look back at what i did and i ant believe that i did it. i took rat poision infront of a bloody doctor!!! whay did i do that? not to die!!! i knew i wouldnt die because they would just take me to the hospital. i took it to influence his decission and attention seek, just to cause hovoc. thats the truth. i was feeling shit but i knew if i took the rat poison i wuld not die. but i still took it.
i cuold have influenced his decission in another way, by talking to him and convincing him to cinsider my opinion but i took the easy and drastic way out! why i wonder if i was not a week individual.
i bet you more theh half the peopel here experenced some sort of feeling of depression or suicide and like me they like the consequences of having these feelings so they are not letteing go. i like it when my arents say she ill forget her she dont have to do the house work, she dont have to work, she dont have to study… what ever. thats what keeps the feelings of suicide there.
if my parents just told me to shut up and snap out of it then i would eventually snap out of it. i dont know if you understand, but i thinkthe fewer people that try to help us the more we will try to help our selves. go to your doctor if you think you need medicine but then deal with your problems by your self.
i dont knwo if any of that makes andy sense to you. but i believe if i didnt go to the doctor and if i didnt have their suppport i don think i wuold have made as many suicide attempts as i did. i thik it was their fault for supporting me and stuff. no im serious.
they made things worse then they really were.
everyones intital to their own opinion and today this is my opinion. tomorrow it may change i dont know.
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hows every1? hope every1 is doing fine.
me ok
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Death is taboo. No wonder people keep their problems hidden because when you talk about being suicidal:
highschool: emo, shut up. Or just ignore.
Adults: Go see your doctor (what it means is: don’t bother me, go to a psych. who you have to PAY to listen to your shit). “Friends” don’t wanna use their weekends listening to your shit, they wanna get drunk,party. So MANY FAKE their feelings..can you blame em?
The selfish argument is ridiculous, of course it’s selfish! everything is! Stick around. I NEED YOU. I’m selfish. Please suffer silently.= see adults (go to your doctor , don’t wanna deal with it). out of sight , out of mind.
And let’s be honest. There are those who go to the psych’s, medication and still want to die. So what then?
It’s too complicated, the only thing i do know is i’m pro-choice in pretty much everything..including the need to die.
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hey all. For those who say believe in god blahh blahh, get over it some people just dont believe in it so just give up. The answer is yourself you make your life what it should be there will be bad times and good but you cant dwell on either you just have to movve on, youll meet people that make you angry,upset, or what ever obvioulsy those people are not important, important thing is do things that make you happy be around people that make you happy dont think of ther people lifes amd think how great it is, the chances are their life is not.
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im sorry about my previous messages, they seem a bit harsh, but thats how i was feeling, so there.
today i feel paranoid, really badly, like someone, the doctors, my parents and the police are watching me, screwtenizing my evey movement….. i hate this feeling, i think they have hacked into my phones and they know who i talk to and they hack into the labtop when i use it and they know my passwords and everything like that. i hate it, but the feeling doesnt go away no matter how much i try to reason with it. i just knwo that they ate soying on me. i dont know why they woudl want to do that, it might have something to do with what happened to me in the past but it might not.
ly aware of other people watching you and in a way controlling your life becuse you cant do anything with out thinking about what they will think of you. more then anything you live your life the way you think they will learn very little about you and lose alll your pleasures in life, you cant enjoy your time and you are constantly conscious of tehir presence.. it is really hard. i dont think anyone would understand what it feels like unless tehy have been in that situation. i dont think anyine can undersatnd what it feels like to be constantly spyed on like you are making weapons of mass destruction or something. it is really bizzar but that the way it is.
two days ago i self harmed on my arm which i now think was a huge mistake because i dont knwo how i am going to keep hiding the scares. i have old scares but now i have new ones aswell. i sometimes dont understand why i self-harm.
i dont particulary feel suicidal anymore, i think it is the anti-depressents working but i would still more rather be dead. if i was to die today i would not regret it one tiny bit, .
the feeling is so shit, you cant do anything, you dont get any privercy, you cant be your self you are constant
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i like images, please stay on here, i from colombia, please email me at apolobach@hotmail.com, with your response, thanks
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hows everyone?im okay, not so depressed today, exercised – did a bit of yoga,. read a book and chilled out a little.
i found a job but my family are not happy with it. i want to go back to studying… dad said i could study. but dont know if i am mentally strong enough to do it, i am going to try it though.
dont know what tomorrow is going to be like but today was good. my dad is going to pakistan in a few weeks time.
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commiting suiescide is an art ……….
pls tell me how to do i am not able to die
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You know, I’ve felt isolated and it’s an odd feeling to find this website. It’s strange that so many people here understand where I’m coming from in the desire to get off this ride. The connection almost makes me want to hang on a bit… almost. But thanks for the support and understanding of so many who have posted. It feels like an effort to breathe some days, and holding on is only a courtesy to aging parents. The attempt I had made was (obviously) unsuccessful, but I remember the clear sense of clarity and humor I felt waiting for it to take hold. Not fear, just an almost gleeful sensation that in a few hours, I was never going to feel that way again. Now I’m stuck back, struggling through each day quietly waiting for the right time. But I’m glad I found many of you that really understand what it’s like to look at the future stretching out endlessly ahead and being able to smile and say: “No thanks. I’ll choose my own way out, thank-you-very-much.”
To those on the same path I am: scroll up and read. You’re not alone. You’re not (necessarily) sick. If this is about a failed relationship, maybe you need to step back for a few months and see how you feel. But if this is really about you and your life and this world… we’re not alone. We’re not all sick. And we do have a choice. Think on it.
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does any1 else feel like me? where you really want to die and end this miserable life and at the same time your are too scared to die because you dont know whats around the corner? and you dont want the help of other people yet you keep going to them?
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Hi I actually have no reasons to live, I hate my life, people hate me and threat me horribly, I never graduated high school because the kids would pick on me all the time(people can be so cruel). Seems like it was the cool thing to do to bug and abuse me. Everyone already thinks I am a psycho because I gave myself some cuts this one night. My dad disowned me and that part of the familly does not even talk to me anymore. They even prevented to keep my sister from seeing me. I cant get a job no matter how long I try(I am 19 btw). My mom still contacts me but she left when I was a kid and moved to Mexico. But she does not want me there either. I feel so rejected. Well if there’s a really quick and painlessly way to killing myself please tell me. You would be doing me a great favor. Thanks.
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I’ve seen it even on this site. It starts actually right from the moment you are being born. “You are selfish, you never think about people’s feelings you are going to leave behind”.Other people are more important than your self worth. This kind of emotional tools are responsible for our rotten, western society. Yes, I want to die, quickly. I am a 42 year old male, have never been married, have epilepsy and find it impossible to get on with people. Someone tell me about tolerance. It has always been hard for me to find work, so I had to leave the country where I was born ( Germany ) and live now in the Netherlands. It was my hope to find here for once some stability, but no, even you normal people work against each other. What I need are only 200 tablets, carbamazepine – 400mg each, and I hope I will fall asleep.People like me are being ridiculed at work, being called a pedophile – just because i was stupid enough to say that I’ve never been married.I should have lied. Seems to be the only acceptable thing amongst normal people. Whilst I am at it, I don’t want to get married any more. Recently it occured to me that I am now good enough for frustrated housewifes – suddenly it doesn’t matter anymore wether I ‘ve joined the idiotic army, or what kind of car I drive – I never had one, obviously – and that emasculates me amongst normal peolpe.
But guess what, without any formal education, I can proudly claim that my English is better than some of our so called “professionals”in Germany.
As you can see, I’ve got nothing nice to say about other people because all I have is myself, with which I can do without now.
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I am 43 yr’s old. people say what about those you leave behind, if I meant that much to them why do they treat me like they do. My life is a living hell and one day I will have the strength to end it. People say tomorrows another day, it is but whose to say its gonna change my life. I’m lonely, ugly and unwanted. That is why I want to die!!!!
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it makes me cry when i read your comment. i just want to help you and try and make things in your life better but i cant do anything for you because i feel so miserable myself.
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i am amazed t how many people think about suicide and i wonder if you are all depressed or if normal people could feel that way? i was depressed but i dont believe that i am now but i feel like killing my self. all i have to do is break into my dads room anf steal my tablets and overdose them.
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does anyone think i shold talk to my brother and dad before i take my last overdose? what do you say?
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I think suicide is a great idea but we need like a pill or something from the government, i can’t believe we run the risk of being saved and put into a vegitative state for the rest of our lives when we fail the suicide mission..
i mean i want to commit suicide but i am scared, what if i dont die, what if i turn into a vegetable, and then i can’t kill myself anymore because my body would not be working, but i’d still be experiencing life through tube and etc for a long long time…(amplified misery)
i am 27 right now, i do want to die, but hmmm, yeh, there are a few problems, such as loved ones crying and etc, but eh, that does not bother me much, i am sure they’ll go extinct in a 50 years and everything will be forgotten and blended into infinity peacefully.
but the thing is… hmmm.. yeh, i do wish there were easy pills that could make suicide for sure 100%. i plan on hanging around for another 10 years to see if there are new laws that will make pills available in the open market.
but hey, there is another problem, i think after we die, we keep getting recycled back into life, until this disturbance ( universe ) goes extinct and blends back into the peaceful infinity.
so i kinda wish the whole world just died.. like a meteor just came and killed everything, so i wouldn’t have to worry about coming back to life and etc…
i might wait until i am like 75, and try suicide then, that way even if i do turn into a vegetable, it wont be long before i go naturally.
it’s kinda fuked up we have to put up with stupid humanity that keeps on multiplying based on which genes accept the life as it is.
the problem is, natural selection keeps giving an edge to those that love life, and so those of us that dislike life, are in the minority, and we never get a voice.
this nightmare has to end, LIFE. i don’t know how many other planets contain life, but i’d like to see them go extinct as well.
i want to see universe, without any traces of life, i even hate bugs, bacteria, viruses, etc, i want them to go extinct as well.
time for universe to become UNCROWDED.
SUMER
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If I could end this feeling inside me right now without being so unbelievably scared…I would. I know…me, being scared to take my own life, is saving me…but I dont know for how long it’s going to last.
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SUICIDE PROBLEMS…
it should also be noted that suicide might not permit you to exit the universe.
you might return in the form of a frog, snake, dog, or something and life
can be much more worse.
maybe in the form of a rock on another planet.
it will be equivalently as bare-able as it wont be.
so you know, you got no option, sorry. it’s infinity.
it decided what to do with us and it could all be fixed
anyway..
no free will, just free pain and pleasure that cancel each other out all the time.
SUMER
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sumer, we dont get the chance to come back once we die, not to this world anyway. we either go to heaven or hell. there is no such thing as coming back from the dead in the form of a rock or stone, do you remember what your previous form was? no. because there wasnt one. you came into this world as a human being and you will die as a human being. i mean, thats what i believe, you might believe different.
i think about suicide but what you need to understand is that suicide is a long term solution to a temporary problem, it is totally final, it leaves no option for change. so you really have to consider it carefully. but some peopel will commit suicide despite what others say and what medical interventions are put into place.
i dont know.
its not nornal for a person to wish that they die, to wish that they were not born, at times it might be a natural reaction to a situation but long term that is not normal. so there is something wrong, and where there is something wrong there is a solutions to the problem. its up to you whether or not you take it.
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There is no heaven, no hell, no reincarnation. There is only ONE LIFE, here and now. When you die, it’s the end. No consciousness and worm food. You can use this information to the best of your abilities . Why suffer when i will die anyways? Why die without knowing what is there to come? You never know, you could wake up one day and be happy. IT HAPPENS, some people here have overcome their “demons” and live a good life. Yes they still struggle, but shit..who doesn’t? ME, i’m gonna ride this one out. Oblivion is there, it’s waiting for me..but first i have to see what happens, i want to experience and maybe i have a happy ending..if not, well atleast i tried.
goodluck everyone.
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Chris Reply:
July 17th, 2009 at 1:14 pm
” You never know, you could wake up one day and be happy.”
Or, you could continue to wake up day after day after day after day after day in pure misery and pain. It’s about probability, not wishful thinking. I for one would rather die than perpetuate suffering. Moreover, I would rather die than engage in the false notion that I could wake up one day and be “happy.” What is happiness anyway? For everyone it is different. Perhaps engaging in self deliverance makes some people “happy,” and others, like you, not. That is a personal choice, so please keep your choices to yourself!
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Is it really neccessary to survive for others. i made my virtual world and i am very happy with that. but i know sooner it will break and that will be my last day in this world. i knew that the day is so close to me. But i am so much happy with my virtual life. i knew i am the loser and i am not able to comlete my all dreams. thats why i made my own world. whatever i am not able to get i create an image of it in my mind and take it seriously. And i become happy. I am going to end my life. But only those commit suicide, those make fool to themself. Iknew so many people left behind me with wet eyes. But i have not any other option.
Sorry to say but death is painless, But after this you will never feel any pain. So forget your short term pain, and live or die in your own way.
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Chris Reply:
July 17th, 2009 at 1:07 pm
“But only those commit suicide, those make fool to themselves.”
Hmmmmmm. Really? As you said, is it really necessary to survive for others? If not, then why are those who engage in self deliverance foolish. Sorry, makes no sense, and you even contradict yourself.
“I knew so many people left behind me with wet eyes.”
Hmmmmmmmm. That is not the case for everyone. Many people have no one. No family, no partner, no friends, not even a pet.
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to stop lying to yourself about fairytale after life…. if it was true that there was no afterlife thenthere are no real consequences to what you do with your life, so that means you dont mind being a rapist, a child melestrer (dont now how to spell). im sorry to inform you, there is a after life in which you would be judges for your this life.
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IF THERE WAS NO AFTER LIFE…
well think of it this way, before we were born, we were DEAD
so, if being DEAD gives you permanent peace.
how come i didn’t get my permanent peace when i was DEAD?
( BEFORE I WAS BORN )…
so obviously my “PERMANENT PEACE” got disturbed and
i was born.
clearly, something creepy is going on, oh by the way
i was thinking…
what if the more pain we go through in this life…
the richer we will be in the next life?
i mean if you think about it, when they heat up metals..
the more it is heated up, the more precious the element becomes
(whatever it is turned into of )
diamonds, gold, etc, they all form in extreme heat.
so maybe before we were born we chose this destiny for ourselves
and we wanted to experience pain and etc..
because we knew it would be more rewarding after this life?
maybe there is a mission here, maybe we are all competing
to become a god within infinity or something.
you know how when sperm is released, only 1 of them makes it
and the rest just die.
you know how when baby turtles eggs hatch, most of the turtles
get eaten by birds, and only a few make it to the ocean.
maybe this is a dream like that..
well i still think about suicide all the time…
but what if, we could enjoy pain… and suffering…
because the more we suffer, the better it is for the next time around.
seriously i don’t think universe(existence) is simply a disturbance..
i think something else is going on.
as far as GOD, AND HELL AND HEAVEN.. well.. i dont like those theories
but it’s infinity you know. it’s mysterious..
you never know what kinda thing we are in of…
this whole thing could be someone’s imagination ( like a god’s )
or it’s imaginationan’s imagination.
it can get very complicated.
there is no reason to rule out anything as far as why we can not
talk to a god and etc.. well maybe we are to used to it so we don’t see it
the same way we are to used to mountains, rocks, and etc. and
we barely notice their existence..
maybe god is everywhere too but we barely notice it’s existance
and even if there is no god, what about all those gasses and rocks
floating within infinity, who knows how many billions of other universes
out there…
i am sure something is watching us… reading our minds.. maybe?
well maybe i am just mentally retarded, i don’t know..
i’ve been behaving retarded since birth.
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do you people realize you have no idea what the word
“PERMANENT” mean..
i use the word “INFINITY” a lot but i don’t think my imagination
can even understand the true meaning of infinity.
if this universe thing is not a disturbance, then it means stuff
like this keeps happening all the time.
SURE YOU CAN’T REMEMBER ANYTHING FROM PREVIOUS LIVES.
but that’s because maybe it ZEROS out somehow.
everything gets erased somehow.
i sometimes feel and imagine things as if i have a 6th sense
but i ignore it and consider myself to be mentally retarded
what if it is memories from previous lives?
what if i am not mentally retarded?
what if being able to see the truth (feel the previous life)
makes me shaky and thus i fear things in this life and
reality is getting all mixed up and thus i am seen as “retarded”
honestly, i have been thinking about infinity/universe since
i was like 8, and i have been suicidal since i was 8..
now i am 27, still not dead, haven’t tried suicide much altho
i did try to strap my imac’s power cord around my neck and
try to stop myself from breathing
didn’t work, it felt like my face was gonna explode.
but anyway, i have been researching a lot of stuff on
the web and on amazon, i see there are easy ways to die.
well, it’s nice to know i can die but what haunts me all the time
is all these philosophical theories.
by the way, i am such a huge failure, i even fail at failing
(committing suicide).
so. what the hell…
i never looked at the world from the eyes of normal people
i know how they see the world, how they perceive things
how they manage to keep their expectations steady with
whatever they get and etc.
i personally think, earth is just a rock with some infection on it.
that we refer to as “life”.
but i’ve got like 100’s of other theories.
i think about infinity almost everyday everynight and i can’t really
figure a way to explain it properly.
some of my theories suggest there is a hell and heaven
some of them suggest there is a god
some of them suggest there are many gods
some of them suggest existence itself is a god
some of them suggest we are part of the god
some of them suggest it is impossible to “die”
i have not figured a way to explain consciousness
but it feels like a dream.
sometimes i feel like i could be just a rock in space floating
and all this stuff is just an illusion.
nothing makes sense. i am sooooo confused.
this confusion alone sometimes makes me want to kill myself
sometimes it makes me want to keep on thinking about infinity
until i make sense of things.
oh by the way, i notice all these “ASSISTED SUICIDE” stuff..
mentioning that suicide is not for the depressed or the mentally ill..
well i find that to be an insult, because i think i deserve to
end my own mental illness and depression…
why do we get shoved into the corner? mental illness is just
as bad as terminal illness..
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oh yeah speaking of terminal illness..
isn’t life a terminal illness..
this means people are creating new babies all the time
with terminal illness attached to them.
i seriously wish a meteor would hit earth and other
planets as quickly as possible
before the infection could spread to other planets
such as mars and moon and etc…
everytime i hear in the news NASA has sent a new
robot to mars and has plans to send another one
to venus and etc..
it just disturbes me soooo badly..
i am like ” oh crap, please god, finish this planet off
before it spreads to other places”
maybe i just need to kill myself and go tell god to stop
this chaotic shit going on…
it will never stop.
i was hoping north korea would send some nuclear
weapons to the moon and push the moon over onto earth
and end it all.
but that still won’t do.. because i think there are other planets
with life as well..
i don’t want them alive.
every planet that contains life is a threat to those of us that
do not wish to come back to life.
we’ll never find peace, never ever ever… as far as
being peaceful before having been born…
seriously do you think you were peaceful before you were born?
how come i don’t feel that way?
i feel like i was being disturbed before…
i can’t quiet remember things but there were some frictions
going on for sure.
SUMER
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Infinity ( gonna be coming home baby but not tonight )
Dear infinity. ( my true love )
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l9rBtMxRkJ8
i promise i will be there someday
just wait for me okay?
SUMER
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by the way this song is representative of one of
my theories suggesting universe is a disturbance within
infinity.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VTiyEVJVaRc
listen to the portion ” stepping out of time and ready to explode”
perhaps it goes in a reversed fashion ” stepping into time and ready to implode”
SUMER
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oh by the way, if i ever commit suicide, i plan on playing
these two songs by pink. ( before i die ).
first i would likely listen to ” LIKE A PILL” ( by pink )
and then i would listen to ” SO WHAT” ( also by pink )
as you listen to the “LIKE A PILL”
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wHpK-ejSfBo
its as if she is mad at “existence”, and she wants “out!”
because universe is like a sick “pill” that has formed
within infinity.
the “so what” song..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dJZDsJ8UU64
i imagine i would play this song to say “SO WHAT” ( so what i am killing myself )
because i belong to infinity baby!
and idon’t need this shiit called life!
but then again, until i kill myself there is a lot of philosophy
i mean if life does not get worse, i might die naturally
who knows..
all i know is i am mentally retarded a little bit.
the only problem is i can’t make money and so i’ll probably
have to spend my life in homeless shelters once my parents die
i don’t mind being a drainage ( burden ) on my family
screw them, they made me, ( they shouldn’t have ) let them
spend their money on me.
i mean i like them but, you know, i can’t really mind being a
burden on them because i don’t have a whole lot of options.
no money, no life, it sucks, altho you never know..
i might move to like a jungle somewhere in middle east
and just live it out in the jungle…
but yeh, i don’t think i could live in america without money
there is zero freedom here if you don’t got money.
i mean, i am 27 but i am mentally retarded and the reason
why i can’t work is because…
i get these random thoughts and etc.. sick feelings
i also have this attitude that is embedded in my idealogy
which suggests the way the world works is a type of slavery..
you know how there are super rich, and super poor..
does life seem fair? i don’t think so.
so yeh, i think my mental retardation is kinda cool because
it gives no fuk about what happens, ( fearless )…
i can kill myself anytime
sweetest feeling ever, all i need
is a few songs to put me into the mood and i am ready to
fly over to infinity
yeh i will probably be back again in one form or another
but so what… if thats how infinity works.. i am ready to live out
a billion additional lives..
i don’t care if in some of them i am a frog with birth defects
that gets eaten by a snake, or a somalian kid with no food
walking in garbage with HIV infection..
absolutely ready for it all.
i love infinity! bring it on baby!
KAHAHAHA i am soo retarded
oh well at least that’s my excuse
SUMER
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i am turning 25 next week and have been a cutter for almost 8 years now , only 2 people know about it and of course all of you
on the outside i am a happy lady with not a care in the world but in the inside i am a ryning storm waiting to eplode i was molested when i was 7 and again when i was 11 it was horible. for same reason i was afraid of the world and i hided away from people
in my final year of school i tired by an overdose of sleeping pills nobody even noticed that i wasnt myself . i just selpt it off for 5 days
i am one of those people that people wont even miss
maybe next time i will do it and get it over and done
slient scream
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@ Sarah. So you need ‘the promise of hell’ to behave? PLEASE. Morals have been there before religion & God. About the Child Molesters,sociopaths,etc they are MADE that way the same Gay are what they are. Life is beyond Good & Evil. We created morals, you really think nature gives a f#ck? NO, it does not. THe universe doesn’t. WE think we are special. Universe is all about us but it’s not. I can understand the promise of heaven because the end scares alot of people. If i could give you an afterlife, i would.
@ SUMER: you are an interesting person, maybe oblivion is the true state don’t you think? Life is but a ripple, the same when you throw a stone in a pond and eventually it doesn’t move or anything=peace.
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Chris Reply:
July 17th, 2009 at 1:10 pm
Well said! Religion is socially constructed, and therefore not real, not true. We are all biological creatures, not people of “god,” because there is no such thing. Indeed, biology has no morals. It is only concerned with reproduction and survivability. That’s it. That’s the great secret of human existence.
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You kill a frog, thus you prevent it from jumping 3 times
getting sunlight, drinking water, etc…
is it good you prevented the frog from jumping 3 times
by killing it?
well as it died, it experienced pain, and since you are a
terrorist, you experienced pleasure as it died.
you have also committed the crime of not permitting it
to live out a full life, filled with swims, and jumps.
somewhere deep down within the universe, or another
universe near by, or a universe far far away, is a formation..
like a rock.. a huge rock.
there is also a tiny rock somewhere in another universe
they both can read your mind, see the things you see, see
the things the frogs see, experience the emotions you and the
frog go through.
but these rocks don’t have emotions of their own, they just watch
and know everything, not by choice, it’s just that they do.
they have no feelings, no emotions, they do not get angry
they do not attempt to prevent you from killing the frog.
they just don’t care, they don’t even care if they themselves
died, or whatever, nothing matters to them.
they are however like “time capsules” they have seen everything
that has happened in the past trillions of years.
when a frog prayed ” please mysterious forces within infinity,
stop me from being killed “.
these mysterious rock formations simply did not give a shit
about the quests the frog was making.
they don’t have feelings, why should they, they do not have desires
they gain nothing. if you promise them intelligence that will one day
give them more abilities, they simply do not respond.
they are like vegetables.
but back to the frog and you…
you may say ” why did i kill the frog”
the frog may say ” i wish i had not been killed”
the frog experiences “pain as it dies”
you experience ” pleasure as you kill it”
there is also this mess , the guts and blood of the frog all over the place.
you can smell it and it is disgusting.
within the guts of the frog, there are billions of germs
bacteria, they are suddenly free on their own.
some of them might feel like they have been freed and given
a “life” and thus they might consider life to be a gift.
they have a “consideration of freedom given to them is
a life that is a gift from a higher source”
you turn your back and leave the “scene”
“you have left the scene”
some rock that can see and feel everything within multi
universes, maybe even infinity itself which is not a formation of
any particular kind.
it can not tell if what it just observed was real or just a dream
or just an imagination.
“it can not tell”
all these events, are released into the infinity, including thoughts
actions, feelings, observations, killings, pain, pleasure, emotions
imagination, and even “element of questioning if this was real or
just a dream”…
“THEY ARE ALL RELEASED INTO THE INFINITY”
even this “release” is an event in itself.
and it being an “event” itself is also an event.
“you are confused”
that too is released into the infinity.
“you are disgusted by the fact that this article is getting nowhere”
good, i said “good” that too is an event that gets released
into the infinity.
in some other universe, some other time, a creature eats a
another creature and experiences “happiness” due to “full stomach”
it watches the river flow by, and it is “happy” two times.
this “happiness” is released into the infinity.
after 5000 billion trillion trillion trillion infinity years,
these feelings collide and form an evolution of their own
even as these feelings traveled they were going through some
sort of an evolutionary “reality” of their own.
but now that they have collided, who knows what will happen.
possibilities are not limited by your imagination
nothing is limited, there is no imagination obstacle.
there are not “infinite combinations” or “infinite possibilities”
or “probabibilities”
there is INFINITE, INFINITIES.
think you can escape that through the means of “killing yourself”?
well even your thought alone is going to result in some
evolutions out there, all the horror creatures will go through
all the beauty they will experience…
it will all be on you.
you are not black, you are not white you are not
all those colors within the spectrum.
you are infinity.
SUMER
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to stop lying to yourself about a fairytail afterlife; – well each to there own opinions, i believe that there i a afterlif and that afterlife is the purpose of this life, i believe we were creatd to worship god and to god is the end,. i am not fulfilling my purpose in life and there are signs and symptoms to tell me that – i am not praying and or worshipping god lik i should be at the movement. just like for a phisical illness there are signs and symptons to let you know that some part of the bosy if failing to adequatly perform its function and so yo go to the physcian to get well. i dot know if i am expressing myself clearly enough. but the point is, i believe in heaven and hell and i know for certain that if i commit suicide i will never be allowed to enter heaven and i would be thrown in the blazing fire of hell. thats not what i want to i try to hold on each and every day. is difficult but i have done it this far and i can do it for longer.
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heroin is the best way to commit suicide these just look like the weekly bedroom antics me and my girlfriend do
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Dear google finance diary, i thought i had something
called DOWN SYNDROME and so as i read about it
on wikipedia, it talked about how people with down syndrome
have low IQ’s…
here’s what wikipedia says…
Most individuals with Down syndrome have mental retardation in the mild (IQ 50–70) to moderate (IQ 35–50) range,[3] with individuals having Mosaic Down syndrome typically 10–30 points higher.[4]
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Down_syndrome
and so i decided to take an IQ test, on http://www.iqtest.com
it was the first result on google, so i thought it must be good.
they emailed me the result.
—–
Dear SUMER
Thank you for your interest in the test at IQTest.com.
Your general IQ score is: 118
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based on the graph on wikipedia for IQ average of humanity.
i am actually ABOVE AVERAGE .
most people have an IQ of 100…
this is starting to bother me… just when i thought i had
DOWNS SYNDROME and i could now work on ways to threat it..
here we go again, time to figure out what it is that i have.
i thought i was mentally retarded but, it appears i am above average.
i don’t get it, this makes no sense at all.
how can i have a higher than average IQ if i am a failure in life?
this is beginning to really really bother me.
truly up yours,
SUMER
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“no pleasure no pain, it just comes with the prize”
see, you get no pain
and no pleasure when you are blended into infinity
all you get is your freedom, infinite freedom to just
be beautiful for infinity.
oh by the way, dying does not do the trick….
i think we keep coming back to life until this disturbance
is blended into the infinity.
so if you die, you might come back at least
few more times before it’s over. it’s gonna be a while.
the best thing to do is to just hang on. and talk to god
i am not saying turn religious but you know…
infinity is not that difficult to interpret.
well i’ve been working on it all my life finally i figured it all out.
it’s embarrassing i came up with so many theories
that were incorrect. but i am satisfied none the less.
by the way, as far as what happens once you are
blended back into infinity… hmmm.. i don’t know…
because there is no structure to infinity, sometimes mistakes
happen and disturbances occur, the result is this…
this thing we call “universe” and “life” etc..
but honestly there is nothing to be worried about…
infinity itself can think, talk, it’s what god is…
and it’ll always be there for us whenever there is a disturbance.
SUMER
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i’ve never denied being a complete failure in life.
i love it, it’s “something” that is happening within
infinity.
when i die, i will be watching and re-watching this
failure life i once lived. over and over again.
makes a nice addition to my collection within
infinity, preserved forever. always ready on demand
like HBO. ( never had hbo but you get the point )
oh by the way i discovered i don’t have a downs syndrome
i’ve got something called
“Asperger’s Syndrome”
which is pretty much the opposite of a down’s sydrome i think
it’s good but it also is diabilitiating.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Asperger_syndrome
— ( from wikipedia ) ——
Unlike those with autism, people with AS are not usually withdrawn
around others; they approach others, even if awkwardly, for example by
engaging in a one-sided, long-winded speech about a favorite topic
while misunderstanding or not recognizing the listener’s feelings or
reactions, such as need for privacy or haste to leave.[5] This social
awkwardness has been called “active but odd”.[1] This failure to react
appropriately to social interaction may appear as disregard for other
people’s feelings, and may come across as insensitive.[5] The
cognitive ability of children with AS often lets them articulate
social norms in a laboratory context,[1] where they may be able to
show a theoretical understanding of other people’s emotions; they
typically have difficulty acting on this knowledge in fluid, real-life
situations, however.[5] People with AS may analyze and distill their
observation of social interaction into rigid behavioral guidelines and
apply these rules in awkward ways—such as forced eye contact—resulting
in demeanor that appears rigid or socially naive. Childhood desires
for companionship can be numbed through a history of failed social
encounters.[1]
—
SUMER
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Altering reality is probably possible, this is infinity
why the fuk not?
but here’s the thing… think of it this way… lets say
our universe was traveling through clouds of time…
time could go faster, slow down, freeze, or even go backwards.
we could get frozen for 5000 billion years right now
and not even notice it.
history can be getting modified all the time but as it
modifies itself, everything in history books, everything in movies
everything is modified with it.
and so, we just do not know that we shouldn’t have 2 legs
and 2 feet and 2 eyes…
maybe we used to have 5 arms, but right now we think
about it and “2″ seems to make sense.
all the movies all the books everything is altered even
our intelligence and knowleadge..
and so, we think this is the norm and has been the norm
we think there were dinosaurs and bla bla bla..
this article itself, tomorrow might turn into something else
and if you were to re-read it, you would feel like you have
“RE-READ” it, you wont know the difference. because
your knowledge and intelligence became modified with it.
so as we modify the future, as we modify the reality
we can not “CATCH” that secret to modifying the reality
it keeps getting erased. it keeps slipping away.
we are like a mouse chasing a cheese that is connected
to the mouse in a way that the mouse never reaches
the cheese.
because as the mouse moves, so does the cheese
since it is connected to the mouse’s body.
but hey, i am a different kind of a mouse..
i intend to catch the cheese and eat it too and then go
“hmmm yeh yummy, delicious”
and be happy forever, well if i need more cheese i’ll
just steal other mice cheese.
let the mother fukers die from cheese-starvation.
i have no feelings. i could care less.
perhaps, maybe they deserve to die or something?
who knows.
SUMER
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i really want to suicide and dont want live ……………………some one plz suggest me some ways …….quite ways
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to niks
nicks, why do you want to commit suicide? i know life can be very hard at times and suicide seems like the only and the best option but you have to try and look at it like this, suicide is totally final, once committed you would not get another chance. it is a permenent solution to a temporary problem. i believe that one will never be burdened with a burden bigger then one can bear, so if life is hard and there is a lot going on then i believe that you are a stong person and you ca, with the right help and support cope with it – and you will hopefully com out on the other side as a stronger person. trust yourself, you can do it.
anout suggesting suicide methods to you, if i was to do that i would be killing a whole nation. because you have your life ahead of you and you will have children who will themselves have children and so on and from amongst them would be some great people, some doctors, lawyers and those who will help other people. so i cant suggest suicide methods to you. and anyway suicide methods are not fool proof, they dont always kill you and one will not die untill their appointed time.
i can on the other hand suggest methods to you that would make life more bearable. try going to see your doctor and tell him/her how you feel. talking to your doctor can help because if you suffer from an illness like depression that makes you feel this way they can give you medicine that will help and also they can enlist the help of other healthcare professionals like psychologists and councillers who can help you.
try taking to your family or find a friend that you can trust or the parent of a friend that you can trust.
i really hope you feeel better although that is easy for me to say and hard to achieve but trust me i was suicidal but i have come out of it now,.
if you want to talk to me just message me anytime, i always chck the post on this website.
sarah
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bullet in the head. if i were to commit sucide I would probly will myself to die. this is when you give up all hope of living and just lay there. you won’t eat or do aney thing. usally you just die of starvation. this method is the result of severe depresion like aney other type of sucide. I wold like this type of sucide because i would finally see my self skinney.
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my life is blo0d .. my dream is diE ~!
Desperate to kill me .. Destroy the dreams and scoring .. The time comes .. I do not know why .. HARASS life .. I do not know what the solution!!? :S
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to panmines
when people giveup on teir lives and notdo anything, there is a chance that this is the result of severe depression. maybe what you need is some medicine and talking therapy to help you. and about seeing your self skinney, well to be honest with ou some of the most jolly and nice people that i have met in my life are fat. being skinnny should not be your only desire in life beasue how skinny is skinny? if you become absessed with your weight there are chances that you will develop eating disorders. i became absessed and it ruine my life ad now i have said to myselfthat i dont care and i have over the past three months put on about 2 to 3 stones. and i dont care. partly because i have given up and partly because i dont want to be throwing up and taking laxatives and starving myself for days and exerciseing. i cant be bothered.
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to flantrex
maybe see a psychologist or counciller to help you explore the possible solutions….
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flantrex Reply:
May 8th, 2009 at 1:53 am
@sarah, i hate the psychologist just Missed the time !
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i myself am considering death by train. however, i,m struggling with the thought of what effect this may have on the train driver. it seems a quick, painless way to go though.
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Trying to explain infinity is like trying to explain
what it is like to not exist.
We can however do a pretty good job explaining
what our universe is, and perhaps our own infinity.
i say ” our own infinity ” because… well… it gets
very creepy, because there could be infinite infinities..
its not just laws of physics and scientifical equations
philosophical theories also begin to become non-sensical
as you dive deep into infinity.
even theories that try to explain it in mysterious ways…
such as ” it just “is” “… even these theories find themselves
isolated, cold, shaky… naked…
in real world, we look at an object and we see the object
our senses are adjusted to ensure our survivor, they are
designed for our own survivor.
they are not designed to study the infinity.
because of this, we are out in the cold.
but here’s the thing.. with this much mystery…
there has to be some mysterious things happening
on the infinity level.
i am sure, just as humans are interested in being pretty.
infinity too is probably interested in being pretty.
it seems it’s desire of all creatures to “organize” and create
a “pretty” atmosphere for their own lives.
ants, are organized, they work with each other, they
do their best to fit in their own environment.
everything is interested in beauty. including humans.
this can only mean one thing…
infinity too is interested in beauty and being pretty…
thus, those creatures that are obsessed with prettiness
are likely to be on the side of infinity.
i am pretty sure infinity can see everything you are
doing, so be pretty. or else, it will get rid of you.
what i am trying to say is, i do not want to see
any mean comments posted below this neat shiit i just
wrote.
write something pretti, say like ” i love you sumer ”
or do what that one dude does, change the subject to
“imac” and then write “is pretty cool” in the message.
it’s that simple really
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gusto ko nang mamatay… hindi na maganda nangyayari sa buhay ko. puro negative na lang lahat! higit sa lahat yung mga taong akala ko mahal nila ako, lalo lnag nila naiparamdam nila nila ako mahal. lalo na BF ko, mahal na mahal ko siya pero eto pinaparamdam niya sakin hindi niya ako mahal. wala siya para cheer up nya ako. masakit mga ginawa niya after ng lahat lahat ng nangyari samin. aawayin niya ako at sasaktan, hindi niya iniisip masasaktan ako. ni birthday ko hindi niya ako binati, sinadya niya. masakit talaga sobra. pati sa pamilya ko, hindi nila ako maintindihan. yung mga bagay na gusto ko nirereject nila, hindi nila ina-accept at hindi wnewelcome eto. lagi din ako umiiyak dahil sa kanya. pareho ko silang mahal, pamilya at yung boyfriend ko. sobra. sobra ko sila mahal. pero ano? hindi nila maibalik sakin yung pagmamahal na gusto ko. puro negative. napapariwara na rin ata ako. ang daming problema. sa school: osacs, enrollment, english subject, batchmates or co-colleges, faculty professors. nakkahiya na. sobra. hinang-hina na ako. walang tumutulong sa akin. wala. ang lungkot lungkot na ng buhay ko. paano na mga pangarap ko? paano na pamilya ko? paano na pagmamahalan namin ng BF ko? paano na future namin BF ko kung laging nagaaway naman? paano na buhay ko? nagiisa lang ako ngayon. walang nakakaalam ng lahat ng eto. nahihirapan na ako. sobra. mahal na mahal ko lahat ng binigay sakin ng Dyos, lahat ng tao pero bakit ganun… hindi nila ako maintindihan, di nila ako matulungan, hindi nila ako iniisip tanging mga sarili lang nila iniisip. kaya eto naisip ko magsuicide dahilan ng lahat ng mga sinabi kong eto. ayoko na makita ang kinabukasan ko na lalong gumugulo at nasisira na lalo din magpapahirap sa kalooban ko at lalong makokonsensya o magsisisi. wala na ako patutunguhan. panget na ang nagawa kong buhay, nasira dahil sa mga maling desisyon. pero dahilan lahat yun ay nagmahal ako sa isang tao (BF). hai… sana magawa ko ng tama ang pagsuicide. at sa lahat matatahimik na rin ako. makakapagpahinga ako sa problemang ginawa ko. sana patawarin ako ni God. sorry Jesus. sorry po talaga. sana tulungan niyo parin ako hanggang sa oras na pagpatay sa sarili ko. sorry po kung gagawin ko sa regalong buhay binigay mo sa akin. Lord, tunay talagang maganda ang buhay. nakita ko ang mundo na ginawa mo, para sa amin lahat. puno ng pagsubok pero dito nagiging maganda ang buhay. mahina na ang loob ko ngayon, takot din panginoon. ayoko na makita ang susunod na mangyayari sa buhay ako. lalo na sa pamilya ko, kung ano man maging reaksyon pag nalabas na ang katotohanan. alam kong sobra sila masasaktan.. ngayon pa lang nagsisisi na talaga ako. mahina ang loob ko. pero ganun pa man, mahal na mahal ko kayong lahat. mama mary, help me and hope to be with you. i’m very sorry and I love you all. -ekm
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nic
please dont do it. it will be tramatisimg for the train driver and it wouldnt give you another chance. please think about your future, in know it is bleak at the moment, but things will work out ofr you. i hope so.
just imagine the impact it would have on your whole family??? to lose you just like that… my family say that a family is like a hand, if one finger gets hurt the whole hand feels the pain. your family care about you, you need to reach out to them ad whtch them help you and if you do reach out and they dont help you then you are better then them and deserve better, there will still be people out there who would want to help you.
i know when you are feeling so low and depressed you think of ways to kill yourself and oftenn you think about the situations in which you will be totally helpless, like i cant swim and so when i am severly depressed i go by the cannal (standing but deep water
) and think about jumping in where i cant help my self because i knwo if i take an overdose or something i can just go to the hospital and the doctors can easily fix it if i am lucky, but if i jump into the water i cant swim and i would be helpless and drown. it appears to me that thats what you are doing…. thats why you are onsidering a train, so you cant change your mind last minute, but trust me, the speed and the pain, it is not worth it.
you have so much potentail and happiness ahead of yu (i pray), if you kill your self you will missout on it and you will never know what you have missed out on.
i cant really help you more then that but i wish i coud, if you were with me i would wrap my arms around you and keep you safe but i cant. what i can advice, as some one who has been there before, is go and see your doctor, talk t him/her and they woudl be able to help you. trust me it is a long process but at te end of it, it woul be worth the effort. dont give up on your self like this.
talk to a family member about how you feel or talk to a frined, if you cant do that then try a parent of a friend, they can be understanding and they can give you support and guide you in the right direction.
i hope you feel better soon.
sarah
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summer
i just want to ask you how many degrees do you have… you make me laugh. you are very philosophical…. how can there be infinate infinities??? or is it juat my limited human capabilities getting in the way???
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This website isn’t the best website admittedly.
I have just scrolled down and seen a pathetic comment though, a man named phil gordon who said :”If you can’t think of a way to stop your heart beating you probably aren’t old enough to have life experiences that would make you kill yourself”
I was four years old when i had my first life altering ‘life experience’ and memorys from my entire childhood have driven me to suicide attempts.
So I say to phil gordon there is no age when bad life experiences take place and theres no age were suicide becomes reasonable.
Also, suicide methods aren’t freely discussed in society nevermind painless methods. A little internet research could be saving a person from a great deal of pain!
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my wife and i split in nov 08, cause two years ago i told my sister in confidence that i had feelings for my wife’s cousin from over seas(she’s also adopted) by the way. Well i had know her for over 10 years of my marriage and at the age of 19 she stayed over and gave me a bj.anyway i told my sister in con that i had made a mistake. My sister said stop and think of your wife, so i did and nothing else happened. Well 2 years on my sisters husband started getting close to my wife. I said it needed to stop, but my sister ignored my advise and told my wife what i had done years erlier. So we have split now.Would you believe now my brother in law has just taken my wife to bed last sat night whilst i was in liverpool and my sister away in Spain.I told facebook all about it. Now my wife says i can’t see my two children either.My brother in law has worked on my wife since nov 08 until now he’s had her in bed and now they want to start a life together. My sister had lost 2 babies to this man last year and he has has two other affairs in his 8 years marriage to my sister. Now all i can see is him in bed with my wife having sex with her and smiling at me, saying i told you i would have her. I’m really really low and cannot see past this brick wall in front of me, i feel it’s time to go. today i bought a ladder and some twine. I’m on the edge and ready for the jump. Why does this pain hurt so so much.
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twistmaster1977 Reply:
May 12th, 2009 at 1:57 am
@dragon, out of all the people hear im in your place . i do hope u r still hear with me no im not gay just feal your pain .walk your road . cant slleep. whant to do them all to hell . and iv been throw alot of girls and geri was my sole mate .2 kids a boy and a girl .geri has a kid keshis and that one put us theow hell and talk shit the hole time she will get hers but i have grown to love her she is who she is . i hafe to pay 100$ for each picher of my kids and dont get to see them at all . just got tiard of the pills gave her all she whanted . cant say if ther is another man but my mind ant nice to me even moved to seattle to keep them safe in the rong mood she will die and i dont whant to take her with me but some days it dont mater in my mind its been abought a year and it dont get ezer , and if i cought her with a man o m g . im getting mad and pist so till next time . please still be hear please replie
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I’ve tried all sorts of alchemy to try to alter reality
so i can become rich and rule the universe,
unfortunately so far, nothing has worked out well.
one time i fell into a mental hospital and i was constantly
asking the staff there to let me go, one time i was like…
what if i refuse to eat food as long as i am kept here?
the guy responded ” they’ll force you to eat it, by stuffing
the food into your mouth and down through your throat”
i was like ” well, complying does not work, not complying
does not work, what am i suppose to do, how do i get out of
this place? ”
the guy responded ” they are watching everything”..
seriously, since i was kinda mentally screwed up… i thought
he was talking about mysterious forces within infinity.
i had no idea he was referring to the other staff and the
cameras on the ceilings .
and so i begun to do PRETTY THINGS, i cleaned the tables
picked up the trash from floors, wrote beautiful assays filled
with the word “beautiful”…
well it worked out pretty well, they let me go after 2 weeks.
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Do the doctors, physicians and people really care if you commit suicide? They are never around, no one really is most of the time but everyone feels like they have the right to tell u “not to kill yourself”. Makes no sense. If a person, including myself have suffered for as long as i can remember and cant take it anymore.. or dont want to, who are other to tell me what i should do in my life??
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to sy
no the doctors dont really care if you kill yourself or if you live to be fully honest, not as much as your family would care. but they are caring people, and thats why they are doctors. the obviosly care about other people thats why they devoted so much time to study and stuff but then it could be equally said that they did it for the money. i dont know. what doctors think and feel is quiet confusing and i would not try to explain it. and whether they care – each and evey doctor is an individual.
the only people that really care and understand how you feel are people who have been in the same situation as you. i have some friends from the hospital who i get along with and but for some reason my mum doesnt want me to talk to them. she feels that they are bad influence.i hate it so much. all of my sisters friends are perfect and there is nothing wrong with them and my friends wether of the same religion or different are bad. if i cant talk to my friends then why talk to anyone. i hate it so much.
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i am so fed up. hate my life and i dont know who to screem at. i see everyone else around me getting on so perfectly an di feel like screaming. my family, cousins and everyone else have what they want and tehy are living life to the max and look at me. stuck in this cycle of whating to kill my self and then feeling better for a few day and then dipping again. i hate it so much.
when i was at hopital there were other patients there as well that had depression and they are recovered,. and look at me im on a hell of a lot of medication and i dont feel perfectly well.i hate it so much.
i would overdose but they would just think it was becase my dad has gone to pakistan. i hate it so much. i hate my family. i wish i was on my own. one of these days i am going to kill someone. i dont know who i think it is going to be anyone who gets on my worng side, i feel like that. i would cut them up nto bits and then post ther body bits to their family. and if it one of my brothers that i kill then i am going to post the hear to my mum anddad.
its almost as if anyone who comes into my path and spends time with me i turn to hate. espcially people who try and be nice with me.
this feeling of wanting to ill your brother or someone else has got nothing to do with depression.
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All these products Apple has, all these cool stuff
all these things happening, & you…
everything will one day look like antique.
in 50 years, you will check out the web site
Apple.com had back in 2009 and you will see the
iphone and you’ll be like “ha, that stuff was a joke”
honestly, i am stunned by the world population’s
amazement at these things.
i have no idea why people would download 1 billion
Apps from itunes app store.
these things feel like useless stuff…
i am not trying to degrade people but it’s just that…
is this it.. is this how evolution happens on earth?
is this how people become “advanced” ?
something is sooo flaw.. so weird.. so.. wrong..
i understand people have their own style but…
hmmmmmmmmm…
something is soooooooo weird..
well anyway, the good news is that in billions of
years from now, all this will be long over.
earth will vaporize by the explosion of the sun
bla bla bla bla..
it was all just a MYSTERY…
i wonder how many other MYSTERIES
happened, billions of years ago.
i wonder if there was a being like me within one of
those mysteries, that calculated, this same conclusion.
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fatima, thankyou so much for your comment. i still feel the same way and 2 nights ago i tried so hard to slit my wrists. but i came on this site again today, the first time since i posted my last comment, and i saw the reply. it made me really happy to know there are others who care. just wanted to say thankyou so much, and if you ever need to talk to someone, i’ll be there for you.
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fatima Reply:
May 13th, 2009 at 8:46 pm
@nina,
im glad that i could be of some benefit to you.
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Life remains an absurd, purposeless struggle for many. I’m happy to see people against it. Suicide requires the greatest strength and courage. I admire all that have had the strength to master their fate. Maybe in the future sentient beings will simply refuse to exist and continue the purposeless suffering that IS life.
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to spaniel satre
life might appear as an absurd, purposeless struggle to you but it is not that way. everybody was created for a purpose. and that purpose is to worship god, who created all things in a state of perfection.
i agree with you, suicide does require the greatest strength and courage because you do not know what is on the other side of the road. if you dont believe in after life and heaven and hell, then for a moment think wht if there is. i am a muslim and in the past i have attempted to take my own life and now when i think of it i cant understand what i was thinking of at that time. it was the most stupid thing of me to do. i could have easily died and gone to eternal hell. what woudl i have done then??? i can commit suicide again after i have commit it once if i want to get out of hell if you see what i mean. it is the most couraguos thing to d but it is courage used in the wrong way…..
life is only purposeless if you dont give it a chance. this morning i was feeling depressed but then i try hard and pull my self out of it, i listen to some music, read a book do some work…. and that gives purpose to my life.
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Alright folks. Here we go with attempt two. If all goes well, I won’t be posting back here, but the inhibited protein synthesis method I’ve gone with at a higher dosage than last time may take a few days. It may suck, and if it does, and I can get to my laptop, I’ll post it so you can avoid it. If this fails as well, I’ll post when I can finally get it right.
Normally, I can’t stand my days and each one is a repeat of the one before it with little variation except that I’m getting older by the day.
I’ve been on prozac for over a month and the effects have kicked in and the only difference is that I just don’t seem to care about the things that used to upset me. Or anything else for that matter.
Today, while at work, I counted my breaths. This was what I did. I heard a quote once. “Without love, without anger, without sorrow, breath is just a clock… ticking.”
All I feel is ennui. No motivation. The same thing. I was counting down my breaths. I’m idly wondering how many more I have now. I figured I had about 50 years (of the same thing) left. A little over three hundred and fifteen million point three breaths.
Now; maybe days, hopefully hours.
I wonder if I can finish the book I’m reading before I run out.
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sarah Reply:
April 27th, 2009 at 1:23 pm
lucas
you have only been on prozac for a month. anti-depressents work different to other medication and it usually takes six to eight weeks and sometimes longer for the full benefit to be noticed. ive been on anti-depressents for about 5 months now if not more and im getting better now. you have to keep taking them and if they dont work then after a while speak to your doctor and ask him/her to change them for you. and about this being your last message… dont let it be. its not woth it. life is prescios.
hope you get well soon.
take care
sarah
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I was told by a guy that if you take a couple of paracetmol every 15- 20 mins that you fall into a coma like sleep and die, sounds nice but just wanna know from someone else is this true? has anyone else heard this before?
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flantrex Reply:
April 26th, 2009 at 3:09 pm
what this life :S .. !! very bad !! i dont know why !! .. everything is bad .. my perants Hates me ! and i hates everybody :S !!
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sarah Reply:
April 27th, 2009 at 1:42 pm
what makes life so bad for you? you say everything is bad, im sure if you ponder over you life you will find that it is not that way, surly?
why do your parents hate you??? and why do you hate everybody???
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chris Reply:
July 16th, 2009 at 3:44 pm
Wrong! For some us us, especially those with painful terminal diseases, no family, no friends, no money, no home, life is beyond miserable. There is no reason to endure this pain for one more minute. Please don’t judge others who want to die, especially those you don’t know. You haven’t walked in my shoes, so you honestly don’t know. Indeed, everything is bad.
chrris Reply:
April 26th, 2009 at 5:22 pm
Gee, I’d love to know if that will work as well. It sounds sounds almost to easy. I’m really looking to find something soon that is fast, painless, and effective, and this sounds like a good option. Please keep us updated.
Best,
Chris
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sarah Reply:
April 27th, 2009 at 1:38 pm
to gee and to chris
i dont know if that is true or not but you dont want to try it. from my understanding an overdose of paracetamol will not kill you directly. it will though indirectly, you will get liver damage and die of that instead.
taking a few paracetamol every few hours can be very dangerous, i would advice that you dont do it,. really its not worth it. my last and final major suicide attempt was paracetamol overdose with some other pain killers and it made me violently sick. i had to be on drips for 3 days and i can have any more paracetamol. just looking at them makes me feel literally sick. i cant have them even if i need them.
life might seem bad at the moment but look at it this way, you have so much more then most, can you imagine what it would be like if you were born disabled, without an arm or leg??? people have it harder, we are blessed, but that does not mean that i think your struggle is nothing. i know it is hard, every day is a struggle but you have to try to find motivation, you have to try to find something to fill your life with. its not worth taking the overdose because you dont know for certain if it is going to kill you. they, the doctors might just end up sending you to a psychiatric hospital and you would be stuck there for two or three months. thats what happened to me.
imagine this overdose results in liver damage or something else like that…. even if you do go into coma, you could come out of it then you would have to carry on with your life and it would be harder because you would have more stress.
you have the whole of your life ahead of you and you dont know what lies ahead, you might have so many happy moments and blessings that you would miss out on if you go into coma.
i know it is hard and it is hard to face the world and everything seems to be on top of you and you think you would be better of if you didnt exist or if you could go away somewhere and hibernate and stuff but there is light at the end of the tunnel
speak to your doctor, as much as i hate to admit it, my doctor and his team helped me a great deal. they can probably refer you to a psychitrise, or psychologist.
talk to your family and see what advice they can offer you, but trust me paracetamols are not the way to go.
im sorry for booring you with this long essay of mine but i just dont want any damage or harm to come to you. please dont take the overdose, its not that bad. really.
i hope you feel better soon.
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Chris Reply:
July 17th, 2009 at 1:02 pm
Dear Sarah,
Again, you are speaking about things in which you have absolutely no knowledge.
“You have the whole of your life ahead of you and you dont know what lies ahead.”
Firstly, you don’t know how old I am, so you can not say that I have the “whole of your life.” Secondly, I do what lies ahead. I know more than you in this regards.
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See The thing is there are to many people wanting to kill themselves just because they have had a bad day or have had an argument, ect. Its the people with real problems that need help when it comes to suicide, not cry babys !!!!
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SUMER ( Britney Spears ) Reply:
April 29th, 2009 at 7:27 pm
It was a lovely evening, i was cruising on the ocean
sun was shining and i was kicking major ass.
i wanted to dive into the ocean and cool down a little.
the sun was hot.
hot as fuk. hot as hell.
and so i got hungry and i ate food that was deliciously
yummy.
i noticed the bitches on the other boat wanted to party
and i told them to eat shiit. but they refused.
i bbq’d some fish and ate it with white onion and bread.
i was running short on bread but the bread was fresh
and delicious.
i went to an island to kill some rabbits and eat them too
i don’t like killing animals but i was feeling like a wild cave man.
and then i *burp!*ed it was great, felt like i was totally
refreshed.
it was like having a cup of cold iced coffee without having
the cup of cold iced coffee.
i noticed the sand was soft and fluffy and so i rested
on it and got some more sun light. i then put on my clothes
and decided to go into the jungle to check out the trees.
and then i went back into my cruise ship and slept.
the next morning when i woke up, life was so exciting
i couldn’t help not to scream “yeeeew huh huh huh! ”
SUMER
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sarah Reply:
May 1st, 2009 at 9:29 pm
everybody needs to be taken seriosly when they contemplate suicide.
it doesnt matter how insignificent you think their problems might be, becuase it is obviously sufficent to lead them to thinking of ending tehir life.
major problems are simply a build up of bad days, in my experience.
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i hate myself. i hate my life. i wish i’d killed myself the last time i felt like this. i wish i’d never been born.
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sarah Reply:
May 8th, 2009 at 10:44 pm
@nina,
you say, you hate yourself, is there any reason for you to feel like this? sometimes when thing happen to you that are out of your controll you start to hate yourself, because you couldnt change or stop it or something…. or do other people make you feel that way??? why do you feel that you should have killed yourself the last time you felt like this? if you kill your self you will not get the second chance to make your life the way that you want it. at the moment you are probably thinking that you do not want a second chance and you would be better of dead, but it will not always stay like that.
if there are certain circumstances and situations that you find your self in and they make you feel like this, or trigger feelings of suicide, try avoiding such cercomstances…. keep ur distence from them. and if there are no obvios reasons then there might be an illness, that is leading you to feel like this, like depression. why dont you go and see your doctor??? i never thought that my doctor could make such a difference to my life but he has.
dont give up on your slef.
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Every-one should have the right to commit suicide, especially when one has no choice left, no love, no-one to turn to, like in Canada, like me, I want the best and easiest method, Maybe when I’m gone – some-one will see, I did pray and seek help but “0″ outcome – it is becoming the common don’t care attitude now-a-days
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sarah Reply:
May 8th, 2009 at 10:51 pm
@Klaas,
you probably didnt cry out to the right people… or maybee the people you cried out to didnt know how to help you… have you been to speak to your doctor???? i know going through this process is long and very demanding, but the end result is positive,… if your doctor is not very helpfull, which sometimes is the case, find another doctor, tehy can help you be enlisting teh help of other health care professionals.
a lot of people have that i dont care attitude but as long as you dont develop that attitude yourself there is imence hope. once you develop that attitude your self then things get more dificult. stay positive…
even though i dont know you personally i do care. and i want to see you get the right help. keep me up dated …
you do have a choice. you can chose to kill your self, and then you will never know if anybody cared, or you can seek out and you will find that there are peopel who care, they might not be family or friends, they might be doctors and psychologists but tehre are peopel who care about you.
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Klaas Reply:
May 12th, 2009 at 3:57 am
Thanks , Sarah
I am going downward fast, I see no other solution, I have seen doctors, they all have this don’t care attitude, I am lucky to get an hour sleep a night, all I want is to end things, the sooner the better,I have done my confession,I tried to call some-one but no-one wants to be bothered, like a closed door all over. I have figured out how I am going to do it, it will be painless, and quick – it will take about a week to find me, that way there is no way to stop my plan, and no-one else will get hurt, my kids will just think , I left them, my wife will party, my co-workers will find out weeks later, It will give some-one else a job, TC
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sarah Reply:
May 13th, 2009 at 8:58 pm
@Klaas, klaas dont do it. its not worth it. trust me on this one. things cant be bad forever they have to change, look you eat after you feel hungry, you drink after you feel thirsty and sleep takes the place of restlessness, surly with hardship will come relief.
just hold on a bit longer… try a different doctor… i know what it feels like to have no hope but you have to creat the hope, imagin it make it you, do something anything…. like when im down i just imagin that i will do something benifical for someone and that makes me feel a little better… i know what its like.
what are you going to do? how are you planning to kill your self? i have tried a few times but it didnt work out. what r u thiking of?
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well.
i frequently get suicidal thoughts.i am 20yrs old.
i realise that i am nobody in life.i am too lazy.so i have made a rational decision to end my life.
i dont know when i am going to do it.probably when somethin sad happens and i am unable to handle it.like mayb an exam scorecard.
dunno.
i have decided to keep a sturdy rope handy.oh and i have also already written my suicide note.so that i dont waste time at that moment…which would probably take away the chance to reflect upon my decision to end it.
byes
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Klaas Reply:
May 5th, 2009 at 11:31 pm
@Soham, we should do it at the same time, agreed, I almost did it a few days ago, I didn’t want to live, I regret waking up, next time I hope not too,
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sarah Reply:
May 8th, 2009 at 10:55 pm
@Klaas,
i know its hard for you, but please dont encourage other people to commit suicide…
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Chris Reply:
July 17th, 2009 at 1:28 pm
“I know its hard for you, but please dont encourage other people to commit suicide…”
Why not? Suicide is only wrong if you think it is wrong. Why do you encourage people to continue living miserable horrible lives? Why is your way right, and those of others wrong.
Suicide is a personal choice directed by the social situation one finds themselves in.
If your situation works for you, then great. But please don’t tell those who have been forced into hellish situations that they must continue living in their hell on earth.
Point is, there is nothing wrong, foolish, selfish, or anything wrong in engaging in self deliverance. Please read Durkheim’s book entitled “Suicide,” and illuminate yourself on the facts. In the meantime, I won’t tell people to engage in suicide providing you don’t tell people not to. Perhaps if everyone stopped trying to tell others what to do, the world would be a bit better, and maybe people wouldn’t be compelled to die.
First i went to in n out the lady gave me the burger
in a bag, but i had said “for here” when i ordered it.
and then i drove to DMV to pay the registration fees
but i noticed they want proof of insurance and SMOG
CHECK papers. great, more money to waste.
and then i discovered my nightmares had become true.
when i was little i always feared i would be homeless
one day and poor. well it happened.
i thought i could avoid it by fearing it, but i went right
into it instead. weird very weird.
anyway, i kinda like this tho, i like challange.
it tastes delicious, like nutella.
actually i no longer eat nutella, makes me fat.
SUMER
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Dat cut is way kooooooool…….
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Dat cut is way kooooooool…….Love to see more pics….
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10 minutes ago i was feeling very very depressed
and then i found this video on youtube
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VWkvb0SHfPs
now i am all fired up.
just wanted to share the beauty.
( with my fellow human coligs )
wow my first attempt to use the word “coligs”
and i don’t even know how it’s spelled.
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Not really feeling like living anymore going thru a very tough time financially and with someone that I love very much. There is really no need to live the money situation will never get any better no light at the end of the tunnell. I do Love and will miss my family very much.
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sarah Reply:
May 8th, 2009 at 10:59 pm
@shyguy44,
there is light at the end of the tunnal. verily, with hardship comes relief.
eating follows hunger, drinking follows thirst and sleep comes after restlessness, that darkness will vanish an dyou will find your way.
always try to be optimistic and look at the brioght side to everything because there is not a disaster that can strike humankind that does not have a disaster bigger then it.
really with hardship tehre is relief.
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shyguy44 Reply:
May 9th, 2009 at 8:59 pm
@sarah, Thank you sarah but I am really having a tough time with a lot of things and the best and easiest way out is suicide no more problems I am in total tlove with this one woman and things are not going good and if it doesn’t work out I am gonna just lose it and that will be it for me my bill s are not very good either owe a lot of money and see no end it sight it is just endless of having to pay with no way out except……………… I just need to work a few more things and get them taken care of and then …… not sure oh well
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I want to kill myself because I am single, and I am fucking had enough.
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sarah Reply:
May 13th, 2009 at 8:50 pm
@Siddeeq,
i think everyone has had enough. how are you thinking of killing yourself? what do you plan to do?
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sarah Reply:
June 1st, 2009 at 1:49 pm
@Siddeeq, are you okay???? its been a while i havent hurd for you, if you come back on this site let me knoe if you are okay, ive been thinking about you.
sarah
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When we reach a point in our lives, that we do not know why we are here. No one would miss us if we failed to turn up at our favourite pub, the boss would only ring you, because you failed to show for work. When we reach this point it is no good carrying on. It would be the same as leaving a croweded room, one less person is not noticable.
I have no children that depend on me. I have brothers and sisters but do not have any contact with them. I have tried but after the first phone call nothing else happens. I am not looking for sympathy and do not want to hear any. I do live with my girlfriend, she has more interest with her job and is willing to do things with friends at work but when I ask her to come out for a drink or meal or just go to the cinema, she has no interest.
It is a horrible feeling to feel you are invisable to every one.
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i hate my life lost my partner because her mother made up lies about me no spend only a few hours a week with my son who doesnt seem 2 notice me anymore he is 2 i just want 2 end it all i have 2 work with her bro,dad everyday im allways on edge tried 2 end it the other day but as im on here it didnt work
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jesuslovesacid Reply:
June 1st, 2009 at 1:23 pm
You gotta stick with it bro coz one day your little boy is gonna grow up and be sensible and wise enough to see the truth.Dont let him grow up believing lies about you.be there and show him how much you love him yourself.If you do it,you will see what hurt you have caused him from the other side.
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Time is drawing near to the final act I don’t think anyone would notice if I was missing except V is rt maybe the boss calling to see y u didn’t show up to work that is freaking great. The girl that i am love with keeps pushing me away further and further she doesn’t get how much i love her and i would do anything for her but she just keeps pushing me away well soon enough she will no longer have to worry about that for i will no longer be a bothersome to her. I will miss my family though very much. Oh well have just a few more things to take care of and then the final act in my play……. The people i work with give me crap all the time and that gets old to i just make it sound like it’s not a big deal but it is don’t really care for a few of them they are of bunch two faced ………… no need to worry soon enough
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in this time of my lie i took time out to go to durg treament on my own and told my love with 2 kids that i need help and i haid to quit . well im clean ,no love no kids . on the pills life was happy now each day is darker and blacker . i whant the pills so bad but all iv been throw i cant . i got to pay to have pic of them to talk to them . every day i thenk of doing us both but wher would my kids be . and i love them thay r y i dont O.D my self .at this time . every night i close my eyes i c other men tuching her and my mind is not nice to me . y i tipe this i dont know . i read of others and i feal ther pain some days i fell as i should go on a sex afrender deth spree friest id like to at least… i clean up for the loe of my life and she lives me of five years and she is a graet mom just a bad person.my job gone my life gone …sorrey for the spelling …
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What I think (which means nothing and this is not directed at just you) is that the whole aspect of this entire conversation is the lack of understanding of what life is, what feeling is. Life is in general suffering due to aging and death. Why you may ask because it is impermanent. How can anything that ends be a source of happiness? Yet then again happiness in its self is feeling attached to life. anyway back to topic my philosophical ideals are bastardized and work only for myself. try not giving a F*** about anything. just stop caring about everything. be everything and nothing. Reality is what you make of and I personally choose to not accept any reality. a good metaphor for this is people with cows sorrow over cow. (to put it simply.) I mean so many people place so much importance on being “happy” but what really is happiness? A unique phenomenon experienced differently by conscious beings? wow so what they are telling you is their opinion on what happiness is. Death in its self is life and vice versa. Figure it out for yourself. Holy Sh!t did I just say that or think it? You cannot change what happens in life only how you react to it.
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Wow!! the love of my life keeps pushing me a way and she has no idea that she will be the maine reason for me ending my life. every freaking weekend she finds another excuse not to get together great huh? we are spose to go out this weekend but she will cancel just like always this is gonna really set me off. I have a few more letters to write and then I don’t know how long from there but I have to finish my good by letters to people family and then there will be no time limit probably what ever sets me off and bamm gone. It’s not what I want to do but it is the answer for me no more bills no more debt and no more freaking woman problems. funny enough she was the one that made me a much better person and changed my life and now she is the one that’s gonna end it how weird is that???
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colby smith Reply:
May 12th, 2009 at 8:01 pm
@shyguy44, ok im goin to ask u the question now cause i have to go if u were to kill ur self today do you know where you would go. to be more specific if u did die today and they buried you do you think you woulld just stay in the ground and rought or do you believe like what i believe that you go to heaven. i cant really talk with you more until i know your religion back ground. but i would more than happily share my religion belief with you if u want me to but you have to reply back plz thnks
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jezzabelle Reply:
May 12th, 2009 at 8:34 pm
@colby smith, Religion sort of confuses me, i personally dont believe that anyone one can say for sure what happens until you actually die, but saying that i dont think that you just rot in the ground? i think you go to like a higher level of existence? i know it sounds stupid but oh well.
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shyguy44 Reply:
May 13th, 2009 at 2:50 pm
@colby smith, I am not sure when I am gonna do it yet. I don’t think it will be much longer but I can’t say for sure. I do believe a little that I will go to heaven but who knows?? I am working on my letters rt now to my family and then believe it or not I am gonna write a letter to the love of my life and let her know how much I loved her and that she kept pushing me away and that’s what drove me to do this i don’t know what else to doshe keeps pushing me away. I guess it is a good thing i don’t have kids that would be harder but leaving my family won’t be very easy either because i love them very much and my little nephew wanted to see him grow up i love that kid like he was my own my time is drawing near
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last month i was a happy 42yr old house dad, i was devoted to my 5yr old son and partner. my 8yr relationship came to an halt when i found text and picture messages on my partners mobile phone to a male carer who she works with, i confronted her and she ammediatly told me to leave as she dont love me anymore. i cried all week on the phone to her (she ignored) i plucked up courage to see my son, when i got there i started crying again but this time my partner cried with me and said i could come back. last saterday i noticed that she was using her mobile phone as descreatly as she could, when she went to sleep i looked through her phone again and found a picture message to the same guy. i wrote my partner a note for her to explain where i stand, she told me to f**koff and dont come back. now i have no-one and nowhere to turn. im expecting a £7000 cheque in afew weeks, i need to buy my little boy everything that he wants then i will take my life with oramorph that i kept from when my father died 16month ago…….
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jezzabelle Reply:
May 12th, 2009 at 7:59 pm
@SNBAD, SNBAD, please dont kill yourself, what about your son? i know that it will be hard for you to see him and your x wife at the same time in fact i have no idea about how painful that might be, you dont know what the future will bring and you cant leave your son alone, my mom has tried to kill herself on many occassions, it’s horribly i remember thinking that it was my fault for a long time and then hating her for even trying it (sometime i still do), is that what you want your son to think of you? think about all the things you’ll miss as he grows up, the day he gets his exam results, his first serious girlfriend, the day he graduates, the day he gets married and has children, someone needs to guide him through that and be their when things get tough, think of all the positives i know that it might seem like there arent many at the moment but the wound is still fresh and you cant make such life altering decisions so quickly.
No matter what you might think now your son will miss you, and have periods when he will hate you for what you did, what if he blames himself? surley you dont want to put that sort of burden on your only sons shouders (sorry i know i’m assuming you only have one son) he needs you, and someone better will come along someone who loves you completly! please dont do it, your important to your son, and you dont want to miss all the good times you’ll have with him, and if his only five! well there are going to be soooo many good times, what about his first day at secondry school, infact what about his first day at primary! please dont do it! you are so much more important than you think you are! someone will come along you just have to be open and not shy away from society, and i know that it wont be straight away that you find someone, you need to wait until you get over your first marriage, but who knows what the future has in store for you?
sorry that the message was so long, hope i didnt sound condesending, if i did feel free to have a go, i give you permission to call me rude names, belive me i didnt mean to sound arrogant or condescending in any way.
but still please dont do something stupid, your son deserves to have a dad.
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i witnessed a good friend attempt to hang himself. thought i could handle it. but i was wrong. the cord snapped and he immedietly said why did i cut it. i didnt. after another attempt, he came to us all and said he was done with the thought and wanted to live it through. we believed him. 2 weeks later he was found hanging from the beams of the ceiling. we were devastated. we disliked him and had a lot of bad feelings about it. because we did nothing and coulkd not understand that such a young and talented person could do such a thing. we are the ones living with the guilt. we feel the pain daily. the people that remain are the ones that will suffer. even though right now i feel like no one can feel the pain that i am going through. i realise that the more people you talk to the more it helps. hell the only reason i have not done this is for a little 6 y old lil girl, a friend of mines daughter, she loves me so much and has given me the reason to carry on. wich i will be forever grate full for. i love this child so much that ther e is just no way to justify doing such a deed.my wife left me after 23 years of being together. through the love and persistance of friends, i let them know how i felt, they got me through. i realised that i am not the only person in the world to have lost my belovedd wife. problem is i was so selfish at the time we were together that i did not realise the reason we are not together now is entirly my fault, we all need to see our own faults and do what is best for our relationships. i have since met another beutifull lady, wich i never thought possible, and i am alive. i am almost happy to be alive. i dont like living but i have a responsibility to the peple who love me. so does everyone else. it is not the right thing to do. live for now and die when the time is right. you cant chose this.be strong it might just work out for all.it is not a pretty sight, for the rest of my life i will see my best friends legs kicking while i sat hoplessly drugged and “hounering” him by doing nothing.thank fuck he didnt get it right, i can only imagine the scars i would have. probably enough to kill myself. find someone to talk to,
there is someone!!! you obviously have not completed the mission you were sent to do.
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lance Reply:
May 13th, 2009 at 7:16 pm
@lance, ps my brother died recently of heroin overdose, i know i can do it but chose not to. i feel so alone,but i will get through it, if i can anyone can. find love there is love on this fucked planet, i knw, i am not a good looking catch and feel like i dont have much to offer, the love i have got to offer is all i have and it is good enough.
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To “lance” dont give up !! you not alone !! i with you ..!! dont give up
, not the end !!
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reading everyones comments on this makes me feel so hopeless. i dont understand what i am suppost to do with my life. i hate it so much. i try to be positive evry day and i try to leave positive feedback for others but for some reason deep down inside i have this feeling that tells me that i cannot go on in life.
i need this life to stop for me and i dont know how i am going to do that. i have made so many attempts on my life but i never once got close to dying. a number of times i was seriously ill but that was it.
i feel so hopeless, that i know i can take another overdose, to be honest i feel like it but i know that it is not going to take me anywhere. i will end up in hospital again and that would be it and i dont want that. its not that, i dont care if i have to go to hospital again, its just that while you are there you have to live upto otehr peoples expectations about you and i dont feel like doing that. i just want somewhere where i could be who i am.
i feel like taking another overdose and i can go to my parents room where they keep my medication and i can overdose it but i know that wouldnt take me anywhere it wouldnt kill me. i feel so hopeless that ive even lost hope in another overdose.
i try so hard to move on with my life but i just cant. i say i want to go to university but i have given up.
life is so depressing. i feel so sad all the time, i feel fed-up and tired, i feel i have to do thiings to keep other people appy that cost me a lot of energy and effort. i feel so alone, there are people around me but they do not understand me and i feel alone on this journey of life.
no one understands whats happening in my life coz thats the way it is no one cares. family have to act as if they careto stop ypu from bringiing disgrace to the whole family by commiting suicide.
you know sometimes i feel like if only i could sit down and talk to peopel about the things thatthey did to me and the effect it is having on me and will have on me, then perhaps things could be a little better.
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shyguy44 Reply:
May 14th, 2009 at 3:59 pm
@sarah, sarah it is pretty depressing isn’t it? people just don’t care about us and don’t care what we are thinking. I kinda agree with you if you could sit down and talk to someone that maybe they might get it and understand what we are going thu but guess what they just don’t give a shit. they all just blow smoke up our back sides which sucks I would rather they say nothing than to patranize you. I think everyday on when I should just do it and pull the plug on this life would anyone really notice if we were gone I really don’t think so. I’m tire of people saying to me anyway suck it up and don’t be a baby but they have no idea how bad it is and when they say shit like that it just pushes me that much closer to edge. they are just so clueless it is unbelievable sometimes oh well I know what you are going thru and life sucks huh????
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Not my real name Reply:
May 14th, 2009 at 6:06 pm
@sarah, Sarah and ShyGuy, you are talking and listening to eachother. I’m out here reading all these entries, trying to get through another bout of suicide thoughts. I wish I could make it better for all of. I don’t understand how people like us can get so depressed. It hurts more than can be explained. But you two helped me–I guess it isn’t over yet. Thanks for writing.
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life is hard and people dont do things to make it any easier for you. i went to see my psychologist today for an assesent… it went okay. she plans to take me through all the events of my life, the good and the bad times,. i think that would give me a good chance to talk things through… but i am not 100% sure if i am ready to talk about some of the details of the things that i experenced.
anyway i am going to give it a try
hows everyone else doing??? hope u guys are fine…. an thanks for all the support….
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Not my real name Reply:
May 15th, 2009 at 7:22 pm
@sarah, Giving it a try sounds like a good idea. When I wake up in the morning I tell myself I only have to get to five pm, and then I only have to get to bed time. I understand how reading some of the postings can bring you down more. But then some of the postings are really helpful in that they express some of the feelings I have as well. Can we be unified by our isolation? Here’s another question–why are suidcial people hopeful for other people in the same boat? I mean why do you and I care weather other people who are hurting and want to die find some kind of way to make it through?
I talked to a friend last night and for a moment I felt real relief from my depression. I was so exhausted from it. Anyway,I’ll take the help I can get.
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sarah Reply:
May 19th, 2009 at 10:59 am
@Not my real name, thanks for your post, its comfortining to knwo that there are peopel out there that care.
i think we like to think that other suicidal peopel pull through because secretly we hope to pull through as well. if you get what i am saying, there is a bit of hope and wish but its usually drowned out by the sad feelinings and stuff.
it went okay with my psychologist, but yeaterday i was feeling really badly suicidal like there was no hope and nothing was going to help me pull through. i went to see a doctor at out mental health services and she unfortunatly could not help me. i was so let down, really it was a hopeless meating with her it was totally useless, she gave me the option to go onto hometreatment so they could monitor my health and she increased my anto psychotic by 1 mg, like that is going to help. i mean she coudl have increased the anti depressent but no she didnt. said i was on the highest dose already and so couldnt do anything about it. i came home and i was feeling dreadfull. just went to sleep and slept through till today and i only got up becaus emy mum and my brother were going on at me to get up and do somethinsg.
i hate it so much especailly when the people who are siuppost to be able to help you cant help you. like i usually tell other people who are feeling suicidal to go to their doctors and that they wourl help but i am starting to think that there is less and less truth in that statement. doctors are useless. they knw about medicine and if the m,edicine doesnt work the doctors can do nothing else. i mean i could get my own medicine of teh internet and tresat myself. all i have to do is make sure that the drug i get is not one that i am alergic to and ensure that there are no drug and drug interactions in the drugs that i take,. easy.
i feel really let down by my doctor i ha dhope in the team. but not anymore. i am not going to go back except to have them take me of the drugs,. i am just going to tell them that i am not suicidal amd that i feel better and i think they should reduce my medication untill they take me of it and then after that i am not going to have anything to do with them io am just going to use these chat lines and talk to reall people, people who have experenced the same things as i have and are going through pretty much the same thing.
im sorry about the length of my essay…. just really fed up and tired of seeking help and of trying to get out of these feelings. i think i am going to have to live with them untill they go away themselves.
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Fantastic pics. I love blood.
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hey guys….i’m 21….married last year…..everything was fine up until march…then everything blew off….i really love my husband….i cant even this of myself without him….but he blew everything off…now i’m in a situation where i have to either choose my parents or my husband…but the truth is i love him from bottom of my heart
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i’m in the middle where on the one side my parents self-dignity, pride, and social respect and the other side my husband’s ego, stubborn sense of humor, and self-respect…no one wants know what i want…i die everyday from inside…i feel alone and empty…like a drawing without colors….my husband and my parents gave me a choice to pick either one…but in real i need both of them…i’m incomplete without both…i dont know what to do….and the worst thing is our wedding anniversary just passed…and we werent together….
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i had so many dreams and hopes that i weaved…but everything shatterd in blink of an eye….i dont who to blame…my life is being taken away by my loved ones…dont know what to do….where to go…just want to go somewhere where i can far far away from love and affection…cuz love hurts…it really does.
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sarah Reply:
May 19th, 2009 at 11:04 am
@dil, im sorry to hear that you are ripped between your husband and parents but isnt there any way that you can tell them that you cannot live with one without the other?
what happened to your parents to make them hate your husband so much and why does your husband hate your parents so much>/?
i hope you can pull though. its not east whne you want both and you are not complete unless you have got both that you are required to choose.
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dil Reply:
May 19th, 2009 at 1:38 pm
Well….my husband doesnt hate my parents….he just talked back to them in a rudely manner that put me in the middle…and my parents are saying that if he’s talking to us like this then how r u going live ur life with a person who doesnt even know how respect elders…they’re saying that its just been a year since i got married…if he change so much in one year…imagine how much he can change in upcoming years…
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dil Reply:
May 19th, 2009 at 2:27 pm
actually i had an arranged marriage…and i love my husband….i cant live without him…but i cant turn my back on my parents either…to be honest both my husband and my parents are wrong at certain points…but both of them are not looking at their own mistakes instead they’re pointing out to eachother…its been 2 months since i have talked to my husband…it hurts…my heart aches…sometimes i feel i’m gonna have a heart attack…my cousin did..when she got separated from her husband…she died few months after she got separated…thats how i feel sometimes…i dont what to do…i’m helpless
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sarah Reply:
May 20th, 2009 at 10:27 pm
@dil, im sorry to hear about your situation,. it is really hard. tell your parents that your husband might change for the better and tell them to be patient with him and at the same time ask your husband, for your sake, to be polite to your parents. hopefully that would help.
cant really say much to you because ive never been in your situation. but i do feel for you. have you got any children, i know you said youve only been marred a year….
The pictures are somewhat graphic, however I think it is a good idea to show them. Think about it, if someone is looking for sites about how to take the final exit, it mainly breaks down to a couple of reasons why… one they are serious and maybe have attempted unsuccessfully which brings on other social and posibly legal issues that can cause further negativity in ones life continuing the downward spiral or two they may be calling out for help to prevent a final end to temporary problems. Not saying this is every case just one point of view. I am not desiring to offend anyone, just think if the pictures or content bothers one maybe they should search a different topic, suicide is not pretty. I spent over 20 years in the military and have seen a few suicides, never one of them glorious. Now here’s one for the books, I have often wondered how bad it would be to end it going about 100 mph head on with a semi…. only thing is with my overall luck I would live and be tied into life support machines and tubes and all the crap that I watched my mom suffer through before she died. No she didn’t take her life or attempt, died of multiple health complications.
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You have given link painless ways to suicide all three option of suicide are the most common.nobody knows what are the circumstances to take decision of commiting sucide.while i die for every single seconds its better to die in one stroke.so if possible jst give painless method.when we dont have money in our pocket of ur own.nobody ask u nor ur most love 1 also needs nothing everybody needs money and money.so pls help if u can its my humble request to plssss
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I’m a 16 year old girl and my boyfriend commited suicide two days ago. I can’t believe hes gone, and I cant see a future without him. I’m considering on doing the same thing. My only problem is that I care too much about the people around me, but still I can’t stand living in this hell. All I can think about is him, i feel empty..
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Not my real name Reply:
May 19th, 2009 at 12:04 pm
@Tanya, Tanya, I think about how I couldn’t explain to my 18 year old daughter why I did it. The day she was born the first thing I said to her was “This is a good world.” Knowing what I know and having gone through what I have gone through, I knew that some day I would have to justify what I said to her. Lately the pain has been so terrible and unending that I’ve thought about killing myself everyday. But how could I explain…
You said that you cared too much about the people around you. I know what you mean. It doesn’t make it any easier–maybe even harder because it mean us having to live with the pain and emptyness when sometimes we don’t know how or even feel like we cant. It’s so hard. I’ve had friends who have committed suicide and sometimes, like today, I feel them around me–trying to help I think by just–letting me know–I’m not really alone.
Time
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i never did any thing wrong in my life and i dont like anything wrong happening to me and others.but,in this bloody world,everything is going wrong.’LIVING IS A SIN’.your so called friends just want to make use of you.fck all these religion,fck god,fck friendship,fck relationship,and fcklove.set your mind free…dont trust and listen to anybody,just rely on your instincts.forget everything.death is the ultimate good.only good people should get it first.just remember that,you are visiting the planet earth for a short time.and please dont forget to give a beautiful smile while dying:-)
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why is this life so difficult and why do i constantly think of suicide? why am i always so depressed and hopeless, sometimes i can point to things that are making me sad or upset and depressed but other times i cant. i feel so helpless and hopeless about my future, i dont see one. everything that i had i have lost and everything that i had dreamed for is out of my reach. i hate it so much. life is soooo depressing.
just wish that i could die, just wish oneday that i go to sleep and dont wake up. just wish this was all over. i dont care about being the one to survive anymore, i have always been a fighter but i dont care about that anymore, i dont want to fight anymore, i just want to die. i hate my life and everything about it i really do i hate my slef, the person that i am and the person that people have made me. i hate it.#
just wish there was an easy painless method that i could use to take my own life. sometimes i feel like using a very aggressive method, like, getting two piecies of rope, and tieing one onto a chess of drawers and tie it around your neck, and the other piece of rope to a fixed piece of furniture inside the your bedroom, then glue your hands onto your head and push the chess of drawers out of the windo and jumping out at the same time. that way the weight of the chess of drawers will cut your neck but your head will not fall onto the ground because it would be tighed to your hands. so you would be hanging out of your window headless.
i feel like doing something like that, drastic, hand painfull and tormenting… but then i think i have suffered a lot in this life already to make myself suffer more. what is the point, i might aswell give myself a painless death. i dont knwo, but i am messedup in the head. peopel like me should be locked up and never alowedout. i feel like killing somebody else. i jus hate life so much that i want to destroy anything that has life.
i just dont see the purpose of living or of trying in life. guys if this is the first time that you have searched for suicide websites dont carryon because you are going to get obsessed with thinking like this and its not good for you.
really i want to kill myself but i dont know what lies on the other side of the road and i am scaredof what lies on the other side of the road. i hate to think that i would have to go to hell and i would burn there forever, i mean if i cant take the suffering of this world then how am i going to cope with the next.
just wish someone could give me an easy way to stop thinking about sucide. i really hope i could get out of it but i cant.
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dil Reply:
May 21st, 2009 at 12:38 pm
@sarah, no Sarah, i dont have any kids…but life seems empty….dont know what to do…i’ve been trying to work things out but nothing seems to workout…instead its getting worse…no way…no hope….no love…no life…
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sarah Reply:
May 21st, 2009 at 2:24 pm
@dil, i know what it is like with nothing in life and i wonder if there is anypoint in living.
i hate me life so much and i dont know what to say to you. are you living with your parents or do you have your own house? and is your husband from pakistan??? im assuming that you are pakistani.
maybe you could sort things out with your husband. ask him for your sake to be pateint with your parents or something. try talking to him and tell him how you are being ripped between theh two and how you want both. about how your are incomplete with any of them.
i hope things work out for you. and if you dont mind me asking how old are you? im 20.
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dil Reply:
May 22nd, 2009 at 3:05 pm
@sarah, i’m 21…no i’m not pakistani…i’m indian..but not born or raised in india…..thats what the problem is no one would listen and do anything for my sake…i talked to my husband..and i asked if he’s gonna continue being rude and stubborn like that…and he said “no iwasn’t stubborn or wrong…i’m gonna defend where i need to”…then i went to talk to my parents…and they were like choose either one…”your husband or your parents” and i was like ok thats end of life…to be honest…i know i’m gonna have to leave my husband…I JUST KNOW IT….there’s no way out…i wish somebody can understand me…i dont want to leave my husband but i know i have to do it for my mom’s sake…no i dont live with my parents….i have my own house…i study pre-med…want to be a doctor…and will be…i’ve always tough, never letting my family know how i feel…still dont ..cuz i dont want my parents
dil Reply:
May 22nd, 2009 at 3:35 pm
@sarah, to feel that they couldnt get me the happiness i deserve…so i hide my feelings from everyone..not just my family…i dont want anyone to pity on me…well…thats it..
sarah Reply:
June 1st, 2009 at 1:36 pm
@dil, how are you dil?you dont have to leave your husband, ask you parents to be patent with hims, tell your parents how much you love him.
whats happening at the moment? are you with your parents or with your husband? do you see your husband?
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i have come to the breaking point of everything. i am going to commit suicide, i cannot go on any longer and i dont care about anybody else, i dont even care about my self. i know i am being overly selfish but what else can i do?
i am going to leave my younger brothers asking the question why and i would never live to tell them why. my parents and elder brothers and sisters all condem feelings of suicide. none of them understand, they say that god created us and so we should worship him and not do anything of disobedence to him. they think i am being stupida and i feel stupid but i cant live anympre.
ive been trying to get through to my doctor but i cant, i have been talking to sameratines but they dont help. i am at the end of the road and people are going to have to accept that i could not cope and that i killed my self,. i feel bad for being at this stage but what else shall i do. i cant pull on any longer.
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hey… idk how to say this… anyways… yeah, i hate my life. i hate myself. i feel like people don’t get me. i’m in college and not enjoying it… i’ve already started other 4 courses and dropped off from all of them. my parents mock me. they say i’m lazy, that i just can’t do things right.
i’m so tired of all this though.
the thing is… i care so much about other people, i am nice to everyone. i help ppl that i don’t even like.
but ppl don’t treat me well…
my family pretends they are so chilled out with everything… but, in truth they want me to be A PERSON that i’m not. they pretend not to be strict, but they are very traditional.
my teachers in college treat me like a punk, for my looks… although i’m studious. also, i keep getting bad grades even doing great at some tests… this never happened to me before… i was always used to get the best grades in class…
i just don’t know what to do…
the world is just so unfair…
this sucks..
but at the same time… i wanna tell all those ppl not to commit suicide…
i could give you all the love you need…
it’s funny…
knowing you can give the love everyone needs, but knowing also, no one seems to be able to deliver that love to you…
i don’t wanna kill myself…
but i’m starting to give up on life.
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sarah Reply:
May 26th, 2009 at 12:02 am
@Vic, vic, dont give up on life. its not worth it. the last time i came on this website i had decided that i wanted to kill myself, i went and tock an overodse which was impulsive and happened really quick, without a lot of thought, but i did not die.
i know what it is like being the best in class for most of your llife and then falling behind everyone and not being able to cope. when i was little i couldnt read or write till secondary school, then i picked up and became the best in class all the way to my a-levels and then all of a sudden i couldnt cope with university and so i dropped out.
my family act chilled out tioo but deep down they are very strict. they are traditional also, they put indirect pressure on the children and then say there is no pressure…. they say you have your freedom, do what you like, but then they put up barriers all around you and they dont let you do what youu want to do. and they do not support you, they say that they do but they do not offer an ounce of support. i wanted to go into medicine and i got no support or encouragment from the family, they didnt even help me apply for medicine and they stopped me from getting voluntary work at the hospital all the way till i was left in a possition that i was unable to apply for medicine, my application was rejected. and it was mostly my families fault, then they say to me we allow you to go to university and we let you do what you want to o so why are you depressed? they dont understand at all. sometimes i wish i had more supportive parents, parents who are interested in their childrens education.
i dont know life i rough. i hate it and i wish i could die, i am sick and tired of life and i wish i could just kill myself, it would be so good,. jyust to get out of this pain. i have suffered from depression for about 5 years now, ever since i was 16, and first i was too scared to get the help coz i didnt know what my parents would say and now my parents know they thin i can just snap ut of it, they think if i spend my time downstairs with them talking about random peopel and random stuff i would get better, that makes me even more depressed.
life sucks. i hate it i really do. and i dont know who it is going to change.
i am nt offering you much support as i am going on about my own problems but i really do not think that you should commit suicide. its not worth it. if you can go out there and make your life the way that you want it then go and do that. i cant change my life i live with family and so i have to live with it.
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i honestly believe if some1 wants to kill themselves let them go they may have many reasons for wanting 2 die for example i have had suicidal thoughts since i was 14 i am nearly 20 and i am ready to go so just let ppl do wat they want. its there problem if they succeed
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sarah Reply:
May 26th, 2009 at 12:06 am
@crackaz, yeh sometimes i think that too. just let us ruin our liives it the way that we chose to end our life and so no body should try and stop us and nor should they interfere. but then there are some peopel who want the help and it would be wrong not to give them the help. so i dont knw. but i think that personally my way of thinkking cannot be changed and my desire to die is always going to be very high. i just want to die. i really do. i know it is sick and its not normal but f that who cares about being normal. im not normal in a lot of ways.
if someone really think s that the best thing for them is to die then they should be allowed to die..
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hi…m a 16 yr old girl…dere is not a single day whn i dnt cry or crib…i hate my life…it sux to de core…i have a low self esteem..not at all confident…i have a squint in my left eye which has bothered me all my life…i am socially awkward..no happiness at home..i do not even have many frnds…i am a loner..i get irritated very fast on de ppl around me…n den feel like a loser..i think abt suicide but feel scared also..i have tried cuttin my hand but jus left a few scratches which r nt even visible…i feel m a gud 4 nothing…inspite of all dis..i do not share dis wid any1 n always act as if everytn is normal…i smile n laugh..but deep inside i know dat m broken…are dese symptoms of depression?…please please please help
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sarah Reply:
May 26th, 2009 at 12:09 am
@suicidal, suicidal, only a doctor can diagnose you with depression or any other illness, if you think that you are not alright and that there is something wrong, go and see your doctor and they should be able to help you.
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Hi iam a 45 year old man alone now in my life and in my mind that its self makes me feel worthless last bank holiday i came to the end of my painfull thoughts and i tried suicide with a pipe in the car i took sleeping pills so i could fall asleep while the fumes did their job it didnt work the pipe wasnt on fully so just lost my voice for a few days. I then asked for help from the crisis team in taunton i went to hospital for ten days. I had been under the crisis team for some time due to my depression. I was discharged on 14th may from that day to this i have not had a call or a visit from the crisis team or the hospital. Does this prove that the people who say that thay can and will help are only saying that for the pay a job. I had no help or support in hospital just a doctor telling me what he thought my problam was. He did not take in to account all the things that i have been through over the past six years not even all i have been through over the past year. My plan to end my life is still my plan but i now know the help offer from the nhs is false.
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sarah Reply:
May 26th, 2009 at 12:23 am
@Jon 45, jon 45, the help from the nhs, i dont know what to think of it myself. i have been in and out of hospital and i am under the crisis team now, i think they are almost rubish. i dont like the crisis team at all but i have no choice but to be under them. they come out to see me but i dont think they understand what it is like to be depressed. they dont understand the pain of a diying person. they just dont understand what it is like to be depressed and to wnat to kill yourslef,. they just come across like roborts going around their paid duties, coming down your house, asking if everything is okay and then going back and if you call them for support, llike i did today because i was feeling intensly suicidal they hardly talk to you and listen to your pain, it like they dont want to know.
it is a little different with my doctor though. he listens to what i have to say but he is not empthetic at all. almost distent, like they detach themselves from their patients. i dont kn0ow, sometimes they nhs staff come across as quite cold and crule.
when i was in hospital one of the health care assistent said to me and another pateint, you self harm for attention. i think that was really crule and inconsiderate of her becuase i cover myself up totally and no one sees my scares so where do i get the attention from? the other girls exposed her scares but still i dont think she self-harmed for attention. self-harm is a very complex issue and there are many reasons why peopole do it. even i dont have a single reason for doing it, i have many reasons and some result in the selfharm and others just make it continue.
there was another nurse at the hospital who wouldnt even ask you if you were ok. she would ignore you even if you broke down and cried infrount of her. she just didnt want to know, thats what made it realy hard for me while i was at the hospital. yet tehre were some realy nice nurses who wanted to help and were there for you.
i think the crisis team didnt get back in touch woth you because you werwe discharged from them and the understanding is that once you are discharged you have to be refered again, i think, so go and see your gp if you are still feeling depressed and bad.
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at last, my update…
i know i said that the last time i was on was going to be my last but what can i say, i am back and all depressed …. i tried to kill myslef, well what happened was i was talking to the muslim youth helpline about where my problems stemmed from, what was the thing that triggered all of this of, and so i was thinking about all the bad things in my life and i was drawn into the past, i couldnt take it so i overdose. ended up in hospital but no damage done…..
i dont know i feel so depressed, i hate my life so much, i hate it to the side of max. i wish i could escape for ever, just go into another world.
people just dont understand why i hate life so much. but the thing is i do. i hate life and i wish i could die. it really hard tolive a life that you dont want to live and you have got no power to change it or anythinig about it.
i just wish i was successful in something, anything… but i have not had that type of luck so far, eerything, every dream ended in disaster.. and i cant do anything now. because of who i am the way i was brought up, the schooli was sent to, everything was wronge.
i feel desprate, just dont like being around people. they are all getting on with their lives and i am stuck here with nowhere to go,. i feel trapped within myself.
i want to commit suicide but i need a fool prove method. to tell you the truth i am finding it hard to make even a plasuable plan… my family dont let me go out so that i can buy drugs or something and if they do let me go out they dont give me any money. i know i can steal the money and any other day i would but i feel to dpressed to steal money because i know thats gonna make me feel bad and then i need to know who i am going to steal of two.
i hATE MY LIFE SO MUCH AND I AM FED UP. I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT LIFE BUT I LOVE MY FAMILY BUT I DONT FIT IN WITH THEM.
i feel really desprate but no one understand it like you will always be alone.
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I think of suicide all the time,since I was 14 but I dont see it as suicide more like time travel so yea some people are depressed, sad , fed up , I just want to start over no hard feelings I donated my body already so wont go to waste maybe I could save a life.maybe thats my purpose
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i really feel like killing myself.
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hello,
i am frustated with my life so much, i am always having thoughts for committing suicide every now and then. my office life struggles, my personal life stuggles, no body cares about me since my childhood, i have strange habbits. I have studies well but never had friends to accompany me, everybody hated me, infact I never had friends throughout my life except for one instance when I had relationship with a girl. It was a pure relationship from my side, she also tried to work out this, we stayed in a part for 4 years..but she had the same problem which other stated back, she even said that she is now fed up with this relationship in a way that she will not any relationship in future. we never had fight, but she left because of the way I was tense throughout my life, worried with all the life problem now and then. but finally same story comes up, she departed. now I have no one to speak and I live alone and i don’t interact with anyone as much as possible. my mom does seem to be worrysome, but I cant help much because it could also help her when I am not here in this world, as this would somehow stops her from bothering about me. I had tried commiitting suicide in my past and it seemed to be very useless attempt trying to commit suicide by strangulating oneself. all failed. but, now this is final, i don’t want to live anymore. i have read may websites with some nice suggestions to commit suicide painlessly. I like the suggestion and I will try to get the things needed for them.hopefully i can lighten this earth from my worries.
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sarah Reply:
May 30th, 2009 at 4:36 pm
@thefrustatedwithlifemale26, i know what it like when every asoect of your life sucks. i want to commit suicide too. i am seeing my doctor and getting all the help that he wants me to get but i am not happy and i will never be. i hate my life, i hate who i am and i just want to kill myself.
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sarah Reply:
June 1st, 2009 at 1:47 pm
@thefrustatedwithlifemale26,if you are still there, please dont commit suicide. please for my sake if not for anybody else. you are only 26 years old, that is young, you have the rest of your life ahead of you and hopefully things will work out for you. just have faith in your self, you can do it, you can survive.
do you believe in god,? what do you think will happen to you after you commit suicide? what is your perception of death.?
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i am frustrated with seeking help, when i know that its not going to get me anywhere, i just want to kill myself. i think life would be so much easier if i could just die, it would be the end of my worries, well i wouldnt have to face what i am facing today. i hate my life.
i am so fed up and no one seems to understand,.. i want to kill myself. i hate my life and everything anout it.i i really do. i want to die.
i know it iss wrong for me to kill myself, but what other hope have i got left? i feel really shit. i really want to kill myself, but i dont know how i am going to do it. overdoseing on tablets doesnt work. its pathetic. i am thinking of setting a fire and killing myself that way. but that would endanger the lives of the whole of my family. unless i waite till they all go of to schools and stuff. i really want to die.
can anybody help me feel better? the doctors and all their teams cant do that. i dont feel happy and i am always sad. i pretend to be happy and act as if everything is k but really nothiing is ok. i hate it so much. i just want to die.
i have been crying for help for such a long time and so far nothing has helped me, i hate it. i think it is because i dont want the help and i want to die. i just wish all this coudl somehow go away. i just wish i had a different life, a better life, i know i am so ungreatfull for all the blessing that i do have. but i am fed up.
i hate my life andi want to kill myself, nothiing changes how i feel.
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shyguy44 Reply:
May 30th, 2009 at 11:28 pm
@sarah, Hi sarah it has been some time since I have been here but I see that we have a lot in common and wanting to kill ourselves? i also see that you are in pre med and want to become a dr. I think that is awesome and you would be helping people. I have thoughts of suicide myself and there hasn’t been a day go by in like the last yr especially that I thought about it and still do to this day. I am much older than you and don’t have as much going for me as you do your your and your smart. it sounds like your husband is being a pain in the ass to you and treating you badly?/ that is not good if he can’t appreciate what he has with you then you should give him an altimatum. You are much better than that and you are to young to die you have a lot going for you. I on the other hand don’t really have much. I have a a girl that I am totally in love with and would marry here today but I have NO money and I have no schooling double whammy. I can’t imagine my life without her she makes me laugh and I really love to be with here and of course Love her very much. She is very educated and has money we were together for a yr but have had problems for the last few mo. i don’t know what to do she is my life and would do anything for her but i don’t think wait i know she doesn’t feel the same and i don’t want to c her with another guy. i am at a loss so i have suicide thoughts like a said for like at least the last 5 or 6 mo especially. it would be no great loss if i left she probably would not even know i was gone and the fact that i am so freaking old not married no kids and no money life SUCKS. I don’t know how or when i am gonna do it but things are not getting better so there is nothing left to do but …….. you know. you are you don’t do it you have a lot going for you. I also should tell you that I am a very closed person and don’t let people get to close to me. So i make people think i am happy go lucky but inside i am very misserable and unhappy.
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sarah Reply:
June 1st, 2009 at 1:15 pm
@shyguy44, i am not married, i live with my parents and siblings. they are not a problem for me they dont bother me in any way but i am fed-up with life. i have had a very bad past and most of all i think i was to blame for everything in my past.
im sorry to hear that you are having problems with a girl. if she loves you she might just mayyr you even though you havent got any education and no money. education is good, but money is not everything. you cannot buy happiness.
life sucks i know, and i hate it so much, dont know what to say.
try to let her win arguments, be nice to her aand show her that she is loved. i dont know how you are going to do that, but just try to tell her how much you love her nd what your life would be like without her. propose to her in marrage and see what happens, dont rush things , do it when you think the time is right. personally i think if you love someone the time to tell them is always right unless tehy are already married.
hope things would work out for you.
sarah
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i might burn myself to death. if i can get some oil to spill on myslef and then i can set myself on fire. i dont know,i fear that might be too painfull. but i dont know of any other methos that will kill me for sure.ive taken large overdoses in the past and nothing happened, i just woke up again after passing out for two or three days. that was the cloest to death i ever got, the day i overdosed two weeks worth of anti depressents and anti psychotics.
i hate my life and everything about it. just wish that i could die. why do i have this desire to die? i dont understand, why do i wnat to die, why am i so fed up with life why do i hate myelf? none of these questions can i answer. i just hate my life.
i dont know what to do, i dont know how i am going to kill myself, i do know that that is what i want to do. i hate me, my life and the people around me but i cant do anything about it. i wish i coudl just die.
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my mum has made my life a living hell since i was born my dad nearly died then he got run over by a van and to top it all off my mum destroyed my 12th birthday which was yesterday i need to talk to someone im too scared to commit suicide please help!
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sarah Reply:
June 1st, 2009 at 1:23 pm
@sam, sam, you are soooo young, only 12. i know life can be hard but dont start thinking of suicide. i started thinking of suicide when i was 16 and now my life is literally destroyed. you have so much to look forward to, i knwo i must be hard to have your own mother destroy your 12th birthday but you have many more birthdays ahead of you, and you can make sure that you dont do the same to your children,. this will teach you how to be a better parent.
suicide is scary, dont do it, its hard and it kills u inside, really it takes all hope aay, if you do it once and then survive you are more likely to do it again and again untill oneday you do die. and death anly takes you away from the problems inn this world, what about the next world? do you believe in heaven and hell? i do, and i know if i succed in suicide i will be burining in hell for the reat of my life. i dont want that for you you are so young and innocent and pure. you are still a child. talk to me about your problems and what is making yo feel like this and i will try my best to help you. dont go down the road of suicide please,.
if you dont want to talk to me then there are other people out there like on this website and you could talk to a friend or a parent of a friend that you can trust. or a teacher or you doctor… anybody that you feel you can trust and that you know will give you sound advice.
dont keep it to your self. talk to me. why do you feel like suicide? what did your mother do to ruin your 12th birthday and how did that make you feel?
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I have come to the stage now where i am on borrowed time.For me im not angry or anything,i just have a clear calm thought in my head that there is no place in this world for me and to be honest i dont really want to be in it.When i do it im just gonna make sure that i am found by a professional
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sarah Reply:
June 1st, 2009 at 1:28 pm
@jesuslovesacid, i feel a bit like you, i am not angrey or upset or anything, in fact i have veery little emotion or feelings, i just want to die. sometimes i dont even know why i want to die but i want to die. its scary but thats the way it is.
i am not making the decission to die out of my depression, that is something quiet different. i want to die because i dont want to live in this world no more, i dont want people around my and i dont want to do anythinng. i just want to die.
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i wish death would overcome me
i wish it does so while i am in the state on imaan
i pray that god makes this life of mine as long as it is good for me and i wish he takes me away when i am pleased with him and he is pleased with me,.. i just want to die as a muslim but i know if i commit suicide i would not die as a muslim. i would die as a non-believer and dont want that. thats why i wish natural death would come to me soon but it is not and thats why i am thinking of suicide and thats why suicide seems like the only option.
i hate my life, i have hated it for ages and i have to have to exist. just wish it was all over.
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i feel so depressed, down in the dumps all the time, and people dont understand. i am getting intense support from the nhs, the nurses come to my house twice a day to see me but that makes no difference to how i feel. it just breaks my day up and gives me a visitor to look forward to, a visitor tht does not understand me and does not feel my pain. i just want to kill myself but i know i cant do it, i always lost control and i try it but i never do it properly, yehterday i put fire to my bed, then i got of the bed and turned the fire off. if i stayed on the bed then i would have gotten burned to death before i was found. but something about my belief in god and afterlife made me get up and turn the fire out. i wish that something about my belief in god was strong enough for me not to even attemt suicide in the first place. i hate it so much. i really do,.
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jesuslovesacid Reply:
June 1st, 2009 at 4:31 pm
@sarah, I hope you find your way out of your pain Sarah.Im not sure there is a god,if there is he has a strange sense of humor.i do believe in spirits and i believe that passing over cant be any worse than the hell we all live in.my thoughts are with you.
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sarah Reply:
June 2nd, 2009 at 10:58 am
@jesuslovesacid, thanks for the support… it means a lot.
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life is so depressing eneh, who would chose to disagree with me? i want to know why some people think life is not depressing and life is worth living?
i am so depressed, if thats the word to use, i feel fed up and i am desparet for an escape from my life,. i hate it so much. i hate everyday that i have to live because i cannot live it the way i am suppost to live it, you know all happy happy.
i feel like killing myself, that seems the only way to get out of all this suffering. i am totally fed up, i try to look at the bright side of things but that is just so hard, i try to give other people positive feedback to their comments but for some reason i cant act on that my self. i hate it.
just wish i could die. it would all be over. i feel so sad and i feel like i am the onlly person suffering like this. i hate it.
i on a heaps load of medicine to help but its not working, i am on the waiting list for psychotherapy and they are thinking of taking me into hospital. i dont know hoe any of that is going to help me, it would keep my safe for a while but if i cant change my mind about wanting to die the there is no point of being in hospital.psychotherapy, dont know how that is going to help if i am not pprepared to talk about my past.
life just sucks.
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i feel so bad, so depressed and so desprate but i cant do anything, just wish i oculd kill myself it would all be over for good, i am so desprate.
i dont know why i feel like this and my family dont understand me they thing i should just pray and everything would be ok. but thats nt happening. they try to comtol my life evry aspect of it. they dont give me money that have taken my bank card away from me becsuse they think i am going to buy drugs to overdose on. then they dont let me out of the house on my own because they think i am going to do something.
my life is so shit. i was a good student and not i am not studying so that makes me feel bad, but i dont think i coud cope with the pressure of studying and deal with suicidal ideas and thoughts. i dont know, wheni was studying i was not this baly suicidal since i stopped i have een getting worse so maybe the best thing is tio start again. i dont know, at the moment i feel like killling myself.
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hello guys…. just been on the internet thinking of ways to die, just thought about poisioning myself instead of burning myself. ive tried paracetamol and stuff like that for poisioning but they do not waork. i was thinking more on the lines of ret poision. does anyone know of any rat poision that is strong enough to kill a person?
does anyone know where i could get cyanide from??? i dont mind what form it is in,,,… it could be potassium cyanide or soudium cyanide…
if any one does know then please tell me you would be doing me a huge favour.
thaks guys.
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Hi all.
Lately i’ve been suffering depression bad and noone seems to want to listen or help me. I have recently stopped my anti depressants because they have done nothing for me.
Everything in my past comes back to me everyday…
I’m only 18 years of age and i need help.
I really feel like i cant deal with living anymore but some part of me feels like i have that little bit of faith to keep me stronger and to eventually become happier with the live i’m living.
I feel noone understands where im coming from and i dont want to be judged for feeling this way.
If anyone is interested in talking to me please reply.
I actaully went on this site with the intention of finding a way to end m y own life.
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vic Reply:
June 8th, 2009 at 4:40 pm
@Confused18, Hey!!!
Feel FREE to mail me!!!
wasabi25@gmail.com
I’m Vic, btw!
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Dear humanity, this morning i woke up
and realized there should be no such thing as
death, because it makes no sense.
why does death happen anyway? why should
people die? what is the point of life if there is such
thing as death right?
well guess what, i just used my imagination to
connect with the true god of infinity, and now we
are both on the same page…
according to infinity, death happens because of
speed of light, the speed of light can slow down aging
even reverse aging, in a sense this is like time travel.
some people wax their hair, the truth is, hair on your
body serves a very specific purpose.
( dark hair especially is the most beautiful ), because it
removes all of the ignorant imagination from your body
and imagination that is connected to infinity and planets
within infinity ) and puts it on top of your skin, which then
gets sunlight and sunlight kills off your stresss.
i do not want to say anything racist against people without
much body hair, or blonde people.. but trust me..
black color helps you be true yourself. it helps you filter off
the clouds that exist within infinity.
without black colors nearby, your imagination will drive you
crazy and you’d likely make mistakes in life.
but wait, there is more to this, i have solutions and equations
in my hand, that can actually help us all live forever.
yap. not 100 years, or 75, or 500 years, or 600 years but
forever.
i plan on writing as much as possible in the coming days
please read often.
because i am the chosen one and i am about to unleash
permanent beauty on to infinity like no other.
yes it sounds selfish and trust me, it is for a very selfish
purpose, but the one that leans towards the beauty side.
S.u.m.e.r. K.o.l.c.a.k.
> but too much sunlight can be a problem too.
> so the idea is to have light skin but dark hair.
>
> i think that is the best way, try using organic
> safe sun-screen lotions to protect your skin
> from becoming sun-burned.
>
> and if you have dark brown or black hair,
> don’t bother painting it pink or yellow and etc.
>
> it serves a very specific purpose. it’s how the
> stress gets sucked out from your body and
> goes to the surface and light filters out the stress
> from it and leaves you pure, thus you live a long
> long long life.
>
> Sumer
> Let’s say you are in a bad mood right, try wearing
> a black tshirt ( or a dark blue one perhaps. )
>
> it will free up your mind and make you feeling
> relaxed.
>
> let’s say you are in a good mood right, try wearing
> some light t-shirt and you’ll be fine.
>
> always rotate colorful tshirts and see which color
> does what to your imagination, slowly you will find
> the truth, and the truth is..
>
> LOVE DOES NOT NEED A REASON.
>
> meaning living forever is possible. sorry it does not
> make sense but i am still working on it, give me few
> more days, favorite this article or something i will be
> writing a lot more.
>
> thanks for reading.
>
> Sumer
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my husband and i has been married for almost 2 years. i left a very good person for him.
early in our marriage he hit me many times. just recently i found out that he has symptoms of std. he said i caused it. i know i didnt do anything, so i believe he did something stupid. his x gf is a prostitute and now he starts calling me i am more than a prostitute. i hate him.
i dont want to expect nice things anymore, life sucks, a simple way to die painlessly and peacefully will help a lot.
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Vic Reply:
June 6th, 2009 at 11:50 pm
@cire, Hey, don’t do it! =)
Feel free to mail me if you wanna talk! Really!
wasabi25@gmail.com
I know life can SUCK so bad.
But really, I will provide you all the help I can.
I personally think you have people that are trash in your life, and you don’t deserve that. You are better than that.
Just mail me and we can talk.
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I had to go into hospital to have an operation and woke up to find my legs missing, I was in a stste of shock and under medication fell back asleep quite quickly, from what I can remember I woke up 3 or 4 days later and was feeling quite better but when I tried to remove the sheets from my neck I could feel nothing or do nothing, I yelled and a nurse came and I told her I was feeling numb and she removed the sheet and I saw I had no arms, my head and belly are intact but thats it, I now have insomnia and wondered if theres a good remedy for this, please don’t suggest long walks or exercise.
My lack of sleep is affecting me badly, I have now gone 78 hours without it.
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isabel Reply:
June 8th, 2009 at 8:29 am
I dont want to sound inconvinient, but ur story really choked me
what did that happened to you? an acciddent? i dont have nothing compared to this, but the insomnia part i suffer for long time, and really, long walks doesnt do nothing to make me sleep… this can sound stupid also, but i can sleep when i smoke weed before i go to bed and it works, the truth is i sleep like a baby but only high… contact me if u want, im a good listener =) mentalbarrier@gmail.com
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vera difilippi Reply:
July 20th, 2009 at 7:12 pm
@isabel, Oh dear god. I am crying for you. How brave you are. My God. I feel like such a fool.
Vera
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Vic Reply:
June 8th, 2009 at 4:35 pm
@Belly, Hey… I don’t wanna be an asshole… But how come can you type all this if you have no arms? Really, I don’t wanna be an ass… It’s just some people joke with the wrong stuff. Don’t get me wrong, ok?
And if you are for real, I’d say support from a dear friend should be of much help!
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isabel Reply:
June 11th, 2009 at 3:15 pm
hey man dont be so cruel…mayb e someone wrote this for him? i gess u ppl judge everything only by 1 look…ppl be a bit more….openminded
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amy froggett Reply:
July 1st, 2009 at 10:46 pm
@Belly,
excuse me but how can u write? if u have no arms?
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Chaha hai Tujh ko, Chahungi Har Dum
Marr Bhi Dil Se Yeh Pyar na Hoga Kum,
Teri Yaad jo Aati Aai, Mere Ansu Bhehte Hai,
Aapna to Milan Hoga, Pal Pal Yeh Kehte Hai
kya yeh zindgani hai bas teri kahani hai
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sarah Reply:
June 11th, 2009 at 4:10 pm
@dil, have you managed to sort anything out with your parents and husband???? let me know hoe things are going with you…. hope things work out.
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im back after a week… been in hospital. that was the best place for me but didnt want to stay there long, having a bad time, dont want to carry on no more.
feel like killing myself but i kno wi cant do anything, feel really depressd and desprate but i have to hold on, i dont kknow for what but i just know i have to hold on.
life sucks, i hate it so much,. life is so depressing…. i hate it. wish i was dead or i had another life just like a rock or a tree.
if i could be an animal of my choice i would be a bird, they are fre to fly as much as they like, they can roam the sky at their own pleasure, if they dont like one spot they can just fly to another, they dont worry about their provision or anything, they are so lucky.
i dont knwo why i am writing that,. but hay anyway,… how you guys been getting along? any body know yet where i could get cynide from? i dont mind it could be in any form, potassium cynide or what ever…. please let me know.
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there have been some changes since my last mail. first of all i am feeling a lot better its almost unbelievable. well i seem to fear getting in the depressed mood again but so far today has been an excellent day. went to the library, when to the fun fair, did some reading and some studying. so its been really good.
i think this feeling of being better is down to the lithium that my doctor put me on. i am in quiet a high dose 800 mg, but it seems to be working really good, . apparently lithium is a lethal drug, an overdose will cerainly kill you, when the doctor suggested that i take it that was the first thing that went through mt mind, (and the second was, i havent got bipolar have i?) but now i dont think i am going to overdose it, feel to good to do that,.
i will never forget how hard days and nights are without the medicine and i will not overdose it because then my doctor will take me of it that os of i dont die.
anyway, yeh so i feel a lot better, dont knwo how long this feeling of being good is going to last but i will make the most of it while i can and oh yeh i also did a tiny bit of yoga today and i did 100 sit ups and it has been ages since i last exercised so that was a positive thing.
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PEOPLE PLEASE LISTEN OKAY.
WEAR WHITE COLOR CLOTHING AND YOU WILL
FEEL JUST FINE.
I DO NOT WANT TO SPEND TO MUCH TIME DISCUSSING
THE DETAILS BUT IT WORKS GREAT.
USE SUN SCREEN TO PROTECT YOUR SKIN FROM
BECOMING TO DARK AND ETC.
WEAR WHITE CLOTHES AND YOU WILL BE FINE.
SUMER
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SERIOUSLY, I COME HERE OFTEN AND NO-ONE IS
EVEN PAYING ATTENTION.
WHITE CLOTHES.
two words, that’s it.
Sumer
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sarah Reply:
June 14th, 2009 at 3:13 pm
@WE ARE ALL GODS, white cloths…. ok
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Chris Reply:
July 17th, 2009 at 12:55 pm
There is no such thing as “god.” Religion is the great lie, the great evil, and is responsible for many people wanting to die. Indeed, more people have died in the name of “god” than anything else. Isn’t time we stop putting of “faith” in a false man made institution like a church? Supernatural powers are merely fairy tales, and only the simple and weak minded believe in such garbage.
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i hate my life., yesterday was so good and today it the same again. i hate it so much, cant be positive for more then a day… have to live a day at a time. i hate this so much. i cant believe it i am feeling depressed agai today, not so badly though just a little bit, enough to make me want to stay in bed.
i hate depression and mental health illnesses they are so unpridictable… i hate it a lot. just wish my family understand my mood more and could support me,…
its my 21st birthday this wednesday and i want to do something special because on my 20th birthday i was in hospital and so it was rubish… i want to do something nice but i dont know if i am going to be able to…
will see how things go.
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OK…for starters, this is not a religious site and there was no request for religious comments.
I know and respect the fact that people are entitled to their own opinion, but keep the god-bothering crap for someone who gives a damn.
Secondly, who has complete and utter control over our own lives?
We do.
Family and friends are an add-on of life. Of course they are a positive one but not one that can make decisions regarding the direction of it.
Thirdly, Being suicidal means you see things differently.
You don’t notice the fact that your mum cooked you breakfast but you notice the fact that you feel a lot more depressed than the week before.
I don’t want to come here and say a load of crap about how depressed i am and how much i want to end my life, but i will say this…
“Life is like a movie, if you’ve sat through more than half of it and its sucked every second so far, it probably isn’t gonna get great right at the end and make it all worthwhile. None should blame you for walking out early.”
Jon_Ace
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Why Bother with stocks when you can
get rich in another way.
send this message to every family member of yours
every friend of yours and even to strangers.
and watch the money flow into your pockets
like magic.
try it, and you will be like “wow, how did that happen”
here’s the message to SPAM to everyone.
this is the spam you can feel good about. so just do it.
have no merci.
here it goes..
——————————————————————————-
WE ARE ALL GODS
ALL WE HAVE TO DO IS WEAR WHITE CLOTHES
THATS HOW WE STOP & REVERSE AGING
——————————————————————————-
spam this to as many people as possible
and watch the money flow into your pockets like magic.
no hard work necessary.
i love you, good luck. don’t be fooled by that one
side of you that says this has to be a joke.
try it anyway. and watch the money come in.
i love you.
Sumer
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hi i am umer 25 years old i am very much depressed i dont know what to say but i dont wana live ..it just came in my mind aftar having realtion of love about to 6 years now she is going to left me and i did evry thing for her and she is fed up to me that i love her as much may be i did many mistakes but i also dont know why i love her so much why i cant stop my feelings i feel guilty always … dont know why it is she also loved me but many times she confused me that she dont care me but the thing is at the end she will not sport me any more becuse now its time to take her hand for life time i want to marige with her and like always she says that her parents will not allow her to marrige with me ..its only because of bad pakistani calture 50% peoples still belives on it and they are having this problum they dont allow children for having love marrige… so the things is she is saying me that i should find other girl and start new life and i should foregt her but i can only leave her forever and i wont try to make contect with her agian beacuse i dont want to creat any more problum for her with her family ….but i cant live with out her as i saw dreams with her in this time and i spent time with her its not forgetable there are many things i cant change at the end i dicided to finsh my depressed life i saw very bad time always taking care of her always made her happy it was kind of difficult to tell evry thing but it was like hell with tension i cant take more tension any one cant belive how much i have taken tension no more i dont have any slution want to susaide as soon as possible in few days then evry thing will be ok coz i cant see her with any one els or far to me .. she is nice person and always want to see her happy thats why m going to suside quitely ..may be i have did many bad things and i am very bad person thats why i am going to die badly just wanted to wrrite some where cant reach any one who know me coz i never want any one who know me get known reason of my death.. dont know i will go in haven or hell i got way to susaide
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sarah Reply:
June 17th, 2009 at 11:14 pm
@umer, if you commit suicideyou will go to hell. thats what the quran says. please dont do it and think twice about your pllans.
i feel very depressed to but suicide is not the way out. it will only give you more problems, not like u havent already got enough to deel with.
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umer Reply:
June 20th, 2009 at 12:50 am
@sarah, then what can i do coz its totaly painfull to live with out her u know cant sleep cant eat when i get up she becomes in my mind and i feel like hell ..
sarah u r totaly right but i am not geting any help to save my self
i wish i will go some where any one dont know me and i can help pplz all my life may be it will make me new person
hope to read some one who can gaide me
if i wont come back to writte its mean i will never come back again
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umer Reply:
June 22nd, 2009 at 7:30 am
@umer, can any one please tell me any wat to suicide with out having pain and it dont take long i want to die very quick in few minutes any kind of pills sleeping pills or what ever plz tell me as soon as if no i have a way but its painfull :s
Chris Reply:
July 17th, 2009 at 12:52 pm
Dear misguided Sarah,
THERE IS NO PLACE SUCH AS HELL!!!!! Religion is designed to control people’s minds, and ultimately their behavior. If you can’t control minds, than you have no religious hierarchical corporation to run. Super natural beings and notions of eternal damnation are merely fairy tales. I’m saddened that someone like you has freely given your brain over to a book of all things, but please do not delude the rest of us. Moreover, how can you expect anyone to believe in your unseen version of “hell,” when you don’t even believe what is standing in front of you. Suicide is real, hell is not.
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Aniket 26
I dont have any solution want to commit sucide as soon as possible in few days then everything will be ok coz i cant see her with any one els or far to me . she is nice person and always want to see her happy thats why m going to sucide quitely. may be i have did many bad things and i am very bad person thats why i am going to die badly just wanted to write some where cant reach any one who know me coz i never want anyone who know me get known reason of my death. don’t know committing sucide is a right way ,my parents will suffer a lot after my death. My friends my family has done every possible thing to help in my relation and for my work .but I just cant forget I tried a lot to forget her but I could not do so .Really I want to die as soon as possible pls can anybody tell me the painless method because surviving in this thought is getting more and more difficult each day.I did mistakes but I did love her a lot after she forgave me ,and she started ignoring me quarreling with me with any reason this was our 9th year this year we were going get married and know she don’t want to marry me because her parents dint like me and she was my family member she use to attend all my family function I have declared everyone that she is going to be my wife nxt year.I still cant stay without her its better I finish myself she had left no option for me except my death .I cant take anymore please help me in committing suicide is there any painless method to die any poison or anything I beg everyone pleaseeeeeeee help me
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ok. Humans are based on hate
nothing less, nothing more, our greatest drive is the hate, the psychopathic feelings we have, war, music, everywhere you can find the hate, I myself am no emo, listen to death metal, hardcore or other awefull music. (for the record.. xD)
ok so. If you hate everything around u so badly, you hate yourself the most. Don’t bottle it up. We live in a time and age where “anger” and “hate” are almost hypocrite taboes. They destroy yourself from the inside , and after a while, u get end up like these horrible pictures. what did you achief? did you care if you did or not? why care for it all? you are born as human, why not live as one, in your own way, lonely, lost, depressed, hating. Its purely normal. Even better, if you have the power to kill yourself, you are a very strong person, with a very strong mind. why waste it. why not throw it on our hypocrite, corrupt, capitalistic, unfair, cruel, greedy world we created? our..little systems, laws wich you forgot why they were created, and eventually abused. instead of whining about your own life, drowning in selfempathy (wich is, I know, fun and all..) why not change the little aspects wich can not be changed? Btw this is no freaking message like *NO STOP KILLING YOURSELF< SUICIDE IS BAD AND YOU WILL NOT GET IN HVEAEN* (typos included). for my sake, u all kill yourself, noone will benefit, or debenefit from it. because one mind, with all his or her love created, memories, talent, creativity, genius..ity.. is nothing worth in this system called earth. so, please go ahead. just keep in mind that you are totaly worthless :p.
shame tho. that people really want to die this badly. without having the thought to step out of their selfempathic misery. and throw a rock in your neighbours glass.
yes, i like anarchy, xD ill do anything to create it. but i myself put it in Music, (leadsinger of a band called Xylo from the netherlands) No we don't make hardrock music or w/e. we put cynical thoughts into our lerics. to give other people another view.
thats so beautifull about music. Music is breaking bottles up emotions, sadness, pain, hatred, (yes mostly negative ones)
the more we can break, the stronger we eventually will become. mentaly that is.
im going to stop wasting my time here on this site. im gonna fill this form for some court i got into… xD have fun all
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i feel like im empty in side always im looking for a way to kill myself i dont no how to tye a noose ive been empty and lonely for years im only 18 but even at this age i know ive had enough no person coudl ever change these feelings im having im trying to kill myself now i just swallowed im guessing 50 pills
im just hoping this time something will happen
if anyone can tell me anything i can do to end this
tell em the easiest way
the hadest part is leaving my parents and family but in teh long run im sure they’ll be ok
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lovindeath Reply:
July 19th, 2009 at 12:49 am
i want to die……..can any 1 plz help me out….tell me the ways to die easily…plz i want fast death….i hav tried ways to die but m unsuceessful ….if any 1 can help plz do it…..i m not jokin….
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“I almost hate to point this out, for fear of sounding stuck up, but no one denies that Jesus existed. There is historical proof he did.”
There is no proof that “jesus” was the “son of god” or had any supernatural powers. We all “exist,” but that does not mean that we need to partake in the self delusion regarding the falsity of religion. Phu,..lease spare us all from the jesus crap!
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Killing yourself may get yourself noticed but your not going to be around to see it.
To Joe, who said, “If you hate life and school do something about it. Move school
change the things you dont like in your life until you do like them…”
Dear Joe,
Many people can’t change the things that are upsetting them. Their situation is so overwhelming that they feel trapped and subsequently suicidal. Without money, you can not simply pick up and move. Nor can you change schools at your whim. For example, you might loose so many credits that it would be economically impossible, not to mention the amount of time you would have to sacrifice in order to repeat lost semesters.
On a larger scale, people can’t pick their parents. My parents disowned me when I was 16, and I was homeless for years. I could not get a job, because our social structure prohibits people of that age from working full time. Besides, even if I did at minimum wage, I would still be so poor that I could not afford a place to live.
Moreover, some people have grave health concerns, which unlike your misguided suggestion, you can not “change” or wish away. As they physically deteriorate, their finances correspondingly dwindle to the point of utter hopelessness.
The point is, individuals have very little agency in life, which contradicts what you and most people wrongfully believe. Everything from the side of the road we drive on to self deliverance is mediated by social structures. An excellent book reagarding this topic is simply entitled “Suicide,” by Durkheim. The author verifies through research and evidence that suicide is not something that is primordial, or something that can be changed by will, but is in fact something which we are directed by through our social situation.
Unfortunately Joe, most people share your misinformed and myopic view. We are all lead to believe that we have “choice,” when in fact virtually nothing we do is from free will. It is the structure in which we are placed that directs our behavior, and this sad little fact has been verified through science time and time again.
Best,
Chris
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I dont know wat to say but lot of things to say.. life is miserable… I look into mirror and I see a happy person with a smile but when i look into my mind…its all shit, depressed.. I am gifted with wonderfull friend and family.they praise my work and most of them like me for my humour and friendly attitude but there is somthing wrong….I lost my track after passing 10 4 years back… i was very good student and my acadamic results were excellent but now things have changed, I am unable to solve a simple multiplication. I m unable to concentrate for even a minute.. i really dont know what happened to me….. Can any body tell me abt sleeping pills.. name of some sleeping pills….. i m tired of myself…. i fantacise the death of marylin monreo, she died and she died beautifully…… after my death people will miss me, miss me soo much but they will have only memories, no calls, no SMS nothing…… I am completely aware of wat i m talking and wat I m going to do… so instead of councilling me help me by providing the market name of some sleeping pills
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krishanu Reply:
July 2nd, 2009 at 5:51 am
@debo prasad,
It may be coincidence, but I am suffering from the same ( word by word) feelings and thougths as told by you.
I know some pills. I use them but not in a fatal amount. I know the amount which will do all the desired job.
just mail me we may sort out the SWEETEST way to die, together.
krishanu_gm@rediffmail.com
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debo prasad Reply:
July 10th, 2009 at 7:26 pm
I feel sorry for you. really.. i think u can feel my pain and suffering…I m not atall happy that our feeling are same as i dont want anyone.. not even my biggest enemy to go through all this thing… this is very ugly, veryy ugly feeelings, thanks for ur reply. i have send u a mail… hope there is a good future tommorow, waiting for us, waiting for all of us…..
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hi plz i need urgent tip for siuicide with out having much pain or take to long
???????????????????????? i need to know urgent please i cant take more tentions…….evry day m feeling like hell with tention ..
why she cant help me ;:S why she changed ??? i dont have answars
i will be thanksfull to u all if any one can tell me any easy way any type of sleeping pills or what ever if any fast way to kill my self
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to be happy just wear white clothes
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Mikagoh Reply:
June 23rd, 2009 at 4:31 pm
@Suicide Prevention,
bullshit,
Look at our enviroment. its green, blue, red all colors are in our enviroment. Its not how much color, its more the variation of colors.
I don’t get all mentaly “YEY” when i stare into a white light, or a white thing. thats a shiny sunny morning, with a fresh cup of coffee and a cigarette, with a croisant infront of me with this tiny curled up slice of butter and a shiny knife that reflectades the sunlight on my sunglasses with the sound of morning birds and the smell of a morning breeze…
Unfortunately i have this habit to stay up till 6am and wake up at 3pm, so i never get to experience mornings
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Please do not commit suicide yet PEOPLE, give me few more months and you will see, i will fix you all up and give you a gift like no other. it’s a promise.
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Mikagoh Reply:
June 30th, 2009 at 3:15 pm
@Suicide Prevention,
right…. People will not learn anything from you. How can u be able to help people on the verge of death? that is a choice in life where u have to be very strong for.
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Life is always full of suffering…My life has been a sick one nothing seems to go right from childhood, adolescence now adulthood is full of crap..what more what to suffered with kidney failure..ending it may be a right path to go..
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hi! i thought about suicide a lot of time. i did not make any attempt yet because i’m afraid of not dying and then suffering from the consequences of my act. one thing is sure if i fail my first attempt,there won’t be a second chance because i’ll be watched closely ad constantly by family. my family is shit. anyone can tell an effective method of suicide?? if i drink all pills at home,can i die? i’m afraid the pills aren’t strong enough. my family suffocates me. i dun’t know anything. i can’t cook,can’t wash and can’t tons of things because i dunt know. i’m useless. wherever i go,people despise me for that. my mum is a nerdy thing. i ain’t anything like her. so she despise me for it. everything i love,they don’t!and they despise me for it. they make a fuss about petty things. who are “they”? that’s my extended family.
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I feel pretty close to suicide, and rightfully so. I am in such a sad state, i feel so ashamed and humiliated over my hole entire life. I’m a 24 year old man, i can’t make friends or get a girlfriend, i cant talk properly, i always sound retarded. As a man i feel so unempowered and useless. I live on my own, i dont talk to my family by choice because i hate them, i have woken up every day for the last few years going through the same problems i had yesterday as if i learnt nothing from them. All the therapy i had just seems to nail my point in, that i am hopeless. Just writing all this makes me realize how stupid i am. All these years i just wanted someone to love me, but the reality is deep down whether that ever happened or not, it probably wouldn’t change anything because i’d still be insecure and a mess, and i don’t think i deserve to put that on anyone else.
So when i feel the mood strikes, i want to hang myself with a power cord. I will probably take alcohol too, if only to be in a bit of a more relaxed state before i do it. I dont have any place to hang in my apartment, so i have to go to a nearby park. At least that way, my body wont rot inside for half a year causing a smell. I’m not leaving anything behind that i would miss.
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brandi Reply:
July 7th, 2009 at 6:20 am
hey its not to late you have jusst begun your life
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slient scream Reply:
July 7th, 2009 at 8:59 pm
@Jason,
hi jason
their is more then enoughto be thankfull look at the stars around you and even feel the sun on your skin
jason just besuase you talk strange and all of the other things
like brandi said your life is only starting now hold on
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Chris Reply:
July 17th, 2009 at 1:19 pm
” their is more then enoughto be thankfull look at the stars around you and even feel the sun on your skin.”
First, the “their” you refer to is spelled “There.” Regardless, what if someone wants to die because they are blind. They lost “their” sight in a horrible accident, and became disfigured, lost all of the savings, their house, their family. Everything. What if their ski was burned so severely, that the fell of “the sun on their skin” burns to the point extreme pain.
There are many reasons to die, so please be careful when you make suggestions as to why to live. It is far more complex than what you think.
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Megan Reply:
July 10th, 2009 at 7:57 pm
hey jason i am exactly like you but i start thinking about how i can try to do something different, something drastic and the suicidal thoughts go away..i bet if we’d talk we would be friends and hey one friend is better than none
@Jason,
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Jason Reply:
July 13th, 2009 at 5:31 am
Thanks Megan. Maybe i will take you up on your offer, if you mean it. lunaspite@hotmail.com is my email/msn if you want to talk sometime.
@Megan,
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Jason Reply:
August 10th, 2009 at 10:58 am
well thanks for nothing.
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hi,
i am going to die today…its enough to live. i was failed my all efforts. simply i belive my wife and she was cheating me. i never want to live anymore. really am worried only for my one year kid..
oh god…save her. help her to grow..am useless for her.
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Amit Bhawani Reply:
July 6th, 2009 at 2:57 pm
If you are really concerned about your daughter who is just 1 year old, you would never think about killing own self. We try to tell people always to not think about suicide in this article and this is main motto. You mean everything to her and this can found when she understands everything!
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Just stay tight people, god exists, do not give up…. all you have to do is wait few more years.
eat yogurt or something to calm yourself down.
Summer
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gail Reply:
July 8th, 2009 at 6:25 am
@Summer, I want to kill myself and your telling me to eat yogurt! You are out of your mind….
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shamim Reply:
July 9th, 2009 at 6:30 am
Gail, dont kill yourself..just dont do it…i also want to die; but just dont do it…lets keep going and see if its better tomoro…we cant KNOW wht tomoro will bring..dont do it..stay with me
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Francesca Reply:
July 11th, 2009 at 3:46 pm
@shamim,
nothing ever gets better….some people have the gift to see this world how it really is, and I can tell you it´s way more worse than you can imagine. The earlier you die the sooner you get out of this piece of shit
lance Reply:
July 19th, 2009 at 12:55 pm
@Summer, why give false hope? god exsists? why do people feel this way then? satan? i think not, it just the christian way of fear and minupuation1
how much donation are you looking for for the “churh”
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I found this site by googling “suicide methods”.
I am going to do it.
I want to donate my organs so the method is important.
I am thinking about obtaining a firearm and shooting myself in the head in a hospital car park.
I have registered as a donor so I just need to get the gat.
I’ll do it after I move in December.
I found your page useful.
Thanks.
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Robert Paulsen Reply:
July 9th, 2009 at 11:29 am
@Robert Paulsen,
lol holy shit!
Everyone comes here to die!
This is great, OP.
Nice post.
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ashes Reply:
July 18th, 2009 at 11:47 am
@Robert Paulsen, yeah same here, I was kinda thinking about organs too, seeing as how there are people who DO want to live. Kinda like giving away a couch that you arent using to someone who needs it. heh.
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Guys, it’s done!
I have cut my veins…..and not a soul is goin’ to find out till m dea……
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Being human means having extreme desire to live…Rememnber, in the beginning there was the atop, a transient atom, and it desired to live, and there was life…and this desire to live got encoded into our DNAs. Killing oneself is not a big deal…living is…and let me offer you one thing…opt yourself for becoming a suicide bomber…have you ever given a thought why guys blow themselves up in Afganistan or Pakistansd…they have a purpose…if you really want to kill yourself…die for your purspose…and if you don’t have one let me offer you one…pledge your life for the oppressed of the world…and blow yourself up for their desire to live with dignity…you won’t regret…suicide is a heroic attempt…to end your life for some cause…find your cause and give yourself up…BLOW UP!! ASK MEEEEE”"”
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hi, m Kathy 23 yrs of age. in these 23 yrs i’v seen all the shit. i gone thru all the pain nd sufferings gifted me by ma parents, brothers, sister nd ma boyfriend whom i loved lyk nythin….now ma parents think dat m agood 4 nothin. dey blame me dat it’s me who ruined ma younger bro’s future nd their lives…..here i cnt do wat i wnt i’v 2 do evrything as 2 wat dey say…nw dey jus wnt 2 get rid of me dey wnt me 2 get married bt m nt ready 4 it……..i feel so suffocated plz help me out guys plz……gv me the name of som pills dat wil help me.i’v othr wayz as well bt dey alwz keep a check on me…so plz gv me name of pills dat r easily avail in market…m beggin u all plz help me as soon as psbl..plz plz plz
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Robert Paulsen Reply:
July 12th, 2009 at 2:02 am
@kathy,
Don’t do it!
Just buy a dictionary!
Learning to spell will change your life.
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salvatore gironda Reply:
July 14th, 2009 at 5:00 pm
@kathy,Hi i know how you feel i truly know because i have been there myself and still am but that’s not the solution to youre problems.Talk to somebody that will listne to you.If you want to talk i’m here.Don’t do anything what youre thinking of doing.I’m sure there is somebody that loves you.Call me if you want too.
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I feel very much depressed and want to commit suicide.My social relaltionships are malignlated.I am shattered and alone.
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sigh im sooo tired of life i REALLY wana die BUT i know there is GOD but i cnt take it i really cnt i wanted to commit sucide since i was in grade 2 im in grade 11 now! how long more do i have to wait my mom n dad got divorced n i felt like it was ma fault but im sick of thinking dat so i got ova it but da 1 ting dat hurts me till 2day is dat my dad xceptd da money from my mom when she wantd custody n he ddnt want 2 now he is bk in ma life agen n i forgave him but i dnt wana do anytin wit him.my mom cares only about her business and animals and i feel no love at all why do i have to be in a world wen my parents dont care? and so i had sex with a guy in grade 10 thinkin he loves me bt i left him ni feel useless i regret every day of my life for doing itbut i juat wantd to feel loved n now so many guys hurt me. am i really nothing? why should i be in this world whyyyyyyyy????
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kenneth Reply:
July 13th, 2009 at 4:37 am
@katy.d, hey im not in the same boat with the parents divorce but im down n my life i feel unloved un wanted and i was a mistake as to how im told i have tryed so many ways to end it n well i am still trying to end it but i just wanted to let you know im 19 n i will listen to u n chat or something because i understand how it is please just message me i think we can help eachother bc if i dont have someone one to talk to soon im going to kill myself n my name is kenny my email is coltsaddai29@yahoo.com please email me i think it would help both of us out
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yea those things i say dont make sense i know im sense less stupid and definitely USELESS
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kenneth Reply:
July 13th, 2009 at 4:44 am
@katy.d, no ur expressing your feelings i hate my life more than anything y was i born
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RJ Reply:
July 15th, 2009 at 4:57 pm
@katy.d, Fearing Hell and louving God is one reason I haven’t killed myself yet. The other is my dogs. Otherwise, I would have checked out a long time ago. I can’t take the ups and downs anymore. Its useless trying anymore. I have just about given up on happiness that will stick around.
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Chris Reply:
July 17th, 2009 at 12:44 pm
“Fearing Hell and louving God is one reason I haven’t killed myself yet”
Dear RJ,
Please note, there is no such thing as “hell” anymore than the false notion of “god.” I’m sorry you believe in false supernatural powers, and that you have given your brian over to the socially constructed institutions of religion. Such organizations only purpose is to control your mind, and ultimately your behavior. Many of us here are a little smarter than to fall for such nonsense, so please do not shove this rot down the throat of others. However, if there is such a place as hell, I’m sure that is where the bible thumping hate mongers will surely end up.
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RJ Reply:
July 18th, 2009 at 8:23 am
@Chris, “so please do not shove this rot down the throat of others..” What? I was speaking for me, no one else. Sounds like you got major issues. But being so called “a little smarter”, you sure sound dumb.
Chris Reply:
July 20th, 2009 at 5:00 pm
Dearest RJ,
Thank you for calling me “a little smarter,” but I assure you I am not. I am just someone who thinks. With that said. I’m sorry you do believe, for lack of a better word, in the mind numbing wasteland know as religion. People who give their brains over to such institution are easily gullible, and therefore threatened by those who have cognitive ability. Regardless, you never said in your post that you were speaking for merely yourself, which for the sake of clarity, you should have prefaced your comment with.
Lastly, please know I forgive you for calling me “dumb.” I realize unthinking people often resort to such tactics.
Best,
Chris
RJII Reply:
August 4th, 2009 at 2:03 pm
@Chris. you’re the same as the bible thumping hate mongers you condemn. Both of you condemn people and pass judgement on those who don’t share your opinions. People should not have to preface their comments (as you mentioned) so that you dont jump down their throats with your incorrect assumptions.
This is a suicide blog. Let people speak freely in their dispare. Also, I forgive you for calling me gullible.
chris Reply:
October 9th, 2009 at 9:10 pm
“Chris. you’re the same as the bible thumping hate mongers you condemn.”
Really? How? By standing up for cognitive thinking and rational reasoning? By questioning bureaucracy, prehistoric thinking, and dogma? By seeking truth through skepticism? If you want gag on reality, go right ahead, but no one is forcing you to swallow the pill of truth.
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I want to Die. I feel I am incapable to do anything. No one around me is happy with me. I have failed to understand my motive to be in this world. Since Childhood i am suffering because of myself. I dont know how to talk to people, no one likes me, not even my husband. He doesnt trust me at all, because of my incapabilities to do anything, which is true. I have waited years thinking now things will be fine,but situations can change, but oneself cant. i can never be imp in anyones life. I am the most unwanted person in this world, so i want to die, please suggest be a easy method to do so.
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dead soul Reply:
July 12th, 2009 at 1:56 am
the best way to die ……..well its living this lyf…….thr is no othr way to kill ourselfs…..lyf is a slow death……so njoy ur deaths guyssss
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ohh god……..so many ppl r goin to die wd me…….hellllll cant i b alone sumwhr?????????
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lance Reply:
July 19th, 2009 at 12:51 pm
@dead soul, thas the problem aint it? we seem to dtick together!
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all day its the same every day y am i here my life sucks im going to end it but theres no access to guns were i live n idn any other way besides hanging n cutting n overdose n im on lock down made at home bc of cutting im just so sick of dissappointting everyone in life so to all who read this life is over for me this world is to great and unforging n i cant live like this anymore
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RJ Reply:
July 13th, 2009 at 9:20 pm
@kenneth, all day the same everyday– I understand. I could careless about dissappointing everyone else. I dissappoint myself to the point of exhaustion. Good luck.
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to hate being alive n to feel the love from those arnd me is so suffocating..i wish i could just disappear with no one noticing.
i dont know whats ahead of me, but i do know for now, its better for everyone that i disappear now..
how many sleeping pills can kill u? one bottle? two bottles?
dyng in my sleep will b such an easy way out
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RJ Reply:
July 15th, 2009 at 4:50 pm
@vivi, I don’t know what pills will do the job. Just make sure you don’t throw up in your sleep. Anyway, I’ve isolated myself from everyone too. I may turn off the phone so they don’t feel slighted anymore.
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so what’s the easiest most painless way to kill oneself? I don’t own a gun. Today, I was getting nerve to hang myself from door jam, but my mom called to make small talk. She can sense these things. Now, i’m just spent, my stomach aches and my head is throbbing from my meltdown.
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kenneth Reply:
July 15th, 2009 at 4:02 am
@RJ, man idn but try talking valium man thats wat im doing tonight im talking 50 im gone i alredat took them n u will just fall asleep n never awake
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RJ Reply:
July 15th, 2009 at 4:46 pm
@kenneth, How do you get your hands on so much valium. Just make sure you don’t throw up, cause you may wake up in a lot of pain. I tried pills many years ago when I was a teen and cause I threw up in my sleep it didn’t work. The pain the next day was unbearable.
Well make sure this is what you want to do. Maybe try hanging out tonight instead and/or doing your favorite thing. Just be sure you want to check out. OK, that’s it for my pep talk. Let us know, if you didn’t do it. Good luck.
I’m such a chicken. I think I’m still decided on hanging myself. I have a box cutter right now, trying to naw at my wrist, but its too painful to go deeper. The blood is freaky, but it feels good to release some of the sorrow inside. Anyway, I have the door jam picked out to swing to blissful sleep. Its sad when you want to live, but can’t live like this. No end to the sadness and angst in sight. I was suppose to have already killed myself back in May, but somehow I managed to give myself hope for a better life, but I’ve since slid back down several times. I’m rambling. Good luck either way.
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Wow. I was just kinda being bored and searching around the internet looking for some crazy stuff to scare me, and I have to say I’ve found it. EVERYONE HERE is worth having on earth. Killing yourself is giving up on the most important thing in the world. I want anyone who has an ounce of will in them to talk to me about why you want to kill yourself. I want to help you! I can show you why life is beautiful and that there is always a light to turn on, no matter how dark it is.
Please, I have a lot of things I do in my life everyday, but this is something I am choosing to do. I want to help everyone here. Suicide is a scary thing and a one-way ticket to the worst place you can imagine if you have the imagination of a 4 year-old boy. Smile! Wear bright colors! Surround yourself with things that make you happy! Talk to me if you need advice!!!
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lance Reply:
July 19th, 2009 at 12:47 pm
@Zach, very well said friend, very well said, it is nice to know there are humans that feel for others,we need more of you.
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i rather go down in a blass of glory ex. 9/11 than go and give my allegiance to the usa to a rich, middle class people who dont give shit about the poor , homeless, disabaled,elderly people, no money, no insurance, cutoff foddstamps, ssi , ssdi. social securuity checks ….sobs nazis republican ’s
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RJ Reply:
July 15th, 2009 at 5:03 pm
@youarenotalone, I daydreamed about setting mysellf on fire on the nation’s capitol steps with a letter to congress and the world on how this country is letting people go hungry, homeless, etc. But, no way in hell am i setting myself on fire. Plus, I want my death to be a quite affair. But I think its a great idea to make your death mean something
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lance Reply:
July 19th, 2009 at 1:24 pm
@RJ, yea sure but feck it gonna hurt! and i dont think the wigs controllin the man gonna give a shite!lawyers estate agents and vets dont give a fuck for no one but them selves! in fact they only care for the money! they got no soul nor feeling for fellow human beings. hell they dont even see us as human!
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RJ Reply:
July 19th, 2009 at 11:22 pm
@lance, I hear ya- fire is probably the most horrific way to go. I lived by the capitol for 16 years and you can feel, smell the hypocricy and shite lies from the bldg. A bunch of nerdy out of towners in the big city, who see us as mere revenue. One person is insignificant, but one million people are a tens of millions of tax dollars. yes, they wouldn’t give me a thought, except to increase security. lol.
please somebody help me, i am trapped in this situation and cannot escape it….i need some advice on committing suicide quickly!!!…and to escape my pain would be awesome cause this pain is just making me physically breakdown and i dont want to hurt anymore!!!…please give me ingredients for the perfect cocktail of death. thank you so very much!!!
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RJ Reply:
July 16th, 2009 at 3:18 pm
@andrew, sorry andrew. i just don’t know the answer. problem w/ pills is that a lot of people still live so you have to really know what you are doing.
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lance Reply:
July 19th, 2009 at 12:45 pm
@andrew, pack a bag, get out !! go away where no one knows you, make a new life, and stay there, if it works then good for you friend! i gonna do it, got nothin to lose, think of it as the last resort.
even though i am unhappy i feel deep down that i should! and hey i wanna be happy,and being sad and desperate well there is the ticket, gonna take me bass guitar (wich i cant play yet) hit the road, enjoy, probably not survive, but hey,,,, i gave it a chance right??? and no one gets hurt,trick is not to hurt no one, my friend who hung himself,, well we all still got regrets
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RJ UR SO LUCKY TO HAVE UR MOM KNOWING STUFF I REALLY THINK U SHOULD THINK TWICE IN KILLING URSELF WHEN U HAVE SOMEONE THAT LOVES U
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RJ Reply:
July 16th, 2009 at 6:41 pm
@katy.d, thanks Katy. However, I can’t live my life for others. No one should want someone to live in misery, depressed to tears every day. I’m older and have had many years to reflect on the quality of my life. That said, don’t be too concerned by me. I’m still here– miserable. I envy people who know they want to die and just do it.
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KENNETH
DONT DO IT!!!!!!!! PLSSSSS I BEG U DONT LETS WAIT FOR A WHILE PLS
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a lot of people are asking for effective suicide methods but no-one is giving an adequate or productive response. I have tried taking a lot of panadeine forts, i threw a lot of it up and still survived after a few days in intensive care. Then i took sleeping pills laced with alcohol, i survived.. just, as my best friend found me and had sum intuition. Now i dont know what to do.. I’am thinking of jumping off a cliff or drowning in the ocean.. my other methods didnt work out for me. Can someone tell us of an effective suicide method? I would have no idea how to hang myself…
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Jason Reply:
July 16th, 2009 at 6:25 pm
@sareena, Hey, take a 45 and put it in your mouth then pull the trigger, a 9mm will do just fine too. Then again you could use one of my favorites, a sawed off 12 guage shotgun which leaves a wicked mess. That is a sure way to go out or in different terms, perform the selfish act of suicide.
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Chris Reply:
July 17th, 2009 at 12:35 pm
“Then again you could use one of my favorites, a sawed off 12 guage shotgun which leaves a wicked mess. That is a sure way to go out or in different terms, perform the selfish act of suicide”
Dear Jason,
There is nothing “selfish” regarding self deliverance. I’m not sure where you are getting such information, or why you would say such a thing, but when you make comments about something in which you know nothing about, you only come off as myopic and ignorant.
Moreover, it is people like you that want to make others commit suicide. Shame on you Jason.
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RJ Reply:
July 18th, 2009 at 8:15 am
@Chris, co-sign.
RJ Reply:
July 16th, 2009 at 6:45 pm
@sareena, I wouldn’t recommend jumping off a cliff. what if you live or don’t die instantly. Yikes. I guess my choice is hanging. I went on wikipedia and did some research. Suicide isn’t as easy as many think.
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lance Reply:
July 19th, 2009 at 12:39 pm
@sareena, my opinion is become a heroin addict, sure way for death, and you get to enjoy it, even though deep down you know you are dyingand it dont take long, if you do dye and meet my brother ,,, do tell him i love and miss him,, please!!!
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does anyone srsly wanna commit suicide?. i do and have tried before.. so iam not joking. Does anyone here have access to sleeping pills etc. or something that will most probably kill you? Please contact me and help me end my pain and misery. Thank you.
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umer Reply:
July 18th, 2009 at 5:37 am
@sarina,
hi sarina
well i think i do want suicide
and i have got many type of sleeping pills :S i am just prepering to take just need to do some stuf like my money and things to transfer in my bro·s account …………….u know what i m also not joking
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umer Reply:
July 18th, 2009 at 5:42 am
@umer,
m sure in few days i will do suicide i cant help my self some thing is forcing me to do :s contect with me and u can share ur pain with me
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sarina Reply:
July 18th, 2009 at 12:22 pm
@umer, and how exactly do we contact? u have fb or msn?
sarah Reply:
August 14th, 2009 at 8:57 pm
if you guys contact count me in as weel .. my e-mail is foreverhope@rocketmail.com
Personaly I’ve always thought of suicide to be a cowards selfish game. Life is percious even if it doesnt seem that way at the time. People are fighting everyday just to live for one more hour. To feel life even if its not being so kindly to them but people that commit suicide take life completely for granted. Life is what you make it, bad things happen and life may not always go the way you wish it had but does anything like that make it ok to play God? Is it alright to hurt the people around you? To leave this life without trying to change it? I had went through episodes as a teen coming wayyyy too close to actually dying and now that I look back on it none of those things seem matter much anymore… there are exceptions to me like Sir Edward Downes and his wife Joan Downes. They didnt die because they were afriad of life they died for their love and for one another. Its a sappy romantic Lifetime movie in the works i swear but its beautiful…. Think life is worth living..
“Never give out while there is hope; but hope not beyond reason, for that shows more desire than judgment.”-William Penn
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vera difilippi Reply:
July 20th, 2009 at 12:30 pm
@Sheena Marie, I want to committ suicide. I don’t want to live anymore. I hate myself and life to me is painful. I do not want to be a vegetable. That is the only thing that scares me. I have about 50 pills in my possession. Colonopin and valium. Please help me. Don’t send an ambulence. Just give me advise on how you think I could make death workPlease answer me someone . I think I keep replying to myself
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Chris Reply:
July 20th, 2009 at 4:50 pm
Like so many people, Sheena, you completely miss the point. Suicide is NOT a “coward’s selfish game.” People who engage in self deliverance are seeking to escape intense pain, whether it be physical, psychological, or predicated on societal structures. Indeed, it is a brave and loving act for many. Although some people are “fighting every day just to live for one more hour,” many others are not. What you hold as precious, others view as vile. In other words, it’s not that some people take life for granted, it is that others, like you, take death for granted. It sounds as if you are a mouthpiece for some pro-life movement, rather thank able to think cognitively for yourself, and in the process, seem do demonize others.
Many people who think about suicide do indeed think about changing their lives, and many try, and try, and try, but continue to fail. Here is where your argument is baseless. It is society that mediates our behavior, not our primordial desires. The situation that we find ourselves in determines who and what we are, how we think, and what we do. Please read Durkheim’s book entitled “Suicide” for a comprehensive scientific view on the subject.
Accordingly, trite comments like “life is worth living” are merely rhetoric. Until you live in the shoes of someone else who wants to die, you simply don’t know. For many, life is not worth living. Why do you want to indefinitely prolong the life of someone who is suffering from terminal cancer, who lives in excruciating pain, has no family, nor any money to pay for such care. Is it to line the pockets of the medical industry? What kind of person would allow someone to suffer in this way? Perhaps a selfish one, who doesn’t understand what someone else is going through in the context in which they are going through it. Or, perhaps it is someone who has no more insight in the matter than to say so glibly, “life is worth living.”
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Churi Reply:
August 19th, 2009 at 11:50 am
Hey Chris,
I’ve read most of your replies that you’ve made in this thread. I think you’re a pretty intelligent person, and pretty cool in general. But since most of your replies are similar (because the posts you reply to are similar), I thought I’d point out that while these people are not the most succinct communicators, they have only their experiences to make a judgement on. For some people, suicide is selfish, for others it’s selfless. For some psychotherapy works, for others it doesn’t, same with medicine etc. etc.
It might just be the way I’ve inferred your writing, but I think you’re as bad as them at times : ).
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chris Reply:
October 9th, 2009 at 8:17 pm
Dear Churl,
The very fact that psychotherapy doesn’t work for some, if not most, indicates that it is subject to skepticism. Regardless, psychotherapy is a lucrative industry, and accordingly defines and markets itself as curative for emotional maladies, in order to thrive. Like religion, it is big business, and those who question the validity of enshrined bureaucracies, whether medicinal or ecclesiastic, are demonized or labeled, as you put it, “bad.” I’m not offended by such comments, but rather see it as a sign that at least common sense has touched a nerve.
In regards individual perspective as a substitution for fact, when individuals utilize “their experiences” to the exclusion of verifiable evidence, at the least they are ignorant, and at the most place themselves in jeopardy. Although anecdotal information regarding self deliverance is heart felt, it remains within the parameters of conjecture. If where we stand is all that we can see, our experiences are defined by tunnel vision, for we do not have panoramic vision. Take for example the subject of suicide itself. The phenomenon has been studied scientifically, not emotionally, through coroner statistics. In Durkheim’s book “Suicide,” the data indicates that social integration and regulation are the prime culprits in terms of defining who is most probable to engage in self deliverance. In essence, it is our situation, or one’s environment, that mediates our behavior. Of course, pharmaceutical companies and psycho therapists would rather such information be quelled, even at the expense of harming individuals with snake oil. This is because in a capitalistic society, where money is the common denominator for survivability, truth through facts is but a wrench in the economic engine. Instead, cognitive thinking and critical reasoning are supplanted with illogical emotion. Something shiny to distract you from ever having to utilize your brain. Besides, it hurts to think, so why net let a pharmaceutical company, or a church, or a therapist tell you what is wrong with you? They just so happen to have panaceas, but at a cost. For those who fall into the trap of buying what is sold, they are often the first to criticize those who are thinking logically, and seeking the truth. Ironically, it is the stone casters who will likely suffer most, trapped in a perpetual cycle of popping pills, ceding their agency, or psycho babble. Such variable and unproven tactics all lead to a dead end, and will cost you more than just money to get there.
Perhaps it serves them right. Regardless, I implore you to not judge those of us who are not beholden to pharmacology or psychotherapy, or even religion. We may be the only hope you have. Besides, if it were not for skeptics, the earth would still be considered flat, “witches” would still be burned, and epileptics would still be thought to be possessed by satan.
I have to say i’m accully kinda disappointed i read the things and over 3/4’s of the comments and now i’m mad that t.v. and books made it look so ez come to find out not even lethal injection(if you could get ur hands on it) would work it takes 3 steps the first knocking you out…wheres that stupid dr. kavorkian or w/e….does any one know any thing about the stuff for medicaly induced comas? or something theres gotta be something! i could care less how i leave life behind all i know is i want painlessness i’ve look all over on the suicide stuff every thing/one is less then sure about garentees and the failure of such only adds likly a life time of physical pain to the probs u already have any one got any thing helpful/usful yet?
and not any of that i can show u why life is worth living phycobabble bs seen it know it very well love, god, friends, the lil things/moments in life that make it all worth it, your babies first smile/laugh, the tender kisses and hugs of a husband who loves you, the caring ambitions of family being there to always help, advice/words to ppl that come back and thank you for changing somthing in there life for the better. I’ve seen and felt things beyond beauty my yearning for death is not for the lack there of like most but a need to finaly find some peace from i life that i have given my all to even if mine has not been as long as others i have lived much and have experience from beyond my years, I do not look for hatful revenge on a scared life i only wish to find a painless or peacful end to a good run.
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vera difilippi Reply:
July 20th, 2009 at 12:15 pm
@Demona, I want to committ suicide. I don’t want to live anymore. I hate myself and life to me is painful. I do not want to be a vegetable. That is the only thing that scares me. I have about 50 pills in my possession. Colonopin and valium. Please help me. Don’t send an ambulence. Just give me advise on how you think I could make death work.
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vera difilippi Reply:
July 20th, 2009 at 1:00 pm
@Demona, oh dear how i can relate to u. please someone answer my post
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Demona Reply:
July 28th, 2009 at 11:31 pm
srry its a late reply for some reason i couldn’t even find my post but really i don’t have any advise on how you off yourself your in the same boat all of us are looking for the best way to do things i heard before micheal jasckson died he would get put in medical coma’s all the time so i’m looking into that insted i mean sure death has a nice ring to it but i’m still looking into options srry ui can’t be of more hlp.
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In a society that allows the killing of unwanted babies (abortion), why is the killing of an unwanted older life wrong?
I’ve lived long enough. Why should I be punished further for being born.
Do I need to kill others before I can earn the right to die?
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lance Reply:
July 19th, 2009 at 1:01 pm
@Michael Brand, do you feel the need to kill others? if so then rather just off yourself! dont hurt others because you feel the need to die. why must the population suffer because you suffer?
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RJ Reply:
July 19th, 2009 at 11:13 pm
@lance, I think you missed his point.
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Chris Reply:
July 20th, 2009 at 4:35 pm
” In a society that allows the killing of unwanted babies (abortion), why is the killing of an unwanted older life wrong?”
Dear Michael Brand,
Suicide and abortion are disparate and uniquely different things, and are not comparable. Moreover, abortion concerns a fetus, not a “baby.” A fetus has the potential to be a baby, just as a child has the potential to be an adult, but it is not. Moreover, in the initial stages of conception there are only a clump of cells called a Blastocyst, and is not even recognized as a fetus.
With that said, I agree with you that suicide should be legalized. What one does to one’s body should not be regulated by the government. Unfortunately, the vestiges of religion still permeate the body society, and until we purge ourselves from those who falsely hold such perspectives both abortion and suicide will be viewed in the negative.
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I worked as much as i could. i tried to improve my life as much as i could. but ultimately i could not make it. i am a loser and i do not want to continue anymore after trying for 40 years. i m in a bad mood and i just want to end all my problems in one go. can anybody guide me through this.
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lance Reply:
July 19th, 2009 at 11:56 am
@kamal, well after 40 years i too am a looser.yesterday i smoked crack after being clean for a measly month.i fucked up. yes i did. i had the usual feeling when i woke this morning,wished i were dead! but alas i am not. i still feel dead right now, but hey!! al the people i disapointed ,, all though pissed off are still there for me.if i did wha i thought was right and just went ahead and did it,, i would really disapoint many people in my life,, if there are people routing for you does that make you a looser? i am about to make the toughest decision life has thrown my way,,i gonna pack it in and hit the road ,, alone, with nothing but me,, i know that if i cant make it out there then i gonna be where i feel i should.. i do not fear death ,, but i do not want to hurt others for my deeds. even someone that is insignificant to you wil suffer, as long as there is one then we pretty fucked! we gotta go on for that one!
at the end of the day we are here for everyone but us,, we here because someone decided to put us here,,, for that,, stick it out,, thas why i still here,, i read all these stories,,, i did not have it bad,, but believe me being a usless junky is one of the hardest things to get over.
it is not an easy ride for any one.
fuck them all and just live,,, find what it is we are looking for,,, it must be there or we wouldnt!
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kamal Reply:
July 21st, 2009 at 3:53 pm
hi Lance
it is comforting to know that there is still somebody to spare time for me.
as you feel, at 40, there seems not much scope for any adventures. i m trying to live as much as possible, just lying in bed and counting minutes as they pass by.
bye.
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lance Reply:
July 22nd, 2009 at 3:02 am
hey Kamal,
i really hope you not saying wot my screwed up mind thinks you saying! it is not yet time to give up hope. i am in a bad place right now. got court cases, divorce and debt and driving under influence chargers pending.they recently repossed mt house and i lost my car. still recovering from the death of my brother. it been 4 yrs but hey all i think of is what i shoulda done to keep him alive, will live with that guilt for the rest of my life.
i am about to lose my job on top of it all. i think the reason for my demise is negative thinking, i have always been negative, in schoo i was the loner, at the present i have a handfull of friends, good people. they do not understand and cant help me , , athough they try.sometimes they make comments that just dont help, that upset my sensitive heart.i fear that i am on the verge of quitting it all, i feel like crying permantly,i am withdrawing into my old safe zone, my head. not a good idea, but i cant seem to stop it, i fear if i do then only the worst can happen. i will have no control over my emotions, and i dont wana hurt the few that will be disapointed in my actions,i cant sleep anymore because of the nightmares,i wake up and i am exhausted,i immediatly come to this si
te to be with peope like me, hoping to help someone like me, i know very much now how being alone can affect our lost little souls,i was involved with my wife for 23 yrs, now i live in a bed room with no transport quite far from a good friend who is so full of love, and the telephone does not help,i need to be with someone,i need help as do a lot of people in this world and on this site.i live in south africa and almost daily on the news you hear how some sick motherfucker killed and raped a little kid, it hurts me so much that i wanna just cry, all these things just make it woarse i have no family of my own right now, so it is hard, but for the handfull of friends i have now and for my future friends i wil try my best to stay here. we all have our cross to bear,we determine wich path we will take, i truly hope that all here will take the right steps and do the right thing. and if killing yourself is the right thing to do then so be it.i cant judge, i dont have that authority, but hey i feel for for you and all lke us.please dont do anything rash, there must be life out there, hell maybe even true love.there is only one way to find out. i think you have friends here on this site, i feel as though you all are my friends and dont want you to stop writing in and hopefully start feeling alive again,
love you all lets try push our time!!
RJ Reply:
July 19th, 2009 at 11:41 pm
@kamal, 42 yr old loser here. I started my latest demise by isolating myself from the few people I know and kinda care about. But like Lance proposes, I packed light and hit the road to a new city in Feb. Its been a good thing all around cause I would have already imploded if I stayed idle in a miserable state of existence. Otherwise, I have no guidance…wish I did for myself.
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Guys… there is an option. If you have the money, there is a “suicide pill” in Switzerland. By this I’m not saying you SHOULD commit suicide. However if I was to actually decide 100% on doing this, I’d choose this pill or I’d blow my brains out. The bad thing is, I’m 17 with no money. So I can’t do either. To be honest, the only thing keeping me here is the fact that my mum has recently lost her brother, who she was close to. She has also lost her job and my dad is getting older… he is 10 years older than my mum. I can’t bare to think about what I would do to them if I did this. I am their only child and I know I will hurt them so badly – they are already suffering with things such as Anxiety. My best friend too, I can’t bare to think about how he’d feel either. When I think about suicide I try to force myself to reconsider by considering my parents. But it will happen one day…
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uncertaingirl Reply:
July 20th, 2009 at 1:54 pm
@uncertaingirl,
Sorry people for my mistake above… after further research I see that the suicide pill i was talking about is only for people with terminal illnesses and depression or mental illness is not counted for. The place I was talking about is called ‘Dignity’
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uncertaingirl Reply:
July 20th, 2009 at 1:57 pm
@uncertaingirl
again another mistake,
the place is called Dignitas, based in Switzerland.
I am disappointed that assisted suicide isn’t legal for people who wish to die without any sort of terminal illness. And also that it isn’t legal in most countries… inlcuding mine, England.
Best wishes to you all. Please consider the people you love, and who love you. I keep telling myself this and it helps a lot.
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Demona Reply:
July 28th, 2009 at 11:38 pm
suicide pill huh? i wonder if the black market has any…um…if i can find the black market hmmm kinda an idea if u can get ahold of the black market i bet they sell the shit to the mafia and stuff question is how do you find black market goods dealers???
Hi.
I am 23 years old and done with life. Have tried to kill myself three times, not worked. I am so fed up with everything. Can’t stand it anymore. Just want to vanish from this miserable place. Have been on anti depressives for over two years, with no effect. I don’t have a wish to live anymore. Can some1 help me? Plz? Pills don’t work, hanging myself didn’t work, choking myself didn’t work either. Perhaps I will take an overdose of sleeping pills tonight.
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Hi everyone,
My brother committed suicide by gunshot a little over 2 years ago. He was 27. Being someone who suffers from depression herself and has entertained the idea of committing suicide, I have to remind you all of how selfish people are for completing the act. My family and friends are still struggling to cope with my brother’s death. Life changes us forever. Death is death, this is true. Whether it’s due to natural causes, an accident, an physical illness, etc. But knowing that people choose to end their lives really adds another element to the coping process. To those who think that you don’t have people who care about you, I 100% guarantee that you’re wrong. You’ve made an impact on people’s lives. Even on this message board. Now, to those who think that suicide is your only solution, think again. It’s a permanent solution for a temporary problem. Yes, your problem is temporary. While I don’t know you all, I am sure most of your problems can be overcome.
I would define myself as an atheist. Maybe that’s why I value life more than many. I don’t believe in anything after death. All we have is here and now, and even if we live until we’re 100, that’s a very short span of time.
Anyone looking to hurt themselves should reconsider and find what is causing your pain. Don’t just give up.
Some of the people on this site appear to be adults in unfortunate situations. I’m sure you all have been in unfavorable situations that you’ve been able to work through. Use your problem-solving abilities. Listin to a C&C Music Factory song and dance around. Watch a funny movie. Do something so silly that you can’t help but laugh.
Others of you appear to be teenagers. Kids who don’t understand that death is permanent. Trust me, you have so much ahead of you. You won’t teach anyone a lesson by harming yourself. You won’t go down in history as a hero. You’ll be dead. Your family and friends will mourn your loss and the life you’ll never live.
I’m just asking everyone to reconsider your thoughts. Remember a time when you’v laughed so hard your stomach hurts and you almost pee your pants. If you die, you’ll never have that again. I look back on my hard times and I think, I’m so glad I didn’t off myself. Think about what you’ll lose by doing this.
Thanks for reading.
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Churi Reply:
August 18th, 2009 at 7:03 am
This is a good post.
Thanks for your words, I hope others take them to heart.
Even if you can’t remember a time when you felt truly happy… there’s gotta be something. There just has to be something that can make you (read: me) happy.
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chris Reply:
October 9th, 2009 at 8:55 pm
“To those who think that you don’t have people who care about you, I 100% guarantee that you’re wrong. ”
Indeed, there are people who have nothing, no one, and indeed no one cares. Simply go to any state run nursing facility and observe hundreds of elderly people that have no spouses, no family, no friends. Nothing to loose. They are at the end of their life, and do not have anything ahead. That is the reality of truth. Their isolation breeds loneliness which subsequently promotes depression and suicide. It is a perpetual cycle of alienation, and despair. Instead of telling people to remember a time when they laughed, or use their “problem-solving abilities.” although well intentioned not very helpful, why don’t you go to your local nursing facility and help break the chain of despondency. Befriend a despondent senior, or a homeless person, or take in a runaway teen who was rejected by her family. It is isolation that is the killer, not lack of laughs.
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I have seriously considerd simply stopping eating and drinking and just dying from my body failing to operate due to lack of food and water. I began it once and got past the initial “feeling sick from being so hungry” and then the sick feeling went away. But stupid me stopped because I thought it was possible to “get help” from therapy. WRONG!!!!! How can I do it again and see it through when my husband might notice and send me to the hospital when my kidneys begin to fail from lack of water? Is it possible to starve and dehydrate yourself to the point of death without others who live with you really realizing what is happening before it’s too late? I’m uninsurable due to various physical and mental conditions so whatever I do had better not be considered a “behavioral/mental health” condition or if I am not successful and I end up in any sort of hospital then there is no insurance to pay for it. (The state was “kind enough to allow me to pay some exhorbatant premiums for insurance for physical ailments… which really doesn’t do anything for me because even with the sky high rates, the insurance won’t kick in until I pay $8500 in bills. And then they have a behavorial health exclusion. So much for any mental health help.)
I have a gun and could use that. But it scares me and I would rather go “peacefully” by just having my body shut down from kidney failure from not drinking. Mmy body would just “naturally fail”. And again, if anything goes wrong, I don’t have to say it is due to a “mental health condition” and my insurance would then pay for it since it would just be “I lost my appetite” kind of situation.
I guess the bottom line is, “How do you committ suicide without it looking like a suicide?” And to just go “naturally”? If I starved myself and dehydrated myself, no one would know (except worried about my husband intervening….I guess I could hide it and just pitch what was on my plate.
How long does it take for your body to go into “failure” after discontinuing eating or drinking (I assume it’s shorter for drinking because your body can’t last as long without water than it can without food. It’s the wee hours of the morning and I unlocked the doors to our house and opened up the garage door. My hope is that someone will enter the house and “finish the job”. Then I don’t have to kill myself, rather they can do it for me. I snuck to do it so that my husband wouldn’t know. Otherwise he would shut the door and lock it. Idiot
I have done all that I could do. I cooperated with all the authorities. But there is nothing that anyone will do to help me to get help. I filed police reports, so as far as they are concerned it is no longer a concern of theirs. So now I must take matters into my own hands. Suicide is really the only time that I can actually take matters in my own hands and be in control of my life, what little remains of it.
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GW Reply:
July 27th, 2009 at 12:00 pm
I think it’s three days you can live without drinking. That might be in a desert though so go for a week. Doubt you’ll do it though.
How do you know you’re ever going to die, you might be the only one in the world; everyone else being robots in your play. Sometimes I think like that. Others I think that nothing is for certain. I had a moment of clarity about 6 months ago: everything changes. You may believe that your marriage will last for 60yrs, but one day your husband just leaves. You’re alone. We’re strong enough to cope with that though; though we may not think we are.
Curl up in a ball, play your music loud, zone out from reality. Then leave it behind. Walk out of your house with a change of pants and get a train somewhere you know there’s a friend/hotel. Start something different.
If you kill yourself how’d you know you won’t enjoy a walk on the beach, a bungee jump, a first kiss, again?
GWX
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RJ Reply:
August 31st, 2009 at 1:43 pm
The whole gun thing can be too messy– especially if your hand shakes and you live. Starvation takes weeks/months for a healthy person to expire. It can be painful too. Seems killing oneself is not that easy. Go figure. Good luck.
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i had an idea, idk if it will work and the only way to know is if some one fails and posts that it didn’t but ppl keep mentiong pills and how they don’t work cuz u vomit in ur sleep, when i was pregnant i had severe morning sickness i couldn’t even keep my own saliva down so they did 2 things for me when i missed my sickness pills they gave me a shot of sufedrigan in the ass. but to keep from vomiting all day the doc recomended b12 and a half a tab of unisom it was like my lil morning sickness concaction when nothing eles worked that did so…idk some one try that with there over does pills see if it works and lmk if it don’t if it does you obviously won’t be telling me lmao. Good luck.
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another idea??? Traditionally, lethal pills are oval capsules, approximately the size of a pea, comprised of a thin-walled glass ampoule covered in brown rubber (to protect against accidental breakage) and filled with a concentrated solution of *potassium cyanide* <-(is also used for gold extraction and i hear cemical companies sell it). It is important to note that purpose-made lethal pills (of the rubber-coated type) are never swallowed whole. Instead, they are first crushed between the user's molars to release the fast-acting poison contained within. Brain death occurs within minutes and the heartbeat stops shortly after. A suicide pill swallowed without first being crushed would pass harmlessly through the digestive tract.
Additionally, Eva Braun and a number of Nazi war criminals such as Heinrich Himmler and Hermann Göring are known to have committed suicide using lethal pills containing a solution of cyanide salts.
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20080414014159AAzHtRk <–a link to some one asking about buying potassium cyanide online
now if i can just hook my self up with some and make a ghetto suicide pill.
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ok nother idea this time with some reseach behind it, uncertaingirl mentioned the suicuide pill tho it was for terminal ill i was interested so i started looking it up heres what i found:
Traditionally, lethal pills are oval capsules, approximately the size of a pea, comprised of a thin-walled glass ampoule covered in brown rubber (to protect against accidental breakage) and filled with a concentrated solution of potassium cyanide. It is important to note that purpose-made lethal pills (of the rubber-coated type) are never swallowed whole. Instead, they are first crushed between the user’s molars to release the fast-acting poison contained within. Brain death occurs within minutes and the heartbeat stops shortly after.Additionally, Eva Braun and a number of Nazi war criminals such as Heinrich Himmler and Hermann Göring are known to have committed suicide using lethal pills containing a solution of cyanide salts.
Potassium cyanide = is an inorganic compound with the formula KCN. This colorless crystalline compound, similar in appearance to sugar, is highly soluble in water. The vast majority of KCN is used in gold mining followed by use in organic synthesis, and electroplating. Smaller applications include jewelry for chemical gilding and buffing.
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index;_ylt=AicyT_3dPknnuduRXlWXdHQjzKIX;_ylv=3?qid=20080907150731AAghJKF
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20080414014159AAzHtRk
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Now over 40, but ALL the problems stem from being abused for years as child. Never succeeded in love, was still a TOTAL VIRGIN (not even kissed a girl) at 26.
Everyone else gets what they want but we have to suffer in their ignorance.
Complicit humans will NEVER BACK DOWN or admit their part AND WON’
T LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!
I am so desperate to die, we have the WESTGATE bridge to jump off here in Melbourne nearly made it last night.
We’ll see what the other majority shareholders of MY LIFE say tonight…
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i jumped off a building cos i was attacked by Satan and thought i was the mother of the antichrist. Thing is though, i would never have jumped had i not been attacked. NOw, i suffer pain constantly and really want to die. Is there no easy way out?
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I don’t know If there is anything beyond this life. I don’t think that there could be anything to catch me when I fall. My own name feels strange and foreign in my ears. There’s scratches and burns and cuts all over my body, I don’t know how they got there. I go to sleep and wake up the day after. Time skips around, I feel useless. Perhaps there shouldn’t be a way out, if there is a god, why has he abandoned me? He’s never seen me or my suffering, and the man who makes my life a living hell is a devout catholic. Oh, the irony.
Sometimes I wonder about all you people out there, if there’s someone in your house or apartment who let’s you think, just let’s you be yourself, lets you find your own way out.
There are people who care about me, who would probably live scarred the rest of their lives if I ended mine.
It’s the only thing that keeps me going sometimes, the knowledge that there are happy people out there, those billboard smiles and clean faces. Maybe, just maybe I could live long enough to leave HIM and find someone who can wake me up.
I don’t know, I keep the razor’s and pills close just in case.
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i still say Potassium cyanide is the best way its like the most deadly poison use in lethal injections and suicide pills and gas chambers sounds like the perfect tonic and for god sakes is sold by cleaning supply companies i saw some for like 20$ tho i only have 10$ to my name and theres no way my hubby is giving me any money…but then again i’ve changed my mind for the moment i’m gonna go try and get some free schooling and check that out try couseling again guess i got a big mouth some how i let it slip to my hubby and hes all up in my bizness…good boy…sit!…=P j/k but yeah his idea promised it a chance wish me luck if you like but since none of you know me i don’t expect it. any way Potassium cyanide even if it does take more then a few mins *consciousness is lost within one minute, sometimes within 10 seconds*<–wiki says so its not like you'll feel the convultions or w/e they say you can have sometimes but i'm this 2 sided person type i want to be hipocritical for a second….from what i've learned is ppl really at the end of their rope who just can't take it any more march straight to the closest gun and pull the trigger no second thoughts and the question i always hear is why do you want to do this? and ppl answer why not? but this does not make sence to me, so my question to all of you is "what is stopping you? what force in this world is making you hold on to life is it hope? is it love? why are you waiting?" if you can't march straight to the nearest means of death and just jump in or off it then maybe you should think about it cuz those who really want to usualy just find the highest building since its instand and has the least likly hood of living and if they fail guess what? as soon as they can walk they find a higher building. life is your *choice* why if you say you choose death are you still scared to fail????
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sarah Reply:
August 14th, 2009 at 8:41 pm
peopel are scared to actually kill them selves because they are unsure about what waits for them around the corner. i sometimes really think what is the point of this life if i am not enjoying it and if i am not happy, but the thing i am most scared about is what will happen after i die. will i regret diying?
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i read all posts.
so many poeple with problems.
but i couldnt find one person which has even nearly mine.
what are you supposed to do when the person you lived for commited suicide over you?
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matthew Reply:
August 23rd, 2009 at 8:32 am
well ill tell u , i got a girl pregnet she killd herself we wer in grade 10,
so she suicide i still dont know why and what about, i cod not stop her i do blame my self evre day but in a way shes the bitch that cod not cope,, and yeh its kinda my falt ,,,,
if its your falt and u blame your self u can iver killyour self as i was planing for menay meany years Or live to make her feel beter,,,, , if it maks sence,, i saw my gf ;s ghost exatly 2 hours after she killd herself, spooky but it is what i needed
so u can live on and keep her in your mind, or just for get it and move on,, i know its realy hard to move on but its worth a try, get back to me if this is kinda what u wer thinking off,,,,,,,
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i wanna die…..do anyone noe here some way to b dead..plz dun give me suggestions not to do that or anything…. tell me the way to commit suicide …i m fed up of my life …if anyone noe here any way to commit suicide easily or by which i can die quickly then plz tell me soon…i would be eagerly waiting for ur replyyy…..thnxxx …do reply …my id is jas_cindrella@yahoo.com ….
plz tell me
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sarah Reply:
August 27th, 2009 at 9:56 pm
why do you wnat to die? whats wrong??? i know what it could be like when you are desprare., but thing surly couldnt be that bad??? or are they? are you just fedup? like you dont care any more and you dont care what happens aslong you are out of the life and this misery??? sometimes i feel like that but then i think about what would happen afetr i die, what am i going to sya to god? is he going to punish me for killing my self? i dont know if you are a believer in god or not but that sometimes stops mye.
there is no esy method to kill your self, tehy are not fool proof, you take the gamble and it fails and then your life becomes more difficult. you know what i wish i had never attempted suicide, everything about me has changed now that i have taken that move.. i dont want you to do something that you will later regret (if you survive)
think it though carefully.
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what do you do when you dont what to do with your life? i was at university i dropped out so i was and am a failure. i re-applied but got scared and cancelled my application again, not i have a place with open uni but i dont know if i will be able to cope. the course material is boring, i have to learn about stuff like global warming so i am not happy. its all my fault for dropping out of university in the first place. so the only one to blame is my self.
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RJ Reply:
August 31st, 2009 at 1:19 pm
you seem to be dooming yourself as a failure. maybe university is not for you. just make it to the first class and see how it goes. You can drop out later if it doesn’t work out.
good luck. otherwise, why put yourself through the torture of university if you fear it so much. give your place to others who would luv to have a chance at uni. I hope you buck up and show up. the job market stinks over here.
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i ve been cheated by my guy. i loved him so much and as so he but still i love him but he stared hating me for a small reason.he was just laughing when i was cryin for him. i hate living m ashamed of my self.i wan to kill my self without pain pls help me. m not able to 4 get him.
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RJ Reply:
September 4th, 2009 at 6:09 am
you’re gonna kill yourself over some dude who laughed at you crying (about anything). Naw, you need to try living and growing a pair.
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I do not know when it all started at the first place. But definitely the problem is severe now. The problem grew as I learned to think with a broader perspective. The moment you become critical about the world and your surroundings the problem slowly finds a way inside you and gradually begins to manifest in all your day to day activities.
Today I live in a world of hypothetical mental imagery. Sometimes disappearing at my will. Sometimes forcing some supernatural phenomenon with my magical wand. I kill people with bare hands. I die in loneliness. I hit the wall by my fist. I bleed. I dive from a skyscraper and never hit the ground. I am a captive of my own imagination. Sometimes I become a loyal slave to someone inside me who constantly drives me into darkness. He has tried many a times to kill me. But I have saved myself everytime . However I am not sure if I shall be able to do it all the time. I will never try to kill myself but for reasons I know not why I can’t guarantee that because I have had experiences when my mind had started betraying my body. This might sound uncanny but its very much true. People who try to help me infact increase my agony. The slight respite I get from my mental state is only because of people who do not talk about me yet involve me unknowingly and who live life king size. However when the devil is at it’s peak I can’t betray him whatsoever. All my energy gets drained off and I just can’t think of anything leave alone enjoying life. Everything seems to appear dull and cloudy and I can do nothing. Infact I feel like doing nothing. I feel like a saint then . Everthing seems materialistic and at that stage I can sacrifice anything. There is no fear of loss. The world seems to be futile and the people fools. I crave for death or ignorance .
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Its my 3rd day since I have been reading this post. I found this site via Google and not be mentioned why I was looking for such site.
Let me introduce myself .. My name is Kumar .. I live in Hyderabad (A.P. India) … I’m born with so called quality “failure” and it would not leave me until I die because its embedded with my fate and luck
…. no one likes me … my life is really painful … I have gone through almost all kind of problems … thus can bet on being the world’s most useless creature ….
Harini I don’t know what went wrong between both of you but committing suicide is what I don’t advise …. I’m also going through similar situation .. the girl I loved the most left me …. I’m completely broken and lone … I was depressed and wanted to end my life … ….. I was reading her messages… and realized that there are certainly not many but atleast few things in my life which makes me feel good … not just me I believe its with everyone … I started being normal thinking someone loved me so much …. which I never expected in this life …
try to divert yourself .. yea .. its very difficult but not impossible …. soon you will out of this … we humans are very emotional … we think we cant leave without someone whom we love … which is wrong …. life moves on …
You can reach me @ santosh_y2k1in@hotmail.com
Last but not the least .. LIVE FOR YOURSELF AND BE YOURSELF !!! …
GOD bless you all !!!!
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I didnt read all of you because it’s so boring
1) G-O-D is a word invented in middles ages, stop using it, ok?
2) You own your life & you have the power to kill yourself, only you may decide. *Some* people may be sad but their life will continue, nobody will notice after a few weeks.
3)if you’re not yet ready to kill yourself then you DONT WANT to kill yourself, just SHUT UP and grow up fucking emo.
4)Every authentic suiciders dont speak about their acts, they do. final.
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sarah Reply:
September 8th, 2009 at 7:58 pm
first of all, keep your opinion about the existence of god to your self and dont go around corrupting the mind of other innocent and vulnerable individuals. prove it god doesnt exist? i say you dont exist! cant you see god menifested in every area of your life? you are in s delusional state if you do not witness the greatness of god. god does exist.
we dont own our lives, we belong to god, the whole worlds the seven heavens and everything in between belongs to god, so we cant do what we like with our self. as much as i would like to believe that we can, the truth is the truth and will remain the truth and that is we cant do what we like with our selfs because we dont own ourselves, god owns us.
there are people out there who want to kil them selves but they hold on for some reason, be it their family , their friends, or their belief in god. yet they find it hard to cope and struggle and talk about how they feel , you cant tell them to grow up and they are not fucking emo’s. you need to get your facts sorted out mate.
i feel suicidal at times and then its my belief in god and after life and messages and comments from ignorent people like you that make me hold on. seriously.
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DrHorrible Reply:
September 26th, 2009 at 12:08 am
Lol Sarah you hypocrite, you say keep your opinion to yourself but here you are spewning about 7 heavens blablabla. Ignorant? You are the ignorant one, why don’t you crack open your bible and see the stupidity that it is.
What does it even matter? If there IS A GOD, we wouldn’t know IT. It would be a UNKNOWN BEING WHICH WE DO NOT UNDERSTAND. The Christian Gnostics have a perfect saying for it, “the god we never knew, the god who was not responsible for creation nor anything, the god that was everythere and everywhere”. If there is NO GOD, Life just continues the way it does. If THERE IS A GOD, life continues the way it does. Worrying about an afterlife,the vengeance of a petty judeo asshole god is human babble to scare the sheep into staying in this hellhole (for some) and making the rich richer.
If you gonna kill yourself, focus on YOU and keep Family,God,your dog,cats and everyone out of it. It’s YOU that is important. Don’t sacrifice yourself for the betterment of others or a made up afterlife because eventually you will crack and jump of the cliff so to speak.
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chris Reply:
October 9th, 2009 at 6:04 pm
“Keep your opinion bout the existence of god to your self and dont go around corrupting the mind of other innocent and vulnerable individuals”
Sarah, unfortunately it is precisely the bible thumpers who can’t keep their views about god to themselves. Through the television, print, radio, knocking on doors, standing on corners shoving leaflets in people’s faces, and of course let’s not forget TAX EXEMPT PLACES OF “WORSHIP,” it is people like you who continue to force the issue of religion. Perhaps you should swallow some of your own medicine, and KEEP YOUR VIEWS ABOUT god TO YOURSELF!
Moreover, you and your ilk are the true corrupters. Religion is man made, culturally constructed, to control minds and wallets. When you force this nonsense on children, the you are the corrupter. THIS IS THE REAL CHILD ABUSE IN THE WORLD. Yet the holier than thou hypocritical self anointed and appointed “religious” folk, who willingly cede their brain over to a prehistoric ecclesiastic corporation, shout foul when someone sheds light on the truth by holding a mirror to their face. Shameful.
“Pprove it god doesnt exist? ”
Sarah, the burden of proof falls upon yourself to prove “it” does exist. But I’ll help you out. Since religion was constructed by man, for man, passed down by man, and interpreted by man, it is…. man made. Ta Da! Sorry you fell for it. This is why “it” can never be proved, because it doesn’t exist. But if you wish to live in the prehistoric dark ages, be my guest. Just keep your voodoo to yourself.
“i say you dont exist! cant you see god menifested in every area of your life? you are in s delusional state if you do not witness the greatness of god. god does exist.”
Oh Sarah, so many things wrong with this statement, but where to begin? Firstly, you say I don’t exist. OK, but how can you expect anyone to believe in your “beliefs” if you don’t believe what is standing right in front of you. Unless you’ve given up your entire mind to your cult, please think. Then you say that god is manifested in every area of your life. Examples? Specifics? Such as? For many people who are suicidal, this very insulting. Furthermore, I think you might be in a delusional state if you are seeing things that are not there. Are you likewise hearing voices? Have you taken your meds today? Are you certifiable? Sarah, it’s time to face facts. GOD DOES NOT EXIST. If you want put your power in nonsense, then expect to be called on it, especially if you continue to espouse such rot.
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hmm ya m trying my level best to over come my tots but i feel so depressed. i really don have a future other then killing myself RJ….m still tryin to come out of it
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so even you have right to die … why are you still alive …kill yourself .. if you are scared of doing so or coward then hire someone ….
why I should care if nobody is noticing what going on in my life … I live for myself not for anyone else .. I’m not selfish though … but the people trying to end their lives are …
either believe in GOD or yourself, if you cant do any of these then you don’t exist … however, my previous post wasn’t for you … so keep your fucking mouth shut …
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hi kumar i also leave in AP.i feel some wat ok after posting my comment in this site. cos i cant spk bout my failure to any one i kept inside me but now i came out of my feelings, but its very true tat wen we share our feelings we can come out of depression..we were the best couples in look in love in everyting but it just happend in few hours it just they way wat i said he understtod in different way..i never expected him to react so harsh i tot he was joking but he just said ” i don like” it wont work…tas the time i felt how much it pain wen one die….i cant force him to love me again but i feel happy i was loved by him so much b4….hmmmmm but some time my inner feeling says u should die kill ur self. m tryin to come out of it…..hmm i can see my pain in ur comment life is a journy we ve to face the thorns.hope our life should be nice if we live.
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kumar Reply:
September 5th, 2009 at 10:51 am
Hi Harini … I’m glad that you are coming out of the situation ….. yea it will take time to come out of it completely …. believe me you will get a good partner … if you really want be happy then avoid 2 things … expectation and comparison … I wish you all the very best for your future … take care…
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Harini.
Take my tough love w/ a grain of salt. You seem to be a very nice and smart person.
Glad to see you’re trying to over come a lethal case of heartache. It sucks. They say it takes about half the time of the relationship to start feeling better (that’s only when you really try to get over a relationship gone south– some people hold on). I don’t know if this works for everyone, but it worked for me in the past. I was slowly able to breath again.
Try to focus on the bad things about the person– not the good times. You may be surprised one day to realize the person wasn’t really worth all that love. F*ck em. Next.
Seems you gave your heart out, it didn’t work out and now you’ve got to do time in heartbreak hell. Just remember this too shall pass.
I say kill yourself because of you, not someone else’s crap– lol. Hang in there.
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hmmmm yup kumar lots of expectation and comparison makes life sick……now 4 past a week i compare my self with my fren who got her love back and getting married i feel tat i ve been cursed and nothing right is happening good in my life….but m spking to my self saying GOD is der wait till he shows happy in ur life…hm then i wish u all the best 4 ur life.hope everthing happen good here after 4 u….
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Kumar Reply:
September 5th, 2009 at 10:31 pm
Hi Harini,
never compare yourself with anyone .. because it always hurts … Just be yourself … believe in GOD, have patience and try keep yourself busy … everything will be all right … I can understand .. its not at all easy … I’m also going through the same and at some point of time even I thought of ending my life …I’m trying really hard to come out of it …. take care …
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IF u live IN AUSTRAILA QLD BRISBANE or elss wear, and u wanto have a suiside buddy, somone to go out with ,give me a yell on my email veryevilmonkey@gmail.com
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any one considering suicide should just blaze it. what do you have to lose. if its not your thing try everything you always were too scared to do. kill someone do a buttload of drugs. maybe you will accidentally kill yourself enjoying yourself. drugs give you a head change. that should help. do whatever what do you have to lose.
btw. you can cut yourself for other purposes other than try to kill yourself. you get a rush from cutting yourself, thats the reason so many people do it. its an artform even.
another thing you can do is start fighting crime and help the living. maybe someone will kill you.
live you r life the way you want kill yourself if you want just dont act like a victim. victimizing yourself is pathetic. do it or dont bother.
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Whatever be the reason, trying to escape(suicide) is neither the solution nor the end….it in fact creates more problems for the ones u leave behind and it becomes the beginning of a new series of problems for the family and friends…….
Infact…..The Best Revenge is to Live Better….The Best Solution is to Perform Better…..!!
I’ve come to this conclusion after considering the ‘End’ a couple of times…..trust me i’m happy….u can get in touch with me at this email id dolphin_eel@yahoo.com
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even if u try to move on from having felt suicidal it is hard, i still sometimes think about suicide although i will not act on those thoughts but i cant help it.
somehow if u give up on ur self as badly as i did it is hard to build up again. i hope everyone struggling with suicide finds their way,.
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dolphin Reply:
October 9th, 2009 at 12:16 pm
Hi Sarah,
I’ve gone thru most of ur posts….some of them are depressing while others are full of hope…may be it depends on your mood when u posted them… but trust me I firmly believe that “One doesn’t get anything more than what (and before than when) it is destined”…..My motto in life is plain and simple:-
The Best Revenge is to Live Better….!!
what am I doing on this site ?? …. I was just going thru these sites coz someone I knew hanged himself just about 10 days back. I’ve been depressed all along thinking may be I could ‘ve done something to prevent this….I’m just not able to erase the scene of the guy hanging from my mind….
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sarah Reply:
October 15th, 2009 at 10:01 pm
thanks for replying to my post. im very sad at the death of ur friend, and im even sorry that u saw it. that is very sad but u could not have prevented it. i dont know.
i feel like shit now, yeh its true sometimes in better but other times i am all depessed. so many people try to help me but i know deep down inside im not too happy with my life i know i can change it but i cannot change the past. i feel like going to the cannal tomorrow just to sit there and cry because i cant cry at home and its all building up in me. i am not going to talk to my doctor about this. it was at the cannal where i went to commit sucide about 4 yeras oge but soemone stopped my.
please dont feel guilty about what happned with your friend, it was not your fault, u r not responsible. u kow there are helplined out there for people who have had loved ones commit suicide. maybe u caould talk to them, or mail me, ill talk to your. foreverhope@rocketmail.com
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“If there is no jesus then there is no god and if there is no god than there would be no you…” and blah blah blah.
Indeed Leah, THERE IS NO GOD!!!! I’m sorry you have been brain washed to believe in that nonsense, but truth be told there never was a person with supernatural powers anymore that there was the tooth fairy. Instead of wasting you time spreading rot, why don’t you look at scientific facts which theorize the origins of the universe, and evolution which explains who we are and where we came from. Of course it is easy to understand, and explain, things in terms of fairy tales, but science is built upon skepticism and is far more credible than so called religion. Moreover, read some books on sociology which explain why religion was created and how it has evolved. Money and control are at the root. Don’t ever forget that religion is a cultural phenomenon constructed by and for man, passed down by man, and controlled by man. Please don’t cede your agency, your very mind, over to simplistic prehistoric nonsense. Read, learn, educate yourself. For many, religion is the cause of great sadness and pain, and directly contributes to suicide. Misogynistic, homophobic, and controlling, for many religion itself is the root of great pain and sadness, a facilitator of suicide. It is an ecclesiastic corporation whose true purpose is to control minds and money by selling lies. Civilization can never begin until the very last brick from the very last church falls on the very last preacher.
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The best way is with a hose pipe cable tied to a car exhaust and fed through a window. make sure you use a towel to fill the window gap caused by the hose. Then cable tie your feet to the driver seat pedals, then your next to the headrest and then one hand to the steering wheel. leave another cable tie on the wheel ready to tighten. Then start the engine and quickly use the prepared cable tie to tie your free hand to the wheel as well. this makes sure you don’t bottle it at the last Minuit and get out of the car. This must be done somewhere where you wont get caught (my first mistake), and with a car with no catalytic converter fitted. apparently cars with catalytic converters will run out of petrol before it kills ya. Also wear swimming goggles to stop the fumes burning your eyes.
This is the best way to do it, and my chosen way. all ya gotta do is sit there and breathe!
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Juji Reply:
October 14th, 2009 at 3:02 am
FCCFU:
Why so complicated? I just measured the length of rope I’ll need to hang myself at the same place my son did a year ago. Nothing fancy, but very reliable. WTF? Hoses, towels, cable ties, swimming goggles? Keep it simple, stupid. Besides, who has a care w/o a catalytic converter these days? Use a rope and save yourself some trouble.
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RJII Reply:
October 15th, 2009 at 5:55 pm
luv it. your post made me chuckle. to each’s own. your way to death is very creative– good luck.
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sarah Reply:
October 15th, 2009 at 10:06 pm
i feel like killing my self, the feeling has come today. hose pipes, ropes catalitic converters,,, i dont know, there are so many ways to kill ur slef. i am going somewhere isolated tomorrow to just contemplate suicide.
i feel so sad. its probably just the time of the year? but i dont know why it woudl be this time of teh year and not any ohther , nothing significent happened this time of the year.
i just wosh i coudl die.
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I was feeling down yesterday night and angry for some reasons,I woke up 2day still angry and atfer taking a shower I realised it was no use feeling sorry 4 myself.I decorated my face after months of always being careful and professional before I left my room 2 go write a test.’My friends’ laughed and teased me,I cried again 4 they did not know da reason 4 this pick me up.They all acted like jerks & said I was acting childish.Alot of times I have always thought that suicide ends ur problems,2day I realised that I just need 2 stick 2 my guts and create my own fun.Sure,da 1s that laugh don’t understand but u do,so y let ‘em act like they understand,they just want 2 bring u back 2 zero.This is ur thing,if u don’t make it work no1else will.Get a hobby anything just as long as it will make u hu u r and smile.Don’t let any1 chose da kind of lyf that suites u,chose and live ur own,coz u myt just be an inspiration 2 sum1else hu was about 2 give up.
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i feel so sad. i just want this life to be over. but i cant exactlly kill myself that is wrong, despite how much i incline to that. i wish some one will hold me, let me cry on their shoulder, someone who wil understnd me, but it apears i am alone in this. i have a lot of peple on the internt that i talk to but it is not the same.
i am going to see my psychitrice (doctor) tomorrow at 12. i dont know what i should say to him. i cant tell him that i am feeling shit becoase of ii do he is just going to say why did u stop taking ur medicine? it was my choice to stop taking the medicine. i stil take the anti depreset but i have stopped staking the anti psychotic and i am on half the dose of mood stabiliser.
i dont know. i just feel so sad.
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just to let everybody know, there is hope. yse yes i know some of my previous messages were a little hopeless, but i am feeling a lot better today and i just want anybody who finds this website to know that i care about them and i dont want them to be feeling sad and lonly. and if they are contemplating suicide, i want them to know that they are not alone with this feeling and trust me peopel can come out on the other side being stronger. i just hope that every lost soul finds his/ her way back home.
leave me a message of u want to talk to me. i will always – as long as i live and as long as i can – be there for u.
love sarah.
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hay guys, just wondering where everyone else is gone? u have either all commited suicide.. and so u cant reply! or your better now and dont feel that way… and i hope the second is true.
anyway, an update on me.. i am startig to have broblems with my food again.. so not very happy and been quiet sad and suicidal thoughts cross my mind occasionally but i dont think i would act on them.
hope every one else is good and coping fine.
love sarah XXX
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i am just fed up. is very easy for me to get fedup and so hard to get out of it. i just want to smoke and smoke but my brother is not letting that hapen. he keeps telling me to do something else to distract my self. i am soo sad. i self injured to day, not bad, just three small cuts on my leg. i resisted the urge yesterday but today i gave in and self harmed although i propbably could have controlled it of i tryied. i dont care anymore. i am thinking more and more about suicide.
i dont think i should use the term suicide, but i just want to die. i want all this to be over, i dont want to be me, i hate myself, who i am and what i am like and my whole past life except the time i went on pilgramage to mekkah (saudi arabia) but cant go there again.
noone understands me and i am alone in this struggle. i speak to so many peopel oo the interent with eating disorder but they all seem to be able to control their eating to the point it becomes damgerous but i am going the other way, i am eating enough for about 5 people each day and then i throw up or take laxatives but my throat hurts and i find it hard to bring the food back up especaally as i do not chew my food, when i start eating i eat like an animal and swollow the food whole with out chewing properly and i eat far too fast, so that means i eat a lot more then everyone else in the same amount of time.
i am fed up. can anyoe relate to me?/? please message me. i will be cheaking this site regularly.
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I’ve said it before, here goes again. 2 points!
1. NOBODY has the right to decide for me when, where, how I die. Whether I’m sick, terminal, or healthy and strong physically, mentally ill or not! Nobody can or ever will be able to walk in another person’s shoes.
2. Death-row inmates are given a peaceful, painless death by injections, but I have to contemplate bloody, messy, and painful ways of ending my misery.
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RJII Reply:
October 26th, 2009 at 5:22 pm
co-sign
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sarah Reply:
October 26th, 2009 at 5:46 pm
i can realte to how u feel. are u feeling suicidal at the moment? the thought crosses my mind about 6 – 7 times a day,. do u slef harm? i do.did it yesterday.
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I have two dogs who are my heart and now my only reason for still being alive. For about a year, I can’t seem to find a suitable friend/owner to entrust them with. Anyway, I believe they would be miserable if I left them. I’m also a chicken when it comes to a painful suicide. I cut myself all over with a box cutter one night to see how much pain I could take. It actually felt good, like I was gaining some control over ending my life. However, I figure hanging is the best way, but still concerned about a blotched job. I pray I could just go to sleep with my dogs and presto we just never wake up.
I’m so frustrated with life, disappointed in myself, and exhaustingly depressed all the time now. I’ve been living this nightmare for too long. I live and sleep fear and angst– crying when my eyes open in the morning. Given up and have little to no hope of better days, yet I’m still here trying to figure out my dogs (babies). I luv them more than my life, but I now wish I never got them because I would be dead probably years ago before it even got this bad. Why can’t there be an easy over the counter single pill. Is there one kinda easily available? Where?
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sarah Reply:
October 29th, 2009 at 1:00 pm
im sorry that u are feeling so terrable and low. it is a very difficult sitaution to be in. and certainly very painfull.
it is good to hear that u have some sort of purpose to life. you have your two dogs to look after and play with. they give u a reason to continue. and thats good because sometimes when u r going through this diffiult patch that is all u need, a reason to go on.
not only your dogs but everyone else involved in your life will be sorry ad miserable if u do decide to go. i will miss u even though i dont really know u. i am going to check this page regularly in wait for your response.
and i dont think u are a chicken if u are afriad of painful or anytype of suicide, because that is a natural response. so many times after i have taken a big step towards ending my life i get scared and ask for help or something like that. that is only natural.
have u ever selfharmed before? is it something u do regularly?
i think you should reach out and u will find that so many people will respond. you walk to them and they will come running to you. people like the doctors, your family and friends (sincere friends).
what do u do with your time? mdo u study? work? have hobbies?
do u believe in god? what do u think is going to happen to you after u have killed yourslef? where do u think u are going to be?
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hi, excuse my short english..i writing from argentina, im 38,psicology student,y have my nuclear family near,but i don{t have any reason to continue living, what for?studies, what for?my job..my family..y always think about my mun, she is the lonely person in the hole world who really willmake me feel bad if i commit suicide, just her, thats why a lot of times, several..i do nothing, but today i dont think in any body, just in me, i think that life is mine, so i{m the owner, ..paradojicaly im suppose to be a psicoly(person who help psichical problems people)..but im feel empty, without future, i know, i have so many childhood psichical troubles..and its getting worst…so im thinking seriously to finish this. thanks for listening me
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sarah Reply:
October 31st, 2009 at 4:37 pm
you are a psychology student santiago. have u studies abnormal psychology? stress and its associated desiplines? if u have u would know that this type of situation can be helped. i am sure u do know that there is hope and a way out, all u have to do is find it.
im sorry that u feel thi sterrable and loww but i promise, if u try u could get out of this and live a better, more happier and content life.
wht do u feel suicidal? why do u want to end your life? whats wrong?
talk to me and i will listen to you and help support u through this difficult times as much as i can, i am no doctor ar psychologiest or cuonsellor but i will try my best.
talk to me about why you feel you have ne future, why your job and studies do not make u wnat to live? do u feel u are on the wrong course? or u r doing the wrong job? whats wrong? talk to me…
love sarah. XXX
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Sarah,yes I am still around, not doing that great. The urge to finally end it is getting the better part of me. I wake up every day wondering why I am still here. I hate life , why God has me here, I still don’t know. I have it set up to get electrocuted – it will look like an accident and finally have peace.
Klaas
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sarah Reply:
November 4th, 2009 at 6:20 pm
please dont electricute your self. trust me on this one there is hope, you can sort your life out with the right support. really you can. u have so much to look forward to, i know its hard to look forwrard when all you see is depression and depressing thoughts but u have to try and replace those negative thoughts with positive thoughts.
i know i am late in replying to your message and all i can do is hope that you have not carried out your plans and that u are still safe and sound. please reply to this because other wise i am going to keep thinking of all the things that could have hapened to you.
i know i am a hypocrite, and my messages always give contracdicory information, thats just because some days im in a bad mood and other days i am ok. by bad i mean depressed mood.
look, on the 2nd of november 2009, i attempted what i thought at that time was going to be my last suicide. i took a whole box of sleeping tablets. but before i did that i went and told my mum that i was feeling low and i said i dont want to live anymore, she said unless u tell me what caused your depression or why u r doing this we cannot help u. i dont really kow why i am like this… its a tricky question to anser but what i do nkow is that something went wrong somewhere while i was growing up. but anyway, i took this overdose and i phoned a suicide helpline, the lady that i spoke to asked if i was certain that this was what i wanted to do. i said yes, she reminded me that i could end the call and phone for an ambulence but i said no again. so she made me feel comfortable. i got into by bed and snuggled up under the duvet, i detached myself from my family and the people arpound me, these were going to be my last few minutes and i wanted quietude. i gave up everything that i had and was waiting to go unconscious. but that did not happen easily, i ended the call as my mum, who was sharing the room with me woke up, i ended the call and lay in bed and sleep,or unconsciousness overcame me.
but in about two hours i woke up again,. my mind would npot rest, because deep down inside i knew that i would go to hel if i died.. i believe in god u see. so i woke up againa nd again through out the night.
my temperature was high and my limbs were twiching uncontrolably, i could not stop my arms and legs flapping around. and i was in that state the whole night. till morning came, i did not get ill longterm, but i dont know what effects that overdose has had on me as i have not gone to the doctor.
in my head or in my heart, there ws something that was totally opposit to the suicidal feeling. thats omething prevented me from sleeping properly. i managed to go to the toilet twice that night. there were other effects like very dry throat and mouth, and a feeling of faintness. red eyes. but that something positive inside me caused my body to fight the effects of the drugs and my mornining i was restored to my normal health.
and here i am today, only two days later, and im happy that i am alive. really i am. if i had died that would have been the end and i would not have missed this world. but i survived. and now im happy. i e-mailed my university today and siad that i was happy to have support and continue with my studies,. and i went to college and it was ok. im spending times with my family and with other people like you that are important to me. so here i am replying to your message.
please dont commit suicide, it might be the last thing you do, you might not get a second chance to enjoy life like i am now. i know i am diferent to you, i have mood swings – i have been diagnosed with depression but i go low and then normal and then low again. i dont know how your mood is but if you talk to me i will get to know you better and i caould probably help you get though this and come out the other side as a stronger perso. and you will definitly be helping me, you just talking to me, just tell me how u feel and that wil make me feel better.
why do you feel like this? has anything happened recently? or maybe while you were growing up? how was your childhood?
what do u do? do u work? study? or are you resting for the time being?
do you have any mental or physical illnesses? what types of things do u find difficult? what are your hobbies? if u dont have any now, what did u enjoy in the past?
pleasde talk to me about who you feel. we can sort this out togetehr. i promis i will try my best and i will talk to you as long as i live and am capable.
my e-mail is foreverhope@rocketmail.com drop me an e-mail if you dont want to talk about yourslef on this website.
i will be looking forward to hearing from you.
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I was looking for suicide methods when i found this. My last attempt was another miserable failure and i was thrown in the nuthouse for getting it wrong. This is not a moment… this is a genetic flaw. Unfortunate circumstances? Don’t even begin to describe the endless struggles, the hopelessness. My last best friend hung herself 10 years ago… my brother blew his brains out 3yrs ago… my mother died of cancer just after that and my father died when i was 3 (on christmas day) I have no-one left. And that’s the small stuff. I live with a man who owns me like he would a dog and has completely isolated me from any friends or any life i could have had. no doubt if i stick around long enough he will kill me. He says he will… alot. But so far only nearly. I’d rather just kill myself though but know better than to get it wrong. For anyone who thinks we should pray to God… I do believe in god, God just never believed in me. And i will be dead by the end of this week. SO If i got to ask god just one thing, it would be “WHAT THE FUCK WAS THE POINT IN THAT YOU EVIL PRICK” I hope that some of you… find your way. I hope you live
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Jimi Reply:
November 6th, 2009 at 1:05 am
“dead already”, run for your life and rebuild it, don’t kill yourself instead. You deserve a better life. And don’t listen to persons like JOE. If he want to die so badly, why he insist to convinced other to do so?
I know people who lost its whole family in the holocaust and today they have a grandsons.
Be strong!
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